Oh and yes, wouldn't it be great if u were really superman?
I wish i really was.
I really hope i still am at times.
Just feels great when u can do the impossible eh.
I dun wanna be a hancock, but i just wanna make ppl happy.
That'll be really nice eh. Ok. No more emo-ing.

Confusion?

Listening to : hypnotized - Akon

Exhausted is one of the smallest words that can describe how i'm feeling now.
In the physical sense at least.
This weekend was by far the most tiring of all.
Friday and saturday had long nights and then today playing in the sun
It really took alot of energy outta me. In fact now i'm not feeling the best.
Sadly, i still gotta book in.
Once again, i just wish i was a free man. A civillian. Soon i guess.
But on the other hand, sentosa splash was actually really fun.
I thought it kinda brought back the roaring lionel.
I'm just blur now. I dunno, its so strange on one hand but its really who i am on the other.
It was fun partly cause of shiming.
I really love her man. HAHA! I hope she reads this.
Anyway, i gotta spend more time with everybody else too man.
But for now, i'm just gonna try to get as much rest as i can before 2moro exercise.
Confirm will get scolded left right center.

Sound

Listening to : Because of you - Ne-yo

Having a sound system the sizw of your previous com ROCKS!
Oh god, i love music and now its AMAZING!
Guess i spent alot and its WORTH IT!
ANyway, i'm finally out!
this week was rather demoralising. Yes it was!
Heh. Guess its just me but yeah, wish it was alot easier for Aerodrome phase.
Recently been less tolerent over many things. But either way, i'm still happy. Haha! I'm trying to be at least. In the next few days, i'm gonna be going crazy with practical.
I got only this LAST 2 days to truly unwind.
Good news is that wednesday we got our nights out.
OH YEAH!!
So its a real morale booster for me. I mean, its finally come true and all.
But i really am gonna work for it. Going to mug real hard and make sure i don't fail or anything.
I'm up for tower controller on monday.
You know the aircraft which over ran the runway???
I doubt its the pilots fault.
Its the controllers fault. IE. MY FUTURE POSITION.
Scary eh. ANYWAY! I'M OUT! So time to chill and listen to music blasting at my ears!

Run the show??

Listening to : Run the Show - Kat DeLuna

Today is a good day!!! Cause its BOOK OUT DAY!!
Its been so long since i have been able to come out like this on a monday!
Thank God for the break tomorrow.
Honestly, i dunno why we have this other than the fact that its RSAF day or something.
Anyway, recently have been quite into running, or rather very addicted to running.
This is the 1st time in the past 7 months that i have actually been exercising at home willingly.
I dunno why, i guess the runner in me is coming up again??
Maybe its the time of the year, where every wants to race again. I miss those days.
The track team has been doing a splendid job.
I really am proud of them. In fact, going back to school with mark tomorrow.
Hopefully can catch up with the rest and also to gym!!!
Not forgetting to run!
Wanna meet up with my other friends, all of em.
Guess i haven't been too good a buddy to some ppl.
My class ppl, my sec sch friends, my cg, my family.
AHHHH.
too little time in a day i guess. HAha. This calls for more bookout!

Sunday Morning!

Listening to : Sunday Morning - Maroon 5

Its SUNDAY MORNING! Rain ain't falling, haha
But i gotta book in EARLY TODAY! In fact in about 20 min i gotta start getting ready.
Just gotta eat lunch 1st. So still ok. Haha.
I'm really really exhausted and tired man. Too tired to be true.
I hope the next few days will be more fun though.
The past week was a crazy week for most of us.
Especially the last few days building up to the exam.
Heh, good thing this week we'll have alot of free time and all with tuesday off.
I'm really glad. In fact i'm QUITE looking forward to this week.
I'm effectively only booking in for the exam. Thats all. HAHAHA! ok ok, I'm crazy.
Anyway! I guess today will be fun as well. Though i'm really tired now still.
Hopefully my running hasn't deproved after yesterday.
Though it was on hell of a time. HAHAH

