Friday, June 26, 2009

MJ

Listening to : Black or White - Michael Jackson

The King of Pop is dead.
I never really listened to his songs, but I do know he was really amazing.
He went through alot and well, he died.
Too bad man.
However, his music lives on!!!!
Thousand and one artists are trying to duplicate what he's done.
Quite a tall feat but yeah, I can say I lived to at least watch him.

Thursday, June 18, 2009

Moving on

Listening to : No Boundaries - Adam Lambert

So it seems things have finally been settling down.
Its getting back to the usual cycles of work and church.
Not that I'm complaining or anything. I'm actually quite satisfied by this organisation.
How bad can it get?
Anyway, I figured that the times we spend trying to make something happen can actually be used to do something more useful.
There's just more to this life.
I know it...
It isn't like my time is coming or anything.
But there is something more meaningful rather than just chasing after money, a good life etc.
More to that in life i guess.
I'm still in the midst of searching for that one thing.
That doesn't mean I ain't going to stop having fun though. WOOHOO!!!
RWC is coming up this Sunday. I'm quite happy its coming.
Next Monday the new 2LTs come in.
That only means, 4 months to ORD.
Think i'm going to stop blogging for a while. Can't find much time to do so nowadays.
Till whenever!!!

Saturday, June 13, 2009

Escaped

Listening to : The Escapist - Coldplay

In all that I've done, in all that i've felt guilty and not worthy for it.
It seems I have been wrong all this while, it has always been on the contrary.
I am worth it.
It takes one step to realise it. It takes one encounter to understand it.
That was LOUD! camp.
I cannot begin to describe the activities that we had.
All of them were amazing and were extremely fun.
I'm sure many others would be blogging about their experiences in camp and what they did.
I wanna talk about how i felt.

From the start of day 1, it was already a moment of pressure.
I was uncertain, tired, afriad.
Afraid that I would lag behind and not be able to perform the role as a team leader to the best i could. It was a realy scare for me actually.
Entering the school, driving in (Yes, I passed!!), it was really hitting me quite hard.
I wanted it to end fast, to end quick.
I can only thank god that I had 2 pillars whom really made me feel otherwise when it started.

Derrick and Yiling. Many say that without leaders, we cannot function.
I needed them, they were there, Leaders cannot function without the assistance of their wingers.
Its really true. And cause of that, I was at peace and went all out for it.
The games, the cheering, I took on the role as a help to my dearest.
To lead the house when they needed it. I'm sure DAMIKA was awesome.
The first night session was a good experience but my fleshly body took over as i dozed off.

The second day started with a high already. With a sense of explosiveness taking over.
It was like never before, I was really excited for it. I wanted to see miracles.
I was not disappointed. DAMA was together, more than I had expected.
I was pleased, glad, not exactly proud of myself but rather proud of them.
They stepped out to make it feel at home and comfortable for the newer ones.
Though their reactions were not similar to that in the house, still, I was contented.

Then came the highlight for me. The second night session.
I was desperate. I wanted a solid, strong, breakthrough.
I really wanted to escape from this tough cycle and be back on.
It wasn't easy, it isn't easy to define and line out as well, however, I knew wherever I was going wasn't really in the right direction.
On that fateful night, I got what I asked for, an encounter in which I have never experienced before. One so strong, so intense I was forced to the ground, unable to rise.
It was real, it is too late to deny God now, it really is, I have experienced.
Surprisingly, it didn't bring me back to me old days or make me think about it.
What I felt was new wineskin, new touch, new start.

The third and final day was all high for me.
It was a point where I could not turn back.
From the start till the end, there was a total change within.
I began to press in to their lives, finding out what's wrong.
What's their life about. I did, I can say I brought something back.
It wasn't all shouting and screaming. Yes it was.
But it was about getting LOUD. It was about becoming LOUD.
It was about realising that I'm more than worthy for it all.