Moment lost.

Listening to : Fireworks - Katy Perry

So this is the last post of the decade. This blog has been good to me the past years.

I have to admit, recounting the past 10 years would be a blast but slightly too troublesome.

Instead, I'll stick to the usual tradition of well looking back at the year. 2010...

It's truly been an AMAZING year, there were some real highs, similarly, some real LOWS.

Either way, I'm really grateful to God, family, friends for this great year.

I have to admit, 2010 has been my most eventful year yet. Pretty much the best year as well.

Ok, let's try to think back and pick out some real milestones this year in Chronological order.

Of which are the things I can only remember off hand

1) Korea

The first of many overseas trips this year. Was also a first with my brother alone.

I really enjoyed it and learnt alot. It was somewhat a study trip to see the great and mighty things.

I'm forever kept in awe by the attitudes of prayer and how all of those Koreans live their lives.

However, maybe the highlight of the entire Korea trip was well...

Some good time spent with my brother. I don't have that too often...

But I'm glad we did that, it was a good chance to spend some nice time together. No, no htht.

2) USA

A good ORD trip with my best buddies around. Mark and Erwin. It was really an eye opener.

To see the whole World and enjoy life. I was really amazed by the sights and sounds.

We even caught the Lakers up close and personal.. Man!

Really a trip I'll never forget! One of the most fun ones as well!

3) Entering SOT

It was pretty much an uncertain decision for me. I really initially hesitated big time.

But the moment I got in, I remember clearly what Pauline said. Have Faith.

And so, it turned out to be a good decision to actually do so.

Went in as a team leader which I really didn't expect and didn't know what more to do.

Another shock was that my team was half Taiwanese. Ie. CHINESE SPEAKING

So yeah, it was really a challenge but it was all worth it. The Taiwanese never fail to amaze me.

SOT was also great for the many things and moves that we learnt and did. Thank God!

4) Crossfit

To think about it, this year has been pretty random. However, I do not believe in coincidences.

Crossfit came about as a random suggestion from David for us to try.

However, it well became something which will really change the way I look at life.

I've said enough about it in my other blog posts.

But the vision of using crossfit to change lives has captivated my heart.

It isn't just a fitness program, it's a lifestyle, a vision.

5) Asia Conference, Manhunt

Yeah, once again, I was forced into joining it, never really wanted to go through Manhunt.

Then again, I was really amazed and surprised cause well, I met some really good people there.

There I learnt how to compose myself, speak on stage and carry myself strongly.

Not just that, serving in Asia Conference was also something I would never forget.

Sleeping like 4 hours a day for 5 days and keeping up the spirit.

It was really a challenge, but in the back of our heads. We know that we have changed Asia in a small small way. :)

PS. I won Mr AC. Which was double shock / joy. WOOHOO!

6) Mission Trip, Kuching

This has to be one of the greatest eye openers for all of us.

To see how people in other nations live their lives, the poverty that they are in.

The hunger for the gospel and vision in their lives. The passion for greater things.

The majesty of how God's Kingdom is being spread.

I'm always shocked. Kuching has a place in my heart.

This coupled with the simultaneous teachings of cultural mandate and crossfit just makes all fall into place. I'm here for a reason I now know my vision.

7) 21st Birthday

Pretty much the most surprising/shocking/happiest week of the year. Enough said!

Shiming really did an amazing one. Brought me to all of the various places.

Well, one of the highlights was Singfest!!! WOWW!!

Another was well, seeing my dream come true. My photo wall... :)

8) SOT graduation

The times seem to fly by when you look back in such a manner. The Taiwanese have changed me as much as CHC has changed them.

Team 1 will always remain in my heart. SOT has taught me how to preach, sing, lead and do many more amazing things which I've never dreamt of doing!

Now as we part our ways, I know that we will all do greater things.

Winning runner up for best performance was but yet a simple bonus to the treasures I've attained in my heart.

9) Jeff

I know this comes across as something really strange. However, I clearly remember that it was past graduation when he really began to speak into my life.

I treasure him soooo much as a leader. He has really spoken many truths on how I go about doing many amazing things.

I guess from my perspective, I have never had him doubt me for one single moment.

Conversely, he's always been there, supporting me, understanding and teaching me.

Thanks Jeff.

10) NUS

Going back to school wasn't easy. No transition period whatsoever.

but I'm glad that beside me, I've people to help me get used to it.

No doubt, wasn't as fantastic a semester.

But I'm glad that I had people like YX and shiming there. :)

Coming together with the old BDPs to study and work again feels all nostalgic.

