Thursday, April 30, 2009

Bloody Swine

Listening to : Because of you - Ne-yo

While munching down my chicken nuggets which was kindly bought by my mum.
I've come to read something quite pleasing.
Singapore assures us that NOBODY has contracted the swine flu.
It was a random thought which actually captured my attention while running.
How can a simple flu be THAT deadly....
Wow man. I mean, a flu developed by......PIGS.
Its rather amazing.

In case you never knew, here's a brief history lesson on one of the most common STDs around.
AIDS!
Well, AIDs was first started cause some soldier in a jungle was alone and felt bored.
Then he grabbed a monkey and well, RAPED it.
I'm trying not to let the thought cross my mind or picture it but....
It really is strange for a man to do it to a...MONKEY???
Wow man. I figured it must be American. Only they are this erm...Liberal.
So imagine.... If they actually did it to a monkey.
Maybe swine flu was contracted by.........
Ok i shan't say it but yeah, Let your imagination run wild.

Well, so this swiney swine flu has caused ALOT of distress in the World.
I mean, USA got it, Mexico started it. I'm amazed how Asia hasn't really been hit yet.
Means we're quite good. Good in dealing with dumb issues as such though.
It may just imply that we will eventually live longer cause we bother to learn from our mistakes.
Unlike the Europeans, I guess Asians are a LITTLE bit more humble.
Well, I'm guessing Swine flu is transmitted through, well the germs passed through the air and all. However, after playing L4D so much and watching so many zombie shows.
It actually gets you a little paranoid. You know, what may happen 4 weeks after infection...
Ok i'm exaggerating. It probably is just another common flu influenza.

Well!! As I was saying, if its transmitted through flu like symptoms (Sneezing) just like bird flu.
Why did we cull all the chickens around??
I understand why they kill the cows when there was mad cow...
but why kill the chickens?? Is it really passed through them??
Then maybe they'll start killing the pigs...
MEANS NO MORE PORK!!!
It makes you wonder. What happens if the Muslim countries contract the swine flu...
Well, now we know who's been playing 'Holy nation' all this while then. HOHOHO

Tuesday, April 28, 2009

DUMDUMDEEEEDEEEDUM!

Listening to : Sugar - Flo Rider

Its a little bit more than a month to go before the 42km!!!
Honestly, i'm not too sure how i'm actually going to finish it.
Though i've been training hard, I've been on and off at times.
Thus results in inconsistent results all the time. So unlike my previous months,
My average dist per session is a mere 8 km??
I really have to push it up. Every 3 days to up by 2km.
I think i'll die really soon if i try to do that.
However! I'm really fired up for it. Its one of the highlights for my year actually.

Also in that same time period, is my DRIVING TEST!
Yes, 4th June to be exact.
The time to determine whether or not i'm allowed to be the king of the roads.
To roam the streets in my OWN car going where I want to go.
Controlling the speed, time. WOW!!!
I can't wait man. Well, sorry folks but the 1st person to get a ride will definitely be my dearest!
She's having her exams now so its relatively quieter nowadays.
Which i'm not used to and not liking. I would really love more noise.
I realyl would, random bites and strange exclamations.
AHHH!!! Time should really fly!!

Either way, I realised a trend in the past few months of my work in the air force.
My mood really determines how i perform for the day.
Not only that, my mood varies in a certain pattern.
In fact, my mood determines how i react to almost everything around me.
It goes through a 2 - 3 week cycle where I rotate from being happy to really sian.
Like now is my relatively happy period. In a few days i'm not surprised if i swing to be super sian. Not too sure why its like this but oh well.
Its not really the best thing to be proud of but at least i've realised it. Time to CHANGE!

Friday, April 24, 2009

admit

Listening to : Don't Forget - Demi Lovato

So the track and field nationals for the year have finally come to a surprising end!
Well, this year, similar to every other year was filled with many excitements.
However, this year was really one of the most exciting of all years for CJC.
No we didn't win all the medals and get all the glory but we really put up a good fight.
Other than my years 4x400 boys and one year before me 4x400 girls.
It was amazing to see the true fighting spirit of our athletes,
To see someone who barely made it for 800m and came out fighting to get 4th and did it.
It was amazing, if anybody saw how he ran, he or she would immediately salute him.
For the 100m, we haven't had a finalist for 100m A div in God knows how long.
So we broke through this year and Mao did a timing of 11.30 ET.
That timing last year would have gotten him a medal!
4x100 guys also put up a great show netting 2nd just slightly behind that of the 3rd.
Overall, this year was a great year.

