Monday, September 26, 2005

Do what you love, Love what you do

It's a simple concept. A concept of success. I heard this phrase somewhere.
We need to know what we are called to do and do what we're called to do.
We need to love what we do and do what we love.
If we don't love what we're doing, we won't be successful in life
If we don't love what we do.
Start loving it or changing what we're doing till we start loving it!
It has to be FUN!!!

Saturday, September 24, 2005

Why am I doing this??

It came to my mind a few days ago, how normal it is.
For someone to be so used to do what he's doing he forgets why is he doing it in the 1st place!!
For example, you study so hard, you forget why you are actually studying.
This sounds stupid, out-of-my-mind to post this. But yes I will.
Somebody spoke to me a few days ago and told me.
Are you doing this cause you have to or you want to??
Hmmm...Till now I still wonder. Do I do things cause I have to??
For the 1st time I'm kinda in a lost for words.
No real mood to blog......
It's been kinda wierd these few days. Very wierd.......

Thursday, September 22, 2005

25

Seriously, its actually dawning upon me.
I ain't good enough.
25 points is like crap. Really man!!!
AHHHH!!! Means I muz work work work.
However, the relax mood is still on for some reason.
Definitely my results have improved, tremendously.
From 33 points to 25, not bad.
No fail, no C6. But it just ain't enough.
I'm NOT going to burn the oil.
I ran too fast, now i gotta take it a little slower.
Give me 2 weeks and I'll go crazy again.
2 weeks, I wonder if thats too short, or too long.
1st paper is 1month away,
Hmmm lets stress ourselves here.
1 MONTH!!!!
If you're not studying, study!!!
If you gave up...PICK UP!!
If you're getting 40 plus points,
Don't sleep the next few days..............

Monday, September 19, 2005

Perfectionist

I'm a perfectionist I suppose.
I seek perfection and want things to be really well done.
A simple pass is hardly ever satisfying.
Yesterday, I did not show that sense and urge for perfection.
Long story, won't really care to explain. But we all learn from mistakes.
Today, I entered school tired, sleepy but full of excitement for some reason?
Perhaps its been 3 weeks since our real school day.
And its been rather nerve wreching, waiting for prelim results.
However, As the day began, that excitement became worry, and nervousness.
It seemed that everything counted on this prelims.
I had expected it to be bad for some subs, and good for the others.
However I was disappointed but pleasently surprised time to time.
I had not reached my expectation. However, I seek to strive harder.
Much harder!! Its seriously not satisfying to see your grades in a devastating state.
Well whats done is done, we got plus minus 1 more month.
Jia You guys!!
Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me. - King David

Saturday, September 17, 2005

Stage 2

Just finished preparing for Stage 2 duty tomorrow.
I'm actually kinda excited. I wanna redeem myself.
The last time I did Stage 2 for a "conference" or a big event was Emerge.
And that duty was the bomb of terror. Everything went wrong.
This time, I'll make it good. I want to serve much better.
Help me Father.....
Mentally I'm ready, Spiritually not yet.
Thats why I'm gonna pray now.....
Let's Conquer the Hall!!! - Brother Eugene

Friday, September 16, 2005

Be healed!!

Right, I just realised I'm not really getting better.
My cough is really getting annoying.
Eating is now becoming a chore.
It hurts to eat. Man how sad can that get??
I've kinda lost my appetite like that! Heh.
Well this is the worst. I was drinking water then I realised,
The water has a taste. The taste of blood. meaning. Some part of my throat is bleeding!!!
AHHHH!!!
I seriously Pray that I'll be healed. Not my will, but your be done!!!
Think I should go see a doc.....

Wednesday, September 14, 2005

Outpouring!!

I started the day feeling down. Perhaps cause I didn't really sleep well, or I was thinking too much about what was I to do the next day.
Seriously man.
At times I really wonder whats wrong with me??
Well back to reality. Frankly I wasn't feeling well. Not physically but in the inside.
It felt strange like something missing. Like I've lost that fire. I really didn't get it?
Everything seemed fine the day before. Now this? well I totally had no mood to do much.
Studied yes, was looking forward to a BS at 6. But I totally didn't feel like going.
I wasn't excited for some reason. Yes Wow!! FT2!! But hmmm.
I kind of dragged myself there. With a little encouragement from Vincent, things got better.
Lesson started. Kinda happy Pst Aeris was preaching, loved his preaching!
However little did I know it was a God appointment.
Pst began preaching. And wow!! It was really cool. He preached on the outpouring of the Hols Spirit and how it was like a waterfall. It seemed so in time for me.
When I was kind of down and getting tired. This was really a Word in season.
Not just that. I went home. Did QT. And wow wow wow!!
I realised this. At times we feel lousy but seriously, push on!! Heh I remember Ulf Ekman Saying this once. God likes to play hard to get...=)
Well this song you're hearing now in a way helped. Enjoy. It makes me smile...

