Moment lost.

Listening to : Fireworks - Katy Perry

So this is the last post of the decade. This blog has been good to me the past years.

I have to admit, recounting the past 10 years would be a blast but slightly too troublesome.

Instead, I'll stick to the usual tradition of well looking back at the year. 2010...

It's truly been an AMAZING year, there were some real highs, similarly, some real LOWS.

Either way, I'm really grateful to God, family, friends for this great year.

I have to admit, 2010 has been my most eventful year yet. Pretty much the best year as well.

Ok, let's try to think back and pick out some real milestones this year in Chronological order.

Of which are the things I can only remember off hand

1) Korea

The first of many overseas trips this year. Was also a first with my brother alone.

I really enjoyed it and learnt alot. It was somewhat a study trip to see the great and mighty things.

I'm forever kept in awe by the attitudes of prayer and how all of those Koreans live their lives.

However, maybe the highlight of the entire Korea trip was well...

Some good time spent with my brother. I don't have that too often...

But I'm glad we did that, it was a good chance to spend some nice time together. No, no htht.

2) USA

A good ORD trip with my best buddies around. Mark and Erwin. It was really an eye opener.

To see the whole World and enjoy life. I was really amazed by the sights and sounds.

We even caught the Lakers up close and personal.. Man!

Really a trip I'll never forget! One of the most fun ones as well!

3) Entering SOT

It was pretty much an uncertain decision for me. I really initially hesitated big time.

But the moment I got in, I remember clearly what Pauline said. Have Faith.

And so, it turned out to be a good decision to actually do so.

Went in as a team leader which I really didn't expect and didn't know what more to do.

Another shock was that my team was half Taiwanese. Ie. CHINESE SPEAKING

So yeah, it was really a challenge but it was all worth it. The Taiwanese never fail to amaze me.

SOT was also great for the many things and moves that we learnt and did. Thank God!

4) Crossfit

To think about it, this year has been pretty random. However, I do not believe in coincidences.

Crossfit came about as a random suggestion from David for us to try.

However, it well became something which will really change the way I look at life.

I've said enough about it in my other blog posts.

But the vision of using crossfit to change lives has captivated my heart.

It isn't just a fitness program, it's a lifestyle, a vision.

5) Asia Conference, Manhunt

Yeah, once again, I was forced into joining it, never really wanted to go through Manhunt.

Then again, I was really amazed and surprised cause well, I met some really good people there.

There I learnt how to compose myself, speak on stage and carry myself strongly.

Not just that, serving in Asia Conference was also something I would never forget.

Sleeping like 4 hours a day for 5 days and keeping up the spirit.

It was really a challenge, but in the back of our heads. We know that we have changed Asia in a small small way. :)

PS. I won Mr AC. Which was double shock / joy. WOOHOO!

6) Mission Trip, Kuching

This has to be one of the greatest eye openers for all of us.

To see how people in other nations live their lives, the poverty that they are in.

The hunger for the gospel and vision in their lives. The passion for greater things.

The majesty of how God's Kingdom is being spread.

I'm always shocked. Kuching has a place in my heart.

This coupled with the simultaneous teachings of cultural mandate and crossfit just makes all fall into place. I'm here for a reason I now know my vision.

7) 21st Birthday

Pretty much the most surprising/shocking/happiest week of the year. Enough said!

Shiming really did an amazing one. Brought me to all of the various places.

Well, one of the highlights was Singfest!!! WOWW!!

Another was well, seeing my dream come true. My photo wall... :)

8) SOT graduation

The times seem to fly by when you look back in such a manner. The Taiwanese have changed me as much as CHC has changed them.

Team 1 will always remain in my heart. SOT has taught me how to preach, sing, lead and do many more amazing things which I've never dreamt of doing!

Now as we part our ways, I know that we will all do greater things.

Winning runner up for best performance was but yet a simple bonus to the treasures I've attained in my heart.

9) Jeff

I know this comes across as something really strange. However, I clearly remember that it was past graduation when he really began to speak into my life.

