future awaits

Listening to : What Sarah Said : Death Cab For Cutie

Ever wonder what you'll REALLY do in the future?
I mean, like what we'll be...
Some of us will be doctors, pilots, teachers, engineers, businessman.
I'm confused and at the same time worried for it.
I'm now 19 years old, i don't really know what i wanna do.
I honestly blame it on the A levels.
Daniel stayed over at my house yesterday.
What a nostalgic thing to do eh. 19 year old army men sleeping in the same room.
As corny as it sounds, i think its alright.
We were talking about how we're all getting old. Like really OLD.
Maybe its time to stop it. Can u imagine your dad inviting a friend to sleepover...
Ya, same concept. Thats why, I don't really wanna grow up.
Thats besides the point, we were talking about how life will be when we're in uni, when we're working.
It'll be good and bad that we all won't be as tight anymore.
Of course, we talked about the future.
I was SUPPOSED to be the teacher I always wanted to be. Or rather was called to be.
To teach the young kids of our generation, impact life kinda thing.
Pursue the real passion of physics and teaching and sports.
being a teacher and a coach for track or basketball at the same time.
Guess that won't REALLY materialize.
The whole world except the few who really know me tell me,
Take LAW, BIZZ, MEDICINE! Go OVERSEAS to study at oxford!
Impact the MARKETPLACE by being really successfull!
I know all of that is good. I do know. But that isn't what i wanna do.
Until daniel said something quite simple but quite true.
Just keep doing what you're doing, God will speak to you soon.
Yup, just keep doing what i'm doing, to the best I can.
Heh, even though its controlling, I am trying my best. Or rather I will.
On a side note, I WILL be a teacher at least once in my life.
FYI, the current dream is to go out to work first, go get rich by helping a large engineering / Manufacturing Company by managing some big project like the next flyer. Then go hopefully find some real clean energy and make ironman with it. Lastly, when i'm really rich enough, build a school in cooperation with CHC.
Ain't that a dream....

Iron man

listening to : Hotel California - Eagles

A few weeks ago was actually the Beijing olympics.
Then I saw what i considered the near perfection of human speed.
Yup, so that was the SUPERMAN of speed.
However, today, on tv I saw amazing speed. Not only that, the sound of it was really screeching.
However, Unlike many others, including my father, I actually like that sound.
I dunno why myself but its really a sound of speed to me.
The past 3 days was something like an IRONMAN of speed.
F1 FTW.

On a seperate note, Things area getting along just fine.
I've never been happier in such a long time.
Yes i am. I dunno why myself. Gues of the initiated change and this weekend.
The fact that it is NOW and like EVERYTHING is pointing to that.
Yes I think it'll be right NOW.

It was also the 1st time shiming drove me in her dads car.
Honestly, I love to be driven around. Thus it was a real treat to be driven around by my girl.
Yes there were others around and we did get lost THREE times.
However, I think it was a great experience for me.
Going around the whole singapore from the zoo to cathay to serangoon.
Things were great. Heh, I realise we don't exactly need to be ALONE all the time.
Things have changed i guess.

What now?

Listening to : So What -Pink

Yesterday was quite a moment to remember.
For me at least. We had the 1st edge meeting.
Yes, it was awesome. I haven't said that in a long time.
But yes, it was awesome, but the best would be the question.
What about now?
The past was great! Like really really awesome fun.
But what about now?
It just got me thinking a little.
I wanna live for the moment. Live for the present and future.
Not for the past. I'm gonna make most of it all.
Thats why everything seems to have changed a little.
Like,i realised. WHAT HAVE I BEEN DOING!
Other than that, I'm quite happy still.
Meeting up with the class was rather chill. Fun.
I'm gonna try to meet them like once a week?
Haha, guess its not just me who is thinkin the sam thing about social circles.
They're great ppl.
For me, I guess i haven't really realised it till now. But my cg is awesome.
Yeah, i dunno, they're fun ppl, they're encouraging.
Thats why i wanna stay with them. Yes i do.

Running to win

Listening to : Crushcrushcrush - Paramore

Its been quite a weekend. I have to admit, it has been quite eventful.
Both fun and at the same time really tiring.
I guess the highlight everytime i'm out is really to unwind and have fun.
I always hate the feeling of booking in and also to just await scoldings.
Well, for now, I'm quite determined to do my best to get things right.
Heh. Honestly, I'm quite burnt out.
9 more painful weeks. AHHH!
At least it is now single digit.
I can do it!!!!

Surprise Surprise

Listening to : The Kill - 30 Seconds to Mars

I Honestly think the reason why i'm home is quite stupid.
Yes i do.
'Nights out to go get your berms!'
Wow! I didn't know it could be this good.
WELL! The good thing about this is that i can GO HOME!
Yes i can.
I do have to admit. God is Good.
When time is taken away, it gets replaced.
This just happens all the time.
As for now, i'm just gonna chill.
Now it really feels like school, i'm gonna be out 2moro in less than 24 hours.
And tomorrow, its HELLO AMAZING RACE!!!!
Wooo!!! I'm gonna sit Hydros car. How nice is that eh....

Little but much

Listening to : Big girls don't cry (remix) - fergie

So its wednesday again! Good day.
Or rather, its relatively ok. Other than the fact that i'm literally getting screwwed for my controlling. Everything else seems rather ok.
Honestly, camp didn't seem too bleak till recently when i started screwing up.
Anyway, I met up with who else but shiming today.
Well, we haven't been spending much time together. We really havent!
But i'm happy. I dunno why, guess its reached a point where seeing just makes it all worth while.
Where little is acutally much.
Maybe its the perception i have nowadays.
Well, as for change. I think i'm going along just fine.
The book "running to win", is really really good. For me at least. It gives me inspiration and it kinda puts things in real perspective for me.
I'm going to try hard to keep this change going.
I'll be out on FRIDAY!
No more running wild for me man. I'm gonna be clean and good from now on!

Refresher course!

Listening to : Breakeven - The script

I guess this weekend has been quite eventful.
Self-realisation sets in. Well, i honestly felt quite bad for many things.
However, i guess today really ended it quite well.
I met up with the trackers and all.
I dunno why, everytime i meet them i feel very at ease and i never fail to enjoy myself.
Same for my class also. I just let go and let loose.
Of course its the same for shiming.
Well, I guess the happiest part of my life is on the track.
Thats why i treasure them so much and I guess I feel good cause theres always a sense of purpose with them around.
Now i'm ready for change. I really really am.
I know it'll be tough. It will be. But i know i can do so.

gd bad

Listening to : Simple, Starving to be safe - Saphne loves derby

Damn sian.
I had a good dream turned bad.
I dreamt I could book in monday morning.
I woke up and realised. DAMN!
Argh. The day ain't starting too well!

Victorious

Listening to : Yesterday - Leona Lewis

Well, I guess its time for us to actually evaluate how has the year been going.
In the more mental/spiritual/emotional side rather than physical side
I guess segmenting it into quarter sections won't be the best idea.
So lets do it by stages.
BMT was good i guess, I was quite Positive most of the time. Despite the initial culture shock for me into ns, it was an ok transition. I clung on to Shiming for most of my support. Not only that but also to God. however, i didn't really bother to meet many friends too often. I dunno why too.

Next was HELLO OCS. Now this was REALLY hell. Like i've never experienced such tough training in a LONG time. Like it really Pushed my mental and physical limits. However, at this point, i was the MOST optimistic and strongest. I duno why too. My girlfriend was there to always support me too.

Thereafter was AIR WING! It was actually a good time for me. Like up till now. Its AFST FTW! I really enjoyed my time there. I had the best buddy there as well. It was also when i started to make time for my outside friends and shiming was really great too! Heh, not only that, I was serving in usher and also quite happy about life on a whole!

Then there was a DIP when i entered the C3. Honestly, life was less demanding like it wasn't so taxing on you physically but it really pushed me. Like this was the part of my life when i was really the lowest. I somehow just lost all the positive attitude i had and also felt quite a drop in my spiritual life. Heh, I honestly felt quite lost. Not only that, there was pressure from the leaders, instructors, friends. I was up to my neck! Shiming was there all the time, thank god for that. Even that, there were times when i felt i wasn't the nicest boyfriend. Also, i think i tried too hard to accomodate ALL my friends, guess I should've done things in a more relaxed way.

For now, some things are still persisting, some things are getting better. However, it really is a disappointment for me. oh man. Like i remember how it was in school previously! I was on top of the day, i always ended the day victorious and started it with an attitude to conquer! However, Now its like I'm trying to survive. Notice the change in use of words. I'm barely excelling in anything i do now. I'm not the 'conqueror' I once was. Thus the name of this blog. I hope i've found the root of the problem. I think i did today in service. I know i'm supposed to wake up feeling good and end it feeling i've been voctorious! Thats how it was all the time! I was on top of every situation! I want it to be that way again.

This post seems quite emo? Yeah, guess it does. Its not the NORMAL lionel post eh. Anyway! Life goes on! Happy to see all the trackers! :)

Hyped up

Listening to : Impossible - Bayje

It's been a while since i've actually started a week on a high note.
Well, that was the case for this week. I dunno why myself.
I think it was simply due to the face that i STAYED at home on sunday night.
Which really helped alot. I dunno why but guess there's some psychological thing.
But i'm glad this week, and its wednesday already! Quite fast to me honestly, ignoring the fact that i gotta do my exercise tomorrow

Met up with Sijia just now. Well, there's been some issues/complications between us before.
But i gotta admit, if there's one friend i'm really thankful for its gotta be her.
Yup, she's been there very often and i guess its been the same likewise.
In fact, she's my longest running best friend. Haha! All my other friends simply fade out of contact. Somehow, i dunno why but she just sticks around.
Guess she was there to pull me back when everyone practically gave up hope.
Yup, can remember how she'll keep calling and calling and how i'll NEVER pick up her calls, intentionally or unintentionally simply to avoid contact.
But i guess it was this persistence that moved me a little to come back.
Other than that, she's really a great buddy whom i'll want to have all the way.

