NO MORE BANKAI!

Listening to : When Will I See Your Face - Jamie scott

Well, so this is it. No more A levels. HAHAHHA!
It feels funny now. I mean, now i have nothing to do.
At the same time I wanna do everything i can.
I really am glad its all over.
It wasn't easy man. Really ain't easy.
Happy next year i got break man. HAHHAHA

No more school...

Listening to : Stand by Me - Oasis

I guess right now i'm considered to be emo.
Hmmm. I dun wanna leave cjc.
Today was a blast. The best blast on earth.
Makes me wonder how i'll live without being around these people.
Yes i have outside friends, but these bunch of people really allow me to really be myself.
anybody outside can never replace these people.
The dynamics of THIS class is too complex to even put into words.
Just like what one of my famed classmates have said.
"I Have nothing left to say".
Yup, i'm speechless. I really am.
I just really hope we don't lose contact. All 21 of us.
all 21 of us t24 people. Ok inclusive of 24.5.
I guess its been a hell of a time... I should stop being emo now...:(

best days of my life...

Listening to : Samurai - Franco dragone

I guess it reall is coming to an end.
I do remember how i got my 1st intake postings, heh, when it rewad CJC i was damn sad.
I dunno, but the moment i did come in, things just seem to change.
Maybe i just changed. What was the most evernful thing? I dunno....
I guess its EVERYTHING.
From me joining track and becoming the capt with no prior experience.
To me jumping to the beats of rockefella.
To this insane class of mine.
TO meeting the girl of my dreams.
Guess i much to be grateful for. Yes this school may not have the 'best' environment to study.
Yes it does have its flaws. But no school is perfect.
To everybody its different. But to me, CJC was not simply a campus.
CJC was a moulding place. More than i would have imagined.
This school isn't perfect, but cause of everyone inside, it is perfect.
for these few years, never have i regretted coming to school.
(ok maybe once or twice)
But this place, this is where i belong.
I will miss cjc. Without this school, i wouldn't be where i am today.
Now since its over, we will never be in that situation with that same 21 idiots shouting our way up, biting each other, pinching, beating, sleeping,screaming, making every other class suffer due to noise and become the unexpected class to do how we did for prelims.
Not only that, this team of trackers. Heh, enough has been said about them.
Both the class and this team, the school, the teachers.
Its the best place for me...
Its my CJC...
I wun mind being called a B*** for it... :)

PPRRREEEELLLLIMS!!!!!

Listening to : Angel - Westlife

So yeah, i haven't been updating my blog for GOD KNOWS HOW LONG!!!
After the many nudges to update it here i am now.
Well, nothing MUCH really happened since track nationals ended.
Hmmm, i still miss track. I really do miss it. Not just cause of the pain, but also the people. :)
Well, been studying like a mad dog every since, the toughest was last week, 8-12 everyday.
All i can say is that, i didn't really mind cuz of that special someone there all the time.
Of course its tiring, but it just seems all worth it after a while.
Well, now prelims has just ended, i must say i am kinda ok with it.
I gave it my best shot. And yeah, whatever comes comes i guess.
E406 has also just multiplied. Yeah, kinda sad, but at the same time, i think it's a good thing.
Other than that, i played guitar for the first time for CG today, heh, it is tough man.
i didn't do well, i know...
But i guess i just gotta learn! :) Same for studies i guess.
Not only that, heh, today i played contact, the funnest time i had in sports.
How stress relieving can it get to tackle someone. HAHAH!!
Anyway, i think i'm gonna rest cause i'm DAMN tired.
Hopefully i didn't do anything wrong....

Nothing short of amazing...

Listening to : Ain't no mountain high enough

All i can say is that i'm amazed.
Well, i don't wanna elaborate much about the real running but track nationals was the end.
I'm so happy for those 5 medalist.
More than that, for EVERYONE.
More than the medals, after everything, I'm just so so so so happy.
To see the team in such a manner.
To be that strong, this is what i call a team.
This is what i call spirit.
The best people I have ever worked with, the best people I have suffered with.
The BEST PEOPLE around.
Thank you CJC TRACK AND FIELD!
I owe this cca so much. I have learnt so much.
I ain't perfect, but this team, Its perfect.
I don't care what anyone says, I don't care what comes between us.
This is the team to be in.
Team CJC Athletics. I love it.
I will always be a Tracker at heart, I will always be their captain at heart.
I love this team. :)

