failing to achieveing but always to inspire

Listening to : Dimension - Wolfmother

Its been a whole 11 days since i blogged. Wow.
Guess the past few days have been very traumatising/busy so much so i didn't feel like blogging.
Well, the significant events would be the track side events.
As the nationals placings were read out. It really was heart breaking to know that I ain't running 400. All cause of spasms. Also, i'm not down for 4x400. Well, last wednesday. I was really really broken. So much so I kinda gave up already.
Good thing I never did, and great thing god came through for me both in results and in spirit.
All i can do now is push myslef further cause i still have the last chance to break into the team.
LIONEL WILL NEVER GIVE UP!!!
Mr Wong also said something to me which i guess will really stick with me.
If you fail to achieve, Inspire.
Heh, then i will, with all my will. I guess in time to come, i hope my fruits will be nice and sweet.
its only 4 days to emerge. Man it is extremely exciting. Heh.
I'm actually pumped up for it, I'm really happy supergirl is coming too.
Guess soon she'll understand how everything all works out. :)
Exams are also coming, which sucks. So hello studying!!!!
SPA IS ALSO TOMORROW!!! AHHH!!!!!!

Fallen...

Listening to : Come Back Down - Lifehouse

Its really getting annoying, whats wrong with my body???
9 out of 11 runs i had spasms today.
This is really bad, I can't perform at all.
Not only that, my cough is getting really bad.
This hasn't been my few days at all.
Not forgetting exam stress, sometimes it really is tough to believe.
Feel as though I've let down so many people, coach included.
Especially my girl.
The only thing i can do now i to be still and pray.
For some divine miracle to happen, and for me to perform on friday.
Friday will be my next biggest challenge. I refuse to give up.
I just need a little push in the right direction. Thats all.
I believe that HE is really mighty to save.

SIgnal...

Listening to : SIgnal Fire - Snow Patrol

Haven't been to active in bloggging recently, solely cause I haven't been to my com very much recently. Hmmm. Guess the past few days have been kinda tough.
Mid-years are really round the corner, especially all the H1s and all.
Track is even tougher, due to many many injuries, especially the spasms and all.
It really is troubling, i need to overcome all this quickly.
Haven't really been sleeping very well too surprisingly.
Very wierd dreams all the time, and all appear so real. SOme of my class, track or everyday life.
Wonder whats wrong with my head these few days. HAHA.
Yeah, SUpergirl has been taking care of me. She really is a good partner around.
Just if only SHe's beside me all the time.
This are signals to work harder i guess. Yup, i think they are. HAHA
My girl, thank you so much! :)

The impossible dream

Listening to : Tui Hou - Jay Chou

Guess recently i've been spamming a whole lot of movies. VCD wise the nicest movie was GOAL!
OMG, it really is a good inspiring show.
One impossible dream, just once you can make it that big in life.
Just once you can do all, never miss it.
Well, the most hyped up movie is Spiderman 3.
Guess enough is said by many others. Well, the best MOVIE YET!!!
I've been rather shot on to chase that impossible dream.
Guess it eally is niave.
I REFUSE TO GIVE IN!!!

Refuse

Listening to : Crash - Matt Willis

Its simple, I refuse to be defeated and i will never give up!
Even if you beat me i refuse to admit it and say its a fluke.
I'll keep coming again and again till I do beat you.
Thats how i've been thinking the past 2 days which were really tough.
Yesterday doing 8x400 at a kinda tough pace and today finally puking during training.
Some say I'm pushing too hard and need rest.
Maybe I do, But I can't, I can't let someone down.
I'm gonna fight my lungs out if I have to.
Today for the first time, I really gave up. I said a no to training.
Well, it seems my body has gotten the better of me for today, well, its a fluke.
I'll OWN my body tomorrow.
Ok this is getting to sound really sadistic.
Well, Good job to the ruggers for taking out MI today!
Chuck scored 3 trys. I'm kinda amazed. Impressed rather.
He really is fast. Well, I need to study again.
Its tough being fired up to run and study at the same time. HAHA!

This is totally random, but I think i need a backpack.
The sling bag is really screwing my arms up. I need one badly i think.
its only 58 days away.
Close to 2 months and track nationals are here.
Maybe some just don't get it, If I don't push myself now.
Then When? AHHHH!!!
I'm fired up!!!!
As for History, i just pon my 1st history test. HAHAHAH
I'm so going to die man.

Labouring day

Listening to : Spice Of Your Life - Bleach

It doesn't feel like a tuesday at all. Feels more like sunday.
It totally doesn't feel like a holiday at all. With 2 tests tomorrow and not much rest time given.
I think right now its a labouring day for many fo us.
Gotta train hard later too. I do not believe i cannot take the trainings. I'm going to push till i drop. ( I swear i've said this at least 5 time already)
Much to my surprise, i slept in for the 1st time in a long time.
Or Perhaps thats what i needed all along. Sleep.
Hopefully can see her later. HAHAHHA.
Its May now. Not long to nationals.
But VERY SOON TO WATCHING SPIDERMAN 3!!!