Listening to : According to you - Orianthi
The two best places to blog.
On my bed and after a solid run.
Contrary to many people's belief, you do alot of thinking when you are actually running.
You try to shut your mind off from the pain and try to go into a 'trance' or some sort of runners high. However, in the midst of all of it, you'll subconsciously start thinking.
The issues which hit you head are very surprisingly the issues which are closest to you.
The few things which come across my mind are like shiming, my connect group etc etc.
In fact, the very worry-some things are those which come across my mind.
I find myself most at peace with myself and closest to my inner self when I run.
Ok, in this, I don't mean sprinting, I mean long distance running.
The biggest thing which runs through my mind while sprinting is,
PAIN PAIN PAIN STOP STOP AHHHHHHHH
Somewhere along those lines I guess.
So what did I think of when I was running today?
Well, strangely its the idea of familiarity and bridging that gap towards another person.
First, let me set the story straight,
I'm going for track training tomorrow after God knows how long.
I'm not too afraid of me not being fit or anything like that, I'm more worried about the fact that I don't know anybody there except like Mr Wong and a few others.
The thing is that I used to go for training solely for the company and the inspirations they give me.
However, this time round there's not going to be anybody.
I was wondering how is it going to be like? Will it be boring? Will I give up easier? Will I even go?
Alot of these questions were honestly crossing my mind.
However, another point was shot across when I realized that it was true that in many areas of life, I can be very friendly, at the same time very very 'arrogant' like.
Its honestly a very hypocritical way of working.
But I guess this is just me and I find it tough to break the habit.
Thus familiarity is something which is of great importance when it comes to having fun.
I've seen some who totally are new to a group but blend in very well with the dynamics.
It's all about how we all react towards things and our attitudes towards it.
Like how Master Uguay would say in the movie 'Kung Fu Panda'.
"There's no such thing as good or bad news, there's only news, how we perceive it is what matters". Or somewhere along those lines.
So whats the outcome for tomorrow?
I honestly still don't know. Guess I'll be going there and try to act as a Senior?
How I wish it could just be like the old days when things were so much easier.
The very pleasing thing is that I'm still welcomed according to Mr Wong.
And yes, very thick skinned styled, I'll definitely be there as long as one person in a hundred wants me there. Oh oh oh.
Sunday, November 01, 2009
high
Listening to : Time for miracles - Adam Lambert
The words were smooth, tone was politically right.
The talk was close to almost flawless. It was indeed impressive.
I have to admit, and I don't doubt the words which came out of his mouth.
They were genuine, very real and truthful.
However, how much I took in was sadly alot lesser than that of what he expected.
Not trying to be rebellious of any sort.
I'm very fine with things being said out like this.
Out on the table, very clean, very real.
Yes, I may be stubborn at times. but so are many others.
If its true and if its undoubtedly correct, then I might just take heed.
it may even move me at times.
So why do I even regard the words of people such as Pastor or my Parents?
I tried to give myself an evaluation.
I still found little or no clue at all. However, I'm sure that its something to do with authority and stuff like that.
Call me prideful still, but please don't call the kettle black.
Certain things in life need not be shared across the table in front of others.
These are the issues of life which I hold in high regard.
Things which may be good to the extent of me being unfit to share on their behalf.
However, certain things may hold too much grudge in regard for me to say.
Like what I said, I guess respect is earned, its given to those which I deem to be honored and feared.
Anyway, I have to agree that not everything may be profitable.
If thats really the case, then life would really be boring, wouldn't it?
Sorry, but call us scoundrels if you want. I really can't be bothered anymore.
The words were smooth, tone was politically right.
The talk was close to almost flawless. It was indeed impressive.
I have to admit, and I don't doubt the words which came out of his mouth.
They were genuine, very real and truthful.
However, how much I took in was sadly alot lesser than that of what he expected.
Not trying to be rebellious of any sort.
I'm very fine with things being said out like this.
Out on the table, very clean, very real.
Yes, I may be stubborn at times. but so are many others.
If its true and if its undoubtedly correct, then I might just take heed.
it may even move me at times.
So why do I even regard the words of people such as Pastor or my Parents?
I tried to give myself an evaluation.
I still found little or no clue at all. However, I'm sure that its something to do with authority and stuff like that.
Call me prideful still, but please don't call the kettle black.
Certain things in life need not be shared across the table in front of others.
These are the issues of life which I hold in high regard.
Things which may be good to the extent of me being unfit to share on their behalf.
However, certain things may hold too much grudge in regard for me to say.
Like what I said, I guess respect is earned, its given to those which I deem to be honored and feared.
Anyway, I have to agree that not everything may be profitable.
If thats really the case, then life would really be boring, wouldn't it?
Sorry, but call us scoundrels if you want. I really can't be bothered anymore.
Saturday, October 31, 2009
getting me high
Listening to : She's got you high - Mumm Ra
I'm not a real big fan of events. I really ain't.
In fact, many a times, I prefer just laying back and enjoying it.
Well, this time was a rather big eye opener for me.
Instead of just being the mere consumer, I was a contributor.
It took quite alot out of me actually.
In fact, writing this entry today is really very draining.
However, I'm still very pleased with the outcome of today.
Firstly, there were many many groups of people who came, which made it really exciting!
Everyone really went out of their way to really dress up.
In fact, it was really a good show!
I wouldn't go into detail of what really happened, but out of this whole halloween event,
I am quite sure I brought back something which was really dear to me.
An experience like no other. This is the 2nd halloween I've been to.
So far the best I've ever been to.
The chemistry between certain people have greatly strenghtened.
In fact, I now know those which I can rely on to do a good job to the fullest and rush together when the time calls for it.
It wasn't a simple job scaring over and over again.
Yes it was entertaining at first, but it gets really tiring.
If you think it is tiring walking through the maze, try scaring EVERYONE whom passes you by.
It ain't easy at all. In fact, it took us a good 4 hours to prepare everything which was torn down in one hour. Quite shocking actually.
Another aspect to this was well being supportive to this event.
When one is genuinely interested in it, would you really go out of the way to ignore your tiredness and accomodate his desires?
Yes it means making the extra effort, but if it is required of you, will you do it?
If it means putting on a smile even when you've had a terrible day at work.
If it means sucking up your tiredness to appear like you're enjoying a session.
This is applicable to one especially when your partner or accomplice is new and really shy but is actually very interested deep down inside.
Enough said on that topic, I guess what happens does so for a reason.
It brought to me some lessons for myself.
I've come to realize not to over estimate myself and not to over expect from everyone else.
Though it is a very sad reality, I should always place my expectations just slightly lower.
Despite this, it can't be helped if I expect too much at times?
However, most of the crew I worked with today really backed me up alot.
So much so I can't help but to begin to expect more from them.
I'm pleased with the attitudes of many of the guys I have around me.
I don't care what others may say about them, I have my trust in them.
Even if others ridicule us as a whole about this event, I'll stand up for it.
Cause it wasn't just any event, it was don with lots of sweat and scares.
Today also showed something very interesting,
the costumes everyone wore, it doesn't reflect your character.
But it reflects the attitude you want to have to events which you may be less interested in.
I was personally into it from the start cause I was launched as a component in the programme.
However, for many, the dress up may have been vastly played up, which is actually really funny, or sadly under performing which is disappointing.
