Vision extended

Listening to : The Only Exception - Paramore

It seems to really fall into place.

I know how I am called at certain times. I know that when doors open I go.

When people call in need, I go. When He calls me to somewhere I undoubtedly go.

Most of the things which I am called to do may seem strangely similar to the things I want.

My talents and abilities also definitely play a very big role.

I've come to a very crucial decision just a few months ago.

Of which, I was very hesitant and unsure of my commitments, however, I chose nonetheless.

I knew there was a need to get focused and I did.

However, this new idea which comes bugging me religiously seems relentless.

I can't seem to ignore it because it all falls into place.

From the time I have stepped into SOT, the callings he have given to me.

To the mission trips and the times which cultural mandate was advocated.

I've been deeply moved by all of these. To realize that this fact cannot be ignored.

That what I am doing right now in my life, that crossfit is no longer what it seems.

That This seems like my marketplace to prosper in, to help groom and grow.

I would love to be like a typical person grooming my ministry and teams.

But I just feel that it isn't me. This is something which I feel, is beyond even myself.

Crossfit is no longer just about gaining strength, being able to supersede yourself.

It's not just about that anymore. It's about helping those people who are in lack.

Those people who are unsure of their next meal on the table. I want to help them.

I've been having this burden since the days in Kuching.

I have wanted to do so much for that family which has literally no vision whatsoever.

I felt so hopeless, How can I help these people?

Then I realized, it's more than just a sport, crossfit is here for this purpose, for them.

If what Coach said is really true, then I am for the box. I am here to stay.

I want to live for something more than myself. I want to live for others.

Don't get me wrong, I'm not in it to just try to get people to believe.

I really want to help those people in need. I will stay in crossfit, to train hard.

Thereafter, to help those who need help in, to teach those youngsters what it means to live.

To tell them that "You can do something you never imagined you can do."

Maybe nobody has told you that before?

But that's how I feel everytime I step into the box. That it's time for me to do something I once though was impossible. To reckon to myself that I am able to do amazing things!

Ultimately, I know that it's gonna be worth it. That because of the impact and the heart, people will come to know the Lord.

However, that really isn't the point anymore. I will do all it takes for this to happen.

To help those people without any vision to give them a vision.

To be able to show them what they've been looking for, for what I have found.

It's not just about fitness for them, it's about their lifestyle, their self-esteem.

To help them build a good core, figuratively and literally.

Because I believe that they're all angels, and with some help, they can fly again.

I just hope crossfit is something which they can come to do.

However, for now, i'll keep training hard, to better myself at this sport.

To be the light of the World so that one day, I'll be able to teach those kids too.

So one day, I can see their smile, which makes it all worth it.

God moves in very mysterious ways. This is by far the strangest I've seen.

To think that it is happening in my life right now.

It seems very far fetched, but this has been my dream. And I know I can do it.

I choose to want to do more now. Everyone says that they excel in various areas.

I want to do something here, I want to start something big.

So are you with me?

Clarity of Spirit

Listening to : Littlee Wonders - Rob Thomas

The smallest things in life should never be overlooked.

The simple joys and blessings, even the big ones as well should be properly addressed.

As I've finally returned from my Mission trip to Kuching.

We have all moved up one level in serving for sure. More importantly...

I can proudly say that We have all planted a seed which will flourish over there.

However, it's really more amazing that they've planted a seed in my heart as well.

Walking down the streets with the members of CHC Kuching made me realize how blessed I am, how I am in perfect position to help someone in need.

It's undeniably selfish to not extend that helping hand to someone in need.

We can all boast about the fact that we are in CHC, the church without walls.

However, have we actually went that extra mile giving that helping hand?

For the first time, we did. I did at least. Going into what they call houses...

I really call just metal sheets and a floor.

It really ached my heart. It irks me to think that I've been living such a lavish life and not exactly helped someone who has nothing at all.

I've got a vision, I've got a dream. They don't even have a meal in front of them.

All they have, is a smile, a joy which cannot be explained.

They are contented in their hearts, because of who they have, not What they have.

They are glad because they know that they've got people to care for them, that Jesus cares.

It's cliche, I know, but this is how the world is changed.

This is what I should be doing and focusing on as well.

I totally understand if someone has no vision or dream for their lives.

