Listening to : Under Control - Parachute
Its been a strange long time since I've been off early in the afternoon after morning shift.
Well, I didn't really have much to do. In fact, I had nothing to do.
I still found myself surprisingly fulfilled.
Running, Printing, Shopping for things. Errands basically.
Thats what I had to do.
However, I still felt good after all of that.
I remember the exam times. When it was really really tough.
Many are going through that right about now.
In fact, my heart really goes out to them. Yes it ain't easy.
But hey man, the fruits of your labour are beyond description. You'll be more satisfied than normal
I'll do all I can to make sure that any one person gets his motivation to do well.
Especially one close to me.
Speaking of which... Its off to work for me!!!
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
Monday, September 28, 2009
Let me Love you
Listening to : Cool - Gwen Stefani
It takes some time to really figure and get out of an 'emo rut'
Well, one is defined as being well, the biggest idiot on Earth.
You may have all the reason to act or behave in such a way.
However, at the end of the day, you can just tell yourself you were an idiot.
There're many reasons which can trigger such a rut. Examples of which would be...
Waking up too early / Grumpy.
Not enough sleep.
Waiting too long.
Being too tired.
Being offended by another party.
Notice none of these are symptoms of such a case.
How to get out of it??
You just stop taking self pity and get on with life. Cause you being such an idiot would not only make yourself feel worst but make others around you feel uncomfortable.
By being in such a rut, you just become extremely selfish.
You ignore the feelings of others and care only for yourself.
Being unable to hide your emotions is not a legitimate reason.
It just means you're childish.
You're an adult adolescent.
Before you start rebutting and saying that whatever stated above is incorrect.
You'll realise that you're already being ridiculously defensive and ignorant.
Thereafter, you start to take the offensive.
Which, if you actually let loose and speak your mind, will in turn, hurt others.
The damage you do will make you feel WORST and thus creating a very viscous cycle of self pity and then depression.
As strange as it seems. Everyone can be tempted and fall into this trap.
Yes, Everyone can. Don't look to your left or right.
You can be part of the sad sad viscous cycle.
The key is not to fall into this pit to begin with. How??
Base your life on things which will not let you down. Base your integrity and confidence on it.
What else can be more stable than that of God?
It may seem trivial.
But thats the best option you've got, why hesitate now?
Take the plunge and give it a shot.
If you think you don't experience it, you're wrong.
It can come in small or big packages. Many have overcome them and moved on.
But some sad few cases leave scars in their hearts and souls. It becomes painful after a while.
Then it'll affect your physique and health.
Yes, it strangely does.
If you're thinking that you're not going to go through this.
Think again.
Cause I have.
I just have.
It takes some time to really figure and get out of an 'emo rut'
Well, one is defined as being well, the biggest idiot on Earth.
You may have all the reason to act or behave in such a way.
However, at the end of the day, you can just tell yourself you were an idiot.
There're many reasons which can trigger such a rut. Examples of which would be...
Waking up too early / Grumpy.
Not enough sleep.
Waiting too long.
Being too tired.
Being offended by another party.
Notice none of these are symptoms of such a case.
How to get out of it??
You just stop taking self pity and get on with life. Cause you being such an idiot would not only make yourself feel worst but make others around you feel uncomfortable.
By being in such a rut, you just become extremely selfish.
You ignore the feelings of others and care only for yourself.
Being unable to hide your emotions is not a legitimate reason.
It just means you're childish.
You're an adult adolescent.
Before you start rebutting and saying that whatever stated above is incorrect.
You'll realise that you're already being ridiculously defensive and ignorant.
Thereafter, you start to take the offensive.
Which, if you actually let loose and speak your mind, will in turn, hurt others.
The damage you do will make you feel WORST and thus creating a very viscous cycle of self pity and then depression.
As strange as it seems. Everyone can be tempted and fall into this trap.
Yes, Everyone can. Don't look to your left or right.
You can be part of the sad sad viscous cycle.
The key is not to fall into this pit to begin with. How??
Base your life on things which will not let you down. Base your integrity and confidence on it.
What else can be more stable than that of God?
It may seem trivial.
But thats the best option you've got, why hesitate now?
Take the plunge and give it a shot.
If you think you don't experience it, you're wrong.
It can come in small or big packages. Many have overcome them and moved on.
But some sad few cases leave scars in their hearts and souls. It becomes painful after a while.
Then it'll affect your physique and health.
Yes, it strangely does.
If you're thinking that you're not going to go through this.
Think again.
Cause I have.
I just have.
Sunday, September 27, 2009
quicken yourself
Listening to : Undisclosed desires - Muse
I'm quite surprised by the viewership of this blog. In fact, I expected many not to know of its existence. But well, it was quite on the contrary.