Even shiming whom dressed so simply looked so original.
It all takes the effort to do so.
All in all, I really enjoyed the night. I analyzed things at the back of my mind.
But I really had lots of fun trying to scare and scaring eventually.
Thanks alot to those who really played a big part in this.
The crew which helped to set up : Miyagi, Hades, Elmo, Darth Maul
The scaring party, Dead Daughter, Miyagi.
For the inspiration, everyone.
For the encouragement at last moments, my baby.
I began by saying I ain't a fan of events.
Now I am, bring it!!!!
I'm not a real big fan of events. I really ain't.
In fact, many a times, I prefer just laying back and enjoying it.
Well, this time was a rather big eye opener for me.
Instead of just being the mere consumer, I was a contributor.
It took quite alot out of me actually.
In fact, writing this entry today is really very draining.
However, I'm still very pleased with the outcome of today.
Firstly, there were many many groups of people who came, which made it really exciting!
Everyone really went out of their way to really dress up.
In fact, it was really a good show!
I wouldn't go into detail of what really happened, but out of this whole halloween event,
I am quite sure I brought back something which was really dear to me.
An experience like no other. This is the 2nd halloween I've been to.
So far the best I've ever been to.
The chemistry between certain people have greatly strenghtened.
In fact, I now know those which I can rely on to do a good job to the fullest and rush together when the time calls for it.
It wasn't a simple job scaring over and over again.
Yes it was entertaining at first, but it gets really tiring.
If you think it is tiring walking through the maze, try scaring EVERYONE whom passes you by.
It ain't easy at all. In fact, it took us a good 4 hours to prepare everything which was torn down in one hour. Quite shocking actually.
Another aspect to this was well being supportive to this event.
When one is genuinely interested in it, would you really go out of the way to ignore your tiredness and accomodate his desires?
Yes it means making the extra effort, but if it is required of you, will you do it?
If it means putting on a smile even when you've had a terrible day at work.
If it means sucking up your tiredness to appear like you're enjoying a session.
This is applicable to one especially when your partner or accomplice is new and really shy but is actually very interested deep down inside.
Enough said on that topic, I guess what happens does so for a reason.
It brought to me some lessons for myself.
I've come to realize not to over estimate myself and not to over expect from everyone else.
Though it is a very sad reality, I should always place my expectations just slightly lower.
Despite this, it can't be helped if I expect too much at times?
However, most of the crew I worked with today really backed me up alot.
So much so I can't help but to begin to expect more from them.
I'm pleased with the attitudes of many of the guys I have around me.
I don't care what others may say about them, I have my trust in them.
Even if others ridicule us as a whole about this event, I'll stand up for it.
Cause it wasn't just any event, it was don with lots of sweat and scares.
Today also showed something very interesting,
the costumes everyone wore, it doesn't reflect your character.
But it reflects the attitude you want to have to events which you may be less interested in.
I was personally into it from the start cause I was launched as a component in the programme.
However, for many, the dress up may have been vastly played up, which is actually really funny, or sadly under performing which is disappointing.
Even shiming whom dressed so simply looked so original.
It all takes the effort to do so.
All in all, I really enjoyed the night. I analyzed things at the back of my mind.
But I really had lots of fun trying to scare and scaring eventually.
Thanks alot to those who really played a big part in this.
The crew which helped to set up : Miyagi, Hades, Elmo, Darth Maul
The scaring party, Dead Daughter, Miyagi.
For the inspiration, everyone.
For the encouragement at last moments, my baby.
I began by saying I ain't a fan of events.
Now I am, bring it!!!!
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
Movement
Listening to : Forever Young - Jay Z
I'm honestly a surprisingly easy person to please.
Put some good food in front of me, I'm able to enjoy the night
Give me a good friend or company by my side doing nothing, I'll be pleased.
Indulge me by letting me run slightly faster than my normal pace.
Many people realize that their lives are not complete or rather, not fulfilled.
They have to occupy their time with something.
Without this satisfaction, it'll never be a FULL day or even a FULL life.
However, I've come to realize that its really the small little things that matter.
Don't get me wrong, I don't advocate "boringness".
I simply don't see the point in insisting to hang out for extended periods when honestly, it'll drain me more than satisfy me.
Yes there can be arguments that there's a need for fellowship, I honestly strongly support such a belief as well.
In fact, without this fellowship, how boring can life get?
That's the contact point where people's lives are touched, when we sit down and have a heart to heart talk.
Not to be so engrossed watching a movie or playing a game.
Guess to many this is what satisfaction really means.
Take some time, ask yourself...
What do you consider a fulfilled day?
When you've met up with ten people? When you've watched the movie with your friends? When you've played lan for a good 5 hours straight?
Or when you indulge in moments of worship?
Sit down and have an easy meal where you being there really matters?
I may sound old and boring to some. Maybe I really am?
However, I do have a balance in this. Just that tonight, I'd like to support a hardly heard point of view. Where at times, lesser is more.
Its very similar to the area of studying.
For me, I've been helping Shiming with her school work.
I realized that some post a good number of pure rubbish in the forum. Whereas I see some who post a few but are of real substance.
In this scenario, I'm sure those who really gave much thought in their comments or posts would net higher grades than those who simply spammed.
I've also come to realize that when I was studying for my A levels, I focused on one topic at a time.
However, more is always good. five minutes of quality studying is good. An hour of it is even better, its the same principle.
Half an hour of quality time with friends is great, a few hours of it is an indulgence.
So this is the theory of my life. To enjoy something, you really emphasize on it, give it more of your heart before your time.
That's a bigger sacrifice, a bigger achievement.
Ps. I've tried every way to edit this post, but i can',so sorry!!!
I'm honestly a surprisingly easy person to please.
Put some good food in front of me, I'm able to enjoy the night
Give me a good friend or company by my side doing nothing, I'll be pleased.
Indulge me by letting me run slightly faster than my normal pace.
Many people realize that their lives are not complete or rather, not fulfilled.
They have to occupy their time with something.
Without this satisfaction, it'll never be a FULL day or even a FULL life.
However, I've come to realize that its really the small little things that matter.
Don't get me wrong, I don't advocate "boringness".
I simply don't see the point in insisting to hang out for extended periods when honestly, it'll drain me more than satisfy me.
Yes there can be arguments that there's a need for fellowship, I honestly strongly support such a belief as well.
In fact, without this fellowship, how boring can life get?
That's the contact point where people's lives are touched, when we sit down and have a heart to heart talk.
Not to be so engrossed watching a movie or playing a game.
Guess to many this is what satisfaction really means.
Take some time, ask yourself...
What do you consider a fulfilled day?
When you've met up with ten people? When you've watched the movie with your friends? When you've played lan for a good 5 hours straight?
Or when you indulge in moments of worship?
Sit down and have an easy meal where you being there really matters?
I may sound old and boring to some. Maybe I really am?
However, I do have a balance in this. Just that tonight, I'd like to support a hardly heard point of view. Where at times, lesser is more.
Its very similar to the area of studying.
For me, I've been helping Shiming with her school work.
I realized that some post a good number of pure rubbish in the forum. Whereas I see some who post a few but are of real substance.
In this scenario, I'm sure those who really gave much thought in their comments or posts would net higher grades than those who simply spammed.
I've also come to realize that when I was studying for my A levels, I focused on one topic at a time.
