Maybe

Listening to : The Scientist - Avril Lavigne

It resides in the brain but also the heart.
It arrives early but leaves very, very late.
It knows everything that rotates around it.
It's what keeps you going stride after stride, game after game.
It believes it can become anything that it wants to be.
Except satisfied.
Look out into the fields, you can see it.
You can't touch it, but you can definitely feel it.
It makes broken bones, sprained ankles, forgivable.
It never ever takes a night off
Desire.

Something that one needs to have in everything that you do.
In order to do it well.
You have to want it bad enough, to give your relentless effort for it.
You need to make that chase, to spend hours after hours reading about it, challenging yourself to accomplish it.
It seems never ending, the work is terrible. But don't give yourself excuses.
Take the plough, work the hours, give the time.
Spend 10000 hours to become an expert at it.
It definitely comes with pain, with struggle. But that's the joy in it.
To become legendary, to be in the hearts of the people, is to live forever.
My dreams have not changed since. It will not change for the next few years.

It's not about how well you can do it.
It's not about the gear, it's not about the talent.
It's about knowing where you're going, not forgetting where you started.
It's about having the courage to fail, not breaking when you're broken.
Taking everything you've been given and making it better.
It's about work before glory.
It's what inside of you, doing what they say you can't.
It's not about your gifts, it's what you do with them.
It's about being who you were born to be.

To repeat over and over again.
To be stubborn with failure, to toss and wrestle with the thought of giving up.
But don't back down. Take the patience for it will come sooner or later.
But don't wait for nothing.
Success isn't dropped, it isn't calculated.
It's earned.

Maybe it's my fault, maybe I led you to believe that it was easy when it wasn't.
Maybe I made you think that my highlight started in the auditoriums and not in the tracks.
Maybe I made you think that every trial that I encountered, was a winner
That my game was built on flash and not fire.
Maybe it's my fault the failure gave me strength.
That Pain, was my motivation.
Maybe I led you to believe that standing on the game day was a god given gift and not something I worked for, every single day.
Maybe I destroyed the mentality.
But maybe, you just making excuses.
Just maybe.

I love this place

Listening to : With or without you - Keane

I'm fairly surprised once again by the viewership of this blog.
I chose not to have a tagboard to keep myself ignorant about it.
To my surprise, there really are a few who do take time to read it.
Thus I am rather pleased. However, please do not be mistaken.
This blog is not emo! If it paints an emo picture that you are clearly deceived.
I just try to engrave my life and thoughts slightly more expressively.

I have spent some time to think it over.
I have always thought that it isn't the right time to take action.
However, right here, right now.
The opportunity presents itself once again.
I honestly feel that I don't deserve it. Honestly, there are many others who really do more than me. Some others may even desire it more too.
Inadequate may be the word which keeps flashing across my mind right about now.
Yeah, I do feel that way sometimes.
However, the fact that some people really do believe in me.
Alot of them believe in me more than I do for myself.
Things have changed and I'm very glad that it has changed for the better.

The only thing and issue that I have to deal with is commitment.
Like what was preached today.
It's time to start working, to throw in the axe and start working on the ground.
It does take some effort to sacrifice all the time to be part of a bigger world.
Many whom don't even know me gladly accept me into this group without even knowing my abilities, which makes me feel very at home.
No it isn't similar to the days of the old Jurong West.
But I'm happier this way, I don't wish to go back.
I don't wish to backtrack, but I want to make things grow from here.
Will I choose this path?
Yeah, I will, it takes some sort of guts and at the same time proper mentality.
The 'just do it' spirit.
No, I'm definitely not ready.
But I don't need to be to ready to be doing something like this.
I want to really engage and do something that matters.
If others believe in me, if others really trust me so much.
I wouldn't want to let them down.
I wouldn't want to let myself down.
I'll make this effort to climb up one pitch at a time.

Paradise

Listening to : Paradise City - Guns and Roses

Maybe I really am still naive.
However, it doesn't warrant treating me like I am.
Oh well, I really should be bigger and accept the fact.
I should be respecting my elders.

They say that grass is greener on the other side?
Hmmm, yeah, take me to paradise city where the grass is greener!
Well, all talk, there's no such place.
You are in paradise city.
You make it your paradise city. That's the way!

