SAI KANG!

Listening to : Other side of the world - KT Tunstall

So begins the life of a slack officer.
or rather, glimpses of it! Now that the course is over, life is good.
Seriously, nights out every night and doing almost nothing in camo everyday.
What more can you ask, seriously.
Well. I'm honestly not complaining. I'm quite enjoying it. Though there's always SAI KANG TO DO! Which is a total waste of time.
Some things are worth doing, others are a mere waste of time.
Good example would be things like Vamsee's farewell would be great.
However, doing research on Hitler isn't the most fun thing to do.
I would rather just kick back and relax and sail my way through the next 3 weeks. I am just waiting for posting! COME ON PLAB!
However, one good thing that came out of researching Hitler is that he's really an evil man. I mean, i know how evil can evil get. However, he's for real.
Which is honestly rather disturbing. How can someone so warped exist!?

Besides the point, Halloween is coming. I honestly don't make much of it.
However, this year theres a party! My Cell group is organising some big thing.
So everyone is gonna dress up and all. It sounds good eh.
It'll be fun, any takers? WOOO!
Also, if u haven't watched tropic thunder. Please watch it.
Hmmm, many MANY people have said i'm rather shallow for saying its nice.
WHO CARES! I think its a great movie, its really a great laugh! haha.
Anyway, time for EOC dinner! Time to emcee!

Ties

Listening to : Worthy - CCC

Today was a rather interesting day.
Woke up really really early to meet mark for breakfast.
I'm amazed we were both able to wake up this early actually. Yeah, so ate macs.
However, the interesting things was at night.
We had a meeting with the cousins, well, a rather well planned one.
Cause one of them is getting married, so yeah, one outing before the day itself.
This is what was sent in the mail.
***Special note to Wayne and Lionel - you guys better come fellowship ... more and more of your cousins are being harvested. Lionel, bring your gf if she's free.
I was rather shocked by it. So in the end, we went. How not to after we PANG so often and when its explicitly said to everyone.
In the end, i really had quite alot of fun with them.
Its really rare that i talk to my cousins, the ties are actually forming.
I guess its cause of them coming to church and all. In fact one of them told me, I never had a proper conversation with you before.
Yes, thats how distant i am from them. However, now its really different.
I'm happy when i'm with them, before it was very tensioned.
Now we talk about church and it just flows easily.
Also, its nice to know that your family has got ur backing at some times.
I'm understanding the importance of family ties now.
I'm a really blessed boy. Yes i am, other than the occassional troubles i have.
I'm really blessed to have great people around me. Cause even when times start to suck, i know i'll be able to pull thru with my family and friends help. Yup. :)

Threshold

Listening to : Break Me Down - CCC

I see the world in a rather different way now.
I guess circumstances really influence the way we look at things.
For me, i've just completed my last ever assessment for Aerodrome training.
SO basically, i can control. the sermon on how our words affect our lives was so good.
I remember speaking out on the tower, "I AM AN ATC CONTROLLER".
I felt really confident for some reason. In fact, they commented, my speech was the most confident of all and i enjoyed controlling.
Yeah, I'm really thankful for being able to make it out of the course.
I really thank god for that. It has really been hell hell crazy.
Like really insane tough, enduring real personal attacks and ALOT of rubbish.
I have to admit, there were times i really didn't believe in myself.
Like how shiming says it, I've changed my perspective of many things.
I used to be complaining all the time. But somehow, when i tried to start enjoying it and when i started to think positive it all kinda worked out.
I just wonder how it'll be when I COMMISSION!!! WOOO!!
now i'm researching on Hitler for some CAF interaction, good stuff.
I'm actually learning alot from it. Yeah I am. Surprised I actually am bothered about something related to NS eh.
Think the whole Aerodrome course made me think and move beyond my comfort zone. I pushed the threshold for taking stress for sure.
To talk and hear and look at the same time really stretches you. A new depth of focus and concentration is reached. I hope this benefits me in future.
So yes, ushering seems alot easier, multi-tasking is a piece of cake and study stresses can be overcome!

On another note, I remember in A levels, how stressed I was.
However, EVERYONE around me is like really dying in terms of stress.
Yes they are, I dunno why myself. Some people whom i thought could cope with such stress just couldn't. They're really affected by it.
I said how thresholds can be pushed. And yes, you push it by pushing yourself.
However, there is a limit to how much u can push it. Just like running, theres a fine line to pushing to go faster and well dying.
I admit it takes alot of conditioning, i'm happy i went thorugh A levels cause if i didn't, i think i would have died in Aerodrome training and well wouldn't have succeeded.
Guess for alot of them now, they ain't enjoying what they're doing.
I guess how i did well in A's was cause of my class.
I have toreally thank them. I clearly remember how we would just have fun studying.
Studying is never fun, don't get me wrong. But its how you study.
Every 5 min, there'll be a good refreshing joke. So after every math qn, something just refreshes you. Thats why i never really was affected by the stress.
The company of shiming and alvan in macs also made it real fun.
The occasional night supper with mark spiced things up.
I really am thankful for those times, thats why my A level period wasn't the toughest but maybe one of the best. Yup.
So those mugging really hard for A's or any exam, DON'T GIVE UP!
Don't be so stress, remember they're people arnd you and remember to like what you're doing!