However, more is always good. five minutes of quality studying is good. An hour of it is even better, its the same principle.
Half an hour of quality time with friends is great, a few hours of it is an indulgence.
So this is the theory of my life. To enjoy something, you really emphasize on it, give it more of your heart before your time.
That's a bigger sacrifice, a bigger achievement.
Ps. I've tried every way to edit this post, but i can',so sorry!!!
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
mental block!
Listening to : Broken - Lifehouse
When your body, heart, sight fails you. What is your first reaction?
When you do not have control over your circumstances, you fear.
You are afraid of the unknown, of what is uncharted.
It is very likely that you wouldn't cross boundaries which you have never gone before.
Limits are set into place to really place our minds in a cage.
Laws of science should be broken as easily as they are made.
This is what I've come to realize.
The more we know, the more we lack.
I'm very amazed by the actions and thoughts of a child.
When he does not know the real law of gravity, he believes he can fly.
If he wasn't taught this by his parents, he wouldn't stop believing that.
Maybe thats actually possible?
Another approach to this concept would be the idea that with such laws of limitation, we also bring to light the many solutions that have come to pass.
Yes, the little boy was wrong, he shouldn't be thinking of flying.
However, in our modern age, that is now possible. We have defied gravity in a sense.
Isn't this amazing?
If we look around, maybe we're really too sheltered by all these limitations.
Since everyone knows that the World Record for the 100m by Usain Bolt is now 9.53 sec.
The normal person would fixate his thoughts into believing that he CANNOT pass such a mark.
However, maybe some really can but are just limited.
They don't believe in themselves strong enough to look at that record in the eyes and say that they can take it on.
We set and build our lives around these limitations.
Don't drink or eat unhealthy stuff, don't sleep with another, don't talk to strangers.
Its just sooo many laws.
I'm definitely not saying they're bad, some are required.
But they set too closed a boundary for all of us.
When the time comes for such a boundary to be teared down, we can't.
And at many a times, when we are about to be disappointed, we fall back to these walls.
They give us comfort, but very often, false comfort.
It is an excuse for us to under achieve at times.
Ultimately, its all up to us to determine whether we consider such issues or not.
We are the substances, not the technicalities which make the difference.
When men to your left rise and fall, you don't. You stand and believe that you can achieve.
Cause nobody said you couldn't, nobody placed that thought of giving up in it.
Even if you do, overcome it!
When your body, heart, sight fails you. What is your first reaction?
When you do not have control over your circumstances, you fear.
You are afraid of the unknown, of what is uncharted.
It is very likely that you wouldn't cross boundaries which you have never gone before.
Limits are set into place to really place our minds in a cage.
Laws of science should be broken as easily as they are made.
This is what I've come to realize.
The more we know, the more we lack.
I'm very amazed by the actions and thoughts of a child.
When he does not know the real law of gravity, he believes he can fly.
If he wasn't taught this by his parents, he wouldn't stop believing that.
Maybe thats actually possible?
Another approach to this concept would be the idea that with such laws of limitation, we also bring to light the many solutions that have come to pass.
Yes, the little boy was wrong, he shouldn't be thinking of flying.
However, in our modern age, that is now possible. We have defied gravity in a sense.
Isn't this amazing?
If we look around, maybe we're really too sheltered by all these limitations.
Since everyone knows that the World Record for the 100m by Usain Bolt is now 9.53 sec.
The normal person would fixate his thoughts into believing that he CANNOT pass such a mark.
However, maybe some really can but are just limited.
They don't believe in themselves strong enough to look at that record in the eyes and say that they can take it on.
We set and build our lives around these limitations.
Don't drink or eat unhealthy stuff, don't sleep with another, don't talk to strangers.
Its just sooo many laws.
I'm definitely not saying they're bad, some are required.
But they set too closed a boundary for all of us.
When the time comes for such a boundary to be teared down, we can't.
And at many a times, when we are about to be disappointed, we fall back to these walls.
They give us comfort, but very often, false comfort.
It is an excuse for us to under achieve at times.
Ultimately, its all up to us to determine whether we consider such issues or not.
We are the substances, not the technicalities which make the difference.
When men to your left rise and fall, you don't. You stand and believe that you can achieve.
Cause nobody said you couldn't, nobody placed that thought of giving up in it.
Even if you do, overcome it!
Sunday, October 25, 2009
alpha dog
Listening to : Never knew I needed - Neyo
After watching such a show like "my sisters keeper", I can't help but start to think.
What really happens when you know you're going to die?
It happens to all of us.
Maybe when we're even not prepared for it...
But say you knew you were when you were really young really soon.
Which was honestly quite sad.
The whole shoe revolved around many many concepts.
Alot of it was very interesting.
I won't go into such detail as to what those topics were.
In fact, most of it didn't even move me. Yeah, there were heart warming parts.
But what struck me was how she chose to die but in a manner in which she saw fit.
Happy.
So what would be your last few dying wishes?
What would your last few days be like?
Maybe it won't be the most exciting of all but maybe the most meaningful of all.
On the way home, I was actually pondering, what would I really do?
Firstly, on my bed, in my last few days, I would want to meet all of my friends.
The close ones that is.
To tell them how much they meant to me, how much they are treasured by me.
Secondly, I'll elect to be discharged immediately.
Then I'll head out to live my life.
If I die, I want to do it doing the things I love.
I wouldn't really want to die in my bed.
I wanna die doing something I really love.
Being with shiming, running, eating.
Some stuff like that.
I dunno...
Maybe I'm too young for this. But who knows....
After watching such a show like "my sisters keeper", I can't help but start to think.
What really happens when you know you're going to die?
It happens to all of us.
Maybe when we're even not prepared for it...
But say you knew you were when you were really young really soon.
Which was honestly quite sad.
The whole shoe revolved around many many concepts.
Alot of it was very interesting.
I won't go into such detail as to what those topics were.
In fact, most of it didn't even move me. Yeah, there were heart warming parts.
But what struck me was how she chose to die but in a manner in which she saw fit.
Happy.
So what would be your last few dying wishes?
What would your last few days be like?
Maybe it won't be the most exciting of all but maybe the most meaningful of all.
On the way home, I was actually pondering, what would I really do?
Firstly, on my bed, in my last few days, I would want to meet all of my friends.
The close ones that is.
To tell them how much they meant to me, how much they are treasured by me.
Secondly, I'll elect to be discharged immediately.
Then I'll head out to live my life.
If I die, I want to do it doing the things I love.
I wouldn't really want to die in my bed.
I wanna die doing something I really love.
Being with shiming, running, eating.
Some stuff like that.
I dunno...
Maybe I'm too young for this. But who knows....
Saturday, October 24, 2009
making
Listening to : Sexy Love (acoustic) - Neyo
Theres just something about blogging on my bed.
Its rather well. comfy and all. Makes me feel really at home and at peace.
It's strange, i know, but oh well. I like it this way.
Anyway, take some time to watch this video before you actually continue below.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W14CInvw9Ao
I'm not really going to attach the whole video like other blogs do.
Due to a very simple reason, I don't know how.
However, not knowing will really take a different meaning after you've watched this video.
It kinda opened my eyes a little, in fact I chanced upon it while on Kim's Facebook page.
Its incredibly shocking to realise the facts and details that this video is throwing at us.
I'm quite appalled by it in fact, so I decided to write about this.