It wasn't just the results though, i guess i'll keep coming back year after year just to watch.
To support and cheer for any school which honestly beats sports school.
To see who can fight it out and see what I call TRUE fighting spirit.
It ain't displayed in combat rings but rather on the track against yourself and the opponents.
Its always a high time for everyone screaming their lungs out for their friends and even strangers who are running for their schools.
Its an act of humanitism. I guess thats how sports unites and breaks down limitations.

Even for me and my batch of friends, the last time I actually saw ppl like van and qing was 1 year ago at the exact same place.
So going back to cck was actually a refresher. Got to meet them and all and even the newer juniors. I even met one kid with some real talent.
A girl that came from band in secondary school with hair as short as mine and smaller than shiming came in fresh and ran in national XC and got 7th.
How amazing is that!!!
However, we're all wondering how the next year will be like. How will this year differ from the next. We've always said "next year jia lat". But till date, it hasn't really been so.
I haven't seen a year when CJ walks out with our head low.

However, one part of the whole event in which i was rather shocked / disappointed about was the spirit of the team.
There wasn't the bond / tightness which was present 2 years back.
It wasn't even close to what we experienced. Little pictures were taken and compliments exchanged after the whole event.
Cheering through the races were scattered and unorganized.
I didn't feel the joy exploding from them the way we did when it was ALL FINALLY OVER!
Even Shane questioned. Why ain't we going down??
I was struck in deep thought for a moment. Oh well, I realised its how the culture is changing again. Its really got to be up to one person to make a difference.
One person can change culture. Its been done once and can be done AGAIN!

Monday, April 20, 2009

Push it up!

Listening to : Come Back to me - David Cook

It isn't the easiest thing to always remain happy.
There're times where we as individuals become angry / lose our temper.
Be it once in a blue moon or once every hour. I guess it's all in us.
When we wake up just not feeling good about the day and everything.
Every got that feeling?
Well, thats how it was today, at least for the night.
Just couldn't seem to find something to be happy about.
The smallest thing ticks me off.
Yes that includes the com. ESPECIALLY the com.
I can't take it anymore!!!
Yes thats why i'm blogging. Cause i can't seem to find anything else which ain't "pek Cheking"
Either way, I feel as though i'm stuck in the middle. Both contented and angst.
Guess I really woke up on the wrong side of the bed.

However, i didn't flare up at any / everyone the moment i got home.
I figured it was cause my grandparents were still around.
They've been staying over since Monday.
I must say, it is different to have 2 extrapeople around in the house.
Though minimal, they do contribute to the liveliness of the house.
I've become closer and well, i've realised how important they are to our lives.
Not just for the sake of saying Hi and Bye but they're around.
Especially my grandma, it really aches me when she out-rightly says "I'm alone" and thus wakes my grandpa up. Yeah, if i could, i would never want that to happen.
After I ord. One of the things i wanna do is really spend alot more time with them.
Bring them our for meals and all, I have to treasure and learn as much as i can before its too late.

Well, they have been staying in the basement and sleeping in my brothers room downstairs.
SO YES! My brother has been bunking in with me.
How nice...
HOW NICE!!!!!!!
I'm not exactly complaining but it has pros and cons.
The pain of sharing your room means you lose your privacy, lose your space, clash in schedules make things rather inconveniant.
Howeve, there are benefits like me getting to know my bro alot more.
The pains he's been going through and concerns on his mind all the time.
I'm impressed by him most of the time. It is still a goal for me to out-shine him one day. HAHAHHA.

It really is good to have a big brother around.
For some, its not exactly that of a brother thats required but rather a mentor.
Someone we can follow and learn from. One whose experience can be shared and lessons learnt from. To find someone like that is really tough at times.
The one person to really lead you on and show you the ropes in life.
We may say that we're old enough and can think for ourselves.
However, there is a need to seek a 3rd parties opinion at times.
We may be too involved in issues so much so we must be told to take a step back and recieve guidance.
Mistakes need not be made twice and yes, that's what I've figured out.
So yes, I'm Glad to have my brother around!