I can now understand why they wouldn't even consider having one.

If they have no place to live in, no real food to eat. Who would care.

I could say so much. I can tell so many stories.

But you have to be there to experience it yourself.

Leaving those houses, I though to myself.

Why are they in such conditions, why why why???

Then I realized something so simple, so that we can be there for them.

Seeing a little kid smile when we arrive, to see her take the chocolate from my arms smiling.

Never belittle the need to love. Never belittle your simple basic act of loving others.

It can change the World for them, beyond any sermon, beyond any fanciful drama.

This really changes their lives. A simple chocolate ball...

I have been moved to initially think that making something work is really out of effort.

However, I've come to realize to understand that it is not always the case.

With only effort, we can do so much.

But I've seen the heart of prayer in this church. They know what it means to give their youth.

It reminds me of not even myself but the pioneers of City Harvest.

They don't just give their money, their sweat but they really give their youths.

They devote it to a simple act of prayer and serving.

It's not about stature for them. But they really want it, they really want the Kingdom.

They really want their friends to be saved, they want their family to be saved.

They want the miracles of God to happen in their lives.

They want their church to always be in Revival.

It has been a spiritual experience for us. Joining them in prayer, joining them in worship.

With no instruments whatsoever, it is really a renewal of ourselves.

However, no one can dispute the fact that their pastor, Pastor Kelvin has an amazing heart.

Working day after day tirelessly but still keeping a smile on his face.

It's a rare sight. A smile which is really genuine which is not out of accomplishment.

It's a smile that brings across hope.

I really want that as well. The people in CHC Kuching have been beyond encouraging to me.

Though youths, they have already made miracles happen.

I wouldn't want to be boastful to say that we did all the work.

However, it was a real tough job in everyone's part. It really wasn't easy.

I see the immense hardwork, sweat and tears.

It really can hear the anger, sadness and even disappointment when something didn't go as expected. It hasn't exactly been the easiest of events I've come across.

From the first day till the last, everyone has been giving their 100%. Being very adaptable to change. Being totally understanding when I tell them that we've got to practice.

I really am grateful for everyone's sacrifices.

If it wasn't for you all. If it wasn't for the effort that you all have placed. None of this would have happened. As the mission closed, tears welled up for the first time ever.

I was really overwhelmed, that if it wasn't for you guys, Kuching wouldn't have been changed one bit. Revival was brought to that town, I believe that.

It's because of your willingness, your attitude to serve, your attitude to sacrifice which moved me most, Team 1 and 2. You have made this mission meaningful to me.

A seed has been planted, the most important seed is one which is from you guys.

The little acts that everyone has placed effort in are really wonders in it's own.

You all are little wonders. I thank you all for that. The time, the sleep, all the sacrifices.

Thank you, For the commitment to the music, the excellence of it, Ryan, Yu Kun and Yee Hao

Thank you, For always assuring me that things will work out, Josh and Sha Sha and Rih Yang

Thank you, For taking that bold step to do what you never thought you would, Justine, Sean, Mel Chen and Xiao Zhuang

Thank you, For the relentless effort in making the kids happy, Ariel, Joanna and Mel Tay

Thank you, For the heart to always keep on serving despite all the sickness, Roy, Miko and Anda and Edu

Thank you, For the stepping up and daring to speak in front of a camera for the first time, Shijie and Phoebe.

Thank You, For the effort placed in making sure that your offering was the best it could be, Allen, Yi Fei and Hong Ming

Thank you, for being the support which I really needed when things were being run, Jian Hao, Kim,

Thank you, For that undying spirit and creativity in the drama, Derick, Prija and Jun.

Thank you, For the hype you brought in the youth meeting, Ben.

Thank you, For being there when things really went rough but you were there to smile and push me on with that dot, Hua Hui.

Thank you E406 for your prayers.

Thank you God, for the presence which you sent down that day. Thank you Father for the love which you poured out. Thank you Jesus for your grace that was upon us that whole trip. You are the motive of it all. Your gave us love to love. Thank you God. Really. Thank you.

Now that Kuching is over, it won't stop here for sure. I'm gonna make it continue. The spirit of BREAKTHROUGH!!!

Never been

Listening to : What are you waiting for - Colby O Donis

I have to admit, this year has to be the fastest year ever.
i was just sitting down with one of the security guys and I realized....

