Start your Engines!!

The engine is rusty, oil is old. However the car has just been polished, buffed and wiped totally clean. At times that is what I feel. Trying to think. Ok I'm going to rest for this period of time. But actually It aint working, The man inside aint getting enough rest!! Thus the wearing out process is not slowed down.

I stopped the car 4 days ago, now I gotta struggle to restart my engine!! Perhaps the old traditional method of giving a good old kick may work..........If anybody is reading this......Bring me into reality by doing what is needed!!!

The battle is over, however the war is not lost!! Well recently I just watched Gladiator. So totally cool! Well relating back, heh it seems the general became a slave and the slave overpowered the emperor, hopefully one day I can overpower these books of mine....

Sounds totally psychotic?? Frankly, I'm tired of being sane...right...now that just sounds wierd... I take back what I just said...Wait why am I typing whatever that runs thru my mind on this blog? Hmmm...this is wierd....I'm losing it...heh....

Tell me what you want, want you really really want.....Lionel SiNGssssss!!!!!!!!

Will you run with me??

At times we realise nothing is working. Seriously everything falls down. Everybody experiences it. Even me. However i choose to keep running. Despite falling. I may fall again but I'll pick up again. If its a vicious cycle, then i'll make sure i keep getting up!!! These past few weeks, I have seen people go up sprinting. However in the slightest stone that hits their feet. They fall, fall so badly they can't get up. I can help. A friend in need is a friend in deed. But there's so much I can help. Ultimately it all boils down to this, "will you run with me??".

If there's a will, there's a way.............

It Is finished

Months have passed. The worst is over? This is the very last time i'll be seeing such an exam paper ever again. No more papers titled Maris Stella. This is it. Prelims are over. But there's a bigger war waiting for us!!

People screamed, shouted for joy. Frankly its a real joyous occasion. Everybody deserves a pat on the back, everyone deserves a good rest. Don't care about how well you did in the past few papers, you deserve the good night's rest. All of us do. Me? What rest?

Its havoc, it madness, but its absolute pure enjoyment!! For the next 5 days, gonna relax and abandon my books. Bye bye. Heh. Went to East Coast Park, had fun there. Cycled to Changi Airport, k that is crazy and I'll never do that again. Learned how to skate and yes it fun! (except the falling part...OUCH!!!)

Well most of all. Thank God its all over. I really believe he carried me through this extremely tough time. I didn't break down from stress. Seriously thank God for that!

Outbreak....Disaster!!

There are a few sypmtoms of exam stress, many in fact but gonna name a common few I've seen.
1) Stress, everybody experiences this, rushing for time, lack of sleep, days of tireless studying. This is very common.
2) Lack of sleep resulting in eye bags!! Hmmm though its really ugly, i guess this can be tolerated. Maybe cause almost everybody has it?? even though you sleep like real early.
3)Realise you're gonna fail anyway. This is bad, you lose motivation to study and fail, continueing a very vicious cycle.
4) Losing your mind. This is when you start laughing for no apparent reason or start speaking way out of point at times. K this is rare...but it happens....this is scary...
5)Anti-socialism. This is when you begin to be so competitive or stress you begin to backstab people or ignore every friend you come across just cuz you wanna spend more time studying.
6)Indulging in Food. This is an outlet for relieving stress...once again...its a scary cycle.
7)Pimple Outbreak. This is the saddest of all. You get so stress, outbreak!! Whatever happens...please please...avoid this!!! Its a disaster!! Seriously...I noticed a few in my class having outbreaks...so please people!! Study hard but take care of your face!!=) Hopefully this helps any O or A level student...heh...

Time to Shine!!

Some people deem the Exam period the most stressful, some wierdos think its real relaxing. For me, it hasn't been a real stroll in the park. WHy am I here blogging and not studying?? I'm experiencing a rare symptom of exams, the "I think I know everything, but actually I don't so I got no more drive to study." This my frenz, is extremely annoying. Well...I don't know I still feel rather confident everytime I enter the exam hall, leaving confident is another issue altogether. However one thing that I realised, some people enter real stressed, and these guys are like REAL STRESSED, an outbreak of pimples, never thinking that they're ever ready, oh man. Please!! Seriously, its only an exam!! Well... How do you get confidence?? Well a couple of things I realise. 1) You gotta be confident with your knowledge, study hard but everytime you cover ground in your text or your 10 year series, think to yourself, you're one step closer, you feel much more assured!! 2) this I feel is the most important!! You have to be confident in who you are in Christ!! If you know you are a victor, a conqueror, overcomer. You'll realise, no matter how nerve wrenching it may be, you can remain calm. In this exam period, you can choose to shine or be shone upon, its up to you.