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

Inspiration

Listening to : Lost! - Coldplay

It may be the toughest thing to find or the easiest for some others.
It varies from one extreme to another for many people.
but its what keeps us going all the time.
Its a little thing called INSPIRATION.
Thats the topic for the day. We all need it. We are desperate for it at times.
Without it, we can't seem to start the day on th right foot, we ruin our lives, we seek to end it.
It may seem extreme, but thats how it is.
We wake up each morning either feeling like heaven or hell.
We need a certain motivation to keep us going for the tough times.
During exams, running, working, anything at all. We need that something to push us over that wall.
Be it stress, be it God or even Girl.
We need it.
It is where people draw their strength from. Some search high and low for it but many a times its right under our noses.
Its that little thing which makes us smile each and every day.

Monday, April 13, 2009

Lets talk about L-O-V-E

Listening to : No One - Alicia Keys

So it seems I have come to talk about one big part of not just my life but i'm sure EVERYONES life.
LOVE!
Yes, I may be considered gay / fag / Jovi-like after this post.
BUT OH WELL!! Those who know should know I'm beyond those.
Either way! I should really be bathing and readying to sleep rather than blogging.
I'll finish this in ten minutes!
Recently a friend commented on a relationship between couples.
How'd you know she's the one?? Why do u even love him / her?
Surprising question eh...
Not new to many but honestly difficult to put a finger on the real answer....
I've thought about it before and I guess I've come to the conclusion....
You love someone for who the person is, the bad and good side.
yes, the good and bad habits ( not saying we shouldn't change! )
SO!! The next question was shot!!
So if your partner loves u for who you are, why would he / she ask you to change?
If she loves all of you, would she accept your deepest flaws and expect u not to change?
Should love be a walk in the park?? Or filled with bitter torns??
Would u sacrifice change and go through the torment of it just to be in 'Love'?
Well, Yes it is.
I've thought about many reasons. Though people say that we shouldn't have a relationship based on compromising and giving in all the time.
Isn't Love really about pleasing the other party?? Not so much about feeling happy for yourself.
This is the most cliche statement in the past few years "As long as you are happy, I am happy".
We see such statements in movies, dramas (esp dramas ) and songs and everything.
But it really is the case, if you're tired of giving in, tired of saying yes...
Then maybe you really ain't in Love at all.....
Guess nowadays with such high divorce rate, it really is a challenge to fight for our relationships.
When some say they wanna break up and get together, i honestly think its rubbish.
Sorry for all those who are reading this and wanna kill me.
In fact, what makes u think u can hold on for eternity if u can't do so now!
Yes I think this is it for now. Hopefully there'll be a part 2 of Lionel's love lessons.
Ok, I really shouldn't call it that. It should be Lionels.....
AHHHH. Whatever!!! But love need not only be restricted to initmate romances.
Even to your friends, do u seek to extract?? Or implant??
Go Figure.

Sunday, April 12, 2009

Please baby...

Listening to : look after you - The Fray

Easter is finally over. I'm really glad it is....
This is my 7th easter in CHC and i still really enjoy it.
However, this is the Easter when I really went all out to win as many as i can.
I really did. i haven't felt so tired in such a long time.
Struggling to make sure that the hostelites keep coming back.
Even for my own buddies. Its really tiring, but worth it!!!
The satisfaction definitely outweighs the pain and trouble.
On the other hand, i know i shouldn't be comparing and all.
But i guess i'm really a far cry away. A real far cry away.
it was only till recently i realised that. Sometimes its too far a cry i wouldn't want to even try.
Anymore at least....
All I want is to be able to be happy in the end and know that i've done my best.
Guess I have to get such a spirit back again.
It was so during school days. When i was convinced and satisfied that i tried my best.
I guess I should be now. I should be contented with what I'm given.
The latter will always be better for sure!!!
However, thats what I should be thinking of or feeling. Guess it takes a little wrestle with the spirit and mind to get into the right mindset.
This years drama was really intriguing. The Final Solution.
It was a drama which was alot more deep / touching / emotional compared to that of previous years. I can tell that the amount of effort put in was tremendous.
There were many underlying issues which were dealt with.
I guess to me the part which i felt for the most was when Silas was in prison with Jesus.
With his leg stabbed, he came to the end of himself.
He lost everything, he lost his daughter, career, life and everything.
He never believed in Jesus as well, in fact resented him.
However, when Jesus was bound and shackled and Silas lame, Silas threw his hate, fear away.
he believed...
He pulled to Jesus.
I guess it was surprising how such an illustration was a true depiction of life today.
When all else fails, though we ran away for so long, he's always there...
Must be surprised i'm blogging something life this.
I normally don't but since its easter.
Yup, this is a life changing Easter, a different Easter.
I go to work with my head up high tomorrow.