Something which is really quite close to my heart, the advancement of technology.
When I do say that I'm going to invent Ironman one day.
I'm honestly kidding. However, I think some guys out there are really serious about this!
The sheer number of technologies evolving and being invented each day in fact every hour is amazing.
As a species, we have advanced further than any others in the past two years.
As you've seen, how people are treating these technologies and WHERE they will come from.
Its a very true fact.
Sorry my American Mates, but the talent is here!
I'm shocked to see that the number of high IQ babies in india, EXCEEDS the number of babies in the USA! Thats quite astonishing!
Based on the sheer rate of probability, no one can out-explain this theory.
Yes, we cannot argue with the fact that there may be one GENIUS child over in the USA.
However, there's such a higher probability that that's the case here in Asia!
Be it imported talent or home grown talents, we are living around economies of tremendous sizes! I wouldn't need to look far.
In fact, the other shocking news is how the rate at which technology is advancing.
The sad truth is that "by the time we graduate, half of what we learn in year 1 is already outdated". That shows how much we have to be up to date.
You have to get out there for fresh inspirations and new concepts.
New theories, new laws of science.
Many of them are being broken even as you read this.
Our world is becoming very very advanced. Maybe too advanced for our own good.
I'm not too sure about the situation of military arms...
But I'm sure that everybody knows the condition of our climate because of such changes.
However, recently, more developments have been inclined to that of helping the climate adapt.
What we are really doing now is solving the problems that have yet to even occur.
We are that forward planning!
I've went through Bible Study, I am aware of what I do expect.
In fact, this is what YOU should be expecting, advances far beyond our imagination.
Japan has invented a micro fibre which is able to transmit many terabytes a second.
Thats rather amazing! Like computers worth of data being transfered a secong!
Just imagine how you're old computer was before, and how it is now.
Has the size of the CPU changed? Maybe just a small bit. But the general idea is there.
However, has the functions and capabilities improved? DEFINITELY!
Has the price drastically increased? Not really!
So what am I trying to get at?
That what I'm going to do is very similar to what this video is about.
In many years down the road, the cure for cancer will be found.
So will the cure for aids, common flu and even mental illnesses.
The thing is that we are the people who create that change.
No, not the person on the left or right, its you.
You will help with this one way or another. You'll be involved with the upgrade of human society!
Whether you will be at the forefront or mere guinea pigs to simple spectators.
We are all part of this magnificent work.
This appears strange to some people, but its true.
This is my passion, to create and solve the problems which have yet to occur.
To create the future of society one machine or industry at a time.
I'm not a lab junkie of any sort. But I'm very fascinated with the small things.
The Mp3 has shrunk so much. It will go further. I'm sure of it.
I refuse to be outdated by computers and others.
I want to be at the forefront of this. I want to make heaven.
Theres just something about blogging on my bed.
Its rather well. comfy and all. Makes me feel really at home and at peace.
It's strange, i know, but oh well. I like it this way.
Anyway, take some time to watch this video before you actually continue below.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W14CInvw9Ao
I'm not really going to attach the whole video like other blogs do.
Due to a very simple reason, I don't know how.
However, not knowing will really take a different meaning after you've watched this video.
It kinda opened my eyes a little, in fact I chanced upon it while on Kim's Facebook page.
Its incredibly shocking to realise the facts and details that this video is throwing at us.
I'm quite appalled by it in fact, so I decided to write about this.
Something which is really quite close to my heart, the advancement of technology.
When I do say that I'm going to invent Ironman one day.
I'm honestly kidding. However, I think some guys out there are really serious about this!
The sheer number of technologies evolving and being invented each day in fact every hour is amazing.
As a species, we have advanced further than any others in the past two years.
As you've seen, how people are treating these technologies and WHERE they will come from.
Its a very true fact.
Sorry my American Mates, but the talent is here!
I'm shocked to see that the number of high IQ babies in india, EXCEEDS the number of babies in the USA! Thats quite astonishing!
Based on the sheer rate of probability, no one can out-explain this theory.
Yes, we cannot argue with the fact that there may be one GENIUS child over in the USA.
However, there's such a higher probability that that's the case here in Asia!
Be it imported talent or home grown talents, we are living around economies of tremendous sizes! I wouldn't need to look far.
In fact, the other shocking news is how the rate at which technology is advancing.
The sad truth is that "by the time we graduate, half of what we learn in year 1 is already outdated". That shows how much we have to be up to date.
You have to get out there for fresh inspirations and new concepts.
New theories, new laws of science.
Many of them are being broken even as you read this.
Our world is becoming very very advanced. Maybe too advanced for our own good.
I'm not too sure about the situation of military arms...
But I'm sure that everybody knows the condition of our climate because of such changes.
However, recently, more developments have been inclined to that of helping the climate adapt.
What we are really doing now is solving the problems that have yet to even occur.
We are that forward planning!
I've went through Bible Study, I am aware of what I do expect.
In fact, this is what YOU should be expecting, advances far beyond our imagination.
Japan has invented a micro fibre which is able to transmit many terabytes a second.
Thats rather amazing! Like computers worth of data being transfered a secong!
Just imagine how you're old computer was before, and how it is now.
Has the size of the CPU changed? Maybe just a small bit. But the general idea is there.
However, has the functions and capabilities improved? DEFINITELY!
Has the price drastically increased? Not really!
So what am I trying to get at?
That what I'm going to do is very similar to what this video is about.
In many years down the road, the cure for cancer will be found.
So will the cure for aids, common flu and even mental illnesses.
The thing is that we are the people who create that change.
No, not the person on the left or right, its you.
You will help with this one way or another. You'll be involved with the upgrade of human society!
Whether you will be at the forefront or mere guinea pigs to simple spectators.
We are all part of this magnificent work.
This appears strange to some people, but its true.
This is my passion, to create and solve the problems which have yet to occur.
To create the future of society one machine or industry at a time.
I'm not a lab junkie of any sort. But I'm very fascinated with the small things.
The Mp3 has shrunk so much. It will go further. I'm sure of it.
I refuse to be outdated by computers and others.
I want to be at the forefront of this. I want to make heaven.
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
Moving mountains
Listening to : Bubbly - Colbie Callait
What does it take for one person to yield to another?
How much effort would one need for another to listen or obey what another says.
Its quite simple, after having a rather interesting conversation with another.
It takes quite a strong level of respect.
That's all it takes, just some respect goes a long long way.
Don't get me wrong, Love plays a part too.
This simple word encompasses quite a hefty amount of values and emotions.
Love is a big portion of it, for you to respect another, you'd either love the person or his works.
Respect can come from the retrospective in terms of fear of another.
I love my girlfriend, I respect her.
I love the works of Einstein, I respect him.
I fear the works of Hitler, I respect him.
I love and fear God, I definitely respect him and his might.
This takes on both sides. No matter how we argue and debate.
Respect is still very subjective to different individuals.
I can respect another which can be possibly be despised by many.
It's in fact a very common dilemma that many face when they place their trust in another.
However, the right way to do it is not to look to others but to seek within.
May seem very corny and in fact very basic, but thats as easy as it gets.
Respect your enemy, respect yourself even more.
This is so very true. I do not doubt the abilities and potential of the devil at times.
It honestly can be very very torturous to continually fend him off at times.