I did a little thinking yesterday.
I seem to lead too much of a happy go lucky life?
Too much to the point that I think that it actually leads to laziness
I'm really too easily contented such that when tasks are given to me, I really can't be bothered.
Call me a physical Junkie, I think that's what I am.
I'll do anything which really involves exercise.
But in terms of everything else. It's going to be a little difficult.
I know I shouldn't be like that, sleep lesser, play less, work more.
I think it's about time to start.

However, if I really do start working and all, I'm afraid honestly.
That I become too serious, become possibly not myself.
I take pride in the times where I'm able to confidently say that I'm not too affected by externalities because I'm very often ignorant or ain't thinking too much.
Yeah, I'm aware when it comes to relating to others and all.
But you see, I'm aware, but I don't wish to get involved.
Oh well, this week is over AGAIN.
Hopefully next week will pass slightly slower with lesser sleep.

CHINESE

Listening to : Everybody in Love - JLS

I still hear the roars of the F5 right above my head.
Well, I'm surprised to say that I really do miss FSS, it has been great there.
The ORD life is seriously too overrated. I practically have nothing to do nowadays.
Yes, I am lazy. Very lethargic and unwilling to really get any job done.
I'm just very afraid to lose my freedom. Somewhat that sounds really sad!
I have been sleeping at 4 everyday and waking up at 12 or so. it's honestly rather ridiculous.
Yeah I spend my day doing something more or less productive.
Be it training for frisbee or sending my girl home. Either way, I try to make it a point to do something useful every single day.
The worm inside me should grow out of this lazy streak soon I hope.
I'm going to give it till mid December to snap out of this lifestyle.
After that, it's time to get down to some serious business.

Yesterday I went over to JW to join in the leaders meeting.
Rather surprised cause Most of the Connect Group leaders were invited.
I love going back to JW. It brings back real fond memories.
I remember talking about places of victories before.
One of those places in which I am confident is my place of victory is JW itself.
Yeah, thats the place where my foundation was constructed.
It was the place for many firsts. However, I don't want to dwell too much in that.
The future should always be looked forward to. Which is to me, better.
I hold strong to what many say, that you should never wish to go back to former glory.
You should look forward to the future no matter how shabby you are now.
Oh the complications of it all.

On the other hand, it was A Pst Dennis Balcombe whom preached yesterday which warranted the invite to the meeting.
Well, I was rather surprised by it cause the moment I saw him, I knew he was familiar.
I've seen him before.
The moment he speaked, I remembered.
He came many years ago when I was still in secondary school.
However, he will always stay sketched in my mind.
He had so much passion for the lost, for a vision he practically learnt 2 new languages to evangelize. Yeah, thats really inspirational.
He preached a great word about the commitment that we need to have towards China and all.
The last time, when he came, his message was really about how passionate the chinese are.
He flashed videos of people really praising in the villages in the rural areas.
It was very impactful.

It makes you wonder.
You're living such a puny self centered life.
When we try to say we are living for others, simply hearing stories like that make you doubt that statement altogether.
We really are privileged to be hear having freedom not being oppressed literally.
I want to change.

HUCK

Listening to : Available - Flo Rida

Yeah, in case you have not noticed. I'm rather addicted to this sport of Ultimate Frisbee.
Well, I've been finding a reason to why I like this sport so much.
For me personally, I pick something up and enjoy it when honestly, I'm reasonably good at it.
Other than the fact that I'm more athletic than the average teen.
I don't think that I'm up to spec with everyone else.
Yeah, so I really ain't great at this sport.
But I guess its something different. I do hope to win. Who doesn't.
But the strange thing is, when someone really falls in love with a sport, what do you do?
I do meditate on the right things, just that I like this game.

Many entries ago, I actually blogged about how basketball really felt.
How the motion feels and how you react to actions in the game.
When it comes to frisbee its a totally different ball game.
I realized that its really a combination of almost all the sports that I like.
It needs the athleticism of Track, the Judgements of Basketball and the discipline of Rugby.
Everytime there is a play or a turn over.
There's so much system and motion in the field to specified positions.
When the pull is made, you go to a position, not knowing that place will render you useless.
It's a team sport, so moving the disc up the field takes patience and help. This ain't going to be easy with someone counting to 10 in your face.

The surprising thing is what people call the "spirit of the game".
Unlike other sports, it's self officiated even till high competitions.
When someone commits a foul, the opponent calls it and you either accept or dispute.
Either way, there's no real refree. We play fair and square.
So basically, its a very friendly sport.
In a matter of days, I've made some new friends, or rather acquaintances.