I can do the impossible

I have finally felt it means to truly be "stressed". Don't get me wrong, its not all from studies, in fact I'm feeling very very little stress from my Studies at the moment. however, yesterday was service day, everything went well, the message preached was awesome!! However, Hmm I won't really mention much but yeah, I really felt real stressed and a little irritated because of the stress, wasn't too happy when I went home, hmmm. Everything just seemed to pile on top of me, really so much! It gets real tiring. Seriously, I have never felt this way in an extremely long time. EVERYTHING SEEMED TO FALL DOWN ON ME!!!! Well when I got home, It didn't get one bit better, hmmm till I just felt, my goodness, I have no way out. Till I simply picked up the Bible and read then hey, God Is close to the broken hearted. It made me remember, remember all the good times, when God really delivered me, how he made me do the impossible. Then I got up and Praised, Like never before!! Then that night, so many people started encouraging me through sms, I have no idea why!! it made me feel real good. I felt I could take on Giants again, I felt I could move Mountains! I felt I could do the impossible once again!!=)

God is bigger than the air I breathe
The world we'll leave
God will save the day and all will say
My glorious!

Ok I had to post this...although racist but ahhh!! This is real funny!! 

Explore Explore

It was a real bor to study recently...don't really know why, found myself slacking much more than I should, anyway today crashed NYP!! Frankly it was kinda interesting, all their com labs and stuffs, the people there were kinda friendly. Studied there with one of my ushers, the mac there is so so so so so cheap!! $5 for a double mcspicy upsize!! WOW!!

Ok fine, I'm lame, I'm bored, but yeah chanced upon a blog and this person commented this on FOP ushering. "I envy those who couldn't feel their legs, I could feel mine, and they hurt." Heh...

Stress??

It's back to daily normal studious life now. I found it rather easy to get back on track. however, it just seems so near yet so far. WHY!!! I feel I know everything but the fact is I Don't!! This makes me lose the drive and motivation to study. I was kind of agitated yesterday when I was doing maths but it seems I've completed everything, however when I did a paper, Nothing could seem to work out for me. Its 5 days to prelims, I'm tired of being freaked out, tired of being nervous. I seriously don't know if this is good or bad.

All I Need is you , All I need is you Lord, Is you Lord..............

Festival of Prasie

It was a time or pure worship, pure excitement, enjoyment, perhaps there are many words to describe this. However, Festival Of praise has really been great!! Well lets start from Thursday. i kinda ditched my A Maths cuz I kinda felt i needed to head down for Support, so yeah went down. Helped in some areas, and wow to my surprise, Bro Alex needed me for support, I was thinking nothing much. Hmmm. Ran a little, kinda shack amazingly. With sports shoe I ran till my leg hurt a little. Imagine with leather shoes?

Friday Came homr from school, printed some stuff, got prayed up and reported for duty. And yes for the first time I worked with Sijia. Haha! Helped Sis beat for traffic then immediately went down to run for 80 or brother alex at 7. Was kinda hectic, people everywhere, learnt the importance of even the smallest things, not just the big picture but the minority as well! Praise and Worship was a real experience!!