Lost Mind

Listening to : Too Bad - Nickelback

Well, in a few hours time i gotta go in to do guard duty.
Was supposed to meet Shiming at like now. But guess she gotta do stuff and all.
I'm SIAN!!!! Oh well, wat to do, its just too bad i gotta do this duty.
I just want the next few weeks to be alot more relaxed and all.
Ok, that won't happen, next week is going to be assessment week and exam week the week after. I dunno how on earth we're gonna be able to accomplish and do well for all.
Our instructors were disappointed with our marks in the integrated phase.
THEY EXPECT 90%!!!
How crazy is that eh, its really scary.
I just hope laters guard duty is super relaxed and no walking around.
Was just thinking the point of all this rubbish i'm doing.
I whack so hard for an 8-5 life but is it really worth it.
Guess i feel quite rubbish in camp most of the time.
Maybe its also cause of the people and all, other than that, i guess its the stress too.
THATS LIFE!!!!

The FIRST relaxed day

Don't ask me why i can blog now. Cause if i tell u, i'll prob go jail or something.
WELL!!! i'm in a better mood today. WHY!?!?!?!? Cause today SLACK!!!
Yesyes, its my first day i have NO exercises, NO scolding and NO low morale.
Went to run feeling good. The only SIAN thing is the Cyberspace duty at night.
Other than that, i think i'm relatively happy with the day.
BUT!!! the next few days will be kinda tough i guess. OH OH OH!!
The only good thing is that there's gonna be a few different activities along the week.
Guess it breaks the boringness of the week.
Kinda wanna hang out with EVERYONE AGAIN!!!!
Guess i WILL be emo 2moro.
4 more days to BOOK OUT!!!

Never back down

Listening to : Stronger - Kanye West

Wow, yesterday was a really long day. Not that i'm complaining or anything.
Was actually quite fun. Caught the movie Never Back Down.
It was an AWESOME show. Wow, i never thought it'll be that nice.
Guess its not just about fighting and all, its really cool to see how he really trained.
Kinda makes u wanna learn fighting.
Ok fine, i'll just stick to running. I gotta admit, running does the same to me.
Now i'm psyched up to run and get STRONGER!!!

Black Week

Listening to : The Way I Are - Timbaland

Well, its another week over. This week is labelled BLACK WEEK!
Well, a few weeks ago, there was this day where everything went wrong, thatwas called black monday. This week, EVERYDAY went wrong, so its BLACK WEEK!
Let me summarise the days in a very short point form.
MONDAY! Start of the week, got told off during the few practices we had, not able to run.
TUESDAY! Got scolded like hell for the IPPT things and admin issues.
WEDNESDAY! Got KILLED during exercise 3 by captain Too. TOO MUCH!
THURSDAY! Died during the ex 4 brief when we realised we had to do a thousand things
FRIDAY! BURIED during ex 4 itself. It was a total failure.
So that sums up the week. I thought it was generally the worst week in Air force yet.
Well, maybe there ahs been worst weeks in the army wings, but guess this is the worst for now.
Good pointer is that a few NSF seniors came up to us and told us that WE CAN DO IT!
How i wish that was really really true. Heh, they made it sound tough but really possible.
They did it, so can we. Thats the idea. Well, at least for now, i'm ready for another tough week.
I'm going to get mentally prepared this weekend, i'm going to really chill.
On a good note, today we brought FLT Vamsee out, it was a good experience. I had fun.
Also, chilled with the guys and sm. Really liked spending good time with them.
Guess everyone goes through some pain. This is ours.
So don't ever say C3 is slack.
Cause i think infantry is really really slack.

exploder

Listening to : take you there - Sean Kingston

Its getting crazier by the moment. I'm starting to really dread booking in.
GUess its getting better cause all my other friends are all going ocs.
Making us all in the same boat.
I have to say that this coming week may be a little boring.
Guess cause i had an awesome weekend.
But at least i had my fair share of fun.
HAHAHHAHA