11) 4th anniversary

It's been long, it's been amazing, 4 years with Shiming was really a feat and a treat.

I do treasure her every single day. :)

I may not be the sweetest, I may not be the most romantic guy around.

Gosh, I bring her to library and crossfit for dates.

But ultimately, I do love her, one great deal.

12) Multiplication

Didn't really feel like something big for me. but a real proud moment though.

Shiming has become a CGL. I've never been this proud. Though yes, there have been much contest in my heart in this new cell.

However, I'll work hard. Cause she is. :)

Well, that's about all the big stuff that's happened this year. If I've left out anything, do let me know! However, on the flip side, maybe not... cause I'm looking ahead now.

2010 was great! I'm sure it was cause of you, reading this now...

The people have come and gone but all of them played a part in shaping me to who I am today.

So thank you for making 2010 this amazing and crazy and whacky and awesome.

2010 is now over, let's look ahead. 2011 will be an even more amazing year.

Let's do it. Together!

Hope tonight.

Listening to : Christmas Lights - Coldplay

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE! :)

Now, I'm sorely lacking in sleep. Very much content in my heart.

However, I'm somewhat put down, or in a better sense slightly burdened by something i read.

While surfing the net, I came across a page on CNA. Well, it's about foreign domestic workers.

On this Christmas day, where everyone is out enjoying and appreciating one another.

It really is a big damp on their spirits when somehow they're unable to do so.

For some, it's cause they can't or isn't let out of the house.

But for many, it's well cause they have no one to spend it with.

I count myself tremendously blessed to have many to celebrate Christmas with.

I've recently been called the one who makes Christmas a big deal.

Well, why shouldn't we? It's Christmas and everyone should be spending some time acknowledging the birth of our Savior Jesus Christ.

I know that for some, they don't believe and all that... But beyond religion, isn't it a place for people to well... Come together and appreciate. What they've got..

So yeah, if I didn't have anyone to spend Christmas with, I'll be quite sad.

So I just had a simple wonder, I guess there're many whom don't have such a privilege.

Many who don't have a family understanding enough to appreciate them or to love them.

Christmas is just another day to sleep in and enjoy the Public Holiday. No spirit whatsoever...

For some, they just don't have anything for themselves at all.

My heart really does ache for them. Maybe cause I think back and realize that well, maybe I haven't been to appreciative to people whom DON'T have people to spend it with.

I guess it's just me? But to have people simply indulging in themselves, not going to people who really want to spend Christmas with someone lonely is somewhat selfish.

I'm glad that at least Gina has friends and family to go out with, have dinner and celebrate Christmas with on such a day.

Well, I just somewhat hoped that she would find joy in spending it with well... me, my family.

I know we have to reach the lost.... I really know so...

But... Maybe just for this year, I'm sticking my head out more for these people...

Even at dinner today, looking at my grandparents, makes me smile...

Seeing a tweet from a friend.

"no better way to spend Christmas dinner than to be with my grandma in Hospital."

We easily overlook, neglect and sometimes even trample upon people who need our attention.

I'm not trying to sound philanthropic or anything of sorts...

Well, for someone whose Christmas doesn't feel like one at all...

Maybe those Christmas lights can really light someones life up. That little trip to Orchard road, that little trip to church can make them feel like the World once again.

This Christmas, many feel that nobody cares...

I know it may be too late, but it's still in the season, be that Christmas Light for someone.

Light up the fireworks within them. Cause their smile may mean the World to you.

Maybe specifically, to that person living next door, that one living downstairs, the person who has been looking over you for the past 21 years of your life. Small or big, do it today. :)

Once again, wishing you a very Merry Christmas.

2010 was amazing, 2011 will be better!

Information

Listening to : Good Life - One Republic

So results are out, No I didn't do too well.

I'm alright, no worries. I'm back up and running.

However, I came across an old video which explained the real facts of information.

I know I blogged about this before.

But it's real and it's affecting well ME!

That knowledge and information is being spread faster in recent times than years ago COMBINED.

I dunno about you, but that's real scary. That means that whatever I'm studying now...

Will be outdated in the next couple of years.

What does that mean? Other than the foundations and basics....

It's quite pointless to specialize, cause in future, the problems that I will encounter and I solve...

Does not even exist today....

THAT is quite a freak.

Not trying to say I ain't studying no more.

But well, I'm in university. I think it's time to really take a change in mindset.

To think for a change...

Cause right now, I don't see myself doing whatever I'm studying...

I know it's for analytical purposes. But what I really need to do?