Saturday went down a little early, did support, same thing, wow things like bottle necks, work stoppages, it all seems so clear! There after. Got ready for FOP! It's round 2! I felt Everything seemed to flow better, even got to work with heart of god ushers! Now saturday was real tiring.
However Praise and Worship was still awesome!! Majesty, Take all of me, all i need is you, I give you my heart, all these songs were sung, I loved them!! Wahaha!! Delerious was cool, Hillsong as well! Well that night, my brother for some reason called me to help him in traffic. hmmm ok. So helped him for a while. But i was sooooooo tired!! at like 1145 was literally waiting for my bro at logistics, then waited outside cause logistics needed to pack. then at like 12, my bro finally decided to go home!! WOOHOO! he passed me his jacket cover asking me to hold it, but then he grabbed my hand and pulled me, everybody around started singing happy birthday!! Then I realised!! OH MY GOODNESS!!! ITS MY BIRTHDAY!!! 7th august!! Haha! I was so touched by it!=)

Sunday!! My brothday day!! haha well yes I still served!! This time with joy! Some people ask whats the best gift? HMmm frankly I would say, being able to serve God on my brithday!! wahaha!! Won't say much about duty but yeah wanna thank a few peopel overall for this FOP!!

Qing Ni - Guided me well!! Taught me much!! If you have not been here! I doubt I'll be where I am now!! Thanks abot!!

Sis shirley, Bro Eugene - You've given opportunities to serve as much as I can!! I expand my capacity and taught me much!! thanks so much!!

My CG W216!! - Despite them not being around me for this whole FOP, you've all helped me alot my by all of those sms!!

Bro Alex!! - Thanks so so so much for giving me this opporutnity!! It was indeed enjoyable running for you!! I have learnt much!! Absorbed much!! What I have gotten in SIS i'll bring it back and pass it to everybody!!

All ushers!! - Sorry If you're not mentioned but yeah! It's great working with all of you!!

Oh yeah one last person, last but not least,
Sijia - Well it's like the first time working with you?? Thought you really did a great job, never expected to work with you that well, expected us to joke around alot heh. But yeah I hope you learnt something this FOP!! COntinue to grow yeah!! I did have fun running along side with you!!

Miracles do happen

Well I guess miracles indeed do happen. In this short period of like what, 1 month?? I have seen the trials, temptations and blessings in this arise and build. However what recently happened has indeed made known, that this cannot be denied. MAking that 1st step indeed is the most important, it moves mountains. Here's the story. I was in my mum's car, driving home from BS. Was rather tired, but was conversing. Till she told me something. My grandfather had recieved some money and is going to treat us a dinner one day. I was thinking he won some horse bet or something. However, it was far from that. Many years ago, My Grandfather's grandfather was a son of a real rich man in the past. In other words, my great great great grandpa was a real rich person. So due to the relation, my grandfather would recieve like $2000 every 6 months. I was thinking, wow not bad. However this month was different, due to the real huge profits made, he got $20000!!!! tats like 10 times the usual!! Well it sounded good, then my mum told me, couple of years back, she lent money to my grandfather, now he returns it, double. she recieved $5000. Whats the amazing thing? When she pledged for arise and build, she was really financially tight. Really tight!! However she pledged a huge amount! Unknowingly, there was a move in the spirit realm. She pledged her precious, her real life savings!! How much did she pledge?? $5000.

Whatever God calls for He provides - Pst Kong

Something Amiss

Perhaps something is wrong. Or I simply can't accept failure. Whatever happens, I always seem to say It's good, though it's real bad, I still say it's good. Don't really know but Sometimes I really have to admit. It really is very very bad. Wondering what I'm speaking about? 2 things. 1 was yesterday's duty. Frankly It wasn't well done. It was rather bad. In fact very bad. I focused so much on the big things, till I forgot about the minor details. I was so absorbed with getting everything in place. I forgot to accomplish the minority. Perhaps I'm putting too much pressure on myself? Perhaps I think too much on the results and what will people say about me? Whatever it is. One thing I know. This is Wrong!!! Change has to happen! I like what Mike Connel said. We all have to change!! 2nd thing was that one of my friends, well I won't mention who, if i do it'll break his heart even more. However, Me saying it's ok it's ok may not work all the time. Something I realised.

Well nontheless next week is FOP. Well I was pleasently surprised by many things. I frankly don't know if this is good or bad. Prelims in 2 weeks. But many things were assigned to me. 1) I just recieved my position for FOP, Gonna run for Brother Alex once again!! Hopefully it'll be fun this time! 2)Recruitment! 3)Photos for Lawrence. Well it can all work well. But one thing! Time management! =) and definitely With God I can do all things!