I do think that I'm rather far from success in this sport.
I do want to practice more and train up for it.
It's honestly a thrilling sport. When the disc goes up in the air, you run for it.
If it goes into the end zone, you either take a daring plunge for the disc or wuss out.
Top athletes play this game, its extremely exhausting running up and down a football field without stopping. Unlike normal defence, you REALLY take the mark into your own hands.
Would I stop in the near future? I highly doubt so. WOOOO

FRISBEEE

Listening to : Telephone - Lady Gaga ft Beyonce

Yeah, Its a new passion. Very new in fact.
I am rather blown away by it.
I love it.
Oh bring on the league!!!

Winter League

Listening to : False Pretense - Red Jump Suit Apparatus

So it may be a new passion found.
Not too sure if this will die down or not.
The old passion still remains, running will always be a love to me.
However, that may just take the sidelines to the new game.
Frisbee.
Yeah, I know, many of you must be really querying. What on Earth am I talking about.
I ain't the best at it, in fact, I'm barely even good.
I'm a newbie at it but yeah, its kinda fun to pick up and all.
I'll definitely still do my speed trainings and long runs etc etc.
However, that will be on top of the various trainings that I'll have.
I realized that whatever I've done the past few months in terms of fitness have not gone to waste. I'm still able to keep up and all.
All I need to do now is to be able to learn the throws and movements on the pitch.
It's like a fusion of my two passions, Basketball and track.
Speed and precision. Much what I love.

oh btw

Listening to : Supermassive Black Hole - Muse

I never though I'll use my blog in this manner.
However, since those who read it are those whom are close to me, I presume..
But yeah, I've pretty much lost all respect of him.
He may talk big, may appear bigger. But after that simple conversation.
I realise that he really is small inside. That I will never come to respect him.
Yeah, we all have different ways of doing things, but you don't assume things.
I didn't give it to that monkey cause I felt that it wasn't appropriate.
However, if I ever was under him, yeah, I'll wanna change.
It's come to a stage where I totally do not respect all that he's doing.
From working with peers to how he deals with those under him.
Yeah it can be stressful at times, but manage it.
To think you need to cool down and warm up.
Yes Lionel is offended.












Oh well, life goes on. Here goes Big Bang Theory season 2.
Oh the ORD life.

Stand

Listening to : Someday - Rob Thomas

Sometimes it really isn't easy to deal with certain disappointments in life.
I guess this has been rampant.
ORD life is really overrated and now I know why.
Uncertain issues are those which plague the lives of many nowadays.
It's strange how I refuse to be put down despite all these happenings.
It doesn't mean I'm cold or numb to all these.
In fact, it has pretty much set me back one or two when it has reached my ears.
In fact, all of these are to me very unnecessary.
However, if it matters to every single one of them. Then it matters to me.
It started with just 2. Now its 7.
It ain't easy to be in the know how, it didn't make it easier when people start to critisize my style. It pretty much irritates me.

However, I choose not to give in, not to back down.
I've ever thought of throwing in the towel and just saying no to it all.
To leave them be, to say that these aren't my troubles.
Then I'll let the Devil win.
So I'll keep on fighting this fight.
I won't give up on every single one of them.
I hope, that if I haven't been, to be a pillar for all 6 of them.
I may not be the best, the most wise or prayerful or spiritual.
However, I hope that I'm enough for them, I hope that I can be that ear and eventually be that word of council which can hopefully help them.

No I ain't emo. I can be if I want to, but I figured its all a matter of choice.
You choose how you want it to be.
You choose how you want your life to feel, to impact, to be like.
I would just love some help from above.
Cause I know that without it, I'll fail.... again.

better days

Listening to : Better days - Goo goo dolls

Maybe its just me waking up on the right side of the bed.
Maybe its just me getting lesser sleep today or just the right amount.
It ain't like the biggest revelations that I've ever had.
No it isn't. But its one of the more meaningful ones.
That if I really wanted to have better days. That if I really wanted to start my life over again.
To forgo all that has happened so far and to turn back time to where I began.
Then how would it be? How would I want my World to start again.
I would want nothing more than to have Shiming right beside me.
To live it with her all the way again.
Yes, I may not be living the best of life now.
May not be the best man or smartest or even the most disciplined. Maybe even rebellious.
But I won't change a thing if it means I have to give her up.
Tonights the night the World begins again

pls

Listening to : Tik Tok - Alesha

Sometimes you wonder what others expect out of you.
Yeah we all want to live our own lives and not under the false pretense of the impression you want others to have.
Its not fantastic. In fact, I don't like it.
But sometimes you can't be so selfish.
We have to be up to spec as to what another expects.
I have to admit that people change at times. Yes they do.
So will these expectations. However, for the other party, manage your expectations!