I treasure him soooo much as a leader. He has really spoken many truths on how I go about doing many amazing things.

I guess from my perspective, I have never had him doubt me for one single moment.

Conversely, he's always been there, supporting me, understanding and teaching me.

Thanks Jeff.

10) NUS

Going back to school wasn't easy. No transition period whatsoever.

but I'm glad that beside me, I've people to help me get used to it.

No doubt, wasn't as fantastic a semester.

But I'm glad that I had people like YX and shiming there. :)

Coming together with the old BDPs to study and work again feels all nostalgic.

11) 4th anniversary

It's been long, it's been amazing, 4 years with Shiming was really a feat and a treat.

I do treasure her every single day. :)

I may not be the sweetest, I may not be the most romantic guy around.

Gosh, I bring her to library and crossfit for dates.

But ultimately, I do love her, one great deal.

12) Multiplication

Didn't really feel like something big for me. but a real proud moment though.

Shiming has become a CGL. I've never been this proud. Though yes, there have been much contest in my heart in this new cell.

However, I'll work hard. Cause she is. :)

Well, that's about all the big stuff that's happened this year. If I've left out anything, do let me know! However, on the flip side, maybe not... cause I'm looking ahead now.

2010 was great! I'm sure it was cause of you, reading this now...

The people have come and gone but all of them played a part in shaping me to who I am today.

So thank you for making 2010 this amazing and crazy and whacky and awesome.

2010 is now over, let's look ahead. 2011 will be an even more amazing year.

Let's do it. Together!

Hope tonight.

Listening to : Christmas Lights - Coldplay

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE! :)

Now, I'm sorely lacking in sleep. Very much content in my heart.

However, I'm somewhat put down, or in a better sense slightly burdened by something i read.

While surfing the net, I came across a page on CNA. Well, it's about foreign domestic workers.

On this Christmas day, where everyone is out enjoying and appreciating one another.

It really is a big damp on their spirits when somehow they're unable to do so.

For some, it's cause they can't or isn't let out of the house.

But for many, it's well cause they have no one to spend it with.

I count myself tremendously blessed to have many to celebrate Christmas with.

I've recently been called the one who makes Christmas a big deal.

Well, why shouldn't we? It's Christmas and everyone should be spending some time acknowledging the birth of our Savior Jesus Christ.

I know that for some, they don't believe and all that... But beyond religion, isn't it a place for people to well... Come together and appreciate. What they've got..

So yeah, if I didn't have anyone to spend Christmas with, I'll be quite sad.

So I just had a simple wonder, I guess there're many whom don't have such a privilege.

Many who don't have a family understanding enough to appreciate them or to love them.

Christmas is just another day to sleep in and enjoy the Public Holiday. No spirit whatsoever...

For some, they just don't have anything for themselves at all.

My heart really does ache for them. Maybe cause I think back and realize that well, maybe I haven't been to appreciative to people whom DON'T have people to spend it with.

I guess it's just me? But to have people simply indulging in themselves, not going to people who really want to spend Christmas with someone lonely is somewhat selfish.

I'm glad that at least Gina has friends and family to go out with, have dinner and celebrate Christmas with on such a day.

Well, I just somewhat hoped that she would find joy in spending it with well... me, my family.

I know we have to reach the lost.... I really know so...

But... Maybe just for this year, I'm sticking my head out more for these people...

Even at dinner today, looking at my grandparents, makes me smile...

Seeing a tweet from a friend.

"no better way to spend Christmas dinner than to be with my grandma in Hospital."

We easily overlook, neglect and sometimes even trample upon people who need our attention.

I'm not trying to sound philanthropic or anything of sorts...

Well, for someone whose Christmas doesn't feel like one at all...

Maybe those Christmas lights can really light someones life up. That little trip to Orchard road, that little trip to church can make them feel like the World once again.

This Christmas, many feel that nobody cares...

I know it may be too late, but it's still in the season, be that Christmas Light for someone.

Light up the fireworks within them. Cause their smile may mean the World to you.