To be a trend-spotter.

Well, new technologies are arising faster than I'm adapting.

I guess by the time this blog entry is over, a new tech has probably been thought of or invented.

No doubt that this scares people and brings whatever we're doing into perspective.

So instead, of chasing the paper....

Well, I guess I should be looking out and attuning my senses to new concepts, hidden potentials.

Doing so will enlarge my capacity, broaden my perspectives.

I need to know what's the NEW IN THING.

Put it this way, 10 years ago, the idea of a gym never came into existence.

Now there's pilates, yoga and yes even crossfit.

Of which, now that I think of it, I'm unsure whether it can stand the test of time.

So what can? The church has... Which is built on a simple block...

Being very very objective here...

Family, sharing, networking, expression, life-lessons, care, Love.

Certain trends have hinged on humanity and will not change.

These are the things which we should be aiming at! Tech will change for sure....

Problems will change in kind, but I'm sure they will not change in approach.

Next sem Will be better. I'm gonna try this out! To take a step back to realize the problem, the approach and the concept behind it all....

Nuff said

Well today needs no explanation.

What you are about to watch is what it means.

It's all inside of you.

Just one last push, or for some, one fresh start.

Don't worry about what you have or don't have.

What you're starting this year with.

PS. I love that part where the screams come and pain start to show. Yeah ALOT of pain.

What you've got doesn't exempt you from it.

It only aggravates the desire to overcome it.

You've got just the right stuff inside. So get going!!

Wan Liao

Listening to : Tiesto - Ep 193

Ok, I'm just freaking out. This may appear more like a fb update kind of thing.

But I guess I need to express this.

GOSH. 2010 is coming to an end!

I mean, this is for me, the wildest, biggest year yet!

And it's coming to an end. I know, many people see me as many things.

But I wanna know how much I look at myself at times.

Time to really just sit down and well, do some good thinking.

Thank God it's reservist. Good time to do so....

Good time to think and well, get my mind to who I am supposed to be and not who I am.

Meditate on a few things....

grit

Listening to : Fireworks - Katy Perry

You can't walk straight with your head in reverse. It's just common sense.

Sometimes I wonder how'd then do you learn from mistakes, move on in life and grow from it.

Well, simple... It's etched in your hearts, memories, mind.

Take what you've learned and simple put it in everyday life.

No point reinventing the wheel, unless you know of a better more efficient system.

However, you'll never get to greater heights if you do not grow from everything learnt as a wheel.

Certain things just DON'T change in life, certain things which work will always be in place.

Everytime my hands go on to the bar, I put my hands on my head, praying for strength.

Bending over, confessing that I can indeed do all things.

Believing that I am more than a conqueror.

The left hand grips first, with a small confession of how God is with me.

Then the right, with a declaration of how it's all for Jesus.

Then looking up engaging the lambar remembering that the Holy Spirit is always with me.

Followed by showtime.

To think of it, this has been the case every single time.

The hands being positioned on the track.

The clicking of the pens and aligning of stationary.

The handling of the headphones and adjusting it for controlling positions.

It all seems to follow a certain pattern.

I must never forget this. This is what keeps the God factor in the works of God.

Strength does not come from your body. No it doesn't.

It comes from the heart, from what you believe in!

It may not be what I do, may not be a similar routine.

Man, it may not even be a similar belief, but no excuses.

It all has to come from COMMITMENT of the heart.

Leave it outside please...

Listening to : Sing - My Chemical Romance

Sickness is in the house!

A plague which I truly detest, a spread of germs which infest.

Not just impeding my health and daily work.

But obstructs my progress in Crossfit. Now THAT is largely irritating.

I have come to realize how much I am dedicated to it.

How much time, energy, sleep, money I have invested into Crossfit.

I guess it isn't just a fitness program for someone to just get fit and look good.

it's a lifestyle. But well, right now for me. If I can so say and not offend anyone....

Crossfit has become somewhat of a Religion to me. No, I am not backsliding.

I'm still a Christian but I believe that for us, it's more of a relationship rather than a religion.

Yeah, so for crossfit, it's something which I can say has become so much of a part of me.

Not to a point of a relationship but more of a religion, to spend hours and hours thinking, dreaming, sleeping, eating, working, lifting, pushing crossfit.

I bring a baseball in my bag wherever I go now so I can take some time to roll the body.

If I'm waiting for something to start, I just start stretching my back, shoulder, lats.

I've begun to start on the Paleo diet quite a while back which really honestly hurts me big time.

