Maggie

Listening to : Bring it - Jodie Connor

Well I took something off an affiliates web, nothing too deep.

But well, something many of us just need to face up to in life.

Ok, fine. Maybe it's just me...

"I had this Captain at Officer Training School when I was in the Air Force: Maggie Childress. She could ride you like nobody else. Get up in your sh** and make you produce. When she wasn’t around, other OT candidates would bitch fiercely about her.
“Who does she think she is?”
“WTF? Can’t I ever get a break?”
“I don’t like her.”
When they’d try to get me to join in their kvetching, I had one question for them: “Does she make you better?”
And they always had the same answer, mixed among their protests and whines: “Yeah, she does. She makes me better.”
End of story.
Are you a Maggie Childress? Or are you just somebody’s best friend for an hour?"

- Crossfit Lisbeth

Breathe and conquer

Listening to : Just Say Yes - Snow Patrol

Man, I think in due time, I need a holiday or something.

When everything messes up, it all happens at the same time.

Guess It's true as to what they say, Murphy is my best friend.

It really doesn't help when the people whom I'd like to hear some support from just gives instructions and stuff like that. Though I do appreciate it really.

I'm working alot harder this semester (I think), having no life most of the time...

Still need to vastly occupy my mind and yes, I'm not focused so make it up with time.

Crossfit has been treating me well, providing a certain sense of escape.

Not just that but well, a sense of accomplishment as well.

How do you put it, it's where I know I can be who I am without anyone judging me as well.

Either way, there's much work to be done. I can't rest now....

The coming weeks are going to be quite hellish for me.

However, one thing I did learn from yesterday.

"Breathe, and conquer."

Please don't have somebody waiting

Listening to : Enchanted - Taylor Swift

Today, it has really come down. Thought I was able to get everything in order...

To well, be on top of everything and well make this a good semester, a good life.

But....

Things which I do wanna say can't be explicitly put into words.

Not here at least...

To YXYL, I'm just thinking a little, not emo... don't worry.

Choc chip

Listening to : The Everglow - Mae

And so after so so long, we're actually here. In this promised land of ours.

I'm really glad cause it's been well, 6 years? Since we began this vision with Pastor.

I totally believe in it and am willing to go all out with him in this.

Being part of it from the beginning really means alot.

Yeah, times haven't been too good. for the church as well as for well, me honestly...

Way too much thinking going on in this puny head of mine.

Too Much for my own good.

But well, like what Pastor said on Tuesday.

What matters now, is that we get better, focused on what is truly at hand.

So please, really, trust that I am doing the right thing and get off my back will you?

Seeing the new hall was so captivating, it's so majestic, it's beyond description.

I'm truly honored to be part of this, to help in setting up this symbol of victory.

That aside, being focused and sure in my work has never been too tough.

Wonder how bad this semester will be, maybe it's too late for me to salvage any of my grades.

But I think I'm still going to give it all I've got.

Just like well, what Moses said, this sem, I'm a different Lionel....

Gotta wake up and drink my chocolate chip cream.

I'm still hoping!

Be Better...

Listening to : Drops Of Jupiter - Train

And so it begins, the distinctive painful strive for the better side of me.

I guess we all wanna be bigger, smarter, stronger. but really, be better.

Enough of being in a rut, time to really pull up those socks of mine.

Get down to the real business of life, which is well essentially, you.

Yes, you reading this. If you are, you care (even a little bit) about my life.

And yes, I would like to meet you soon, rebuild this relationship that we used to have, or possibly can have!

Life isn't all about being the best. I learnt that today.

With well, tears in my eyes....

Found.

Listening to : Love Lost - Temper Trap

What if I made the biggest mistake of my life. What if I'm just unsure and confused with what I want.

What if in the coming days, I realize that I'm the biggest ass around town.

I'm killing myself just by thinking all the time.

Love lost but...