So I've been very active recently. Or rather, I'm glad that things are coming around for the better.
The group from 5 is slowly growing. Which is quite amazing.
People are being used in ways which I can't begin to explain.
Yes, times may be tough and some believe that the reason for committing may differ from the norm. However, I've never succumbed to the simple stereotype of how a 'christian' should be.
One passage which has really impacted me was the simple idea of Jesus eating with the tax collectors. It may seem quite strange and profound but it was as simple as that.
Jesus didn't care who you were or where you were from.
He cared that you were here.
Many a times, people always grumble or complain that there're too little people for a party, an outreach or whatever event there is.
I mean, whats planned is planned. If the turnout ain't good...
What do we normally react with??
I'm sure as a person of authority, the initial reaction is FLIP!
Why're there so LITTLE??
But I've come to realise that really, the numbers are important yes, but I'm sure that those present are more important than the missing numbers.
They should be honored.
No point crying over spilled milk.
That's to put it as simple as it is.
On the contrary, the people whom are present should never be discriminated.
Yes, they may not be like you or me,
they may not have the same history and background, but they're as they are!
Maybe I've grown to accept this with my history of connect group members.
Ranging from the secondary school boys, the non-english-speaking hostelites and even till now, those whom have fallen background.
I'm somehow a magnet to these people.
Its strange, even dangerous at times, but I'm glad that they come.
That aside, I'm rather burnt. Very burnt in fact.
The color after the recovery process should be quite pleasing though.
I've always wondered, and I'm sure I've said this before,
what would life be like if Lionel wasn't a sportsmen.
Would I have done this good and well would I have been fit and not fat?
I honestly don't know. But yes, I rather stay on the safe side.
I can't stop exercising, I doubt I ever will as well.
Total opposite from my brother I suppose.
The future is still a mystery.
Life is still unstable.
But thats where the fun kicks in aye??
I'm quite surprised by the viewership of this blog. In fact, I expected many not to know of its existence. But well, it was quite on the contrary.
So I've been very active recently. Or rather, I'm glad that things are coming around for the better.
The group from 5 is slowly growing. Which is quite amazing.
People are being used in ways which I can't begin to explain.
Yes, times may be tough and some believe that the reason for committing may differ from the norm. However, I've never succumbed to the simple stereotype of how a 'christian' should be.
One passage which has really impacted me was the simple idea of Jesus eating with the tax collectors. It may seem quite strange and profound but it was as simple as that.
Jesus didn't care who you were or where you were from.
He cared that you were here.
Many a times, people always grumble or complain that there're too little people for a party, an outreach or whatever event there is.
I mean, whats planned is planned. If the turnout ain't good...
What do we normally react with??
I'm sure as a person of authority, the initial reaction is FLIP!
Why're there so LITTLE??
But I've come to realise that really, the numbers are important yes, but I'm sure that those present are more important than the missing numbers.
They should be honored.
No point crying over spilled milk.
That's to put it as simple as it is.
On the contrary, the people whom are present should never be discriminated.
Yes, they may not be like you or me,
they may not have the same history and background, but they're as they are!
Maybe I've grown to accept this with my history of connect group members.
Ranging from the secondary school boys, the non-english-speaking hostelites and even till now, those whom have fallen background.
I'm somehow a magnet to these people.
Its strange, even dangerous at times, but I'm glad that they come.
That aside, I'm rather burnt. Very burnt in fact.
The color after the recovery process should be quite pleasing though.
I've always wondered, and I'm sure I've said this before,
what would life be like if Lionel wasn't a sportsmen.
Would I have done this good and well would I have been fit and not fat?
I honestly don't know. But yes, I rather stay on the safe side.
I can't stop exercising, I doubt I ever will as well.
Total opposite from my brother I suppose.
The future is still a mystery.
Life is still unstable.
But thats where the fun kicks in aye??
Friday, September 25, 2009
dreams that i dream
Listening to : Hey Soul Sister - Train
I've spent my day strangely fruitfully.
I didn't do what I intended to. But its still good. I'm easily satisfied.
Give me food some company and entertainment. I'll be quite happy for the day.
Though I may demand more at times. But I'm ok with any form of shortages.
I'm easily satisfied.
So I am......
I've spent my day strangely fruitfully.
I didn't do what I intended to. But its still good. I'm easily satisfied.
Give me food some company and entertainment. I'll be quite happy for the day.
Though I may demand more at times. But I'm ok with any form of shortages.
I'm easily satisfied.
So I am......
Thursday, September 24, 2009
Don't be afraid of your destiny
Listening to : Meant to be
It was with mixed emotions in today's eventful PM. I have to admit it was quite sudden.