The dreams I dream about have been skewed towards pushing your body.

My vision in life is now to use crossfit to help those people who can't help themselves.

It has invaded every single component, area, part segment of my body.

I mean, I'm no coach, I'm no first class athlete, if anything at all, I'm far from being very good.

However, all I can say is that I believe in this 'religion' enough to see it's success.

I guess I've gotta change my attitude towards things cause if I ever wanna do something big.

I better start getting my game together...

I had better be aware of the things that I do, the things that I say.

Mature up Big Boy....

However, easier said than done, I know myself. I'm largely childish, I love having fun!

But still, I need to become someone people can depend on in the box.

When it comes to simple easy advice, I need to be the one who gives it properly...

I guess it's just like what everyone has said...

Maturity is all about the acceptance of responsibility.

A good leader which earns respect is one who knows the truly cares for those under him.

Not seeking any other motives but really caring....

I follow such a leader, I look up to these people.

One whom admits that he's got much to learn, that he isn't the best.

"Leave your ego at the door before you come in, cause it's probably gonna get crushed in here." - Crossfit

Sitting and staring, but smiling

Listening to : Christmas Lights - Coldplay

I don't exactly have much to blog about really.

Or rather, I don't have that many 'reflections' and thoughts these few days.

Those which I have on me shouldn't exactly be made public I guess.

However, just when that thought really came about I realized....

It's not just that I guess. Chancing upon Coldplays new Christmas song....

This is December, the year has come to an end. 2010 has been the fastest year yet.

Somehow I wish it was longer, make certain things right again.

I know, I've got a whole month left. This year has really been a great one.

The biggest for me, the loveliest, the happiest.

At the same time, I don't want it to end bad, I want it to end happy, looking back smiling.

I guess winter means a time of testing...

But it also is the festive season. :)

A good time to appreciate, remember, and smile.

It may not feel that way for you right now, but this is really the season to be jolly.

Hmmm, don't let anything or anyone take this joy of christmas away from you.

No matter what happens, even if it really feels like the direct opposite of Christmas...

Maybe you're waiting for snow? Maybe you're waiting for something else...

But guess what, you don't need any of that, it's really inside of you.

That joy, that happiness, is already there.

I mean, it's Christmas, we can't go out to have snowball fights, but we can still bask in each others company smiling, happy, enjoying everything as it comes by.

Taking it easy but at the same time making time for this season.

There may not be snow, but there're those Christmas Lights.

May all our trouble all be gone, as it shines on.

"Oh Christmas Lights, Light up the Street,

Light up the Fireworks in me,

May all your troubles soon be gone,

those Christmas lights, keep shining on."

3 2 1..... GO

Listening to : Electric Feel - Katy Perry

Through this little period of 'testing' in the form of exams...

I guess I've taken this little time to reflect and look back at how I've performed.

I guess now that it's all over. I know there're definitely a few things which I can say that I've learnt.

Certain things I know I definitely will not do again, certain things I think I'll do more...

Well here goes, hope it makes sense to those who've just ended their exams and wonder what's wrong. Why are they feeling a certain way??

Firstly, definitely, I have to remember that the people around me matter.

Guess it isn't just me who realized it. But everyone around me have said at least once or twice.

This exam mentality and the whole idea of 'chionging' has well brought about a changed mental.

That we are sadly supposed to neglect everything around us and well, just study.

This is well, sad, but real cause we really do that.

We just shut ourselves out from the World.

I can honestly say that in the midst of exams, I've only spoken to Shiming and even that is limited.

So yes, I do think that I really need slightly more time with the people around and well...

Don't forget the important things in life which have brought you thus far to begin with.

Another things is well... The people you mix with.

Honestly, you wanna soar like eagles, you don't mix with turkeys.

Simple mentality, very true. Resources and knowledge is spread by people, no books....

So yes, if you wanna do well, find the smart people, befriend them, and STICK with them.

However, not trying to say you neglect your others, but at least maintain a reasonable amount of contact with them... I didn't at all. Which was epic fail.

I guess one thing is that instead of simply studying and studying, I have to actually like it.

I recently received an interesting comment, that I'm no longer as passionate.

As on fire about the things that I study.

It's simple and evident. I'm pretty much like a book, easy to read.

If I like something, I keep talking about it. If something bothers me, I'll say it out.

And so.... I haven't been expressing much excitement I used to as compared to that in JC days.

So... I guess I have to start assimilating whatever I'm studying into life, and enjoy it.

Look at the wonders around it!

Basically, not results driven but knowledge driven.