Maybe specifically, to that person living next door, that one living downstairs, the person who has been looking over you for the past 21 years of your life. Small or big, do it today. :)

Once again, wishing you a very Merry Christmas.

2010 was amazing, 2011 will be better!

Information

Listening to : Good Life - One Republic

So results are out, No I didn't do too well.

I'm alright, no worries. I'm back up and running.

However, I came across an old video which explained the real facts of information.

I know I blogged about this before.

But it's real and it's affecting well ME!

That knowledge and information is being spread faster in recent times than years ago COMBINED.

I dunno about you, but that's real scary. That means that whatever I'm studying now...

Will be outdated in the next couple of years.

What does that mean? Other than the foundations and basics....

It's quite pointless to specialize, cause in future, the problems that I will encounter and I solve...

Does not even exist today....

THAT is quite a freak.

Not trying to say I ain't studying no more.

But well, I'm in university. I think it's time to really take a change in mindset.

To think for a change...

Cause right now, I don't see myself doing whatever I'm studying...

I know it's for analytical purposes. But what I really need to do?

To be a trend-spotter.

Well, new technologies are arising faster than I'm adapting.

I guess by the time this blog entry is over, a new tech has probably been thought of or invented.

No doubt that this scares people and brings whatever we're doing into perspective.

So instead, of chasing the paper....

Well, I guess I should be looking out and attuning my senses to new concepts, hidden potentials.

Doing so will enlarge my capacity, broaden my perspectives.

I need to know what's the NEW IN THING.

Put it this way, 10 years ago, the idea of a gym never came into existence.

Now there's pilates, yoga and yes even crossfit.

Of which, now that I think of it, I'm unsure whether it can stand the test of time.

So what can? The church has... Which is built on a simple block...

Being very very objective here...

Family, sharing, networking, expression, life-lessons, care, Love.

Certain trends have hinged on humanity and will not change.

These are the things which we should be aiming at! Tech will change for sure....

Problems will change in kind, but I'm sure they will not change in approach.

Next sem Will be better. I'm gonna try this out! To take a step back to realize the problem, the approach and the concept behind it all....

Nuff said

Well today needs no explanation.

What you are about to watch is what it means.

It's all inside of you.

Just one last push, or for some, one fresh start.

Don't worry about what you have or don't have.

What you're starting this year with.

PS. I love that part where the screams come and pain start to show. Yeah ALOT of pain.

What you've got doesn't exempt you from it.

It only aggravates the desire to overcome it.

You've got just the right stuff inside. So get going!!

Wan Liao

Listening to : Tiesto - Ep 193

Ok, I'm just freaking out. This may appear more like a fb update kind of thing.

But I guess I need to express this.

GOSH. 2010 is coming to an end!

I mean, this is for me, the wildest, biggest year yet!

And it's coming to an end. I know, many people see me as many things.

But I wanna know how much I look at myself at times.

Time to really just sit down and well, do some good thinking.

Thank God it's reservist. Good time to do so....

Good time to think and well, get my mind to who I am supposed to be and not who I am.

Meditate on a few things....

grit

Listening to : Fireworks - Katy Perry

You can't walk straight with your head in reverse. It's just common sense.

Sometimes I wonder how'd then do you learn from mistakes, move on in life and grow from it.

Well, simple... It's etched in your hearts, memories, mind.

Take what you've learned and simple put it in everyday life.

No point reinventing the wheel, unless you know of a better more efficient system.

However, you'll never get to greater heights if you do not grow from everything learnt as a wheel.

Certain things just DON'T change in life, certain things which work will always be in place.

Everytime my hands go on to the bar, I put my hands on my head, praying for strength.

Bending over, confessing that I can indeed do all things.

Believing that I am more than a conqueror.

The left hand grips first, with a small confession of how God is with me.

Then the right, with a declaration of how it's all for Jesus.

Then looking up engaging the lambar remembering that the Holy Spirit is always with me.

Followed by showtime.

To think of it, this has been the case every single time.

The hands being positioned on the track.

The clicking of the pens and aligning of stationary.

The handling of the headphones and adjusting it for controlling positions.

It all seems to follow a certain pattern.