However, I respect myself even more, for I know I possess the abilities sufficient enough to trample upon his works and the demons behind it.
Even on the playing field. Don't think that your enemy is useless, expect him to come with everything they've got. They won't show mercy.
Likewise, you don't too, that's how you show some respect for your enemy.
When they've given all they've got, you do likewise.
They're worthy of your best, make them respect you and your works.
Then will they know who they mess with. With such respect comes fear of you.
On the other hand, respect comes in a very soft approach as well.
When it comes to Love, compassion and giving, you respect it!
You don't give to the poor out of mere sympathy, you honour and respect them.
Especially for many tissue peddlers, no matter how shabby they may seem, they're running a business, they're making a living for themselves.
Don't be too kind and give more than what it cost, instead of edifying them, you insult them.
Respect what they do, this may seem very evil and grim at times, in fact, I'm not surprised if others have a very similar point of view.
However, this is the way things work for me. You give respect to another for what they do and thus in turn, you express your love appropriately.
Even for your loved ones, you give them the respect they need for their work and themselves.
Don't give unwitty comments and lie about certain things that honestly isn't fantastic.
If it isn't good, just say so! Not in a very crude way, but in a way which builds up.
By saying the truth of the matter, you'll be helping in more ways than you would by actually telling a far fetched answer.
Lastly, you respect God the Father Almighty.
This is the easiest to explain, but the hardest to comprehend and times.
You have got to respect the wonders of his Glory and many a times his Love.
He has been good to many, especially me, I respect his power.
However, as I've learnt in Job the past few services, we have to fear and respect his power.
As easy as it comes, more easily it can be taken away.
That is life.
However, If we make it a point to respect and accept all that is happening be it good or bad.
If we accept and respect the sovereignty and works of God, we can take things in good strife.
For we will Love his works, we will understand that whatever happens is for the good of the Kingdom. It surprisingly ties down with the issues that I've blogged about before.
Life may not be as fantastic. But if we love from the inside out, then will we begin to respect all that occurs in the World today.
You respect yourself daily to build yourself up.
Wake up knowing that you love yourself and what you will do today.
That you'll be as my blog title says, More than a conqueror.
What does it take for one person to yield to another?
How much effort would one need for another to listen or obey what another says.
Its quite simple, after having a rather interesting conversation with another.
It takes quite a strong level of respect.
That's all it takes, just some respect goes a long long way.
Don't get me wrong, Love plays a part too.
This simple word encompasses quite a hefty amount of values and emotions.
Love is a big portion of it, for you to respect another, you'd either love the person or his works.
Respect can come from the retrospective in terms of fear of another.
I love my girlfriend, I respect her.
I love the works of Einstein, I respect him.
I fear the works of Hitler, I respect him.
I love and fear God, I definitely respect him and his might.
This takes on both sides. No matter how we argue and debate.
Respect is still very subjective to different individuals.
I can respect another which can be possibly be despised by many.
It's in fact a very common dilemma that many face when they place their trust in another.
However, the right way to do it is not to look to others but to seek within.
May seem very corny and in fact very basic, but thats as easy as it gets.
Respect your enemy, respect yourself even more.
This is so very true. I do not doubt the abilities and potential of the devil at times.
It honestly can be very very torturous to continually fend him off at times.
However, I respect myself even more, for I know I possess the abilities sufficient enough to trample upon his works and the demons behind it.
Even on the playing field. Don't think that your enemy is useless, expect him to come with everything they've got. They won't show mercy.
Likewise, you don't too, that's how you show some respect for your enemy.
When they've given all they've got, you do likewise.
They're worthy of your best, make them respect you and your works.
Then will they know who they mess with. With such respect comes fear of you.
On the other hand, respect comes in a very soft approach as well.
When it comes to Love, compassion and giving, you respect it!
You don't give to the poor out of mere sympathy, you honour and respect them.
Especially for many tissue peddlers, no matter how shabby they may seem, they're running a business, they're making a living for themselves.
Don't be too kind and give more than what it cost, instead of edifying them, you insult them.
Respect what they do, this may seem very evil and grim at times, in fact, I'm not surprised if others have a very similar point of view.
However, this is the way things work for me. You give respect to another for what they do and thus in turn, you express your love appropriately.
Even for your loved ones, you give them the respect they need for their work and themselves.
Don't give unwitty comments and lie about certain things that honestly isn't fantastic.
If it isn't good, just say so! Not in a very crude way, but in a way which builds up.
By saying the truth of the matter, you'll be helping in more ways than you would by actually telling a far fetched answer.
Lastly, you respect God the Father Almighty.
This is the easiest to explain, but the hardest to comprehend and times.
You have got to respect the wonders of his Glory and many a times his Love.
He has been good to many, especially me, I respect his power.
However, as I've learnt in Job the past few services, we have to fear and respect his power.
As easy as it comes, more easily it can be taken away.
That is life.
However, If we make it a point to respect and accept all that is happening be it good or bad.
If we accept and respect the sovereignty and works of God, we can take things in good strife.
For we will Love his works, we will understand that whatever happens is for the good of the Kingdom. It surprisingly ties down with the issues that I've blogged about before.
Life may not be as fantastic. But if we love from the inside out, then will we begin to respect all that occurs in the World today.
You respect yourself daily to build yourself up.
Wake up knowing that you love yourself and what you will do today.
That you'll be as my blog title says, More than a conqueror.
Monday, October 19, 2009
Post Post plan
Listening to : Starstrukk - 3OH!3
I try to picture how life will be without army.
I didn't really need to look far. I think I'm having a taste of it now.
Its only like 2 weeks away! But I kinda figured it out.
Dota, Wow, DVDs, Youtube, running, gymming, Lan, alot of hanging out at night.
Ok, that pretty much sums up how life will be with nothing to do.
When I do get over and done with it, everyone will still go on with their busy lives.
Oh gosh, is ORD overrated?
Ok, I shouldn't think of it this way.
ORD ORD OOOORRRRDDDD.
The sad thing is that though there's really alot of hype and everything.
There's really SO much we can do without working.
YES! Thats the key!! WORK! Time to get my hands dirty and really make money!
But.... Staying awake will be really tough.
On the average, I sleep at least 10 - 12 hours a day.
Thats TERRIBLE!
Let me break it down for you.
6 - 7 hours at night, 2 when I take the morning slumber, another 2 when Its after lunch, a last hour at the end of the day. Thats quite insane.
I'm SLEEPING TOO MUCH!!!!!!
I have no idea why I've become this inclined to sleeping.
I guess its just NS and everything. I have yet to do anything useful today.
Hope tomorrow will be a better day.
SIMPLY PUT IT.
LIONEL CHOONG IS REALLY ROTTING WITH AN OFF DAY TOMORROW!!!!
I try to picture how life will be without army.
I didn't really need to look far. I think I'm having a taste of it now.
Its only like 2 weeks away! But I kinda figured it out.
Dota, Wow, DVDs, Youtube, running, gymming, Lan, alot of hanging out at night.
Ok, that pretty much sums up how life will be with nothing to do.
When I do get over and done with it, everyone will still go on with their busy lives.
Oh gosh, is ORD overrated?
Ok, I shouldn't think of it this way.
ORD ORD OOOORRRRDDDD.
The sad thing is that though there's really alot of hype and everything.
There's really SO much we can do without working.