Control

Listening to : Yellow- Coldplay

I'm back from AFS!! Finally, well this was a short week.
But a tough one indeed, was ic so did alot of rubbish and stuff.
Too bad i'll be ic again in what, 4 weeks? Anyway, on a lighter note, we've finally started controlling. Honestly, it's one of the most fun things we've done since enlistment.
Its like playing a game, just that its more complicated and hell fun.
Its extremely cold inside simulators and i'm starting to talk funny i think.
Like i'll hardly say hold on but stand by now.
Its funny but at the same time way cool. BUt we're now only in our first phase.
The one where we just stare at the com screen, not yet to the realy 3D room.
I can't wait for that. BUt for now, i'll just be saying things like, confirm checks complete!!!
MAMBO 4 MILES ON TRACK ON GLIDEPATH REQUEST LAND!!!
I'm sure that never made sense to u reading it. But ya, its fun.
To me at least. I just wish all my friends from school were here doing it with me.
It'll be the best i could ever ask for.

better

Listening to : Better In time - Leona Lewis

Today was good. A good refreshing WEEKDAY!
1st time in a realy long time since i've been out in a week day.
I really wouldn't mind such a day once in a while
I was able to tsee the juniors and train with them, they're doing well.
I kinda miss track training, training with em beats 100 trainings in NS.
It makes you feel good to know that there're ppl there to look out for you and push you on.
Oh well, their nationals are coming, and i remember how it was when it was my nationals exactly one year ago. HAHA! CJC GO GO GO!!
Met up with alvan and mark to gym. Was quite fun, the past few days were fun cuz of them to a certain extent.
Guess, they all form up a significant portion of my life now.
Definitely the day wouldn't be good without seeing shiming, heh.
SHES GOING BATAM NEXT WEEK!
Its gg to be the most lonely and boring weekend ever.
Guess i gotta book in soon, its boring and its extremely draggy.
Good thing this week is much shorter.
But i'm IC this week, sian. AHHH

Breathe

Listening to : Big girls don't cry - Fergie

So I finally got back home after a long morning.
The funeral was well, a first for me, i was shocked, sad, trying to focus and then i realised how much i should treasure life.
Oh well, i dunno why the sudden emo-ness. The fact i started the blog again means i'm emo.
But i'm ok with it i guess. can't really be bothered what others are thinking of me.
Well, today is back to life!! BYE 2LT CLIFTON LAM!!! He was a good man. I really have to admit that, but i'm sure he's in a better place. I'm glad he lived and was part of my life though it was in a small way.
On a lighter note, i have off in due!!! MONDAY IS MINE!!
Gonna enjoy my sunday nights and monday morning. Going to go training for the 1st time in a long time. I'm gonna like that. I really will do i guess.
In a whiles time the best person is coming over, makes things all the more better.
Haha, its fathers day today, guess my dad is enjoyinh himself.
I'm a happier man today! FOOOOOOO

Revival!!!

Listening to " Time of My Life - David Cook

Its been SO SO SO long since i last blogged. longest break i have taken so far. What 6 months!?!?
Guess its time to actually change trhe blogskin as well. Hopefully its a good change.
Why am i suddenly back?? I don't know much myself. Guess maybe its a little too stressful in NS??
I'm now in C3 in Air Force School. Life has been good and all. Just alot of studying and pracitcal.
I have no more physical training!! WOULD YOU BELIEVE THAT!??!?
Well, the saddening thing most recently would be the passing away of OCT Clifton.
He was my friend in Air Wing back in Safti MI. I only got to know him better in the last 2 weeks or so. Its really a waste to me. I just wish I could have done more.
It makes me look back and think how fragile life can be and all.
Just wish we all had a little more time to say that one more thing before we go.
Well, bottom line, we're all getting old. BTW! The media is partially wrong about details of his death. I am a little annoyed by this but well, its singapore.
I can get jailed if i say anymore.
2moro is the funeral itself. Its my very 1st funeral in my life.
Its my 1st and i'm participating in it. I'm going to do it to the best that i can.
Things haven't been too easy with life other than NS as well.
I duno, disconnection is starting to happen in various areas of my life.
Especially with one group of friends i thought i'll never be away from.
I'm getting closer to some other buddies too, which i'm really glad to have as well.
As for Supergirl, Shiming is still the best i've ever had. I would never have made it this far without her.
I guess going to NS had really changed a part of me, either for the better or the worst. I honestly don't really know. I'll only know in due time.
So in the meantime, i'm gonna make full use of tonight to just relax and not think about anything at all. Thats becoming one of my favourite hobbies...