Lastly, another thing is well, being an overcomer, looking and realizing that there're good things out there. We all talk about looking for the joy in suffering.

Sometimes it isn't there or well.. It's tough to find.

Maybe, just maybe, this joy is something which is right before your nose.

Don't miss out on the things which really matter, the dreams and visions you've had all along.

I'm sure, I'm very very sure that in the midst of working hard, we all have had that thought.

Maybe I should just give up and well, forget it.

But we need to remember the little wonders...

The things which are truly there for us and have impacted us before and hold on to them!

I mean, look at Michael Jackson, imagine if he was pressured to be a boxer when he was young..

And Mohammed Ali was driven to be a singer, what a disaster that would be.

We are all here for a purpose, doing something we like with that vision we have.

Cling on to that, cause that will drive you!

It may not be a vision, but person, REASON why you're in it...

The strongest people always have one... They know why they're in it for...

Because When the rubber meets the road and the results seem achievable....

We need all the help we can get...

Even if it's from the smallest of sources, it can do miracles for us in these desperate times...

So no matter how tough you are, I'm sure all these things have come across your mind before.

But ultimately, suck it up. Bear with it. Enjoy it and take some time to always remember....

FIGHT ON!

All Iz Well

Listening to : Pretty Girl Rock

Time to take a little sit at the bus stop of life.

During this exam period, I've done SO much thinking that I struggle to keep focused.

Many things have come and gone to distract and well cause some confusion at times.

Some we warranted, some weren't. However, one of the things which really made me think...

Was well, 3 idiots. No I'm not talking about any familiar 3 literal idiots that you know.

I'm talking about the movie... 3 idiots.

Well, for a lack of a better picture, this kind of explains what this movie is.

About 3 stooges finding out what it really means to be in college.
Studying what they really want to study, do what they really want to do.

To make their passion their profession, in all the rat race that we're in.

It's not so much about chasing that certificate or that grade, it's reality, the structure that we're in is largely unforgiving, merciless and ruthless when it comes to placings.

You are graded not by your efforts but by the standards of others.

Which really, sucks. It doesn't matter how much you know but it really matters how much others know.

Which made me realize, do I really want to be doing this? Slogging my life at this?

I know that ultimately, I've got many things I wanna do, many visions and dreams.

Don't get me wrong, I love what I'm studying, engineering is really interesting!

However, when it comes to a point when everything just seems so route and mundane.

It all doesn't make sense anymore. So what is your passion? The one thing that you love to do?

I mean, for us kids now, yeah this is our time to study.

But don't make it a chore, but instead, live it up, actually learn and not study.

Be really interested in what you're doing and not the other way round.

I know, it can get real tough at times, but essentially, this is what matters.

Don't focus on the grade, focus on what you've learnt.

"Don't chase success, chase excellence and success will chase you with it's pants down"

Very often, we're tricked into believing that this is not how things work.

If we want to make it up the ladder of life, we have to do things which we don't like.

I can say that it will probably bring you to far places, but well.

Will you really be happy? Seek to enjoy what you do.

Yeah, there may be fears such as, but what about my future?

What about my life to come? I won't have money.

However, I've learnt this phrase which has pretty much stuck with me this period.

"All Iz Well"

It doesn't improve the situation you are in one bit, but it gives your heart courage to face it.

It's not about doing it to the best, but doing it to the fullest.

Which really made me think, I want to do engineering, I want to learn.

But so do I for crossfit.

There's much more to life than your books everyone.

It's a reality which we need to understand, it doesn't revolve around grades.

On the other hand, your life revolves around many other things.

Don't dedicate your life to this rat race, succumb to the pressures of it. Instead, really make it a point to do what makes you... Happy.

Who am I?

Listening to : Clash - Junkie XL

I'm sorry World, I'm not here to lose.

I'm here to WIN! This is my time, my house.

Now is the moment, the time to make things happen.

I've got much more I wanna say. Really, but time doesn't permit.

For now, this is my opportunity to let GOD shine!

"I will conquer what has not been conquered.

Defeat is not in my creed.

I have trained my mind and body for this.

I recognize that my opponents do not expect me to win.

But I will not surrender. Weakness will not be in my heart

I will gladly go into that hall and I will move, groove and do everything that I can do.

I will reach my field of battle at any means possible.

And when I get there, I will arrive Violently.

The enemy CANNOT stop me.

To my side I have comrades. Never will I let them fall.

My opponent does not know my heart.

No one can deny me, define me or tell me who I can or cannot be!

What I can or cannot do.