YES! Thats the key!! WORK! Time to get my hands dirty and really make money!
But.... Staying awake will be really tough.
On the average, I sleep at least 10 - 12 hours a day.
Thats TERRIBLE!
Let me break it down for you.
6 - 7 hours at night, 2 when I take the morning slumber, another 2 when Its after lunch, a last hour at the end of the day. Thats quite insane.
I'm SLEEPING TOO MUCH!!!!!!
I have no idea why I've become this inclined to sleeping.
I guess its just NS and everything. I have yet to do anything useful today.
Hope tomorrow will be a better day.
SIMPLY PUT IT.
LIONEL CHOONG IS REALLY ROTTING WITH AN OFF DAY TOMORROW!!!!
Trust his heart
Listening to : Fix You - Coldplay
When you don't see his hand, trust his heart.
Once again, as simple as this phrase sounds,
it contains a very powerful truth.
God really does have your best at hand.
Even some, who really go about living our lives for the sake of God knows what....
He really does have your best intentions at hand.
It may seem very difficult to believe, when you've lost so much...
When you've gone through so much pain. So much anguish.
Don't ask why, don't seek to understand, but just persevere.
Be the one who fixes your mind up to tackling this problem
The past few days, there has been some who really are troubled.
With big issues to really small ones.
The only thing which I can really say is to keep on keeping on.
Be like the energizer bunny.
The one who just keeps climbing up that mountain.
When the people on your sides have backed off, you don't.
One important thing that I've learnt from Track is to really endure pain and love it.
It was quite a few days ago, I just said this phrase to Kelvin.
"The feeling of pain in the heart while running, that is SHIOK"
It really really is! You must really think I'm a madman now.
But it really is the case, it wasn't like this in the beginning.
But you develop a taste for it, a desire to experience it.
Because you know at the end of the pain are the fruits which you've really worked hard for.
The quickness of your body, the increase in fitness,
the larger increased capacity to endure and cope with PAIN.
I'm not saying that I wake up everyday to enjoy this pain.
There are times when I really don't want to go through it.
There are times when I just want to throw in the towel cause I'm just tired of going through it.
How often does this happen?
Almost once every week! In fact, it happens more often when you're on the verge of burning out!
But what really keeps you going? Its the vision in your head, in your heart.
You try to push harder and harder.
Sometimes you drag yourself to the track!
Sometimes you give in to laziness and give yourself dumb excuses when all you know is that you're lying to yourself.
However, everytime I hit the track, never once have I left feeling unaccomplished.
Yes, disappointed at times, but never felt that the session was a waste.
I've learnt and grown from every training, every session of pain.
Nobody takes it and appears as sadistic as us.
Really, nobody goes and joins something which enjoys pain.
But in this league, everyone does the same, to enjoy what nobody will dare to enjoy.
To enter into a trance which can put you out of your passion for life.
To be so involved that the moment you stop, you give it ALL up.
There's seldom come backs in the competition.
Very similarly, the walks of life is like that.
You keep up with the pace, you persist with the pain.
You may not know the extent of it, you honestly don't know when it'll end.
You wish it'll stop like NOW, you even wish to go to eternal sleep to get out of it.
Before you enter this period of pain, you'll be afraid of it.
While experiencing this period, you wish to get out of it.
After this, you'll come forth as Gold if you don't give up.
If you want to do some thing useful with your life, it'll happen!
Your life will suck big time at certain occasions.
You may even want to die like instantaneously.
But don't! Push of for the greater portion of Glory.
If this is your Passion, if this is what you live for, then the Pain is temporal.
For the Glory is really Eternal!
When you don't see his hand, trust his heart.
Once again, as simple as this phrase sounds,
it contains a very powerful truth.
God really does have your best at hand.
Even some, who really go about living our lives for the sake of God knows what....
He really does have your best intentions at hand.
It may seem very difficult to believe, when you've lost so much...
When you've gone through so much pain. So much anguish.
Don't ask why, don't seek to understand, but just persevere.
Be the one who fixes your mind up to tackling this problem
The past few days, there has been some who really are troubled.
With big issues to really small ones.
The only thing which I can really say is to keep on keeping on.
Be like the energizer bunny.
The one who just keeps climbing up that mountain.
When the people on your sides have backed off, you don't.
One important thing that I've learnt from Track is to really endure pain and love it.
It was quite a few days ago, I just said this phrase to Kelvin.
"The feeling of pain in the heart while running, that is SHIOK"
It really really is! You must really think I'm a madman now.
But it really is the case, it wasn't like this in the beginning.
But you develop a taste for it, a desire to experience it.
Because you know at the end of the pain are the fruits which you've really worked hard for.
The quickness of your body, the increase in fitness,
the larger increased capacity to endure and cope with PAIN.
I'm not saying that I wake up everyday to enjoy this pain.
There are times when I really don't want to go through it.
There are times when I just want to throw in the towel cause I'm just tired of going through it.
How often does this happen?
Almost once every week! In fact, it happens more often when you're on the verge of burning out!
But what really keeps you going? Its the vision in your head, in your heart.
You try to push harder and harder.
Sometimes you drag yourself to the track!
Sometimes you give in to laziness and give yourself dumb excuses when all you know is that you're lying to yourself.
However, everytime I hit the track, never once have I left feeling unaccomplished.
Yes, disappointed at times, but never felt that the session was a waste.
I've learnt and grown from every training, every session of pain.
Nobody takes it and appears as sadistic as us.
Really, nobody goes and joins something which enjoys pain.
But in this league, everyone does the same, to enjoy what nobody will dare to enjoy.
To enter into a trance which can put you out of your passion for life.
To be so involved that the moment you stop, you give it ALL up.
There's seldom come backs in the competition.
Very similarly, the walks of life is like that.
You keep up with the pace, you persist with the pain.
You may not know the extent of it, you honestly don't know when it'll end.
You wish it'll stop like NOW, you even wish to go to eternal sleep to get out of it.
Before you enter this period of pain, you'll be afraid of it.
While experiencing this period, you wish to get out of it.
After this, you'll come forth as Gold if you don't give up.
If you want to do some thing useful with your life, it'll happen!
Your life will suck big time at certain occasions.
You may even want to die like instantaneously.
But don't! Push of for the greater portion of Glory.
If this is your Passion, if this is what you live for, then the Pain is temporal.
For the Glory is really Eternal!
Thursday, October 15, 2009
Waiiit
Listening to : Can't help but wait - Trey Songz
I'm confused and well puzzled by the events of today.
Its quite a despair yet....
I shouldn't be thinking of it this way...
It has been great but has to come to an end I guess.
No mood to blog much about this.
I'm confused and well puzzled by the events of today.
Its quite a despair yet....
I shouldn't be thinking of it this way...
It has been great but has to come to an end I guess.
No mood to blog much about this.
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
Not this time
Listening to : Don't forget - Demi Lovato
The many victories conquered before...
Should we embrace them and take them as out comfort zone?
Or should we really move on and not let it hinder us from greater glories?
Well, personally, I'd rather the former.
Never belittle the days of small beginnings.
Wherever you started, I'm sure there've been times where you felt like the top of the world.
Those were the times....
Or maybe even, those were the times with the PEOPLE.
Things wouldn't be the ways things were now if it weren't for them.
Is it the same old nostalgic feeling of envy of the past again?