The stand still....

Listening to : Love Song - Sara Bareilles

Well, now my life is pretty much ALOT slower. Haha. Everything is over.
Well, australia was great.
The camp breakaway was fantastic. Overall...Life has been pretty good.
Well, i honestly won't elaborate much about the above 2 events. if not it'll just be a typical diary.
well, all i can say is that, aussie has one way or another broadened my horizons.
Not everyone is like singaporeans. There're pretty awesome ppl and places out there.
Well, the camp was beyond possible description.
I mean, it wasn't just a time of real fun, it gave me a real chance to lead.
It gave me a chance to encounter God in a real way again. I feel that the camp has changed my life. Now that is a critical moment. It really is a critical moment.
Well, every trip had its hallmark events. For aussie, i witnessed a waiter, out of his own free will pay for the meal of a complete stranger. And now you can tell that there're no strings attached.
Thats what ppl call service. Its real service. This is how things should be like. Really. :) I like.
ALso, for the whole camp. THERE WAS NO RAIN! days b4 the camp, it was pouring.
1st day no rain.
the next day, sentosa day. No rain. Wait...it was....IN MAINLAND!!! NOT IN SENTOSA!
Last day. NO RAIN! After our alst game...IT STARTED POURING!
Now, that is what i call real prayer works.
Heh. Ok honestly, this is going to be a rather long post. Why? Cause i'm home rather earlier today. I'm kind of lazy to play my psp, so i'm blogging.



What i really wanted to say is that, in this last 23 days of my civi life. I'm really treasuring it.
Well, i'm not going to be a real chiongster to party till 3 everyday.
To me, it really is just to live life now. Yes live it to the fullest, but theres no point if i don't slow down to appreciate it.
Well, maybe thats what i've learnt from aussie.
Life is so slow there, it really is easy to sit and appreciate life. A duck roasted can make a whole family REALLY happy.
Well, for me i don't think i need to do many things to enjoy my life. Heh, I realised that just only, 5 hours ago.
Well, while walking around vivo, i stopped to read a book.
It shouldn't sound too uncommon, Its "5 ppl you meet in heaven".
Heard of it before? It really is a good book, please read it.
Well, I couldn't complete the book. Well, i read the initial part.
Heh, what it said was really right. Heaven ain't gonna be a white place with angels.
Heaven is all around. The real heaven is to know and look back at your life after you've completed it and appreciate it.
Heaven is with your best friends, your favourite food. Its what you are.
To me, my heaven really is my friends. Now i don't need to be out watching movies.
I dun need to spend so much money. Well, honestly what i really would like to do now is to just spend time with the ppl i love.
My darling...E406....trackers...family...
I really want to spend time with these ppl, while i still can, i want to experience MY heaven.
So when i really do meet my 5 ppl in heaven. I'll look back and truly smile.
That a simple mac meal may be enough for me. :)
It really is. One moment is enough...
Enough to be in heaven. :)

Sounds emo? heh...well thats me b4 i go ns...23 days and counting... :)

NO MORE BANKAI!

Listening to : When Will I See Your Face - Jamie scott

Well, so this is it. No more A levels. HAHAHHA!
It feels funny now. I mean, now i have nothing to do.
At the same time I wanna do everything i can.
I really am glad its all over.
It wasn't easy man. Really ain't easy.
Happy next year i got break man. HAHHAHA

No more school...