Step up

Listening to : Miss Independent - Neyo

The only thing running through my whole mind for the whole week is honestly the LAST WEEK of training.
Its been SUCH a long time, its finally here. this week determines whether i make it or break it.
I know i can. Actually I've really been quite impacted by sermon yesterday.
No wonder it was a triple pack.
The whole idea of speaking it out and confessing it again and again.
I know i can control. I know i can deconflict two aircrafts coming in for landing.
I know I can do well for my assessment. I know, can and WILL COMMISSION!
I believe so and I guess God will make a way when there really is no way!
Its been a long time but i stayed home to nua today. Not really nua but to 'study' with shiming.
Actually, i've really come to treasure all my friends. My class is really the best you could ask for.
I don't care if they're too clingy or anything. but i honestly wouldn't give them up for any other uni friends.
Now we're all in army, its quite a strange feeling I guess.
On another note. Tropic thunder was by far one of the funniest movies i've ever watched. Like really, if you're a guy, GO WATCH IT!!!

More time required

Listening to : Sunday Morning - Maroon 5

Yes, it is sunday morning! And sadly, the rain ain't falling.
Well, i'm actually quite happy i took leave on friday.
Yes i am. Well, cause of the various things we did.
I think this sudden break was actually a good opportunity to catch up with some ppl.
Also, good time for me to spend it with my dearest.
Friday I crashed NUS. Haha, it was like a familiar feeling.
Cause if you read the posts like two or three years ago, i would be saying abt the same thing.
How i crashed NUS. This time for my gf.
Actually, I tried to study in the library which i thought was ok.
Until I went to lecture. OH GOD! I never knew it could be this boring. ANYWAY!
In the end, the whole day was quite fun.
Cause managed to meet kian fat for lunch. Well, no amelia but guess its ok.
Thereafter we went to eat manhattans fsh mkt. Honestly, it rocks.
Maybe, just maybe it owns fish and co. I dunno, but! I would choose ambience over taste.
Then met the feline at timbre.
MAYBE its just me but i've become a relatively big fan of timbre.
Drinks are ex, but food and music is awesome.
I love it man.
Also, been so long since 4 of us went out.
Then saturday was spent mostly with the guys.
Yeah, a fulfilling week for me actually. Sadly, 2moro is book in early week.
I dunno why myself. I think its dumb.
Anyway, i'm still looking forward to the end.
Its really in sight, just 1 1/2 weeks to go.
The past 7 months was challenging, but i think when i comission, tears may really flow.
So emo right? Anyway. gtg sleep.

2 and running

Listening to : Starlight - Muse

This does bring back memories.
Yes it does, yesterday, me and sm just celebrated our 2 year anni.
Honestly, i think i surprised her quite well, never have i done such wide scale planning before.
However, i'm just happy we both enjoyed ourselves.
Time does fly, its been a good 2 years. It really has.
In fact. I'm really happy we've been together for so long.
I guess its just us but we're a little different.
Normallys its the longer you're together the less sticky you get.
However, the longer we get, the more sticky we get. I dunno why.
I know alot of ppl are annoyed cause of that. WOOOO!

Anyway, today I specially took leave for this, so i'm gonna head to NUS to study today.
EXAM on MONDAY! Fail then OOC.
So ya, this period is really high tension for everyone i guess.
Its even graduation day for the J2s.
I guess i'm overaged for this but i'm rather sticky to the trackers.
three weeks to their exam and three weeks to my end of course.
SO FAST!! Its like 8-9 more weeks to the gold bar.
My NS time is flying by. Honestly, now that i look back.
Things aren't as bad now, think this is cause of some ppl in the course.
Some great ppl, some really REALLY strange.
Ok ok, gonna head to NUS now. YAY

future awaits

Listening to : What Sarah Said : Death Cab For Cutie

Ever wonder what you'll REALLY do in the future?
I mean, like what we'll be...
Some of us will be doctors, pilots, teachers, engineers, businessman.
I'm confused and at the same time worried for it.
I'm now 19 years old, i don't really know what i wanna do.
I honestly blame it on the A levels.
Daniel stayed over at my house yesterday.
What a nostalgic thing to do eh. 19 year old army men sleeping in the same room.
As corny as it sounds, i think its alright.
We were talking about how we're all getting old. Like really OLD.
Maybe its time to stop it. Can u imagine your dad inviting a friend to sleepover...
Ya, same concept. Thats why, I don't really wanna grow up.
Thats besides the point, we were talking about how life will be when we're in uni, when we're working.
It'll be good and bad that we all won't be as tight anymore.
Of course, we talked about the future.
I was SUPPOSED to be the teacher I always wanted to be. Or rather was called to be.
To teach the young kids of our generation, impact life kinda thing.
Pursue the real passion of physics and teaching and sports.
being a teacher and a coach for track or basketball at the same time.
Guess that won't REALLY materialize.
The whole world except the few who really know me tell me,
Take LAW, BIZZ, MEDICINE! Go OVERSEAS to study at oxford!
Impact the MARKETPLACE by being really successfull!
I know all of that is good. I do know. But that isn't what i wanna do.
Until daniel said something quite simple but quite true.
Just keep doing what you're doing, God will speak to you soon.
Yup, just keep doing what i'm doing, to the best I can.
Heh, even though its controlling, I am trying my best. Or rather I will.
On a side note, I WILL be a teacher at least once in my life.
FYI, the current dream is to go out to work first, go get rich by helping a large engineering / Manufacturing Company by managing some big project like the next flyer. Then go hopefully find some real clean energy and make ironman with it. Lastly, when i'm really rich enough, build a school in cooperation with CHC.
Ain't that a dream....