These issues have honestly been the significant troubling factor these few days.
It comes in many forms. But it really does get to me.
I can't say I can't be bothered.
But if I really don't live up to some expectation, I am trying.
And for many others, if another really doesn't live up to those expectations.
Don't be immature about it.
Be the bigger person and overcome your pride.
Suck it up at times when things just don't your way.

Life after ORD has been interesting. In fact, I'm not as unemployed as I expected.
Hopefully I'll be able to find a job.
Please trust me again.

BIG

Listening to : Big girls don't cry - Fergie

This is a time of uncertainty for many.
But I am certain that all things will turn out for the best.
You just need to believe in it with all your heart.
Be the bigger man.

ORD LOH

Listening to : Talk you down - The Script

When they say that the feeling of ORD is honestly overrated.
They're lying.
ITS EUPHORIC!!!!!
So it seems that my NSF life is finally over. I'm now an NS men.
Yeah, I'm rather glad that its all over and all.
I guess the only right thing to do now is to start reminiscing about the past 2 years in my life.
From bad, to good, to even better.
Yeah, I guess thats more or less my life. I have to admit, some good friends were really forged in those 2 years.
Some of them have already lost contact with. Some will always be dear to me.

I have to admit that the place which really caught my heart is really FSS.
PLAB FSS is by far the best place to be.
You can whine and complain and everything like that, but at the end of the day, it really is the place to be. I can spend my whole day there without really complaining.
Yeah, I do sleep and make my common mistakes at times.
I do get scolded at times as well. However, at the end of the day, its really a nice place.
I guess its cause of the people there. The family that I've had while I was there.
very closely knitted together.
It makes me feel comfortable and all like that.
The moment I entered, they made me feel at home though I was a trainee.

Another thing which always makes my day is how real my job is.
I am literally ensuring that Singapore is kept safe from potential attacks.
It makes NS all the more important to me.
When I really do talk an aircraft down, it gives me a sense of accomplishment.

There were tough times in my army life as well, of which were the Tango days.
Yeah, can't really use that as a comparison but it can be tough at times.
However, its very strange, its in these horrendous times where I find my closest friends.
Wei Ming was a great guy. Though we pretty much lost contact, I still have lots to talk to him about if I ever bump into him.

So which was the most fun time of my NS life? Well....
I have to admit, the grass is always greener.
When I was in unit, training felt the best. And vice versa.
However, looking back, all of it were memorable.

I can thank God that I've made it through NS, not just as an officer but a lover to shiming still.
Yeah, we survived NS. Made it through the 2 years.
Wasn't the toughest time but still. She was always there for me.
Through the stressful training days till the sheer joy of commissioning. She was always the centre of it all, making it feel great.

I hope to see all those friends I've made through my NSF life.
That's one thing which I'll never regret going through.
For all whom are still in it, keep pressing on! If not...
ORD LOH!!!!!!!

IPHONE

Listening to : Keep it real - Jonas Brothers

So I have officially been matriculated into the society of Iphone users.
That implies a few things I suppose,
ORD LOH.
And of course I join the ranks of almost every other teen my age whom uses the phone.
It's handy, it's useful.
I'm not a very big fanatic of this phone honestly.
I really ain't. But the salesperson really made it sound quite obvious in my face.
If I don't get an Iphone, I'm an Idiot.
Strange thing was that he isn't a Apple salesperson but a Singtel one.
So I guess his advice would come from a less biased source.
So yes, the phone feels great actually, quite light and at the same time comes with music.
Yes, thats like my one and only concern actually.
MUSIC. I need it in my phone. or at least it'll be great if i have an abundance of it.

Strangely the salesperson seemed very friendly.
The moment I told him I was in army he kind of gave me alot more priority.
After choosing and all, he conversed with me a little asking me about my unit and all.
Very shockingly, we were from the same unit! He knows my Boss!
That is rather funny. Which made things alot easier.
More so I can trust his opinion on the phone choice.
It's still in the morning so nothing much to blog about. More later!