more than enough

Listening to : Nothing

So here we are, 2 days away. Strange how the more nervous i get the more i blog.
ANyway, today i've finally started feeling the jizz of it.
Well, initially it really got to me.
Its here, our nationals is in 2 days time.
Perhaps we should panic, but i got a better suggestion.
I do believe in myself.
I know who i come from, one whos almighty and strong.
More than ever, I do trust in my own abilities, I know i am the ehad and not the tail.
Right now, i guess i've trained so hard, i know i can do it.
I dunno why but i psyched myself up so much for it,
I pushed my mind to think i can so much so I ain't too nervous about it anymore.
I even cut my hair. -.-

NOT too kind

Listening to : Before its too late

TIme really hasn't been kind. It really is here.
Nationals is in less then a weeks time. What am i saying. Its in 3 damn days.
Honestly, i'm not very nervous. I don't know why myself.
I guess track has really changed for me, not just to win, but to impace.
Today was my last official training, and honestly, i really am emo.
Before its too late, i better do something. Perhaps, that was what i've been thinking all along.
Well, now its all over, 2 solid years of training has finally ended.
I wonder if i really did make an impace in their lives, i do hope i did.
But CJC track has really changed lionel choong. A different spirit.

Enough of that, for now, i shall not brood over what i've lost but rather what i've went through.
To be thankful for all those trainings to make me who i am today.
A boy bred to run this race.
Many people think that it really is impossible to run this 100m race.
Guess what, i don't really care anymore, i really don't. Right now, i'm going to do the impossible.
If the possible just isn't working, i rather do the impossible for it to work.
And i guess it's going to be really tough race. well, its gonna just be me myself and god in 100m.
Well, thats all i need!
To everyone as well, you may not be getting any support, any help to drive you on.
You just have yourself, but GOD DAMN IT!!! THATS ENOUGH!
Just believe in yourself.
This nationals will change for CJC, i believe it, everyone will always remember how they race CJC.

more that meets the eye

Listening to : Before its too late - Goo Goo Dolls

So the exams have come and as fast they have came, they have gone.
in just one week, it all got settled. I can't say much about it.
Just that i'm a little annoyed by it.
Kinda expected to do much much better than ever.
Either way, i guess i gave it my best shot, whatever comes i deserve it i guess.
So yeah, the trackers went to R&R yesterday.

Before that, went to watch transformers.
Well, it was one of the OMG movies i expected, and it never went below expectation.
It was amazing. I wanna watch it again! Like really, its amazing.
After that we went to endless intense fun.
In other words, stuffing ourselves.
That was unbelievable.
People say you bond the most when you eat. Guess what,
WE ATE A MOUNTAIN!!! HAHAHHA

so fast ar!!!

Listening to : My Alibi - Tmg

OMG!!! the holidays have ended.
OMG!!!!! exams start tomorrow.
OH SHIT!!!! Haven't finish studying.
Oh well, i just hope i can do all i can 2moro.
Not only that, nats is in 2 weeks or less.
I'm doomed.
OK MAYBE NOT!!!!
I hope not....

keeping the dream alive

Listening to : High School never Ends - Bowling for soup

Well, i'm jealous, yes I AM!!!
Not rteally jealous, really envious to be more precise.
Seeing everyone run their hearts out literally yesterday, to see them push all out.
To achieve remarkable timings and to impress everyone in their event.
The VJC invitational really was awesome.
Just that i couldn't really run. :(
I sprained my ankle a few days ago. The good old injury has come back.
The basketball injury is annoying!!! AHHHH!!
Not only yesterday, but i'm gonna MIA for like a week or so.
No running, i'm really kinda annoyed about this. heh.
Guess this is really untimely, after rec spasms, now this.
Perhaps i just wasn't made to run. Well, i guess not, what am i talking about?
I'm made to run, i'm built to run, born to run.

Track camp was kinda fun too!
Fantasy Island totally pawned everyone. Like all the J1s were totally screwed.
The movie was good too. I think it was well received, i hope.
The whole camp was real fun i think, considering we all slept super late. HAHAH!!!

The track team is getting more bonded too. I love it this way
Its becoming wat i wanted it to be, a family.