Belief will change my World!

Defeat and retreat, are not defined to me.

I do understand this, I understand victory and never surrendering.

This week is the week, right here, right now.

I will not go home not without giving everything I've got.

Who am I?

I am a conqueror!"

ATC

Listening to : Don't Look Now - Keri Hilson ft Far East Movement

I probably dislike it when people get all mushy and explicit about feelings.

Maybe it's just me but I've always thought that you actually reserve who you truly are to others.

Revealing yourself to people who really know you.

While honestly, putting up a front in front of others at times.

It's quite surreal cause you'll never know when someones rise and fall depends on your own rise and fall. It can get rather tough at times but you'll get used to it...

Thus, I honestly wonder why some people post up real sensitive stuff for the entire World to see.

Trying to garner pity? Appeal to emotions?

Ok, some may take it in a harsh manner. Trying to have two points of view.

Some may say that it's facebook and twitter, I have all the liberty of saying how I feel.

Yeah I guess you do. But sometimes, the true question at times is whether being in a liberated free World really means what it represents?

Are we really free to say what we want to without ever affecting others?

Are we ourselves oblivious and unaffected by the words said by others?

I choose my next few words very carefully.

I do know that I'm somewhat treading on thin ice here.

But this is the Truth, it should set you free! But sometimes, it doesn't....

Your words create your World. Your words shape the surroundings around you.

Simple, just try, one day, don't smile, just put on the most sour face you can come up with.

Then display how you truly feel at every turn of the day.

Showing how much you just hate everything and just keep keep whining about how life sucks.

Trust me, it doesn't take a real rocket scientist to give you some statistical readings or charts...

You'll probably feel like hell, like you wouldn't wanna keep on in whatever it is anymore.

Now instead of that, head to where ever you are going to.

Put on a smile for the whole day. Be cheerful, be positive, be encouraging.

Keep believing and say to yourself, you can do it.

Wake up feeling happy, go to sleep thanking GOD for the marvelous day.

Have fun with you friends and speak happy things, talk about exams in an excited manner!

Now you'd you think you'll feel?

The simplest of things can make the biggest of difference.

So when you feel life sucks....

Don't confess it, change it!

Sometimes, you may need to share it with someone if it's slightly too unbearable.

Don't get me wrong, sharing burdens is definitely a must.

But over-doing it becomes a kettle.

When you just get hot and can't take it, you start boiling and there you go whistling!

That not only ruins whatever mood you're in, but also the mood of the people around you.

You may say that it's uncontrollable, it's beyond my reach!

You are always in control! In every situation you are in.

What you are in, be it in an exam, in a project, in a meeting, in a fight....

You always have control! Of your mouth, of your emotions, of your actions...

The last excuse I can ever accept is those few words.

It's beyond my reach! I can't help it....

But this is truly when you're decision comes in.

Are you going to give in and back down on your emotions? Or be on top of it?

Just like working out. Just like pushing yourself to your physical limits.

Power is nothing without control, balance, flexibility.

You may be strong willed, you extremely strong in the wrongest of ways.

Take time to reflect about your day.. That's what I try to do at least.

The heat is really catching up on me. But as for now, I can still keep sanity.

Sometimes, I blog about what I want to tell myself. What I need to get used to myself....

This is one of them, only till recently, I've been letting things rule me.

Well, This is MY HOUSE!

Motion

Listening to : Ours - The Bravery

If there was one thing you could do.

If there's one thing at all, what would it be?

No, I'm not talking about a bucket list idea...

But what is that one thing you would want to do for life?

A job, a career, a fun thing...

Well, I guess everyone in my stage of life is somewhat searching for what that is!

All I know is that there has to be some enthusiasm.

There has to be well, some love, some excitement in it.

Something to kind of turn you on.

Do what you love kinda thing??

Well, either way, I'm not too sure what is it for me myself.

However, I do know that well, the greatest people all have that singular passion in life.

To do something extraordinary!

I know it may seem like a tall order at first, but at the start, everyone may treat it as a big deal.

But somehow, it always seems to blossom to become an amazingly beautiful work.

Well, just take a look. Some of these real amazing people..

Needless to say, this man over here well, has passion!

His works may not seem too prudent at first sight, but well...

There's just something in his eyes, of burning desire to really change the country.

He has big shoes to fill, big problems to solve. But well....

I've good hopes for this US president. Passion is what drives him!

This man over here, is a classic.

He is pretty much the epitome of passion. Passion personified.

Nothing less than the best from him every time he steps up to the pulpit.