Listening to : Stand by Me - Oasis

I guess right now i'm considered to be emo.
Hmmm. I dun wanna leave cjc.
Today was a blast. The best blast on earth.
Makes me wonder how i'll live without being around these people.
Yes i have outside friends, but these bunch of people really allow me to really be myself.
anybody outside can never replace these people.
The dynamics of THIS class is too complex to even put into words.
Just like what one of my famed classmates have said.
"I Have nothing left to say".
Yup, i'm speechless. I really am.
I just really hope we don't lose contact. All 21 of us.
all 21 of us t24 people. Ok inclusive of 24.5.
I guess its been a hell of a time... I should stop being emo now...:(

best days of my life...

Listening to : Samurai - Franco dragone

I guess it reall is coming to an end.
I do remember how i got my 1st intake postings, heh, when it rewad CJC i was damn sad.
I dunno, but the moment i did come in, things just seem to change.
Maybe i just changed. What was the most evernful thing? I dunno....
I guess its EVERYTHING.
From me joining track and becoming the capt with no prior experience.
To me jumping to the beats of rockefella.
To this insane class of mine.
TO meeting the girl of my dreams.
Guess i much to be grateful for. Yes this school may not have the 'best' environment to study.
Yes it does have its flaws. But no school is perfect.
To everybody its different. But to me, CJC was not simply a campus.
CJC was a moulding place. More than i would have imagined.
This school isn't perfect, but cause of everyone inside, it is perfect.
for these few years, never have i regretted coming to school.
(ok maybe once or twice)
But this place, this is where i belong.
I will miss cjc. Without this school, i wouldn't be where i am today.
Now since its over, we will never be in that situation with that same 21 idiots shouting our way up, biting each other, pinching, beating, sleeping,screaming, making every other class suffer due to noise and become the unexpected class to do how we did for prelims.
Not only that, this team of trackers. Heh, enough has been said about them.
Both the class and this team, the school, the teachers.
Its the best place for me...
Its my CJC...
I wun mind being called a B*** for it... :)

PPRRREEEELLLLIMS!!!!!

Listening to : Angel - Westlife

So yeah, i haven't been updating my blog for GOD KNOWS HOW LONG!!!
After the many nudges to update it here i am now.
Well, nothing MUCH really happened since track nationals ended.
Hmmm, i still miss track. I really do miss it. Not just cause of the pain, but also the people. :)
Well, been studying like a mad dog every since, the toughest was last week, 8-12 everyday.
All i can say is that, i didn't really mind cuz of that special someone there all the time.
Of course its tiring, but it just seems all worth it after a while.
Well, now prelims has just ended, i must say i am kinda ok with it.
I gave it my best shot. And yeah, whatever comes comes i guess.
E406 has also just multiplied. Yeah, kinda sad, but at the same time, i think it's a good thing.
Other than that, i played guitar for the first time for CG today, heh, it is tough man.
i didn't do well, i know...
But i guess i just gotta learn! :) Same for studies i guess.
Not only that, heh, today i played contact, the funnest time i had in sports.
How stress relieving can it get to tackle someone. HAHAH!!
Anyway, i think i'm gonna rest cause i'm DAMN tired.
Hopefully i didn't do anything wrong....

Nothing short of amazing...

Listening to : Ain't no mountain high enough

All i can say is that i'm amazed.
Well, i don't wanna elaborate much about the real running but track nationals was the end.
I'm so happy for those 5 medalist.
More than that, for EVERYONE.
More than the medals, after everything, I'm just so so so so happy.
To see the team in such a manner.
To be that strong, this is what i call a team.
This is what i call spirit.
The best people I have ever worked with, the best people I have suffered with.
The BEST PEOPLE around.
Thank you CJC TRACK AND FIELD!
I owe this cca so much. I have learnt so much.
I ain't perfect, but this team, Its perfect.
I don't care what anyone says, I don't care what comes between us.
This is the team to be in.
Team CJC Athletics. I love it.
I will always be a Tracker at heart, I will always be their captain at heart.
I love this team. :)