ALSO! On the bright side, NG SHIMING PASSED HER DRIVING!
So happy for her! I remember how she'll whine to me about how annoying her instructor will be.
How tough it will be to drive and complicated things will be and how tough it'll be to juggle both SOT, uni and driving.
At least its all over and she's FREE!!!
Now i can be driven around, ewith my girl right beside me. :)
Can't wait, next problem. Where to get a car. Hmmmm.......
Well, till then! Its the normal transport of CAB!
Sadly so, well, alot of things to think about now. Money, Time, Future.
Now that there's SOME time to breathe, its time to settle all of them out.
Oh and funny thing is, when my girlfriend JUST ended, I JUST started.
Basic Theory on Friday. wow

Sickly

Listening to : How i could just kill a man - charlotte sometimes

I guess i'm really not watching myself.
I'm like coughing like an idiot now. The last time i coughed so much was my auzzie trip.
I was like a sick dog. Dragging myself in and out of bed.
My nose bled like once a day.
I'm quite happy i'm not in such a state yet though.
But the flu and cough is really making my stay awake and is really annoying.
the cough medicine makes u drowsy so u sleep.
I had the best sleep on Friday night after the medicine.
Well, the bad thing was that it was TOO STRONG! I woke up half dizzy and high.
For real, it made me higher than any alcohol i've ever taken.
It took me till like after lunch to wear it off.
I'm never taking that again. I can imagine myself controlling when i'm high.
Aircrafts will crash everywhere.
Well, good thing about all of this is that i get to go in 2moro morning instead of tonight.
However, the bad thing would definitely be that i gotta wake up same time and all still.
To me, the comfy bed makes all the difference. yes it does!
Gonna sleep real early to wear the 'high' off.
This week was super emo....
EMO to the max man. well i hope next weekend would be better!

soundtrack

Listening to : Thunder - Boys Like Girls

Confinement is finally over!
The pain of it was alot less excruciating than what i thought it would be.
Like the 9 hours passed by quite fast and it appeared as if time flew by.
Though the officers on course would be a little more uptight on certain things.
But apparently they couldn't be bothered about us chilling and resting.
Actually its 3 plus in the morning and i'm really wondering why i'm not sleeping my ass off.
Other than that, tomorrow will be spending my day with shiming.
Speaking of which, i've been listening to music alot.
To me, every season and every occasion has a new theme song or rather a soundtrack.
Haha, I remember when it was in the A level period, 'won't go home without you' was in.
During the BMT it was 'pictures of you' which got the mood in for me.
During the prom time it was 'Saddest song'. For now, it's 'thunder'.
The songs may not ENTIRELY match the situation but it really makes me remember the days and times spent in that situation. Like how sad i'll be in tekong, how tough it was in A levels.
As for my girlfriend. There're too many songs to name.
Actually most songs all relate to her. Haha! Guess its just me but yeah.
I remember her most of the time in camp....
Sorry for those buddies of mine but i think of her like 80% of the time!
Anyway, enough of that. time to SLEEP!

Sweet escape

Listening to : The man who can't be moved - The Script

Its been an interesting week, but an agonizing weekend.
Why?
Cause of confinement, I mean, i ain't THAT sore about it but...
Its just you know. As annoying as it can be.
Got quite alot to talk about this time. Yes i do.
To me, the biggest thing would definitely be wednesday.
My parents wedding anniversary.

To me, Such events should be celebrated internally.
Ie. Within the couple.
However, i guess they think otherwise.
So my dad being the non-romantic guy.
Indeed surprised us all.
"We are throwing a surpirse for your mummy at the best steakhouse in town, do dress appropriately and don't tell her."
Yup, that was what my dad said, I was honestly really really shocked. To hear those words emerge from his mouth was like vegetables to me. And I don't eat vegetables...
So yeah, we indeed went to the best steakhouse in town.
I mean the BEST like MORTONS. I thought it'll be costly. But not THAT costly.
Well, cut long story short. I'm honestly quite happy to see them both this way. It didn't turn out exactly like how it should be, but my mum was really surprised nonethless.
In the end, seeing them hug at such an old age kinda gets both goosebumps on my hands and also a warmth in my heart.
I mean, how cool would it be if we get married in future and remain so loving?

Guess in Singapore we ain't the best loving creatures around.
Dad works, Mum 90% of the time works, kid is left to the maid/childcare.
So yeah, thats the rough idea of the family structure.
At least that is the idea for me. I didn't bother looking into wikipedia to find the stats but i'm guessing those are the structures of most families in Singapore.
ALSO! It's common to say "don't eat where you shit". Ie. Don't get your partner where you work. Therefore! The couple wouldn't be in such close contact anymore.
Looking at me and shiming, i guess we're an anomaly but we really can't stop meeting each other. I know i'm what 9 months into NS but i still literally DEMAND to see her every weekend.
I guess and I hope that is the same way for her. Or at least thats what she says. So i believe her.
We're NOT in the same organisation as we were in JC, so I guess it really does take effort.
So this is to all married/going to get married/planning marriage/wannabes.
Its all about keeping the LOVE!

Ok, you have got to be thinking, Lionel is partially gay.
NO I'M NOT! I just thought i should talk about this after my parents anniversary.
I salute my Dad for such an act.
Well, enough mushy stuff. Time to sleep. Sian.

last minute

Listening to : Shadow of the day

This is really the last 5 minutes.
I seriously hate this time.
I will always blog once then 1st thing i'm out and once again right b4 i go in.
The attitude swing is quite extreme. I dun wanna bk in.
The people there, some are strange, some are disgusting, some are ok.
But more than that, its just the training.
Its just. AHHH.
Anyway, i'm keeping a positive attitude to it.
At least i'm trying to do so.......
To think i used to be so happy in school....

Achieve

Listening to : The Man Who Can't Be Moved - The Script

Well, today was quite a good day.
Though there were many complications, all i can say was that it all ended quite well.
In fact, i'm quite satisfied with the outcome.
Well, In training, I'm done with half of hell. Which is honestly good.
I think i'm actually able to pull this controlling thing off. HAHA.
Anyway, did a few things this week.
To actually complete some things i intend to do this year, i actually bothered to start.
I FINALLY applied for driving. YUP!
I'm quite happy i did so. Feels good getting the date. I'll never forget how it feels.
Maybe i will...
Anyway, was thinking and honestly, i've heard from people you gotta ba happy to be successful.
Well, from what i think. Thats RIGHT!
Yeah, i remember feeling the same way in A levels. So those burning the oil...
Be HAPPY STUDYING!!!
Oh and yeah, i gotta ba a happier person in camp. haha.

Well, was talking to mark the other day....
4 places we HAVE to go after ORD.
Its expensive, but what the heck, if not now then when?
1) New York
2) Las vegas
3) Los Angeles
4) Hawaii
Oh and yes, if shiming you're reading this....
You're not excluded.....
So make plans for 2010. HAHA!

to the end

Listening to : I will follow you into the dark



I'm quite a happy man. Heh, maybe its just recently.
Just ran my 10k. Quite fun run going with Calvin and all.
Heh, well, highlight would be the graduation yesterday.
Yup, the SOT graduants are really the stars of the night.
To me, it only one girl! HAHA! Yup! Its my SUPERGIRL!
Don't ask me why man, but she's really the best there is. Heh.
Many won't know the problems she ahd the past 5 months in sot.Yup, gotta admit, it really was exceptionally not easy for her.
Maybe its a biased point of view, but i'm really proud of her for making it this far.
For pushing so much, guess i'll really follow her till the end. Heh.
Many are asking me, when's my turn.....
Ok fine, after i got long hair again. HAHA!
Well, gonna watch money no enough 2 soon.
hope its going to be nice. WELL!! See my girl soon!

Lightning

Listening to : Check yes Juliet - We the Kings


Wow, this week was really quite good.
HAHA! Yes it was, it started quite well, ended better.
Well, other than guard duty, the week was quite ok.
NExt week will be quite short as well, other than assessment 1. Everything else is ok.
Well, the news all around.
The bolt. HAHA!
Yes the USAIN BOLT!
He was AMAZING!
A 100 in 9.69
A 200 in 19.30
A 4x100 in 37.10
Amazing stuff, i'm really amazed by it.
Well, only one pic and one word will summarise all i think.
LOVE

Confidence

Listening to : Bottle it up : Sarah Bareilles

I'm back on a wednesday! I'm happy once again!
I just did my Ex 5 and i think it went relatively well.
Not just that, i just met shiming. I'm really happy cause i met her too!
Well, i guess its these times which really just make u appreciate the time u have in life.
HAHA!
I dunno, i'm quite enjoying this week though its longer for me.
Maybe i'm thinking differently now.
U just need one thing along the week to just tip everything over!
That makes u really high....
I want my weekend to come. Though its short.....
But still, i know this weekend is important for shiming...
I wanna be there. Well!!! Other than that...
Mark's last week, Alvan short week.....
We're all experiencing different things eh. HAHA!

the time period...

Listening to : Hate that i love you - Rihanna

Well, i hate this time of the week the most.
The few moments at home b4 i book in.
I really hate it. I dunno why, just that i wanna get out b4 i get in.
This sucks.
Somhow, the the days when my gf was here in the last few moments made it alot better.
HINT HINT!
ok. book in time. cya in a week...

