People feel so many emotions all so differently
Yeah, definitely.
Perhaps not so much of feeling emotions differently.
But experience different emotions at different stages or circumstances in their life.
After each passing hurdle, triumph or disappointment that well, there's a routine.
A habit of sorts.
Just like muscle memory.
Your mind and emotions work just like that.
Your brain experiences a similar sensation when posed with a similar situation.
It might not be exactly the same.
It probably won't be at all.
However, due to it being just a bit similar, you react the same way.
In anger, happiness or sadness.
Then there're moments where in one particular occassion.
You experience something completely completely new.
Your brain can't seem to know what and how it's supposed to react or feel.
Emotions get jumbled up.
Sadness, disappointment, relief, anger, happiness, joy, gratefulness all get thrown it at the same time.
That's when perhaps....
You can change your life.
Create a new habit
Create a new memory, a new pattern for your life to follow after.
One new habit, be it positive or negative, naturally influences the others around it.
Only if you let it, of course.
Then that's where suddenly your life starts to change.
One thought, one mental routine, one habit, one hurdle at a time.
The past 2 weeks. I've been faced with an incident that perhaps, I had never expected.
Was it hard?
Yeah, definitely.
Am I angry at myself? Yeah, very much.
Disappointed? For sure.
Grateful? Most definitely.
Sad? On the brink of closing my eyes and trying to forget it all.
Happy? Surprisingly, yes. That it's a new stage of life and a new me.
Life goes on.
It really does.
One thing does remain though, one thing I can never deny.
That God, regardless of circumstance and decisions, has and always will be there.
To remind me how to frame those thoughts.
To nudge me to the better side when I so choose the other.
To keep me smiling and saying those so familiar words, "Hello Hello."
Thank you God for keeping me.