But no, it's not for the fame. It's really for the desire to change the world.

That's the thing about having passion and having that desire.

It's different from Working, from doing something cause you 'have' to.

You'll do it even if there're no returns whatsoever, you'll do it day in and out in spite of the heat.

You'll keep it up even when everyone goes against you.

You'll even do it with a smile cause you love it. Even though it can get tiring.

I'm sure there were times Pastor really felt like giving up.

Too many times... I'm sure.

But it's that certain passion and drive which keeps him from it. Passion to serve God.

Passion to serve the people. It's amazing what he does....

Really, I can never live up to that amount of expectation if I were him.

Well, the thing is, your passion can wear you out sometimes. So it's important....

Not to go to an extreme... Well, those are just some tips, no real backing... Yet...

Sometimes, your passion can be a real pain.

But that's when the real idea kicks in.

Cause you love it when it hurts, that's when it really starts to grow on you.

When you start to develop yourself to accomplishing it all.

What's more, you'll wanna spread what joy it has brought you to them.

But ultimately, even if it doesn't rack in big bucks, you'll pick up the keys, open the doors everyday to it. Cause you love it.

Maybe the best thing about it, is when eventually, people will come to see it.

And join you in it. :))

I actually wanted to end off with pressing on with your passion though it really gets rough.

But well, I guess I feel happier today...

It's not so much about pushing on and slogging through it.

Enjoy it. :) Have fun in it!

Do what you love, love what you do.

Don't go to school to study, go to enrich yourself.

Don't go to work to earn money, go to make a difference.

Don't turn to your left or right, you, yes YOU!

Make your day right. NOW!

Mighty``

Listening to : Run - Snow Patrol

I'd always like to think that there're people constantly looking out for me.

Believing in the things that I do...

With a slight glimpse of hope that in the end, there'll be people there knowing I can do it!

There'll be people there to rejoice and enjoy with me till the end.

I know there're people like that. :)

I'm really thankful for them. From the deepest of my heart, without them, I wouldn't be.

However, there's just a higher level to that, the respect which can be garnered.

Or rather, respect which I am willing to give.

I know I don't talk about this much... Maybe cause I don't exactly have one.

Or rather, I don't exactly identify with one which I can really relate to.

One which I can exactly give my life to and willing to press in to.

I've had past mentors and disciplers which I truly look up to.

However, it is quite comforting to know that I have found one.

I admit, I do respect him and I have ever since he sat me down one day to talk to me.

However, it was only till recently that I really opened up to him. To really be more responsive and desire to press in so much more.

I normally, really don't push for fellowship. I honestly let it come as it is.

But somehow, to this particular individual, I truly want to press in to.

I find it strange, but I find it really timely too.

Cause when I was really down and out, he had the heart to be there.

Not just that, to look for the care rather than the rod so instantaneously...

Which followed soon after...

But come on, that's life right. O mean what, can we really expect from something like that?

I just hope that from here on out, I've got some direction which is guided.

Maybe this will keep me from falling again and again.

At the same time, I try my hardest to be that pillar of strength for many others.

That at the same time, is another tall order on my part. However...

I've come to terms with that.

I guess I'm getting a small hang of that. I just wish that the prior fruits that I've had...

Will eventually flourish to be great and mighty things!

SECRET FRIEND!

Listening to : Angel - Akon

I hate to do it alone. To go through life living all by myself.

I have always thought to myself that I'm ok alone.

Or rather, if I were to be put on an island all alone, I'll probably get by just fine.

Like it totally won't be awkward to eat a meal alone sitting down enjoying great food.

Then I just realized today, I do hate it....

I may have been wrong to think that the extreme scenarios of aloneness are okay.

In fact, they're far from it.

I guess this is what being a companion for 4 years have done.

(No I'm not complaining!!)

But I've just realized this which seems quite strange to me.

Many things which seemed doable alone, doesn't exactly seem the case now.

I have always belittled encouragement especially in the tracks.

I mean, would a small soft voice actually affect the runners mental capability.

I used to always doubt that and never believed in real cheering!

I always did so just to get a small high for myself.

But now I know, encouragement, no matter how small, may mean the World at times.

It really does make sense to me nowadays.

I can never go through a crossfit WOD without someone shouting at me.

I just can't seem to do it. I won't be able to push as hard.

If someone were to say. LETS GO ONE MORE REP!

Then to me, it really does make a big difference!

I used to acknowledge that studying alone through the night is possible and okay.

Now, studying alone for more than 2-3 hours really fries my brain.