Superman of speed

Listening to : Disturbia - Rihanna

Well, its the olympic season!
The time where Records get smashed!
Dreams get shattered for some, but dreams come true for many!
Glory to country is brought and best of all, skills that kill are seen
Well, I guess to me, i'll just be looking at 2 sports.
Basketball and athletics!
Well, all eyes on the 'redeem' team of USA for basketball.
Kobe bryant is almost top form, Lebron is on fire, Wade is crazy. Can't wait to see who gets the gold!
For track, i'm really looking at the sprints, quite exciting to see who gets crowned the fastest man on Earth. Its quite a battle between the supermen of speed.
HAHA! Came up with that phrase, not bad eh. My bet is on Tyson Gay for the 100 and Wariner for the 400. For hurdles, heh, Liu Xiang will be my fave for that.
Hope they all get their golds.

On a more patriotic side,
SINGAPORE GOT THEIR 1ST MEDAL!
Good job table tennis ppl.
HAHA! I kinda felt quite proud of my country when i saw them win.
I mean, getting a trophy is really showing the world u own.
Yup, swe owned the rest in PING PONG!
heh, too bad for all the other events i guess. Singapore can never see basketball or track man. Not even close.
One day, i just hope to be one of the superman of speed.
Hmmm, maybe i'm dreaming too much.

ANYWAY!
Controlling in air force is really no joke.
Getting scolded more and more each day.
However, i'm trying to keep a positive attitude towards it.
Like even if i can't make it, i'll just go to the army side and also be happy there.
Heh, guess the key thing is to just be happy.
Remember that was quite the attitude i had when i was having hell in the army wing.
Yeah, it was PURE hell. I hated it quite badly.
So for now, i'm just going to be happy controlling. YUP!!
Love what u're doing and do what you love. I always will keep that ideal to myself.
Alright! gonna rest a little then go church.
After that its supporting AMELIA LEE for BIZZ QUEEN!

Quite ready for ah meng...

Listening to : Viva La Vida - Coldplay

I love this song. I really do, i guess coldplay really went beyond they're usual genre in this song.
Or maybe this is the epitome of their genre.
Sadly, i don't exactly love the rest of the songs in the album.
Well, I still think coldplay rocks. Most of their songs are my faves.
Well, top 2 bands in which i wanna go for their concerts.
MUSE and COLDPLAY!
Yes... Muse is like amazing when they come to concerts.
Their music is different yet stands out.
Too bad i have yet to go for both bands concerts.

On another note! Today is my LAST day of break.
I honestly feel cold when i move back to the simulator.
My R/T will come out strange and i'm quite sure that My controlling will be a little shaken.
I got one unsatisfactory already.
I just hope i don't get another one.
I still don't think i did THAT badly. Or rather, it just depends on who i do with.
I'm gonna be mentally ready for the BASTARD instructor!!!
The past 5 days were great nonetheless. I really do feel refreshed and all

I guess it felt great cause of the people i hung out with. Yeah.
Met mark close to everyday, to hang out,
The trackers / Family were around too, my class.
Tan sijia, the Lee couple.
The Justice League and even celine whom i've strangely started talking to again.
We used to be Quite good friends in the past i think.
My Supergirl went overseas but she kinda felt there all the time beside me.

Yeah, thats why my week felt good.
Now that the break is coming to an end, i'm quite ready for anything they can throw me.
I accepted the fact, if i have to ooc, i will.
But i'll do anything i can to prevent that.
Cause i know i can do all things! :)

Confused yet again

Listening to : Break the ice

I'm bored...
The break is so long i'm actually bored.
Well, i guess i know how mark feels now,
doing close to nothing or irrelevant things the whole day.
Just today, was thinking about how i'm thinking too much at times.
It gets irritating.
That makes me confused, so much so i'm led astray.
Gotta stop it at times.
Thats why i gotta focus on a simple few things now.
AAAAHHHHHHHHHH

Mission Accomplished

Listening to : Crushcrushcrush - Paramore

I am now at the 4th day out of 5 in my so called 'break'.
I have to admit, its really working.
I feel alot more relaxed and really happy i took the break.
Spent a good day with my girlfriend, friday was spent celebrating birthdays and partying a little.
I guess its really a fulilling 5 days.
Whats more!?!? I've got 2 more days!
Today gonna go service, i guess will hang with my cg, or at least try to do so.
Still can't exactly CLICK with them. I still find em a little tough to break.
ANYWAY! Been going to a few new places.
Now i just wanna rest and recover my body.
But bad thing is that i've been drinking WAY too much.
3 days in a row! On friday we spent a LITTLE too much on drinks.
So ya, my stamina is likely to be destroyed.
Gonna go service now. Still relatively tired....

Maxed OUT!

Listening to : Killa

They say a max out point is when your brain is saturated and u can't control anymore.
Think the max out point when we're out of camp is when we have so much fun we can't sleep.
HMMM...THATS HELL FUN!
Ok fine, its a very simple minded thing, the more time spent sleeping, the more time we waste!
Same theory as taking cabs, u buy ur time.
But even still, have been going out the past few days.
To the point its actually draining my sleep away EVERY time!!!
Like the past few days i've been running on like 4 hours of sleep.
Yesterday with only 2.
This is crazy!! But i kinda love it. Yup.

On my birthday one of my good friends tan sijia kinda surprised me!!
In that, i was quite shocked, like really.
I dunno how to explain what she did, maybe u shld just go see her blog yeah!
HAHA, well, all i can say was the my supergirl is also great in organizing the day.
Had a whole lot of fun that day!

Yesterday went out with some of the guys
After that i met one of my long lost friends celine.
Quite funny how we started talking, well, friends like these are quite tough to come by.
Apparently both of us are like experiencing alot of similar things.
OH WELL!!! Its funny.
GONNE GO OUT NOW!!!!!

ambitions ambitions

Listening to : Sunday Morning

WELL!!! Now that i'm relatively sober....
I came to realise 7 aug is today. WOW! I never thought it'll be THIS fast...
HAHA! Can still remember how 4 months ago we would check whens our birthdays and when can we take off to have some fun. GUESS ITS TODAY!!
Not that one year is gone, INCREDIBLY FAST!!! Alot was done i guess.
LEMME SEE....
A LEVELS!
Post A LEVEL FUN
Pre-enlistment Desperate fun
ENLISTMENT
POP
The FIRST experience
Getting into OCS
GETTING INTO AFST
GETTING INTO AFS.

Seems uneventful eh, what to do. Thats an NSF for you. HAHAHHA.
Though I'm quite sure life would be a little more hectic but fun the coming year

Now that thats done, there's now PART 2! What i want to do NEXT YEAR!?!?
COMMISSION
Maintain time spent with ALL friends
Try to build iron man, or be INSPIRED to build iron man.
Learn how to make drinks
Run ALOT MORE!
Go to PLAB and enjoy life there.
KEEP LOVING MY GIRLFRIEND!
Hopefully not to lose my sanity due to NS or whatever reason.
Get Hell drunk just ONCE (not in the club though)
LEARN HOW TO DRIVE!
Pick up reading and exercising my brain.
THIN MY LEGS!
Recontact some secondary school friends and some good old friends from the past. (TRYING TO ALREADY)

Yup, the amount of things i wanna do definitely exceeds those which i did last year.
Hopefully that won't be a problem.
HAHA! But it seems lionel has changed a little in 2008.
I kinda like it this way a little.
Good friends and extreme fun!
THATS IT! Gonna go patour now!

So tight

Listening to : ThAts what you get - Paramore

I just got back. well, yesterday was quite fun having dinner out and all.
I was quite pleasently surprised.
Yeah, my break kinda starts now.
the next 5 days i'm just gonna chill and relax.
get my mind off things.
i know i ain't doing too well in my exercises. But i'm honestly scared everytime i go up.
Guess i just wanted to get my mind off things thats all.
I was so tired and just wanted to chill.
Guess this is the best time.
I'm honestly anticipating tomorrow. Today was good. can't wait for tomorrow.
Love u girl, thanks for everything that is to come!
LIONEL WILL GO BACK TO AFS REVIVED!!!!

So much?

Listening to : Thats what you get - Paramore

I dunno, maybe its just me, but i utterly HATE this time of sundays.
Its late and its nearing the time to go back to camp.
I honestly hate going back to camp sp badly.
I would be glad to endure tough training like hell if i could go home everyday.
But this? Its a little too much to be true.
I detest the tower simulator actually. Its so tough.
Its demoralising, but i know i can do it one way or another.
If u screw up here, everyone knows.
Which is quite dumb. Oh god. I just wish to get over this training phase.
The Dumb instructor is honestly not the nicest guy around.
I'm so waiting for wednesday. When i can truly end this week.
Weekend come QUICK!

Blues!

Listening to : No One - Alicia Keys

Its the AFTERNOON!
Sleep was good, heh. Well, woke up feeling quite ok.
Going out today. can't spend much time with shiming, guess cause she woke up at like 12.
HAHA! Gotta admit she sleeps ALOT!
Anyway, still think yesterday was quite fun dancing with my girlfriend.
Bad thing is that she gotta do many many things today. So i only got tonight with her.
Hope tomorrow there's some leftover time.
I remember last week was a real breather for me.
Like it was really quite fun. Hope this week will be the same way.
Lunch with family then hopefully dinner with some of the trackers.
Hopefully shiming can be with me for some time in the afternoon before she goes to FOP.
Dunno, somehow my birthday is going to be a leave day, but i dunno wat to do.
Doubt i'll go crazy. heh, i just wanna chill and relax that day. WHAO!

These are the nights...