A little miscommunication here and there. However, I'm glad i went for it.
I figured that going would really help me and inspire me.
It worked. Sorry if i sound like some infant or so.
But yes, sometimes even people like me need to be reminded of how important it is to be refreshed once in a while.
The PM was quite well, down to Earth. It felt as though I was pulled back into reality and smacked down to Earth. I look HIGH and LOW for so many things to do when everything is really in front.
I didn't need to look far.
Those people whose shoes i need to fit in are all right here.
Alvan is leaving for Brunei.
It used to be the 3 of us. Mark alvan me when we hung out.
Not saying we're exclusive of any sort.
However, it was quite comforting to know that you've got buddies by your side.
Though through our army years we've all grown and changed.
Alvan is in army and found commitments. Mark has Rachel.
Either way, I'm quite sure that we'll all stick around.
Not forgetting the U-U-USA trip!!
I can't wait for that man. Going there to really unwind with Mark.
Something also came to my mind,
is clubbing really wrong? Is it really?
I mean, you must think I'm one insane idiot to ask such a question.
Lionel's quite a hypocrite eh.... Or something like that.
But I've just realised many people are turning to it.
Guess its a phase of life. Can't say I'm totally over it but the bulk is over i guess.
Leading the high life and all.
To me, its all good, no matter what they say, its good as long as you maintain control with moderation. Yup.
Don't have much things to reflect about today. So keeping it short. Need more inspiration to blooogggggg
It was with mixed emotions in today's eventful PM. I have to admit it was quite sudden.
A little miscommunication here and there. However, I'm glad i went for it.
I figured that going would really help me and inspire me.
It worked. Sorry if i sound like some infant or so.
But yes, sometimes even people like me need to be reminded of how important it is to be refreshed once in a while.
The PM was quite well, down to Earth. It felt as though I was pulled back into reality and smacked down to Earth. I look HIGH and LOW for so many things to do when everything is really in front.
I didn't need to look far.
Those people whose shoes i need to fit in are all right here.
Alvan is leaving for Brunei.
It used to be the 3 of us. Mark alvan me when we hung out.
Not saying we're exclusive of any sort.
However, it was quite comforting to know that you've got buddies by your side.
Though through our army years we've all grown and changed.
Alvan is in army and found commitments. Mark has Rachel.
Either way, I'm quite sure that we'll all stick around.
Not forgetting the U-U-USA trip!!
I can't wait for that man. Going there to really unwind with Mark.
Something also came to my mind,
is clubbing really wrong? Is it really?
I mean, you must think I'm one insane idiot to ask such a question.
Lionel's quite a hypocrite eh.... Or something like that.
But I've just realised many people are turning to it.
Guess its a phase of life. Can't say I'm totally over it but the bulk is over i guess.
Leading the high life and all.
To me, its all good, no matter what they say, its good as long as you maintain control with moderation. Yup.
Don't have much things to reflect about today. So keeping it short. Need more inspiration to blooogggggg
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
I hope.........
Listening to : Starstrukk - 3OH!3
Trying to map out my life and where its actually headed to.
There're a thousand and one questions floating around in my head as to where, what, how, why should i do in life. Some of them can be answered real easily, some can't....
Believe it or not, I'm actually gonna ORD soon.
I've done a little reflection and I have to admit.
My NS life hasn't been the most glorifying and happening amongst the others.I do thank god for sure for the easy life that God has blessed me with.
In fact, only recently, my dad asked me whether I was stress at work.
Then it hit me, I haven't really been 'stressed' before. Everything I did or wanted to do was in control.
Even the toughest time of the dreadful A levels were easily overcome with strong planning done on me and my friends part.
I wonder how life would be when bad things do happen to me...
Yes there have been instances where life has been quite rough but never STRESSFUL.
I guess I have to wait for ORD and for me to start working.
Which then made me realise how unprepared I am for the coming future.
Whether I'm able to overcome them all when things really do come crashing down.
Will I really be able to survive the tough waves???
I would like to think that I have changed dramatically the past few months I stopped blogging.
I do apologize for the adrupt and sudden breaks from blogging. However, I do think its necessary for me to keep this Blog going. Its when I really want to pen my thoughts down which is when I blog.
Back to the topic.... I really would love to imagine that I have changed. However, I believe it is on the contrary. I have either not changed or really simply stagnated.
Perhaps it is just me. Perhaps I'm just imagining things.
But I'm shocked and pleased that I have yet to give up living life. I'm thankful God hasn't given up. I'm thankful my closest friends haven't given up on me. I'm thankful shiming never will.
