Maybe if I stayed...

Listening to : We should be together - 53A

Nothing inspirational today, just plain me, full of messes here and there.

To some, that could possibly be inspirational on the other hand.

Currently, that's rather tough for me to comprehend and grasp.

When you're posed with thoughts which contradict each other, when you've got to make a choice.

That kind of sucks at times...

The right things have to be done, no doubt, to well fulfill all righteousness.

But sometimes, just sometimes, I'd go against that of everyone, just to make it happy.

Can't say no more....

Get out of your tent, count those stars. You could be one of them!

Celebrate Heart.

Listening to : Empire State Of Mind - Jay-Z feat Alicia Keys

The World is in general, very unforgiving, unmerciful, does not give second chances and does not regard you as significant if you are of no real value, no real success.

That my friends, is the sad sad reality of how we live.

No, this was not the way it was meant to be, but instead, it has been imposed on us by society.

This sad structure of our lives only regard results, the money we make, the NUMBER of lives we touch, the NUMBER of people we have under us, the real STRENGTH that we have.

I know, many different firms have different ways of determining their rate of success.

For different people, the importance of these results vary from person to person.

In Organization, different firms value such results differently.

You and me eventually know that this is the sad truth.

Well, I'm here to tell you that no....

Not everywhere follows such a system. Yes it is a dog eat dog World out there.

However, when people eventually do find that solitude which overlooks the results but looks instead at the effort. Then that specific institution will naturally draw people towards it.

There're many organizations coming into realization of such goals. That it isn't all about results.

Yeah, there's a fine line that we need to be careful of, cause effort does translate to numbers eventually.

Well, are you confused or unsure of whatever I'm talking about?

It's all something which I caught in crossfit today.

My mind was going wild, crazy, in a huge spin.

I was basically losing it in the Workout, my timing was way behind everyone else.

But I was so so so tired and spent that I no longer had the strength to keep up.

I didn't finish in time. This is by far the toughest WOD I've ever done in my life.

I wanted to die and give up. There were people all around me cheering. EVERYONE was.

It was really a moment to behold, at least for me. Everyone else has finished.

There were at least a good 25 people surrounding me and shouting for me.

Telling me to breathe, pick it up, DON'T GIVE UP!

I was basically as tired as hell. The encouragement was all useful and I did eventually come through. It took me 15 minutes to complete the WOD. It was extremely heavy.

However, after all, I collapsed, as usual, on the floor catching my breathe.

I swear, I honestly wanted to die. I was in so much pain...

However, after the WOD, it was strange... What I noticed at least, for the past few times I did the fastest in timing, nobody really spoke of it.

But today, when I was last, but honestly gave it ALL. It felt so strange for people to approach me and commend me on the effort I had put in.

I realized, that in here, nobody celebrates championship, everyone celebrates HEART.

Money, expansion, grades, fitness can all be attained one way or another. For sure...

Conversely, instead of getting so caught up in all these rat races.

Don't forget to notice the effort, the heart that others place in their work.

Then again, you shouldn't forget what it means to give your all as well.

Chase excellence and success will definitely chase you.

People sometimes ask me what does crossfit do to you?

Improve your fitness? No....

It improves your capacity to give your all in your heart.

Shape the World that you want. Starting from yourself. Celebrate Heart.

Define success please...

Listening to : Tonight - Enrique Iglesias

The semester has finally started. I have to admit, not to one of my liking.

Firstly, I overslept and secondly, I was slightly late for my very first lecture.

Not forgetting the lecture was made up of pure Gibbrish which I totally do not understand.

However, that aside, I still am quite stoked for my first lectures for other mods.

Wondering how it'll all be like. I just hope I've somewhat have friends over there to have fun with.

Somehow, the air feels different.

Perhaps, I'm still slightly scarred from the devastating results of last semester.

it wasn't pleasant at all. It's one thing to say get over it and another to really do so.

Yeah walking the walk is a whole lot tougher than actually talking about it.

Maybe that's why I'm partially dreading school this semester.

I had originally anticipated my years in university to be survivable.

But it seems that it is not the case. I've got to do it with some companions.

Thus finding them this semester is so going to bring me out of my comfort zone.

Not only that, I'm really going to go for the depth and not just for the sake of grades.

Today was the release of O's. Someone tweeted this which made sense.

"Don't let a piece of paper determine who you are, you're made of much better stuff".

That being spoken, I ain't letting anything really hinder me.

As the old saying goes, chase excellence and success will come chasing you with it's pants down.

So that's the rough game plan this semester.

I'm gonna say hi to many of the ISE peeps and make an unusual effort to venture into the unknown. (I have to admit that many of the modules I'm taking this time round seem pretty interesting)

Well, apart from the grades. I've realized....

It really isn't about how well you do... Is it?

We all live in this sad reality to go after the paper. Absorbed in this rat race.

But this isn't what I want to do. It isn't just for grades, it's for everything in life...

You don't need to be the first, you don't need to be the best.

You just need to do what you love and love what you do. Don't let it get to a routine, a feat which you need to accomplish to prove a point.

In lecture today, one thing I caught was well, how you define success. Many people define it in really odd strange ways, but to me... It isn't about being the best or matters like that.

Do it cause you want to better yourself and pursue you passion.

Even in well, seemingly trivial issues in life.

I sucked at crossfit today. I didn't match up to the big boys...

However, that in no way puts me on lower ranking than them. That's well, the beauty of it.

Being the first brings no reward, giving your all brings better returns.

Cause you don't get puffed up on the loss of others, you get an esteem from yourself and who YOU are. Nothing relative, nothing based on others.

It's all about who you've been and who you are 6 minutes later...

Maybe that's what a family is about. At least the crossfit family...

Not about being the first, but being one of those who did it.

If I loss to them, so what? They were the people who were cheering for me when I fell today.

Now that, is sweet.

Upright

Listening to : Sing - My Chemical Romance

So it begins, the year has started and the fight has begun.

Honestly, the has not begun on the right track.

I've made some real dumb moves and did some real dumb things.

But either way, I'm glad that most of it has been resolved and I'm back to where I started.

2010 was amazing, didn't end too well, but who cares, 2011 will be a whole lot better.

Nope, I haven't came up with many resolutions and goals for 2011.

Yeah, I have to admit that very soon, I will have to make em.

2010 was really a blast cause well, most of the goals were achieved. One way or another.

2011 will well, be slightly more of a bore sadly. Honestly can't expect too much from it.

I mean, from its prospects to begin with, nothing big is planned.

But hey, I'll make the most out of it.

In slight dilemma in almost every area of my life now.

Academics, Spiritual, Crossfit, Friends, Relationships....

Which really puts me back quite a bit.

I caught social network and a whole string of other movies... Well, if there's one thing I really wanna do this year....

Is to value my friends and keep em real close. At the end of the day, I realized something...

Slightly sad, but real to me.

I've got pretty much just a handful of people whom I can really trust and look to.

General friends, I've got many. But those I can confide in, just a few. Of which, I really gotta

keep em closer I guess. Make some efforts here and there.

Really can't seem to go through this without them. 2010 was made possible cause of them as well

Either way, lesser is good I suppose, I learn to stand on my own 2 feet.

Nah, I'm not despising the need of them, I'm well, just making sure that I invest in those who matter to me. Perhaps that's why..... Nah, not to be revealed in such an open blog this way.

For now, I'm looking out for them.

Apart from the stress this time round. I'll need a life. A good one worth living for.

So, this is to Sem 2!

Get get get over it!!! Seems so tough though.

Moving on from Rui....

Beautiful things can come in the smallest of sizes even the closest of distances