Listeining to : the great escape

Wow, yesterday was truly quite fun i think.
spending it with shiming and all. Guess its a first for me.
But i'm really tired ad considering i just got home, its now like 5 am in the morning.
I'm waiting for alvan to pop by so that i can pass him my number 4.
Hopefully i never need to use it again thats whay i wanna give it to him.
Well, dun wanna comment too much on the previous week cause nothing really much did happen
So in such a case, look forward to next week! National day week and leave week!
That means super slack and alot of days off week!
I can't wait man. I just wanna chill and relax.
Only downside is that possibly she gotta go overseas next weekend.
And also, for some dumb reason, cell is on thursday.
I'm totally not going this time round. Quite irritated actually.

Oh and yes, wouldn't it be great if u were really superman?
I wish i really was.
I really hope i still am at times.
Just feels great when u can do the impossible eh.
I dun wanna be a hancock, but i just wanna make ppl happy.
That'll be really nice eh. Ok. No more emo-ing.

Confusion?

Listening to : hypnotized - Akon

Exhausted is one of the smallest words that can describe how i'm feeling now.
In the physical sense at least.
This weekend was by far the most tiring of all.
Friday and saturday had long nights and then today playing in the sun
It really took alot of energy outta me. In fact now i'm not feeling the best.
Sadly, i still gotta book in.
Once again, i just wish i was a free man. A civillian. Soon i guess.
But on the other hand, sentosa splash was actually really fun.
I thought it kinda brought back the roaring lionel.
I'm just blur now. I dunno, its so strange on one hand but its really who i am on the other.
It was fun partly cause of shiming.
I really love her man. HAHA! I hope she reads this.
Anyway, i gotta spend more time with everybody else too man.
But for now, i'm just gonna try to get as much rest as i can before 2moro exercise.
Confirm will get scolded left right center.

Sound

Listening to : Because of you - Ne-yo

Having a sound system the sizw of your previous com ROCKS!
Oh god, i love music and now its AMAZING!
Guess i spent alot and its WORTH IT!
ANyway, i'm finally out!
this week was rather demoralising. Yes it was!
Heh. Guess its just me but yeah, wish it was alot easier for Aerodrome phase.
Recently been less tolerent over many things. But either way, i'm still happy. Haha! I'm trying to be at least. In the next few days, i'm gonna be going crazy with practical.
I got only this LAST 2 days to truly unwind.
Good news is that wednesday we got our nights out.
OH YEAH!!
So its a real morale booster for me. I mean, its finally come true and all.
But i really am gonna work for it. Going to mug real hard and make sure i don't fail or anything.
I'm up for tower controller on monday.
You know the aircraft which over ran the runway???
I doubt its the pilots fault.
Its the controllers fault. IE. MY FUTURE POSITION.
Scary eh. ANYWAY! I'M OUT! So time to chill and listen to music blasting at my ears!

Run the show??

Listening to : Run the Show - Kat DeLuna

Today is a good day!!! Cause its BOOK OUT DAY!!
Its been so long since i have been able to come out like this on a monday!
Thank God for the break tomorrow.
Honestly, i dunno why we have this other than the fact that its RSAF day or something.
Anyway, recently have been quite into running, or rather very addicted to running.
This is the 1st time in the past 7 months that i have actually been exercising at home willingly.
I dunno why, i guess the runner in me is coming up again??
Maybe its the time of the year, where every wants to race again. I miss those days.
The track team has been doing a splendid job.
I really am proud of them. In fact, going back to school with mark tomorrow.
Hopefully can catch up with the rest and also to gym!!!
Not forgetting to run!
Wanna meet up with my other friends, all of em.
Guess i haven't been too good a buddy to some ppl.
My class ppl, my sec sch friends, my cg, my family.
AHHHH.
too little time in a day i guess. HAha. This calls for more bookout!

Sunday Morning!

Listening to : Sunday Morning - Maroon 5

Its SUNDAY MORNING! Rain ain't falling, haha
But i gotta book in EARLY TODAY! In fact in about 20 min i gotta start getting ready.
Just gotta eat lunch 1st. So still ok. Haha.
I'm really really exhausted and tired man. Too tired to be true.
I hope the next few days will be more fun though.
The past week was a crazy week for most of us.
Especially the last few days building up to the exam.
Heh, good thing this week we'll have alot of free time and all with tuesday off.
I'm really glad. In fact i'm QUITE looking forward to this week.
I'm effectively only booking in for the exam. Thats all. HAHAHA! ok ok, I'm crazy.
Anyway! I guess today will be fun as well. Though i'm really tired now still.
Hopefully my running hasn't deproved after yesterday.
Though it was on hell of a time. HAHAH

Lost Mind

Listening to : Too Bad - Nickelback

Well, in a few hours time i gotta go in to do guard duty.
Was supposed to meet Shiming at like now. But guess she gotta do stuff and all.
I'm SIAN!!!! Oh well, wat to do, its just too bad i gotta do this duty.
I just want the next few weeks to be alot more relaxed and all.
Ok, that won't happen, next week is going to be assessment week and exam week the week after. I dunno how on earth we're gonna be able to accomplish and do well for all.
Our instructors were disappointed with our marks in the integrated phase.
THEY EXPECT 90%!!!
How crazy is that eh, its really scary.
I just hope laters guard duty is super relaxed and no walking around.
Was just thinking the point of all this rubbish i'm doing.
I whack so hard for an 8-5 life but is it really worth it.
Guess i feel quite rubbish in camp most of the time.
Maybe its also cause of the people and all, other than that, i guess its the stress too.
THATS LIFE!!!!

The FIRST relaxed day

Don't ask me why i can blog now. Cause if i tell u, i'll prob go jail or something.
WELL!!! i'm in a better mood today. WHY!?!?!?!? Cause today SLACK!!!
Yesyes, its my first day i have NO exercises, NO scolding and NO low morale.
Went to run feeling good. The only SIAN thing is the Cyberspace duty at night.
Other than that, i think i'm relatively happy with the day.
BUT!!! the next few days will be kinda tough i guess. OH OH OH!!
The only good thing is that there's gonna be a few different activities along the week.
Guess it breaks the boringness of the week.
Kinda wanna hang out with EVERYONE AGAIN!!!!
Guess i WILL be emo 2moro.
4 more days to BOOK OUT!!!

Never back down

Listening to : Stronger - Kanye West

Wow, yesterday was a really long day. Not that i'm complaining or anything.
Was actually quite fun. Caught the movie Never Back Down.
It was an AWESOME show. Wow, i never thought it'll be that nice.
Guess its not just about fighting and all, its really cool to see how he really trained.
Kinda makes u wanna learn fighting.
Ok fine, i'll just stick to running. I gotta admit, running does the same to me.
Now i'm psyched up to run and get STRONGER!!!

Black Week

Listening to : The Way I Are - Timbaland

Well, its another week over. This week is labelled BLACK WEEK!
Well, a few weeks ago, there was this day where everything went wrong, thatwas called black monday. This week, EVERYDAY went wrong, so its BLACK WEEK!
Let me summarise the days in a very short point form.
MONDAY! Start of the week, got told off during the few practices we had, not able to run.
TUESDAY! Got scolded like hell for the IPPT things and admin issues.
WEDNESDAY! Got KILLED during exercise 3 by captain Too. TOO MUCH!
THURSDAY! Died during the ex 4 brief when we realised we had to do a thousand things
FRIDAY! BURIED during ex 4 itself. It was a total failure.
So that sums up the week. I thought it was generally the worst week in Air force yet.
Well, maybe there ahs been worst weeks in the army wings, but guess this is the worst for now.
Good pointer is that a few NSF seniors came up to us and told us that WE CAN DO IT!
How i wish that was really really true. Heh, they made it sound tough but really possible.
They did it, so can we. Thats the idea. Well, at least for now, i'm ready for another tough week.
I'm going to get mentally prepared this weekend, i'm going to really chill.
On a good note, today we brought FLT Vamsee out, it was a good experience. I had fun.
Also, chilled with the guys and sm. Really liked spending good time with them.
Guess everyone goes through some pain. This is ours.
So don't ever say C3 is slack.
Cause i think infantry is really really slack.

exploder

Listening to : take you there - Sean Kingston

Its getting crazier by the moment. I'm starting to really dread booking in.
GUess its getting better cause all my other friends are all going ocs.
Making us all in the same boat.
I have to say that this coming week may be a little boring.
Guess cause i had an awesome weekend.
But at least i had my fair share of fun.
HAHAHHAHA

Control

Listening to : Yellow- Coldplay

I'm back from AFS!! Finally, well this was a short week.
But a tough one indeed, was ic so did alot of rubbish and stuff.
Too bad i'll be ic again in what, 4 weeks? Anyway, on a lighter note, we've finally started controlling. Honestly, it's one of the most fun things we've done since enlistment.
Its like playing a game, just that its more complicated and hell fun.
Its extremely cold inside simulators and i'm starting to talk funny i think.
Like i'll hardly say hold on but stand by now.
Its funny but at the same time way cool. BUt we're now only in our first phase.
The one where we just stare at the com screen, not yet to the realy 3D room.
I can't wait for that. BUt for now, i'll just be saying things like, confirm checks complete!!!
MAMBO 4 MILES ON TRACK ON GLIDEPATH REQUEST LAND!!!
I'm sure that never made sense to u reading it. But ya, its fun.
To me at least. I just wish all my friends from school were here doing it with me.
It'll be the best i could ever ask for.

better

Listening to : Better In time - Leona Lewis

Today was good. A good refreshing WEEKDAY!
1st time in a realy long time since i've been out in a week day.
I really wouldn't mind such a day once in a while
I was able to tsee the juniors and train with them, they're doing well.
I kinda miss track training, training with em beats 100 trainings in NS.
It makes you feel good to know that there're ppl there to look out for you and push you on.
Oh well, their nationals are coming, and i remember how it was when it was my nationals exactly one year ago. HAHA! CJC GO GO GO!!
Met up with alvan and mark to gym. Was quite fun, the past few days were fun cuz of them to a certain extent.
Guess, they all form up a significant portion of my life now.
Definitely the day wouldn't be good without seeing shiming, heh.
SHES GOING BATAM NEXT WEEK!
Its gg to be the most lonely and boring weekend ever.
Guess i gotta book in soon, its boring and its extremely draggy.
Good thing this week is much shorter.
But i'm IC this week, sian. AHHH

Breathe

Listening to : Big girls don't cry - Fergie

So I finally got back home after a long morning.
The funeral was well, a first for me, i was shocked, sad, trying to focus and then i realised how much i should treasure life.
Oh well, i dunno why the sudden emo-ness. The fact i started the blog again means i'm emo.
But i'm ok with it i guess. can't really be bothered what others are thinking of me.
Well, today is back to life!! BYE 2LT CLIFTON LAM!!! He was a good man. I really have to admit that, but i'm sure he's in a better place. I'm glad he lived and was part of my life though it was in a small way.
On a lighter note, i have off in due!!! MONDAY IS MINE!!
Gonna enjoy my sunday nights and monday morning. Going to go training for the 1st time in a long time. I'm gonna like that. I really will do i guess.
In a whiles time the best person is coming over, makes things all the more better.
Haha, its fathers day today, guess my dad is enjoyinh himself.
I'm a happier man today! FOOOOOOO

Revival!!!