Listening to : Breathe - Anna Nilick

I do have to applaud those that have faithfully come to my blog despite me not updating all the time.
I guess life has been as normal as it can get.
Ok fine, who am i kidding!!!
It's been real exciting and fun, not forgetting stressful as well
Well good thing is that i've gotten over spasms. Or that is what I think.
Exams are tough, i can't finish syllabus in time, i'm quite sure.
So i'm gonna spot topics for all my subjects. Except for physics.
We reached 8 months ytd, YEAH!!!
Camp is next week, somehow i feel that this camp will really be the turning point.
I gotta make it the turning point.
3 weeks to that actual big day, 3 weeks to me ending my track life.
To me, this cca has been the most life-changing experience of all. I love it! :)
Well, Emerge is also over. Kinda miss it. I made a whole lot of resolutions to change.
Well, i guess this is really a toast to change!!
A new and more positive Lionel who will do his job in track well. :)

failing to achieveing but always to inspire

Listening to : Dimension - Wolfmother

Its been a whole 11 days since i blogged. Wow.
Guess the past few days have been very traumatising/busy so much so i didn't feel like blogging.
Well, the significant events would be the track side events.
As the nationals placings were read out. It really was heart breaking to know that I ain't running 400. All cause of spasms. Also, i'm not down for 4x400. Well, last wednesday. I was really really broken. So much so I kinda gave up already.
Good thing I never did, and great thing god came through for me both in results and in spirit.
All i can do now is push myslef further cause i still have the last chance to break into the team.
LIONEL WILL NEVER GIVE UP!!!
Mr Wong also said something to me which i guess will really stick with me.
If you fail to achieve, Inspire.
Heh, then i will, with all my will. I guess in time to come, i hope my fruits will be nice and sweet.
its only 4 days to emerge. Man it is extremely exciting. Heh.
I'm actually pumped up for it, I'm really happy supergirl is coming too.
Guess soon she'll understand how everything all works out. :)
Exams are also coming, which sucks. So hello studying!!!!
SPA IS ALSO TOMORROW!!! AHHH!!!!!!

Fallen...

Listening to : Come Back Down - Lifehouse

Its really getting annoying, whats wrong with my body???
9 out of 11 runs i had spasms today.
This is really bad, I can't perform at all.
Not only that, my cough is getting really bad.
This hasn't been my few days at all.
Not forgetting exam stress, sometimes it really is tough to believe.
Feel as though I've let down so many people, coach included.
Especially my girl.
The only thing i can do now i to be still and pray.
For some divine miracle to happen, and for me to perform on friday.
Friday will be my next biggest challenge. I refuse to give up.
I just need a little push in the right direction. Thats all.
I believe that HE is really mighty to save.

SIgnal...

Listening to : SIgnal Fire - Snow Patrol

Haven't been to active in bloggging recently, solely cause I haven't been to my com very much recently. Hmmm. Guess the past few days have been kinda tough.
Mid-years are really round the corner, especially all the H1s and all.
Track is even tougher, due to many many injuries, especially the spasms and all.
It really is troubling, i need to overcome all this quickly.
Haven't really been sleeping very well too surprisingly.
Very wierd dreams all the time, and all appear so real. SOme of my class, track or everyday life.
Wonder whats wrong with my head these few days. HAHA.
Yeah, SUpergirl has been taking care of me. She really is a good partner around.
Just if only SHe's beside me all the time.
This are signals to work harder i guess. Yup, i think they are. HAHA
My girl, thank you so much! :)

The impossible dream

Listening to : Tui Hou - Jay Chou

Guess recently i've been spamming a whole lot of movies. VCD wise the nicest movie was GOAL!
OMG, it really is a good inspiring show.
One impossible dream, just once you can make it that big in life.
Just once you can do all, never miss it.
Well, the most hyped up movie is Spiderman 3.
Guess enough is said by many others. Well, the best MOVIE YET!!!
I've been rather shot on to chase that impossible dream.
Guess it eally is niave.
I REFUSE TO GIVE IN!!!