Saturday, April 11, 2009

Gogogogogogo

Listening to : Just go - Lionel Richie

I never thought that Lionel Richie sang such songs.
Its actually quite nice. Saw the Mtv and all.
Its actually a rather nice story. Oh well.
I just like to listen to this song cause it testifies of how Lionels can sing.
OH YEAH!!! I can singggg. Alright, i shan't continue on that topic.
Its finally easter. EASTER!! I'm really really happy!!
Well yesterday was the 1st of 3 services for me. With the new chinese friends....
it wasn't easy. Like REALLY wasn't easy.
I had some difficulty in communication but when we really come to the end of ourselves.
I guess i had to move on to the enxt level and breakthrough.
it is STILL funny to hear Lionel Choong speak chinese.
Today will be big big big. Tomorrow will be the finale. Hope it'll be good.
Yesterday and the day before was L4D nights.
First night was with mark alvan david blah blah blah.
Ok i admit, i got owned when I was the survivors, but as the infected, it was rather fun.
Even Rachel Kwan played with us. Hoping for the time NG SHIMING CAN PLAY!!!
Ie. Its a VERY big hint hint.
last night was our first guys night out for our cg i realised.
And it was spent playing Lan. HAHAHA!!
EVEN my brother and CF played. Which was REALLY hilarious!!!
Especially CF who didn't know how to play. But it was really fun.
To the others, it may be a small thing but i guess to me it meant that we're all suiting each others preferences. And I liked it. The give and take idea. I just hope it'll continue for a while.
10th of April was also a big day for Mr Kwek.
heh, Yeah man, it was his BIRTHDAY!!! Too bad i couldn't sing a beautiful birthday song for him.
I'm sure he would've killed me if i did. Oh well...
This is the 1st time i clebrated with him.
Good to have such a buddy around. a BDP!!!
WOOHOOO!!!!
Alright, time to dress up to meet Leonard and more chinese hostelites.
Imagine, I'll be saying "Hey man, how's OCS" in one minute and "Ni Men Hao!" the next.
Thinking about it makes me laugh already. HAHAHAHAAHHAHA!

Tuesday, April 07, 2009

Time

Listening to : Eh, eh (Nothing else i can say) - Lady Gaga

I'm honestly too tired to type anymore. Too used to typing in work and home.
Well, figured i should do up an entry for the week. I mean it is Easter week!!
I'm really happy its Easter again!
Short week!!! YAY! Ok not only that,
I'm happy cause its really a time to rejoice cause JESUS rose from the DEAD!!!
I hope all those around me understand what that means and its significance.
If 2009 years ago, Easter didn't happen. I think we'll be quite sorry sould at the moment.
The production this year would be about Hitler. Of which i literally did a project and debate about. I found lots of facts about him and i'm really thoroughly impressed by both his actions and the retaliative actions against him.
Combining History and Science, that'll be quite interesting eh.
On another note, I FINALLY re-applied to uni!!!
Gonna do a Double Degree in Industrial and Systems Engineering and Business Admin.
I'm hoping these 2 would be the combinations that I want.
Looking at the modules for both. I hope to excel and possibly do a Masters for one of em.
In the mean time... I should look to improve myself before going in.
Ie. I should improve on my English, soft skills and presentations.
Thats why I'm not exactly complaining cause i'm quite happy with what i'm doing now in NS.
Learning all these skills and practicing them. It'll really help me to get along just fine in the real world i hope.
Passing comment... CJC girls won 3rd for XC. I'm getting old... i know....
Oh gosh. At least i am surrounded by 'young' people. haha.
Think shiming makes my life alot more youthful. So much energy!!! WOOHOO!!!