Listening to " Time of My Life - David Cook

Its been SO SO SO long since i last blogged. longest break i have taken so far. What 6 months!?!?
Guess its time to actually change trhe blogskin as well. Hopefully its a good change.
Why am i suddenly back?? I don't know much myself. Guess maybe its a little too stressful in NS??
I'm now in C3 in Air Force School. Life has been good and all. Just alot of studying and pracitcal.
I have no more physical training!! WOULD YOU BELIEVE THAT!??!?
Well, the saddening thing most recently would be the passing away of OCT Clifton.
He was my friend in Air Wing back in Safti MI. I only got to know him better in the last 2 weeks or so. Its really a waste to me. I just wish I could have done more.
It makes me look back and think how fragile life can be and all.
Just wish we all had a little more time to say that one more thing before we go.
Well, bottom line, we're all getting old. BTW! The media is partially wrong about details of his death. I am a little annoyed by this but well, its singapore.
I can get jailed if i say anymore.
2moro is the funeral itself. Its my very 1st funeral in my life.
Its my 1st and i'm participating in it. I'm going to do it to the best that i can.
Things haven't been too easy with life other than NS as well.
I duno, disconnection is starting to happen in various areas of my life.
Especially with one group of friends i thought i'll never be away from.
I'm getting closer to some other buddies too, which i'm really glad to have as well.
As for Supergirl, Shiming is still the best i've ever had. I would never have made it this far without her.
I guess going to NS had really changed a part of me, either for the better or the worst. I honestly don't really know. I'll only know in due time.
So in the meantime, i'm gonna make full use of tonight to just relax and not think about anything at all. Thats becoming one of my favourite hobbies...

The stand still....

Listening to : Love Song - Sara Bareilles

Well, now my life is pretty much ALOT slower. Haha. Everything is over.
Well, australia was great.
The camp breakaway was fantastic. Overall...Life has been pretty good.
Well, i honestly won't elaborate much about the above 2 events. if not it'll just be a typical diary.
well, all i can say is that, aussie has one way or another broadened my horizons.
Not everyone is like singaporeans. There're pretty awesome ppl and places out there.
Well, the camp was beyond possible description.
I mean, it wasn't just a time of real fun, it gave me a real chance to lead.
It gave me a chance to encounter God in a real way again. I feel that the camp has changed my life. Now that is a critical moment. It really is a critical moment.
Well, every trip had its hallmark events. For aussie, i witnessed a waiter, out of his own free will pay for the meal of a complete stranger. And now you can tell that there're no strings attached.
Thats what ppl call service. Its real service. This is how things should be like. Really. :) I like.
ALso, for the whole camp. THERE WAS NO RAIN! days b4 the camp, it was pouring.
1st day no rain.
the next day, sentosa day. No rain. Wait...it was....IN MAINLAND!!! NOT IN SENTOSA!
Last day. NO RAIN! After our alst game...IT STARTED POURING!
Now, that is what i call real prayer works.
Heh. Ok honestly, this is going to be a rather long post. Why? Cause i'm home rather earlier today. I'm kind of lazy to play my psp, so i'm blogging.



What i really wanted to say is that, in this last 23 days of my civi life. I'm really treasuring it.
Well, i'm not going to be a real chiongster to party till 3 everyday.
To me, it really is just to live life now. Yes live it to the fullest, but theres no point if i don't slow down to appreciate it.
Well, maybe thats what i've learnt from aussie.
Life is so slow there, it really is easy to sit and appreciate life. A duck roasted can make a whole family REALLY happy.
Well, for me i don't think i need to do many things to enjoy my life. Heh, I realised that just only, 5 hours ago.
Well, while walking around vivo, i stopped to read a book.
It shouldn't sound too uncommon, Its "5 ppl you meet in heaven".
Heard of it before? It really is a good book, please read it.
Well, I couldn't complete the book. Well, i read the initial part.
Heh, what it said was really right. Heaven ain't gonna be a white place with angels.
Heaven is all around. The real heaven is to know and look back at your life after you've completed it and appreciate it.
Heaven is with your best friends, your favourite food. Its what you are.
To me, my heaven really is my friends. Now i don't need to be out watching movies.
I dun need to spend so much money. Well, honestly what i really would like to do now is to just spend time with the ppl i love.
My darling...E406....trackers...family...
I really want to spend time with these ppl, while i still can, i want to experience MY heaven.
So when i really do meet my 5 ppl in heaven. I'll look back and truly smile.
That a simple mac meal may be enough for me. :)
It really is. One moment is enough...
Enough to be in heaven. :)

Sounds emo? heh...well thats me b4 i go ns...23 days and counting... :)

NO MORE BANKAI!

Listening to : When Will I See Your Face - Jamie scott

Well, so this is it. No more A levels. HAHAHHA!
It feels funny now. I mean, now i have nothing to do.
At the same time I wanna do everything i can.
I really am glad its all over.
It wasn't easy man. Really ain't easy.
Happy next year i got break man. HAHHAHA

No more school...

Listening to : Stand by Me - Oasis

I guess right now i'm considered to be emo.
Hmmm. I dun wanna leave cjc.
Today was a blast. The best blast on earth.
Makes me wonder how i'll live without being around these people.
Yes i have outside friends, but these bunch of people really allow me to really be myself.
anybody outside can never replace these people.
The dynamics of THIS class is too complex to even put into words.
Just like what one of my famed classmates have said.
"I Have nothing left to say".
Yup, i'm speechless. I really am.
I just really hope we don't lose contact. All 21 of us.
all 21 of us t24 people. Ok inclusive of 24.5.
I guess its been a hell of a time... I should stop being emo now...:(

best days of my life...

Listening to : Samurai - Franco dragone

I guess it reall is coming to an end.
I do remember how i got my 1st intake postings, heh, when it rewad CJC i was damn sad.
I dunno, but the moment i did come in, things just seem to change.
Maybe i just changed. What was the most evernful thing? I dunno....
I guess its EVERYTHING.
From me joining track and becoming the capt with no prior experience.
To me jumping to the beats of rockefella.
To this insane class of mine.
TO meeting the girl of my dreams.
Guess i much to be grateful for. Yes this school may not have the 'best' environment to study.
Yes it does have its flaws. But no school is perfect.
To everybody its different. But to me, CJC was not simply a campus.
CJC was a moulding place. More than i would have imagined.
This school isn't perfect, but cause of everyone inside, it is perfect.
for these few years, never have i regretted coming to school.
(ok maybe once or twice)
But this place, this is where i belong.
I will miss cjc. Without this school, i wouldn't be where i am today.
Now since its over, we will never be in that situation with that same 21 idiots shouting our way up, biting each other, pinching, beating, sleeping,screaming, making every other class suffer due to noise and become the unexpected class to do how we did for prelims.
Not only that, this team of trackers. Heh, enough has been said about them.
Both the class and this team, the school, the teachers.
Its the best place for me...
Its my CJC...
I wun mind being called a B*** for it... :)

PPRRREEEELLLLIMS!!!!!

Listening to : Angel - Westlife

So yeah, i haven't been updating my blog for GOD KNOWS HOW LONG!!!
After the many nudges to update it here i am now.
Well, nothing MUCH really happened since track nationals ended.
Hmmm, i still miss track. I really do miss it. Not just cause of the pain, but also the people. :)
Well, been studying like a mad dog every since, the toughest was last week, 8-12 everyday.
All i can say is that, i didn't really mind cuz of that special someone there all the time.
Of course its tiring, but it just seems all worth it after a while.
Well, now prelims has just ended, i must say i am kinda ok with it.
I gave it my best shot. And yeah, whatever comes comes i guess.
E406 has also just multiplied. Yeah, kinda sad, but at the same time, i think it's a good thing.
Other than that, i played guitar for the first time for CG today, heh, it is tough man.
i didn't do well, i know...
But i guess i just gotta learn! :) Same for studies i guess.
Not only that, heh, today i played contact, the funnest time i had in sports.
How stress relieving can it get to tackle someone. HAHAH!!
Anyway, i think i'm gonna rest cause i'm DAMN tired.
Hopefully i didn't do anything wrong....

Nothing short of amazing...