Tuesday, September 13, 2005

Wo Ke Shou


It means "I'm coughing" in chinese. Amazingly, I'm sick. Yes Lionel Choong is actually sick. And Its real this time. Forgetting all those fake ones during NPCC. Heh. Well I'm kinda shocked that I fell sick. I don't think its normal or natural. The only time I'm ALWAYS sick is yes chinese new year. Thats when I stuff my sad little stomach with all those junk food. Well I went to the doc on Sunday. He said its a throat infection. OUCH!!!! That kinda pierced my heart. I mean it sounded bad. Then he said it can be cured in 2 or 3 days. Hmmm Well this is the 2nd day and it only got a little better. I dunno how this stuff works

I hate the taste of medicine. Always disliked it. And every morning I'm forced to eat a few tablets of sun chorella. Eeeee. What to do with 'Kiasu' Parents. Heh.

Well Its a real pain man. I pray that my throat gets healed soon. Its so so annoying!! For once I'm like actually following my doc's instructions when he said "boy no fried food". Heh I dunno But maybe its stress?? Hmmm.Ya Think its stress....Yeah Its confirm stress. =)

Monday, September 12, 2005

changing

Things don't seem the way they suppose to be these couple of days. I actually talked back to my mum when she said "don't study la, lets go eat dinner." Now I just hope I don't into a freak. Well at least I'm resting. Relaxing. Perhaps in a wrong way?? I realise I'm wasting my time in friendster. Which is so totally wrong.

What can i do?? heh...wat to do?? Think i'll go download songs....yeah...hopefully that seems interesting.

Well I was kinda looking back at some photos and wow. I realised everybody has changed. With the exceptions of one or two. People seem to mature at different rates. Heh. Well think i'm done. To all Maris...Enjoy your practicals!!!! =)

Sunday, September 11, 2005

Practical??

A short one. Heh i found this kinda interesting...Though I have been studying like a mad man. I totally forgot about my practical tomorrow...Now thats funny...wahaha!! Thank God its physcis pract only....phew...=)

Thursday, September 08, 2005

Empty handed

Life would be seem very regimental, standard, uniform these past few days. Frankly it has. Past few days were rather machine days, going out to study, coming home like 10 plus, pray sleep wake up to study again. Hiaz, well thats life. But today, one of my friends experienced something that I think would cahnge his course of life. Well he broke up. Heh. This is wierd man. When he actually broke up, I didn't know what to say, what to think. To be happy or.... I have always thought to myself this time is extremely crucial, its the time to study. But perhaps it seems to difficult without someone by your side. I actually brought myself to carry his burden. Someone once said, Don't be too involved with others till it affects you. I think even I'm getting affected. However sometimes its really good to know that i'm always taken care of. I will never run out of love. Hmmm... I'm always alive in your hands. It makes me remember how important God is.
Empty handed but
Alive in your hands.....
-Delerious

Sunday, September 04, 2005

My Cup runs over!!!

God is good
The Devil is bad
And we win!

Whatever happens, everything happens for a good reason and we always seem to win!! Ain't tat cool?? Well I admit, there have been disappointments. But somehow it always seem that everytime bad things happen, and it passes...Something good happens!

It may seem so simple, frankly that has been the way it is!! I have been tremendously blessed by so many things these pass few days!! A few weeks ago, my Mum actually offered to get a new phone for me!! Wow man!! how often does that happen?? And its A Motorola V3!!!! WOW man!!

Last week when I just gave my very first fruits, I was given $200 by my grand parents as a real belated birthday gift.

Today I was real blessed by many usher leaders who indeed really pushed and inspired me!! its so coooool!! Not just that!! Cut long story short!! I was actually offered a job!! By Pst Lilian!! Wow man!! I was thinking of working after O's, I haven even started looking for one and I'm already offered one!! This is really a God Appointment!!

You anoint my head with oil; My cup runs over - King David