Fight for a reason

Listening to : Under the knife - Rise Against

So I'm doing an entry twice a day now.
I'm finding it strange cause I've got nothing to do.
So i've decided to watch a movie on youtube and all.
It's called Never Back Down. Yes I've watched it like ten times or so.
It's by far one of the most inspiring movies of not giving up.
Then I found a rather interesting truth in all that fighting.
Everyone has a fight, not just you not just me, everyone.
There's a time when someone will be tested and you'll be thrown in the ring.
Then what? Then do you fight? Do you step in or back down?

Everyone has a certain battle, be it physical, be it mental, be it spiritual.
Something of epic proportions which will determine the rest of your life.
When we're put to the test, it's very contrary to many peoples belief.
Instead of it messing you up, you control the outcome.
It's all on you, always has been.
You just need to step up to the challenge.
No it won't be easy, it involves quite a bit of beating, scars, bruises, lots of pain.
Thats why we have to train for it, to prepare ourselves for this fight.
Different period have different fights.
No you don't waste your energy on useless battles and conflicts, you focus on the one big challenge. You focus on the one big fight.

Why do you fight? Is it for yourself?
If it is, then it's not reason enough for it.
So, since everyone has this one battle. When do we know?
When do we know that this is it?
When you find yourself saying to yourself, you fight this fight to never fight again.
Thats when you realize that this is it.
Take some time to think to yourself, we fight everyday of our lives.
We give it quite a bit of ourselves each day, but it's out attitude that matters.
It's the fighting spirit.
Don't give up on yourself, others won't give up on you.

If we could make a difference, than I'll fight.
Fight for the lives I care for, for me to say that I've done all I can to ensure that they're proud and happy.

So why do I run?
Why do I pain myself each day?
No, it's not cause I like it and enjoy the pain, it can get tiring at times.
It's not just to keep fit and look good, I can't be bothered.
So why do I keep pushing myself all these time?
Is it to prove something to myself? To have a false hope of winning and succeeding?
To feel part of something bigger?
Is it really solely cause of Shiming?
Right here, Right now, this is my fight.
I will keep running to find the reason why.
I will keep fighting on to understand.
Either way, this work for me.
To have the person on my left and right go strong together. That is probably it.

according?

Listening to : Morning after dark - Timbaland

I've somehow come to the habit of listening to the song "she's got you high" everytime I turn on the computer. I think its a happy go lucky song.
It's the kind of song you would want to start your day with.
So the trainings that I've been going through weren't the most fantastic.
In fact, they were rather torturous. I would honestly be pleading for mercy soon.
But this is the route I have to take if I want to get back in shape.
In the Fighting shape! It ain't like the easiest thing to do. But I guess takes a tad bit more of determination.
The days have been passing by rather slowly. In fact, life seems stale.
No I'm not trying to say that I'm getting spiritually stagnant.
But there's simply nothing to do!
Get a job? Perhaps, but what I'm looking at starts only in January next year. I'm not exactly willing to commit as of now.
I still want a good long holiday.

Well, that brings me to another point.
How much rest is enough rest? Alot of people determine rest as sleep...
Some consider rest as playing and having fun outside.
There's alot of different variations.
At the same time, why do we even need rest?
I will not even begin to break down the many possibilities of us having different forms of rest. For many, sleep is all sufficient. However, the stress they get from work is really too much to bear.
They are stressed to the point of dying, the sad thing about them is that they're unable to work more to relieve it.
They have to succumb to the time work standards set by the firm.
So their rest is considered to be a holiday or a good day off with the family.
There's just so many possibilities and different forms of rest.

But why do we need rest?
When God gave his commandments, one of it was to keep the Sabbath.
To honor the day of REST.
Yeah, we're not machines, we need a break once in a while. In fact, we need rest on a regular basis in order for us to improve ourselves.
First analogy, in running, if an individual takes little time to rest and keeps pushing himself with 2 trainings a day.
I'm very sure the outcome of his workouts would be more detrimental than helpful to his fitness and speed.
In built in humans, we have this capacity for work and stress.
When it comes to the point where we bust that limit, we call this the 'burn out'. When you really just don't find the motivation anymore.
Yes we can all say that the motivation is God and all.
I admit thats good and important and all.
However, even the biggest and strongest workers have their rest days.
Look at Pastor Kong, even he takes time off to see his family.
Everytime he says he goes to LA, it kind of makes me happy to know that he's getting his share of rejuvenation.
I've seen too many people burn out especially in the tough times.