Is it that old nagging thought of "how I wish we could go back"
Maybe it is, maybe not, but one thing I do know,
That even though the past was fantastic, the future will be even better.
Maybe the victories won't be as phenomenal,
but its all about the attitude.
I'm going to embrace that!!
The many victories conquered before...
Should we embrace them and take them as out comfort zone?
Or should we really move on and not let it hinder us from greater glories?
Well, personally, I'd rather the former.
Never belittle the days of small beginnings.
Wherever you started, I'm sure there've been times where you felt like the top of the world.
Those were the times....
Or maybe even, those were the times with the PEOPLE.
Things wouldn't be the ways things were now if it weren't for them.
Is it the same old nostalgic feeling of envy of the past again?
Is it that old nagging thought of "how I wish we could go back"
Maybe it is, maybe not, but one thing I do know,
That even though the past was fantastic, the future will be even better.
Maybe the victories won't be as phenomenal,
but its all about the attitude.
I'm going to embrace that!!
Monday, October 12, 2009
Go ahead, make it happen
Listening to : You belong to me - Taylor Swift
Its been a good duration these 3 years.
It hasn't been easy, but many things came out really simple.
Love can't be this easy? At least thats what I thought.
It turned out to really be fantastic.
It has been nothing short of magical. Nothing short of a miracle.
Has there been rocky instances? Of course...
But everything was overcome with really basic principles in life.
I'm glad that certain issues happened.
I'm glad that they were in place to make me see clearly.
Its about being transparent, its about being agreeable.
Its as simple as that. No matter how demanding, its all about respect.
I'm so glad that its come this far.
Do I forsee our relationship going on forever?
Yes, in fact I do. Its about the persistence in all things.
I guess we're just both 2 easy going peeps. Which I'm really happy about.
We don't have many problems which other couples face,
the clash of friends vs the couple time.
We've made it through NS! Or well, partially, with just 3 weeks left.
Thats one amazing hurdle down.
Next would be university. I treasure the time we spend together.
I would never give her up for the world,
I wouldn't change one thing that has happened thus far.
Would I die for her? Of course I would.
If you ask me, why do I love her?
I'm not going to give any politically correct answer...
I honestly don't know....
But I guess thats what Love is all about...
Its about treasuring one another despite not knowing your outcome.
Cause if everything between both of you is decoded, you wouldn't treasure her as much.
I wouldn't belittle the small minutes we spend together on certain days.
If you ask me why I love her, I'll give you a look and say, Its Shiming, thats why...
This is the one thing I cannot quantify,
This is the one thing I cannot deduce out of a formula, argue out from a textbook.
Derive it from theories long known to man ,
I can't think of the slightest clue as to how such emotions can be represented by the cells.
I can't prove this feeling out of the many steps and theorems discovered by Einstein.
I can't use any shortcut methods to find out why,
I am clueless as to how such a passion has come forth.
I'm dumbfounded by the many possibilities which create such a feeling in my heart.
I am at times desperate to find the scientific connection between love and the heart.
I am puzzled by the dynamics of the relationship between her words and the tempo of my heartbeat.
I'm utterly confused with the loss of time when I spend a moment with her which feels like a second.
I'm unable to piece together the strange neurons arranging in my brain which causes me to sob when things don't go right.
I'm unable to explain the real physics of this relationship.
I don't know if Newton, Einstein, Maxwell or even Faraday can calculate and prove this feeling.
This feeling of unbelievable addiction to this girl called
NG SHIMING.
I'm starting out now, to find the reason, to find the laws of science which proves my burning passion just to catch a glimpse of her every single day.
I won't stop loving her till I figure this out.
I highly doubt I'll map this out, it'll take me till they actually prove that 2012 prophecies were really a huge fluke.
Now that this is established, I won't even begin to think this through.
Its simple, I don't wanna prove this theorem, I wanna Love her forever.
The past two days have been rather, intriguing.
Maybe it really isn't coincidence that everything is coming at the same time.
All the info, all the choices are suddenly put right at my doorsteps.
I'm not particularly saying that everything can go totally smoothly, But there's a possibility...
Everything, and I mean Everything is falling into place.
I'm in love with life again, I'm finding some adventure after such a long time.
Its been a good duration these 3 years.
It hasn't been easy, but many things came out really simple.
Love can't be this easy? At least thats what I thought.
It turned out to really be fantastic.
It has been nothing short of magical. Nothing short of a miracle.
Has there been rocky instances? Of course...
But everything was overcome with really basic principles in life.
I'm glad that certain issues happened.
I'm glad that they were in place to make me see clearly.
Its about being transparent, its about being agreeable.
Its as simple as that. No matter how demanding, its all about respect.
I'm so glad that its come this far.
Do I forsee our relationship going on forever?
Yes, in fact I do. Its about the persistence in all things.
I guess we're just both 2 easy going peeps. Which I'm really happy about.
We don't have many problems which other couples face,
the clash of friends vs the couple time.
We've made it through NS! Or well, partially, with just 3 weeks left.
Thats one amazing hurdle down.
Next would be university. I treasure the time we spend together.
I would never give her up for the world,
I wouldn't change one thing that has happened thus far.
Would I die for her? Of course I would.
If you ask me, why do I love her?
I'm not going to give any politically correct answer...
I honestly don't know....
But I guess thats what Love is all about...
Its about treasuring one another despite not knowing your outcome.
Cause if everything between both of you is decoded, you wouldn't treasure her as much.
I wouldn't belittle the small minutes we spend together on certain days.
If you ask me why I love her, I'll give you a look and say, Its Shiming, thats why...
This is the one thing I cannot quantify,
This is the one thing I cannot deduce out of a formula, argue out from a textbook.
Derive it from theories long known to man ,
I can't think of the slightest clue as to how such emotions can be represented by the cells.
I can't prove this feeling out of the many steps and theorems discovered by Einstein.
I can't use any shortcut methods to find out why,
I am clueless as to how such a passion has come forth.
I'm dumbfounded by the many possibilities which create such a feeling in my heart.
I am at times desperate to find the scientific connection between love and the heart.
I am puzzled by the dynamics of the relationship between her words and the tempo of my heartbeat.
I'm utterly confused with the loss of time when I spend a moment with her which feels like a second.
I'm unable to piece together the strange neurons arranging in my brain which causes me to sob when things don't go right.
I'm unable to explain the real physics of this relationship.
I don't know if Newton, Einstein, Maxwell or even Faraday can calculate and prove this feeling.
This feeling of unbelievable addiction to this girl called
NG SHIMING.
I'm starting out now, to find the reason, to find the laws of science which proves my burning passion just to catch a glimpse of her every single day.
I won't stop loving her till I figure this out.
I highly doubt I'll map this out, it'll take me till they actually prove that 2012 prophecies were really a huge fluke.
Now that this is established, I won't even begin to think this through.
Its simple, I don't wanna prove this theorem, I wanna Love her forever.
The past two days have been rather, intriguing.
Maybe it really isn't coincidence that everything is coming at the same time.
All the info, all the choices are suddenly put right at my doorsteps.
I'm not particularly saying that everything can go totally smoothly, But there's a possibility...
Everything, and I mean Everything is falling into place.
I'm in love with life again, I'm finding some adventure after such a long time.
Saturday, October 10, 2009
happy!