I must never forget this. This is what keeps the God factor in the works of God.

Strength does not come from your body. No it doesn't.

It comes from the heart, from what you believe in!

It may not be what I do, may not be a similar routine.

Man, it may not even be a similar belief, but no excuses.

It all has to come from COMMITMENT of the heart.

Leave it outside please...

Listening to : Sing - My Chemical Romance

Sickness is in the house!

A plague which I truly detest, a spread of germs which infest.

Not just impeding my health and daily work.

But obstructs my progress in Crossfit. Now THAT is largely irritating.

I have come to realize how much I am dedicated to it.

How much time, energy, sleep, money I have invested into Crossfit.

I guess it isn't just a fitness program for someone to just get fit and look good.

it's a lifestyle. But well, right now for me. If I can so say and not offend anyone....

Crossfit has become somewhat of a Religion to me. No, I am not backsliding.

I'm still a Christian but I believe that for us, it's more of a relationship rather than a religion.

Yeah, so for crossfit, it's something which I can say has become so much of a part of me.

Not to a point of a relationship but more of a religion, to spend hours and hours thinking, dreaming, sleeping, eating, working, lifting, pushing crossfit.

I bring a baseball in my bag wherever I go now so I can take some time to roll the body.

If I'm waiting for something to start, I just start stretching my back, shoulder, lats.

I've begun to start on the Paleo diet quite a while back which really honestly hurts me big time.

The dreams I dream about have been skewed towards pushing your body.

My vision in life is now to use crossfit to help those people who can't help themselves.

It has invaded every single component, area, part segment of my body.

I mean, I'm no coach, I'm no first class athlete, if anything at all, I'm far from being very good.

However, all I can say is that I believe in this 'religion' enough to see it's success.

I guess I've gotta change my attitude towards things cause if I ever wanna do something big.

I better start getting my game together...

I had better be aware of the things that I do, the things that I say.

Mature up Big Boy....

However, easier said than done, I know myself. I'm largely childish, I love having fun!

But still, I need to become someone people can depend on in the box.

When it comes to simple easy advice, I need to be the one who gives it properly...

I guess it's just like what everyone has said...

Maturity is all about the acceptance of responsibility.

A good leader which earns respect is one who knows the truly cares for those under him.

Not seeking any other motives but really caring....

I follow such a leader, I look up to these people.

One whom admits that he's got much to learn, that he isn't the best.

"Leave your ego at the door before you come in, cause it's probably gonna get crushed in here." - Crossfit

Sitting and staring, but smiling

Listening to : Christmas Lights - Coldplay

I don't exactly have much to blog about really.

Or rather, I don't have that many 'reflections' and thoughts these few days.

Those which I have on me shouldn't exactly be made public I guess.

However, just when that thought really came about I realized....

It's not just that I guess. Chancing upon Coldplays new Christmas song....

This is December, the year has come to an end. 2010 has been the fastest year yet.

Somehow I wish it was longer, make certain things right again.

I know, I've got a whole month left. This year has really been a great one.

The biggest for me, the loveliest, the happiest.

At the same time, I don't want it to end bad, I want it to end happy, looking back smiling.

I guess winter means a time of testing...

But it also is the festive season. :)

A good time to appreciate, remember, and smile.

It may not feel that way for you right now, but this is really the season to be jolly.

Hmmm, don't let anything or anyone take this joy of christmas away from you.

No matter what happens, even if it really feels like the direct opposite of Christmas...

Maybe you're waiting for snow? Maybe you're waiting for something else...

But guess what, you don't need any of that, it's really inside of you.

That joy, that happiness, is already there.

I mean, it's Christmas, we can't go out to have snowball fights, but we can still bask in each others company smiling, happy, enjoying everything as it comes by.

Taking it easy but at the same time making time for this season.

There may not be snow, but there're those Christmas Lights.

May all our trouble all be gone, as it shines on.

"Oh Christmas Lights, Light up the Street,

Light up the Fireworks in me,

May all your troubles soon be gone,

those Christmas lights, keep shining on."