Listening to : Ain't no mountain high enough

All i can say is that i'm amazed.
Well, i don't wanna elaborate much about the real running but track nationals was the end.
I'm so happy for those 5 medalist.
More than that, for EVERYONE.
More than the medals, after everything, I'm just so so so so happy.
To see the team in such a manner.
To be that strong, this is what i call a team.
This is what i call spirit.
The best people I have ever worked with, the best people I have suffered with.
The BEST PEOPLE around.
Thank you CJC TRACK AND FIELD!
I owe this cca so much. I have learnt so much.
I ain't perfect, but this team, Its perfect.
I don't care what anyone says, I don't care what comes between us.
This is the team to be in.
Team CJC Athletics. I love it.
I will always be a Tracker at heart, I will always be their captain at heart.
I love this team. :)

more than enough

Listening to : Nothing

So here we are, 2 days away. Strange how the more nervous i get the more i blog.
ANyway, today i've finally started feeling the jizz of it.
Well, initially it really got to me.
Its here, our nationals is in 2 days time.
Perhaps we should panic, but i got a better suggestion.
I do believe in myself.
I know who i come from, one whos almighty and strong.
More than ever, I do trust in my own abilities, I know i am the ehad and not the tail.
Right now, i guess i've trained so hard, i know i can do it.
I dunno why but i psyched myself up so much for it,
I pushed my mind to think i can so much so I ain't too nervous about it anymore.
I even cut my hair. -.-

NOT too kind

Listening to : Before its too late

TIme really hasn't been kind. It really is here.
Nationals is in less then a weeks time. What am i saying. Its in 3 damn days.
Honestly, i'm not very nervous. I don't know why myself.
I guess track has really changed for me, not just to win, but to impace.
Today was my last official training, and honestly, i really am emo.
Before its too late, i better do something. Perhaps, that was what i've been thinking all along.
Well, now its all over, 2 solid years of training has finally ended.
I wonder if i really did make an impace in their lives, i do hope i did.
But CJC track has really changed lionel choong. A different spirit.

Enough of that, for now, i shall not brood over what i've lost but rather what i've went through.
To be thankful for all those trainings to make me who i am today.
A boy bred to run this race.
Many people think that it really is impossible to run this 100m race.
Guess what, i don't really care anymore, i really don't. Right now, i'm going to do the impossible.
If the possible just isn't working, i rather do the impossible for it to work.
And i guess it's going to be really tough race. well, its gonna just be me myself and god in 100m.
Well, thats all i need!
To everyone as well, you may not be getting any support, any help to drive you on.
You just have yourself, but GOD DAMN IT!!! THATS ENOUGH!
Just believe in yourself.
This nationals will change for CJC, i believe it, everyone will always remember how they race CJC.

more that meets the eye

Listening to : Before its too late - Goo Goo Dolls

So the exams have come and as fast they have came, they have gone.
in just one week, it all got settled. I can't say much about it.
Just that i'm a little annoyed by it.
Kinda expected to do much much better than ever.
Either way, i guess i gave it my best shot, whatever comes i deserve it i guess.
So yeah, the trackers went to R&R yesterday.

Before that, went to watch transformers.
Well, it was one of the OMG movies i expected, and it never went below expectation.
It was amazing. I wanna watch it again! Like really, its amazing.
After that we went to endless intense fun.
In other words, stuffing ourselves.
That was unbelievable.
People say you bond the most when you eat. Guess what,
WE ATE A MOUNTAIN!!! HAHAHHA

so fast ar!!!

Listening to : My Alibi - Tmg

OMG!!! the holidays have ended.
OMG!!!!! exams start tomorrow.
OH SHIT!!!! Haven't finish studying.
Oh well, i just hope i can do all i can 2moro.
Not only that, nats is in 2 weeks or less.
I'm doomed.
OK MAYBE NOT!!!!
I hope not....

keeping the dream alive

Listening to : High School never Ends - Bowling for soup

Well, i'm jealous, yes I AM!!!
Not rteally jealous, really envious to be more precise.
Seeing everyone run their hearts out literally yesterday, to see them push all out.
To achieve remarkable timings and to impress everyone in their event.
The VJC invitational really was awesome.
Just that i couldn't really run. :(
I sprained my ankle a few days ago. The good old injury has come back.
The basketball injury is annoying!!! AHHHH!!
Not only yesterday, but i'm gonna MIA for like a week or so.
No running, i'm really kinda annoyed about this. heh.
Guess this is really untimely, after rec spasms, now this.
Perhaps i just wasn't made to run. Well, i guess not, what am i talking about?
I'm made to run, i'm built to run, born to run.

Track camp was kinda fun too!
Fantasy Island totally pawned everyone. Like all the J1s were totally screwed.
The movie was good too. I think it was well received, i hope.
The whole camp was real fun i think, considering we all slept super late. HAHAH!!!

The track team is getting more bonded too. I love it this way
Its becoming wat i wanted it to be, a family.

Listening to : Breathe - Anna Nilick

I do have to applaud those that have faithfully come to my blog despite me not updating all the time.
I guess life has been as normal as it can get.
Ok fine, who am i kidding!!!
It's been real exciting and fun, not forgetting stressful as well
Well good thing is that i've gotten over spasms. Or that is what I think.
Exams are tough, i can't finish syllabus in time, i'm quite sure.
So i'm gonna spot topics for all my subjects. Except for physics.
We reached 8 months ytd, YEAH!!!
Camp is next week, somehow i feel that this camp will really be the turning point.
I gotta make it the turning point.
3 weeks to that actual big day, 3 weeks to me ending my track life.
To me, this cca has been the most life-changing experience of all. I love it! :)
Well, Emerge is also over. Kinda miss it. I made a whole lot of resolutions to change.
Well, i guess this is really a toast to change!!
A new and more positive Lionel who will do his job in track well. :)

failing to achieveing but always to inspire

Listening to : Dimension - Wolfmother

Its been a whole 11 days since i blogged. Wow.
Guess the past few days have been very traumatising/busy so much so i didn't feel like blogging.
Well, the significant events would be the track side events.
As the nationals placings were read out. It really was heart breaking to know that I ain't running 400. All cause of spasms. Also, i'm not down for 4x400. Well, last wednesday. I was really really broken. So much so I kinda gave up already.
Good thing I never did, and great thing god came through for me both in results and in spirit.
All i can do now is push myslef further cause i still have the last chance to break into the team.
LIONEL WILL NEVER GIVE UP!!!
Mr Wong also said something to me which i guess will really stick with me.
If you fail to achieve, Inspire.
Heh, then i will, with all my will. I guess in time to come, i hope my fruits will be nice and sweet.
its only 4 days to emerge. Man it is extremely exciting. Heh.
I'm actually pumped up for it, I'm really happy supergirl is coming too.
Guess soon she'll understand how everything all works out. :)
Exams are also coming, which sucks. So hello studying!!!!
SPA IS ALSO TOMORROW!!! AHHH!!!!!!

Fallen...

Listening to : Come Back Down - Lifehouse

Its really getting annoying, whats wrong with my body???
9 out of 11 runs i had spasms today.
This is really bad, I can't perform at all.
Not only that, my cough is getting really bad.
This hasn't been my few days at all.
Not forgetting exam stress, sometimes it really is tough to believe.
Feel as though I've let down so many people, coach included.
Especially my girl.
The only thing i can do now i to be still and pray.
For some divine miracle to happen, and for me to perform on friday.
Friday will be my next biggest challenge. I refuse to give up.
I just need a little push in the right direction. Thats all.
I believe that HE is really mighty to save.

SIgnal...

Listening to : SIgnal Fire - Snow Patrol

Haven't been to active in bloggging recently, solely cause I haven't been to my com very much recently. Hmmm. Guess the past few days have been kinda tough.
Mid-years are really round the corner, especially all the H1s and all.
Track is even tougher, due to many many injuries, especially the spasms and all.
It really is troubling, i need to overcome all this quickly.
Haven't really been sleeping very well too surprisingly.
Very wierd dreams all the time, and all appear so real. SOme of my class, track or everyday life.
Wonder whats wrong with my head these few days. HAHA.
Yeah, SUpergirl has been taking care of me. She really is a good partner around.
Just if only SHe's beside me all the time.
This are signals to work harder i guess. Yup, i think they are. HAHA
My girl, thank you so much! :)

The impossible dream

Listening to : Tui Hou - Jay Chou

Guess recently i've been spamming a whole lot of movies. VCD wise the nicest movie was GOAL!
OMG, it really is a good inspiring show.
One impossible dream, just once you can make it that big in life.
Just once you can do all, never miss it.
Well, the most hyped up movie is Spiderman 3.
Guess enough is said by many others. Well, the best MOVIE YET!!!
I've been rather shot on to chase that impossible dream.
Guess it eally is niave.
I REFUSE TO GIVE IN!!!

Refuse

Listening to : Crash - Matt Willis

Its simple, I refuse to be defeated and i will never give up!
Even if you beat me i refuse to admit it and say its a fluke.
I'll keep coming again and again till I do beat you.
Thats how i've been thinking the past 2 days which were really tough.
Yesterday doing 8x400 at a kinda tough pace and today finally puking during training.
Some say I'm pushing too hard and need rest.
Maybe I do, But I can't, I can't let someone down.
I'm gonna fight my lungs out if I have to.
Today for the first time, I really gave up. I said a no to training.
Well, it seems my body has gotten the better of me for today, well, its a fluke.
I'll OWN my body tomorrow.
Ok this is getting to sound really sadistic.
Well, Good job to the ruggers for taking out MI today!
Chuck scored 3 trys. I'm kinda amazed. Impressed rather.
He really is fast. Well, I need to study again.
Its tough being fired up to run and study at the same time. HAHA!

This is totally random, but I think i need a backpack.
The sling bag is really screwing my arms up. I need one badly i think.
its only 58 days away.
Close to 2 months and track nationals are here.
Maybe some just don't get it, If I don't push myself now.
Then When? AHHHH!!!
I'm fired up!!!!
As for History, i just pon my 1st history test. HAHAHAH
I'm so going to die man.