Makes me lose all motivation and I just wanna stop.

I won't be able to serve as well, give my all over and over again if it wasn't for people around be telling me that I can do it, encouraging me bit by bit.

My perception has changed big time.

I've become well... people dependent.

I need people around me for me to excel. For me to go beyond what I can.

I need that push, that competition, that encouragement.

Be it small or big.

Sometimes, the strongest motivation can come from the person whom is slogging it out with you!

I will always remember, how people shout and say COME ON!

In a work out when they themselves are struggling to finish it.

It gives me well, HOPE to the end...

Sometimes, even the enthusiasm from another can be a source of mighty strength!

The look of determination and focus and either freak or inspire you to do things greater!

Man oh man, now when I look back, I wonder how on Earth I survived living like that.

Well, I do not doubt that some alone time is very important.

I admit that having some is even vital for progress!

However, I have come to realize, that most of the times, I'm with someone.

Either screaming or shouting alongside for VICTORY!

Man, I need more friends like that. I'm being frank here....

It's my blog, I can say what I want....

YES! I need more encouraging, enthusiastic friends!

Maybe even like this fella here....

MY GYM

Listening to : -

When someone can say such things about not just your gym, but about your family, about your life, about your cellgroup and even your church. Then that's when you know you've pretty much succeeded.

My Gym from Patrick Cummings on Vimeo.

Just try it, change the words to that organization / cell group you go to.

Does it reflect it that way?

It does make me wonder, if I were to have a cell group.

Just if, one day....

I would want to have a culture of not just a cell group.

But that of a Box and CG combined.

You could say, that is what I truly desire...

Weight

Listening to : A time for Yohe - Between The Trees

It's easy to say it's too heavy and push it aside.

It's even easier to off load burdens on another person when it get's too heavy.

But this is the sticking point.

The tipping point....

When all you've done all counts for this specific moment.

Whether you step up? Or you back down?

At times, you feel that you're given the weight of the World.

Like everything you've ever thought off is on your shoulders.

Literally, you're trying to carry not just your own... But others as well.

Perhaps that is the impact and the responsibility that a Leader has.

It's not just his own life at stake.

It's probably him and everyone else under him.

When one leader falls it's even more detrimental than anyone else falling.

Yes, the burden is heavy and it's often tough to bear.

I would love to help some people share their burdens at times.

However, sometimes, there's just a fine line which stops us from asking for help.

Maybe... Just maybe, it's the pride inside of us.

Which really hinders whatever we try to do...

That pride inside of us erases the humility within you...

You've gotta learn when to ask for HELP!

I know, I've done so a few times. I know myself that I'm guilty of it at times, of giving it all to myself, placing every single bit of the blame on myself.

I have to admit, carrying such weight is tough.

You're just one person, really...

We've just so much we can take.

I have to admit, some can take more, some can take less....

I for one, have tried my best to hold up for as long as possible.

At times, it's really to no avail whatsoever....

More often than not, I do fail, but the times when I worked with someone...

I seem to make it better.

Sometimes we just wish someone was in my shoes.

Like someone could just understand what I am going through.

We all wish that way, EVERY single one of us does.

So instead of simply just taking, how about trying to put yourself in their shoes for once.

Don't be the taker, but be the giver.

I know the pain we all go through when we force ourselves to try to understand someone when

we honestly have zip experience at all.

It may sound really cliche, but it's really the thought that counts.

Little do we know, by giving a little to that someone, we give that 'hope', we give that 'smile'.

I know I need to give more, at the same time...

Maybe I just need to let more in to my life.

To take a little off these shoulders of mine.

For some to just come and give me that pat when they're just the few who know what I'm exactly going through, what I'm facing with and the pressures I'm up against.

Not many people can appreciate it, really....

I may seem carefree, but often, I've got much on my backs....

open heart

Listening to : Darlin - Between The Trees

A smile makes a World of a difference.

Happiness is shared.

More than that, hope is given.....

Sometimes, it does get hard to smile.

To find that joy in life at times.

Somehow, one way or another....

We all seem to be like streams connected to that same river.

It doesn't come naturally, but you have to flow to down.

Simplest thing of all...

We all want to be great and do amazing things.

But sometimes, we all just have that small little plug to fill.

In that someones life.

It may be many, it may be just one.

All other prizes, achievements come to nothing when you see that smile on anothers face.

Everytime you sleep, when you wake.

Your eyes may be closed, or may be open.

But one thing I know, my heart is open.

One smile can take away all sorrows, take your breath away.

Give you hope for the next day.