The past few months can be pretty much described as really a hilly road with many many speed limiting strips.
Its been rather rocky and very uncertain.
There are days, weeks and even months where I really feel drained out, feeling that what I do can hardly make a difference in the world and the lives of loved ones.
Concurrently, there're times where I feel that I have the entire world at my doorsteps. I feel that I have so much to discover, so much to do, so many to impact.
However, the rubbish thing is that though both happens, both equals out. I don't feel like I'm moving both back and forward.
Maybe I should try to cry out for a breakthrough....
I have tried many times in fact, however, many a times to no avail.
I know that there's a time and place for everything and I really choose to believe that.
But it'll be great if that time is now. I know what MANY will say, i determine my own destiny.
Yes i know, be my own hero. I've always been inspired by such words.
How I wish I could live like that.... How easy it would be to continue this sentence with "How I wish I could live like that once again". I never believed in going back into the past. I never will.
So what should I do? Keep on keeping on? Keep fighting the good fight of Faith?
Of course I will. I'll do all it takes to move forward. Though I may be heading down at times, I never doubted the fact that I'll always bounce back up. Thats what keeps me going on.
I do hope that in this time, I'm being used in greater ways than I have ever imagined.
I hope that 40 by dec, 8 by dec can come to past.
I hope that I'm able to inspire others into changing.
I hope that I'm able to run like never before and determine my future and not the other way around.
I hope that the loved ones around me know that they're my loved ones.
I hope that if you're reading this, you know that you're likely my loved one....
NG SHIMING, I hope that when you see this, you'll know that I run for you. :)
Trying to map out my life and where its actually headed to.
There're a thousand and one questions floating around in my head as to where, what, how, why should i do in life. Some of them can be answered real easily, some can't....
Believe it or not, I'm actually gonna ORD soon.
I've done a little reflection and I have to admit.
My NS life hasn't been the most glorifying and happening amongst the others.I do thank god for sure for the easy life that God has blessed me with.
In fact, only recently, my dad asked me whether I was stress at work.
Then it hit me, I haven't really been 'stressed' before. Everything I did or wanted to do was in control.
Even the toughest time of the dreadful A levels were easily overcome with strong planning done on me and my friends part.
I wonder how life would be when bad things do happen to me...
Yes there have been instances where life has been quite rough but never STRESSFUL.
I guess I have to wait for ORD and for me to start working.
Which then made me realise how unprepared I am for the coming future.
Whether I'm able to overcome them all when things really do come crashing down.
Will I really be able to survive the tough waves???
I would like to think that I have changed dramatically the past few months I stopped blogging.
I do apologize for the adrupt and sudden breaks from blogging. However, I do think its necessary for me to keep this Blog going. Its when I really want to pen my thoughts down which is when I blog.
Back to the topic.... I really would love to imagine that I have changed. However, I believe it is on the contrary. I have either not changed or really simply stagnated.
Perhaps it is just me. Perhaps I'm just imagining things.
But I'm shocked and pleased that I have yet to give up living life. I'm thankful God hasn't given up. I'm thankful my closest friends haven't given up on me. I'm thankful shiming never will.
The past few months can be pretty much described as really a hilly road with many many speed limiting strips.
Its been rather rocky and very uncertain.
There are days, weeks and even months where I really feel drained out, feeling that what I do can hardly make a difference in the world and the lives of loved ones.
Concurrently, there're times where I feel that I have the entire world at my doorsteps. I feel that I have so much to discover, so much to do, so many to impact.
However, the rubbish thing is that though both happens, both equals out. I don't feel like I'm moving both back and forward.
Maybe I should try to cry out for a breakthrough....
I have tried many times in fact, however, many a times to no avail.
I know that there's a time and place for everything and I really choose to believe that.
But it'll be great if that time is now. I know what MANY will say, i determine my own destiny.
Yes i know, be my own hero. I've always been inspired by such words.
How I wish I could live like that.... How easy it would be to continue this sentence with "How I wish I could live like that once again". I never believed in going back into the past. I never will.
So what should I do? Keep on keeping on? Keep fighting the good fight of Faith?
Of course I will. I'll do all it takes to move forward. Though I may be heading down at times, I never doubted the fact that I'll always bounce back up. Thats what keeps me going on.
I do hope that in this time, I'm being used in greater ways than I have ever imagined.
I hope that 40 by dec, 8 by dec can come to past.
I hope that I'm able to inspire others into changing.
I hope that I'm able to run like never before and determine my future and not the other way around.
I hope that the loved ones around me know that they're my loved ones.
I hope that if you're reading this, you know that you're likely my loved one....
NG SHIMING, I hope that when you see this, you'll know that I run for you. :)
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