Refuse

Listening to : Crash - Matt Willis

Its simple, I refuse to be defeated and i will never give up!
Even if you beat me i refuse to admit it and say its a fluke.
I'll keep coming again and again till I do beat you.
Thats how i've been thinking the past 2 days which were really tough.
Yesterday doing 8x400 at a kinda tough pace and today finally puking during training.
Some say I'm pushing too hard and need rest.
Maybe I do, But I can't, I can't let someone down.
I'm gonna fight my lungs out if I have to.
Today for the first time, I really gave up. I said a no to training.
Well, it seems my body has gotten the better of me for today, well, its a fluke.
I'll OWN my body tomorrow.
Ok this is getting to sound really sadistic.
Well, Good job to the ruggers for taking out MI today!
Chuck scored 3 trys. I'm kinda amazed. Impressed rather.
He really is fast. Well, I need to study again.
Its tough being fired up to run and study at the same time. HAHA!

This is totally random, but I think i need a backpack.
The sling bag is really screwing my arms up. I need one badly i think.
its only 58 days away.
Close to 2 months and track nationals are here.
Maybe some just don't get it, If I don't push myself now.
Then When? AHHHH!!!
I'm fired up!!!!
As for History, i just pon my 1st history test. HAHAHAH
I'm so going to die man.

Labouring day

Listening to : Spice Of Your Life - Bleach

It doesn't feel like a tuesday at all. Feels more like sunday.
It totally doesn't feel like a holiday at all. With 2 tests tomorrow and not much rest time given.
I think right now its a labouring day for many fo us.
Gotta train hard later too. I do not believe i cannot take the trainings. I'm going to push till i drop. ( I swear i've said this at least 5 time already)
Much to my surprise, i slept in for the 1st time in a long time.
Or Perhaps thats what i needed all along. Sleep.
Hopefully can see her later. HAHAHHA.
Its May now. Not long to nationals.
But VERY SOON TO WATCHING SPIDERMAN 3!!!

Last Chance...

Listening to : Plug In Baby Acoustic - Muse

The week has been rather erm, different.
Tough week with 2 tests and many many hw.
oh well. Thank God its over. Well one highlight was the sports carnival heats.
Man was it really heats man, heated competition and all.
The 400 run was rather bad but emerged as 4th qualifier. Oh well. Gotta fight for that.
But the big one is the 4x100.
Despite the huge controversey on whether or not T10 should be disqualified.
It was a real good run for them.
Well our class did well too, without andrew kwek, we ran 49 sec.
Chuck was amazing. It seems in sports carnival it really will be a fight with memberzz.
Who will win, i dunno.
Well, all I know is that many ppl are getting all arrogant and cocky about their speed and all.
It kinda sickens me.
Other than that, Track has been EXTREMELY TOUGH!!!!
So much so i love it, its esctacy to me man....

Stairway

Listening to : Stairway to Heaven

I've gotten a little lazy to maintain my blog i realised.
Well, a few updates. WEDNESDAY WAS AWESOME!!!
The cross country team did phenomenal.
My girl finally got top 20!! she got 13th place!!!
Real happy for her. Like its been so many years of running and the last year she achieved something!!!
Oh well, this is kinda bad for me in a way.
Means i DIE DIE must win something. If not pai seh. heh.
Yeah, on thursday we went put and all after school to have fun.
I'm also gonna start pushing my runs.
I really am going to work hard on my strength endurance now. I have no more time to waste.
Speaking of no time. I think I really have to start doing my homework and studying.
Cause on friday. I had my very first detention.
ALL CAUSE I DIDN'T DO MY HISTORY OUTLINE!!!
My clean record is broken. NO!!!!
Detention is really sad, the people there do work aimlessly. It was kinda traumatising actually. HAHA!

XC!!

Listening to : Can't stop - Red Hot Chilli Peppers

Wow, so it seems that this song was really loved ion my runs last year.
Yeah, i can remember, this song kept running in my head.
Well, 2moro is Cross Country. Wow.
So fast eh. It seems many are now EXTREMELY nervous.
All i can say now is that everyone has done all they can.
Everyone has prepared equally as much.
Everyone has had their prep talks and all.
But 2moro, its not going to be about any of these things which will determine who wins.
Its about who becomes the bravest, who can go out there and run their hardest with no regrets.
I'll be rooting for CJC XC!!! I'll be rooting more importantly for Ng Shiming.
She's real nervous now. Oh well.
This is XC for you. HAHA. After this, its ten weeks to the big day for me.
Shall not consider that for now.
Well, ALL the way cross country!!!