Labouring day

Listening to : Spice Of Your Life - Bleach

It doesn't feel like a tuesday at all. Feels more like sunday.
It totally doesn't feel like a holiday at all. With 2 tests tomorrow and not much rest time given.
I think right now its a labouring day for many fo us.
Gotta train hard later too. I do not believe i cannot take the trainings. I'm going to push till i drop. ( I swear i've said this at least 5 time already)
Much to my surprise, i slept in for the 1st time in a long time.
Or Perhaps thats what i needed all along. Sleep.
Hopefully can see her later. HAHAHHA.
Its May now. Not long to nationals.
But VERY SOON TO WATCHING SPIDERMAN 3!!!

Last Chance...

Listening to : Plug In Baby Acoustic - Muse

The week has been rather erm, different.
Tough week with 2 tests and many many hw.
oh well. Thank God its over. Well one highlight was the sports carnival heats.
Man was it really heats man, heated competition and all.
The 400 run was rather bad but emerged as 4th qualifier. Oh well. Gotta fight for that.
But the big one is the 4x100.
Despite the huge controversey on whether or not T10 should be disqualified.
It was a real good run for them.
Well our class did well too, without andrew kwek, we ran 49 sec.
Chuck was amazing. It seems in sports carnival it really will be a fight with memberzz.
Who will win, i dunno.
Well, all I know is that many ppl are getting all arrogant and cocky about their speed and all.
It kinda sickens me.
Other than that, Track has been EXTREMELY TOUGH!!!!
So much so i love it, its esctacy to me man....

Stairway

Listening to : Stairway to Heaven

I've gotten a little lazy to maintain my blog i realised.
Well, a few updates. WEDNESDAY WAS AWESOME!!!
The cross country team did phenomenal.
My girl finally got top 20!! she got 13th place!!!
Real happy for her. Like its been so many years of running and the last year she achieved something!!!
Oh well, this is kinda bad for me in a way.
Means i DIE DIE must win something. If not pai seh. heh.
Yeah, on thursday we went put and all after school to have fun.
I'm also gonna start pushing my runs.
I really am going to work hard on my strength endurance now. I have no more time to waste.
Speaking of no time. I think I really have to start doing my homework and studying.
Cause on friday. I had my very first detention.
ALL CAUSE I DIDN'T DO MY HISTORY OUTLINE!!!
My clean record is broken. NO!!!!
Detention is really sad, the people there do work aimlessly. It was kinda traumatising actually. HAHA!

XC!!

Listening to : Can't stop - Red Hot Chilli Peppers

Wow, so it seems that this song was really loved ion my runs last year.
Yeah, i can remember, this song kept running in my head.
Well, 2moro is Cross Country. Wow.
So fast eh. It seems many are now EXTREMELY nervous.
All i can say now is that everyone has done all they can.
Everyone has prepared equally as much.
Everyone has had their prep talks and all.
But 2moro, its not going to be about any of these things which will determine who wins.
Its about who becomes the bravest, who can go out there and run their hardest with no regrets.
I'll be rooting for CJC XC!!! I'll be rooting more importantly for Ng Shiming.
She's real nervous now. Oh well.
This is XC for you. HAHA. After this, its ten weeks to the big day for me.
Shall not consider that for now.
Well, ALL the way cross country!!!

Listening to : The Sweet Escape - Gwen Stefani

WOW. So this week has been interesting. Really interesting.
So much so i can't remember why.
Well, i guess rather than blogging about the past.
lets talk about something in the Future.
I'm from today, going to
1) Train Hard
2) Study Hard
3) Pray Hard
4) Rest Hard
5) Play Hard.
How am i gonna do all these, I have no idea.
Well, I guess I really was a little disappointed the past few days
About track and studies. Guess It was all kinda forgotten.
I'm going to explode soon!!!
Guess i'm still into Easter, just thought of this
I wouldn't talk about how Jesus died, but how he lived.

The kick again.

Listening to : Alive - POD

Its good friday!!! or rather, it was good frieday half an hour ago.
I really love good friday, it gives reason to why we can stand here strong.
This is the easter period, its so warm and all.
The drama in church today was by far the most high-tech version ever.
Which really made it cool. Well, the effect was definitely there.
The EASTER EXPERIENCE.
You have got to feel it for yourself.
Well, as usual, i'm here waiting for my girl to finish doing her work.
Haha, it feels like a saturday. Hmmm, on this easter, i guess its appropriate to fix up my life again! Yup!
Well, tomorrow is the very first big race of the year, national Juniors.
How bad can it get, i'm running 100 and 400 on the same day.
Both with less than 1.5 hour gap. This is really troubling.
Even still, i got rather psyched up on the race and all. I'm gonna give it my BEST shot.
There's nothing to lose, i don't care about shame or anything.
I'm just gonna give it my all and WHACK THE RACE!!!!
After all, i think i'm gonna do a PB. I really do.
Well, everything was ok, till i realised my strained muscles have yet to recover, I wonder whats wrong with my legs recently.
Strangely, i'm not as worked up for this race compares to SPH. Guess i'm immuned now.
Whats more, my girl will really be there this time. I'm confident in myself and in everyone.
SOmehow, i really do feel the need to drive the team. I really do.
I shall send out an emo msg to everyone running now. YEAH!!!
Nite ppl!!!

Hellsing

Listening to : Spice Of Your Life - Beck

I'm here blogging cuz i'm waiting for shiming. So i got like half an hour to burn.
Today was rather erm, multiple.
Went to church, which i felt was really awesome today. Really.
It was a rather simple message on a few disciplines in life.
Guess after joining track, my whole life is rotated about trainings and drills.
SO i guess this message was rather easy to follow, like real easy. HAHA.
Not only that, Easter is right round the corner, kinda excited for it.
Well, not just that, national juniors as well. How anti-climax right. AHHH

Was just thinking of our track season, 3 more months.
DAMN SHORT LA!!!
3 more months to get my whole body in shape.
3 more months till the end of my running life in CJ.
SO short, I'm gonna chiong for it, I can't believe i phsyched myself up while bathing.

Yeah, after church I went to study, omg, i am also lagging.
FINE! I realised that other than track, I have to cope with the blardy books.
If i can I'll burn them all up man. I'm gonna get the A's this mid-year i hope.
Yeah, met my girl to study. HAHAHA!! which was kidna fun.
Half way through we went to watch mr bean.
FUNNY SHOW!!!

Got home and found a whole new FREAKING COOL ANIME!!!
Is it me or am i just real slow to realise it.
Its HELLSING!
Amazing anime. Cool man. heh, other than that, hmmm. Nothing much.
I guess i'll go mug a little while waiting for her.
I have never mugged at home before. This is amazing.
CYA AROUND!!!!

EXPLODE UP!

Listening to : Wonderwall - Oasis

Its been a week since i blogged again. I guess I gotta be more active in blogging man.
Heh, but i realised its tough everyday since i come back so late everyday.
Studying and training is getting to my head.
Well, last sunday we had SPH relays, I must say my confidence has been boosted.
Cause of the race and cause she helped so much i guess.
I remember how nervous I was and scared I spasm.
One of the best ideas was to pray befroe the race, seriously. HAHA. It works man.
Though both our baton passes were in a way greatly flawed, i think its still a good run. :)

Well, I can't really remember this week. Seriously, I just know i kept sleeping.
OH!! On Thursday I slept practically the whole day. Which i have no idea why.
I gotta rest up more man, trainings have also been rather shiok.
Yesterday we had our road relay. Yup.
And i must say it was a huge success.
Many teams turned up and ran their hearts out for fun!
I guess the team who planned it must be good.
Especially that girl, she did well. Really well! :)

Next week is national juniors. Heh, well, its super fast.
Not just that, its next weekend. WHO PUTS NAT JUNIORS ON EASTER WEEKEND!!!
Nobody really does so man, oh well, i'll try to do what i can.
I don't wanna cause trouble for my bro again. This really sucks.
AHHH!!! Ok ok, guess i'll try to study today, i have to man. I really have to!

WONDER

Listening to : What Goes around comes around

I'm strangely wondering how's tomorrow gonna be.
I shall not think about it.
I'll just give it my best. Seriously.
Then i can be proud.
Most importantly, let someone be proud

uoiduk

Listening to : Story of a girl

I guess training has been real fun. There's now a real motivation to train.
Heh, well, was really happy a few days ago, cause supergirl ran top 20 in the swift meet.
really proud. really really proud. HAHAHA.
I guess i'm getting fat, i need to gym man. I need to run.
Not forgetting study. SOMEONE STUDY OUTSIDE TODAY!!!!
I'll feel damn lag after this.....shit...

Xin

Listening to : Angels - Sarah McLachlan

Never will i lose this opportunity again.
I won't wait for any more second chance.
I gotta believe.
I realised I have been distracted by many things.
Unfocused in a way, i dunno why.
In this, my track has been suffering.
WHat has happened to the FIRED up attitude???
Perhaps its cause of the long pain that has hit since the CTs.
Not only that, how am I to face the other maggots.
The 'captain' has been slacking here and there, now he's suffering badly.
I wonder what would they think. Even now, i've gotten THAT vulnerable to sickness.
This is scary. But i still believe. I'll be stronger, not physically, but mentally.
Well, I gotta be strong mentally for my studies too. I'm also suffering badly there.
I'm suffering badly everywhere in ym head. I guess i gotta start working and stop playing too much i guess. I got my ONE day of rest today. Now its time to WORK.
One day, i'm gonna win it all.

In the arms of the angel,
A supergirl, please help....