In days like these when the economy is not doing well and results are all that matters, people are forced to work over and beyond their capacity.
Yes, its a dog eat dog world, but we shouldn't be too competitive such that we miss out on the things which really matter in life.
Our lives itself.
I urge and encourage all those having exams, going through tough times, to take a break once in a while.
Honestly, have a kit-kat.
A levels, O levels, Recession.
Its all the same, cause the benefits are this rest are much greater than that if you didn't do so in the beginning.

Don't get me wrong, I don't advocate laziness (though I may be)
Everything should be kept in balance.
Work should definitely outweigh your rest.
A good proportion? 1-7.
As said in the bible.
I've did it before, I've succeeded before.
Yes, thats the end of this entry. This is really meant for those working away in their books preparing for the big A's. All the best!!!!!!!

disposition

Listening to : According to you - Orianthi

The two best places to blog.
On my bed and after a solid run.
Contrary to many people's belief, you do alot of thinking when you are actually running.
You try to shut your mind off from the pain and try to go into a 'trance' or some sort of runners high. However, in the midst of all of it, you'll subconsciously start thinking.
The issues which hit you head are very surprisingly the issues which are closest to you.
The few things which come across my mind are like shiming, my connect group etc etc.
In fact, the very worry-some things are those which come across my mind.
I find myself most at peace with myself and closest to my inner self when I run.
Ok, in this, I don't mean sprinting, I mean long distance running.
The biggest thing which runs through my mind while sprinting is,
PAIN PAIN PAIN STOP STOP AHHHHHHHH
Somewhere along those lines I guess.

So what did I think of when I was running today?
Well, strangely its the idea of familiarity and bridging that gap towards another person.
First, let me set the story straight,
I'm going for track training tomorrow after God knows how long.
I'm not too afraid of me not being fit or anything like that, I'm more worried about the fact that I don't know anybody there except like Mr Wong and a few others.
The thing is that I used to go for training solely for the company and the inspirations they give me.
However, this time round there's not going to be anybody.
I was wondering how is it going to be like? Will it be boring? Will I give up easier? Will I even go?
Alot of these questions were honestly crossing my mind.

However, another point was shot across when I realized that it was true that in many areas of life, I can be very friendly, at the same time very very 'arrogant' like.
Its honestly a very hypocritical way of working.
But I guess this is just me and I find it tough to break the habit.
Thus familiarity is something which is of great importance when it comes to having fun.
I've seen some who totally are new to a group but blend in very well with the dynamics.
It's all about how we all react towards things and our attitudes towards it.
Like how Master Uguay would say in the movie 'Kung Fu Panda'.
"There's no such thing as good or bad news, there's only news, how we perceive it is what matters". Or somewhere along those lines.
So whats the outcome for tomorrow?
I honestly still don't know. Guess I'll be going there and try to act as a Senior?
How I wish it could just be like the old days when things were so much easier.
The very pleasing thing is that I'm still welcomed according to Mr Wong.
And yes, very thick skinned styled, I'll definitely be there as long as one person in a hundred wants me there. Oh oh oh.

high

Listening to : Time for miracles - Adam Lambert

The words were smooth, tone was politically right.
The talk was close to almost flawless. It was indeed impressive.
I have to admit, and I don't doubt the words which came out of his mouth.
They were genuine, very real and truthful.
However, how much I took in was sadly alot lesser than that of what he expected.
Not trying to be rebellious of any sort.
I'm very fine with things being said out like this.
Out on the table, very clean, very real.
Yes, I may be stubborn at times. but so are many others.
If its true and if its undoubtedly correct, then I might just take heed.
it may even move me at times.
So why do I even regard the words of people such as Pastor or my Parents?
I tried to give myself an evaluation.
I still found little or no clue at all. However, I'm sure that its something to do with authority and stuff like that.
Call me prideful still, but please don't call the kettle black.

Certain things in life need not be shared across the table in front of others.
These are the issues of life which I hold in high regard.
Things which may be good to the extent of me being unfit to share on their behalf.
However, certain things may hold too much grudge in regard for me to say.
Like what I said, I guess respect is earned, its given to those which I deem to be honored and feared.

Anyway, I have to agree that not everything may be profitable.
If thats really the case, then life would really be boring, wouldn't it?
Sorry, but call us scoundrels if you want. I really can't be bothered anymore.