It's 2 more months of SOT! Then it's the start of school.

I'm actually going to start NUS really soon. I can't believe it.

This year is passing by too fast.

It's mid point of the year. I have to admit, it's really been a great half.

Really. As for my goals, visions, dreams. I'm quite sure I'm one step closer to it.

I'm trying my best to improve myself everyday. I sound like a machine but it really seems that way. The time expanded will not come back.

But the fruits of it will remain. Forever, I hope.

The year of change. I hope that it'll really change for the better.

As for now, I just hope my motivations and intentions are of use and of benefit to the rest.

BACK TO REALITY LIONEL!

I'm not in a dance in the middle of a laser field.

I'm in reality. Where things don't exactly go the way they're supposed to be.

Where mistakes and disappointments happen.

I guess living in such a World is this way.

But then again, it's living in denial as well.

What are we? What are we to ourselves? To our spirits?

Are we to hide them all? Are we to conform to the standards of ourselves?

Just deep in thought.

Listening to : King of anything - Sara Bareiles

The worst pressure that can come from anyone is the one which comes from within.

The feeling whereby you know that you've got too much to do.

However, I've come to realize that instead of being busy about the things around.

I find myself making way and time for the things which matters.

I know and I'm sorry if I haven't been the best around town.

I may have just stepped on wrong toes and even placed wrong priorities at times.

However, I'm gonna try to focus from tomorrow onwards.

I know that it's going to be a better day!

The need for the people around me is a priority.

However, I've come to realize that even that needs to be properly prioritized.

Everyone needs something. It's whether you see him as important or not.

Everyone can argue and debate about this whole issue over and over again.

But it's true. Why don't you bother to meet this person and bother caring for him?

It's simple, save the excuses, you just don't place him in priority.

So what is a priority in your life? One of significance?

Or one which is after the same old dumb rat race.

Or worst still, in this caught up idea of reaching out.

Don't get me wrong (I better clarify lest I die tomorrow)

Reaching out to the lost is all good and wholesome. Totally for it.

However, we may come to a point of really running this rat race of reaching out.

So substantiated and into the motion till we forget to do the one thing which matters.

Love.

We talk about love and love and love. We may say it out, preach it out.

Till we really may get numb to it.

We may be with that person we have to work on and really not do so out of love but compulsion.

Don't ever be a professional "lover".

Be genuine, be real, that's the facts which keep you going.

Someone told me recently and answered a burning question of mine.

"When it's so hard to love. What can we do?"

It was a straight forward answer, clear cut and to the point.

"Ask God for a bigger love tank. If it's running dry, you need more space!!"

This made me make two simple deductions.

1) Our love tank is limited in size (Possible unlimited like God's but I'm sure I'm far from it)

2) Our love tank can run dry

So if you wanna love more. You gotta do a few things?

1) Make room for more love to come in.

2) Be filled with alot more love more often

3) Be careful with whom you give love out to.

The first two comes by time and requests.

However, to be careful with whom we love??

Don't get me wrong once again. We are called to love everyone and anyone.

Even those whom inflict pain to you.

And I am a strong advocate of the fact that you give and it will be given back to you.

You lose your time, your effort, you WILL gain it back!

You expand your energy and service, people WILL give it back.

You share your love with others, you WILL be given that same amount, if not more, back.

So yes, we are to love everyone.

However, the words we use, have to be careful.

Most people know about the 4th Dimension.

Your words create it, making it something which is an atmosphere or realm around you beyong the 3D world.

Thus, the same applies, speak love, you create love.

However, you say you love your car and the next moment you say you love your wife?

I mean, are we ranking your car the same value as that of your wife??

This is what I'm talking about, not simply rationing the love.

But be careful with it.

Don't fall in love with the wrong things of this World.

Before you know it, it'll be drawing from the love tank of yours.

No matter how big it is, there's still a hole whereby it comes out from.

Love the things that matter, share with those whom matter.

Therefore, to keep your head in the game, don't simply focus on the idea of reaching out.

Or simply focusing on the wrong priorities in life.

Rank your love amounts so that you can properly ration that love.

be careful of whom and what you love.

Don't love the WRONG THINGS!!

Instead, don't love the action, love the person.