Follow

Listening to : MIA - Avenged Sevenfold

I realised I only blog in the morning, when I have nothing better to do.
Like now, waiting for her to wake up.
Heh, this holiday feels extrmely packed up.
almost everyday we have training. Which is frankly a little madness.
Not only that, i'm feeling a little unfit too. Wonder how are we gonne die during training.
Well, the good thing is that after training we have IG33 outing at vivo city. Which is totally cool.
.
Holidays holidays. I can't waste anymore time.
Its study and run all the way.
Squeezing in a little rest here and there. This is tough man....
HAHAHA.
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I can't remember what i wanted to blog about. Well, next time then!!

MY BREAK!!!!

Listening to : Are you gonna be my girl - Jet

I'm lagging, oh well. a few updates.
CTs are finally over!!!! AThey were over like last week already.
It ended with a blast. With the release of the chinese O level results!!!!
LIONEL CHOONG CAN BURN HIS CHINESE BOOKS NOW!!!!!!
YEAH YEAH YEAH!!!!
I got an S!!!! Heh, the moment I got it back , I literally shouted!!!
Well,Other than chinese, it was Orientation for us facils aagain.
I took a rather laid back approach with my IG.
So we really had fun this time.
SOUL was the best man. I dunno why, but it resembles Invierno.
Which was awesome. Totally. Well, this was supposed to be my break for the whole term.
But it just didn't feel right. Yeah, ROCKEFELLA was my break.
It was too awesome, the music this time was great, compared to last year.
Though not as hyped up, but its crazy!!!! HAHAHHA!!!
IT WAS MY FINALE NIGHT YESTERDAY!
Now i can rest for a few days befores studyin again. Heh.
Ps. SOmeone send me all the roackefella songs!

CONFIRM DIE

Listening to : Fall Away - The Fray

Day 1 of the horrid CTs are over.
I never thought CTs could be this bad, its even worse than promos.
At least i was kinda prepared for promos.
As in at least i knew my stuff.
But today was the ultimate bullshit day.
For GP, i was kinda stun at first, but eventually wrote about forgive and forget.
Used several real-life examples, well, it was a risk i guess, hopefully can do well.

As for history, it was a joke man.
I really screwed up the CSQ.
Nobody thought that Suez would come out, i totally didn't use any contextual knowledge at all.
So yeah, got burnt kinda badly.
SUpergirl too.

Looks like the CTs aren't kicking off too well.
Heh, but i guess the worst is over. I hope. AHHH!!!

Heading Home

Listening to : My Ex-Lover Is Dead - Stars

Well, these few days have been more or less rather stale for me.
Studying studying and more studying.
I'm getting the momentum back, thats good though heh.
Well, today was rather different.
Heh, after studying and bringing my girl home.
I left lavender and headed to paya lebar where my bro was waiting for me.
It was already say 11.30.
The latest i've studied until these few days.
Well, now that i got a car home, i was rather happy.
When we got on the car, we then realised, THE CAR WON'T START!!!!
Like seriously, we were kinda scared and all at first.
Well, it become more of an experience and all.
We called like A WHOLE LOT OF PEOPLE.
An hour later we finally decided to call the tow truck people.
so they said an hour, we went to the nearest 7-11.
We bought mash potatoes.
It was bad, never eat it.
Upon reaching the car, we decided to try starting the car again.
AND OMG!!!! IT WORKED!!!
So yeah, we left for home at like 1.15. heh.
KINDA DUMB EH!!!
But it was so funny it kinda made me relax a little heh.

Happy!!! Sad...

Listening to : You Know My Name : Chris Cornell

The past few days, many many things.
Valentines day - Happy
Training - Happy
CNY eve eve dinner - Happy
CNY eve get new phone - HAPPY
Reunion Dinner - Happy
Basketball at 12 midnight - Happy
CNY day 1 Collect Hong Bao - Happy
CNY day 1 play mahjong and won - HAPPY
CNY day 2 hope to meet supergirl - Happy
CNY day 2 realising still must study - Sad
EXAMS COMING UP!!!! - DAMN SAD!!!!

That kinda summarises what i'm thinking now, guess the sad part greatly outweighs the happy.
like seriously, I HATE EXAMS!!!!
I'm still gonna pia though. REALLY pia.

My Dearest girl...

The Penguins still live on...

 

2T24 1st class pic of 2007
Project Red Lantern
The comparison of the other lanterns to ours
IG33 at prata house

 

THE FAMILY @ CJC XC
The guys, how tight man.
Don't ask...
Supposedly Emo Kids...

 

IG33 depicting how orientation is like
The @T24 monstrosit, the 24 Spirit
The Team after Cross Country, wonderful...
Me and My Number 1 Supergirl

 

back track

E406, knowing my back is covered by them, i can venture out
Shi Jie, Alvan, Me, Justin, All from T24, All from the 4 seasons
Invierno truly is love...
IG33 after the mud game.

 

Plug in Baby!!

Listening to : Plug in baby - Muse

I guess i'm burning a whole lot of time.
Track training is super happening now, i guess its all cause of the juniors.
They all now how tight.
Seriously, they are like super close now, so much so even i feel stuck on to them.
There's even the extended track team (Jane), whose always there too.
WELL!!! I guess after they all got back their results, they're all staying.
Not cause they're dumb (in fact, they're SUPER SMART)
Almost all got below 15. I feel dumb now.
The worst was when Jane called us crying, saying
"LIONEL!!! I'm Damn sad, did ery lousy, i got the same marks as you".
How bad can a suan get man!?!?!?
AAHHHH!!!
ANyway, it was good fight, great job J1S!!!!

Well, Valentines day is coming up.
This year is gonna be my first, and i wanna spend it with my very number 1.
its this wednesday.
Actually i'm in trouble. OH SHIT MAN!!!

Last week was cross country also.
Well, I didn't really win anything.
But well, i did break my PB.
I'm really pleased cause of it, though my supergirl got like 1st.
I'm kinda OMG man. A little embarrassing though.
but well, who cares about what they say, i'm kinda proud of how she ran.

I also crashed a rockefella audition,
I must say, this year is kinda impressive.
People, GO ROCKEFELLA!!!!
If you're wondering which JC to go to.
COME CJC!!!!

Stress???

Listening to : Follow Me - Uncle Kracker

Yeah, So i'm here blogging. Looking at all those maggots being so stressed and all.
I'm actually feeling bad not doing much work today.
C'mon, i'm a slack man. Heh.
Fine, I'm only slack now.
Well, today was kinda focused on the class.
We are HALFWAY in completing our project lantern.
Lets see, its like taller than me.
Thats kinda sad man, for real. But it's HUGE and SUBER KOOL!!!!

But yeah, I just realise i got like 3 tests this week.
Good Game right??? Heh, who cares man. I know i can do it.
For some reason i'm having a very positive mindset.
Speaking of which, I'm NOT TRAINING 2MORO!!!
WOWOWOWOWOW!!! How cool is that.
The 1st time in like, 2 months.
I'm kinda relieved. I can slack 2moro.

O level results out on friday.
Kinda worried for some. Oh well, panic i guess.
This time its just them. HAHHAHAHAHAH
Here are some Pics.
INVIERNO DINNER AT GLASS HOUSE!!! We rock....almost all signed up for O2

This is the track team during the Track Orientation, kinda cool eh. HehThis was the SAAA Cross Country Competition, the 1st of many to come. Work Hard people.

REMEMBER!!!! CJC WARMS UP TO WIN!!!

c'mon c'mon

Listening to : Rollover DJ - Jet

Seriously, I have been kinda dreading training the past few days.
I dunno, I just lost it??
Maybe so man, maybe i did lose that passion for running.
Until a few days ago. I got reminded the kick i got by the J1s.
Seeing them all so challenged, heh, it kinda makes me wanna push even more.
Well, morning runs are getting more common, i'm doing them now.
Strange eh, i never thought I will.

Well, the past few days were cool.
The project giant lantern is actually underway.
Like its a huge structure. I'm kinda proud of 2T24 man.
HAHA!! Even if we don't win, i guess we did a good job.
.
I actually kinda miss my IG33. They're having an outing soon.
Haha! I guess signing up for O2 wasn't so bad after all.
.
I'm damn random, i dunno. I'm too lazy to elaborate on anything. HAHAHAHHA!!!
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hear your voice

Listening to : Lips of an Angel - Hinder

I'm seriously wondering what on earth am I doing here.
I'm supposed to be reading econs. WAHAHHA.
Well, i guess i gotta properly update my blog man.
Since I just realised, people still do read my blog. So yeah.
Schools been cool. Or rather, I haven't majorly encountered any problems yet.
Study wise I'm figuring everything out i guess. Things don't seem to tiring anymore.
Just the track part, not that I'm tired of it.
I'm actually kinda spurred on, really, seeing the new J1s attitude towards track.
Not just that, to know that we're really close together like one big family.
It's really good to know that indeed we may have a possible chance of winning or so.
I'm seriously hoping we can win this year. Never in my life have i wanted my team to win.
So much so I wouldn't mind not winning myself.
Well, despite our die hard attitudes, I do have to admit, we really are going hard into training man. In fact, its way hard, we're doing morning runs now.
Just that I gotta get used to it, but i'm really starting to enjoy the kick.
Like what Kenrick said
"This is just a warm up to victory, so don't say tired, say challenging"
Now that track is settled, i'm actually kinda in a fix.
Seriously, i'm so busy with everything, i'm afriad I don't have time to rest.
And well, to enjoy life. I don't want to be so filled and busy in life i forget to enjoy it.
So yeah, doing all at once is tough i guess. Well, now I'll just figure one thing out at a time. Heh.
.
Its been a while since we went out properly.
Heh, i do miss it.
Can't do much now can we?
Soon i guess, its funny how I can be contented with just a glance.
Well, you so have the lips on an angel.....