Listening to : Hallelujah - Paramore
Its been an extremely tiring past few days. Very draining and taxing. But for what its worth, I'll gladly do it all over again. :)
Its been an extremely tiring past few days. Very draining and taxing. But for what its worth, I'll gladly do it all over again. :)
Wednesday, October 07, 2009
Drive here
Listening to : Sparks - Coldplay
A picture speaks a thousand words.
Well, it is true. A picture can tell the story of a persons life.
I hate art, sorry i really do. I can't stand staring at a painting.
Let alone my own drawing.
However, I love pictures. I don't dislike taking pictures and picture being taken of me.
But I do like to keep a collection of them.
I like to look at them.
It reminds me of who and where those people are.
It reminds me of how my life is paved out.
Thats why a few days ago, i collaged my wall with pictures in frames.
Then I realized a very simple fact.
Putting my life in pictures really isn't difficult at all. It was in fact quite easy.
Not saying that I've got too little photos, in fact, I had too many to choose from.
But pointing out who was of greater priority than another seemed quite easy to me.
I initially thought that it'd be extremely tough to differentiate.
But when all of them were laid out in front of me.
It was quite a breeze to do so.
Strangely, the groups which I had thought were neglected came out surprisingly strong.
Either way, I still do value them every single bit. Every single one of them.
To define your life in pictures. I have always wanted to do that.
I have done that, well not my whole life but a good portion of it.
What do I really want to do?
To portray my whole life into pictures all over my wall.
It may seem insane and extremely ugly to you.
But to see the people I value and treasure everytime I wake up makes alot of sense to me.
I won't want to wake up seeing things which aren't real, or something figurative.
I wanna see something real, something which inspires me to move on each day.
These few weeks really mark the last lap of my NS cycle.
I won't complain or whine about it.
I admit, I have taken things in good stride, haven't been the most enthusiastic I have to admit.
However, I do make the effort to be positive about it.
Comparing my life with the others, I just can't and won't start to compare.
I'm glad its ending, but even then....
Wonder how life will be...
A picture speaks a thousand words.
Well, it is true. A picture can tell the story of a persons life.
I hate art, sorry i really do. I can't stand staring at a painting.
Let alone my own drawing.
However, I love pictures. I don't dislike taking pictures and picture being taken of me.
But I do like to keep a collection of them.
I like to look at them.
It reminds me of who and where those people are.
It reminds me of how my life is paved out.
Thats why a few days ago, i collaged my wall with pictures in frames.
Then I realized a very simple fact.
Putting my life in pictures really isn't difficult at all. It was in fact quite easy.
Not saying that I've got too little photos, in fact, I had too many to choose from.
But pointing out who was of greater priority than another seemed quite easy to me.
I initially thought that it'd be extremely tough to differentiate.
But when all of them were laid out in front of me.
It was quite a breeze to do so.
Strangely, the groups which I had thought were neglected came out surprisingly strong.
Either way, I still do value them every single bit. Every single one of them.
To define your life in pictures. I have always wanted to do that.
I have done that, well not my whole life but a good portion of it.
What do I really want to do?
To portray my whole life into pictures all over my wall.
It may seem insane and extremely ugly to you.
But to see the people I value and treasure everytime I wake up makes alot of sense to me.
I won't want to wake up seeing things which aren't real, or something figurative.
I wanna see something real, something which inspires me to move on each day.
These few weeks really mark the last lap of my NS cycle.
I won't complain or whine about it.
I admit, I have taken things in good stride, haven't been the most enthusiastic I have to admit.
However, I do make the effort to be positive about it.
Comparing my life with the others, I just can't and won't start to compare.
I'm glad its ending, but even then....
Wonder how life will be...
Tuesday, October 06, 2009
show me what I'm looking for
Listening to : Be On You - Neyo
I was clearing my room these few days.
That's when I stumbled upon something really interesting, or rather, nostalgic.
I saw a small card saying and I quote.
"Wa run until heart damn pain, the feeling shiok right!?".
That was what my old junior quoted. Who said it? I did....
I seldom reminisce the old JC days.
But oh well, sometimes I just can't help it.
It was really a place of victory. The place brings back good fond memories of conquering.
I can't say the same for my previous school or any other place.
I've really got 2 places where I can firmly say are MY places of victory.
One was in the old Jurong West Church and CJC.
These places of victory was when I became something out of nothing.
Where I grew as a person, as an individual.
If you ask me to go back anytime, I definitely will.
I'll ignore all the traveling and time wastages. I'll definitely make the extra trip down.
To feel the walls, to talk to the people.
Thats how I get my inspiration and motivation to go on sometimes.
Everyone should have such a place of comfort, of rest, of confidence.
The place where they conquered the mountains and did the impossible.
The place where you went against all odds and proved to people that you are a CAN DO.
Yes, the place would be littered with many painful memories at times.
But through those painful times come the fruits of your labor.
However, I'm not saying you should live in the past.
Yeah, you gotta move on.
You gotta take that one step at a time to make your present better than the past.
Its nice to imagine how life would be when you look back.
Don't dwell in it...
Make your present place a new place of victory.
Try to move your life up a level!
Don't stay stagnant or worst deteriorate.
Make the effort, take the time, take the pain.
It's worth it, I assure you.
I was clearing my room these few days.
That's when I stumbled upon something really interesting, or rather, nostalgic.
I saw a small card saying and I quote.
"Wa run until heart damn pain, the feeling shiok right!?".
That was what my old junior quoted. Who said it? I did....
I seldom reminisce the old JC days.
But oh well, sometimes I just can't help it.
It was really a place of victory. The place brings back good fond memories of conquering.
I can't say the same for my previous school or any other place.
I've really got 2 places where I can firmly say are MY places of victory.
One was in the old Jurong West Church and CJC.
These places of victory was when I became something out of nothing.
Where I grew as a person, as an individual.
If you ask me to go back anytime, I definitely will.
I'll ignore all the traveling and time wastages. I'll definitely make the extra trip down.
To feel the walls, to talk to the people.
Thats how I get my inspiration and motivation to go on sometimes.
Everyone should have such a place of comfort, of rest, of confidence.
The place where they conquered the mountains and did the impossible.
The place where you went against all odds and proved to people that you are a CAN DO.
Yes, the place would be littered with many painful memories at times.
But through those painful times come the fruits of your labor.
However, I'm not saying you should live in the past.
Yeah, you gotta move on.
You gotta take that one step at a time to make your present better than the past.
Its nice to imagine how life would be when you look back.
Don't dwell in it...
Make your present place a new place of victory.
Try to move your life up a level!
Don't stay stagnant or worst deteriorate.
Make the effort, take the time, take the pain.
It's worth it, I assure you.
I'll be doing just fine
Listening to : Mr Brightside - The Killers
I've always wanted to do what I'm doing now.
Blogging on my bed....
Since I've gotten my new laptop, I've been using my com alot on the bed.
This just excess berates the lazy side of Lionel.
Yes, I am very lazy.
So today I am rather inspired.
Yes I am, in fact by the least likely of all sources.
By a movie. You may think that its really ridiculous.
But the simple theories and concepts of this movie was well, impactful to me.
It gave me the dream and reality that the impossible visions in life shouldn't be left to die.
With much pursuit, it'll be a realized dream if you hold on to it long enough.
What movie was it? Well, believe it or not, it was cloudy and a chance of meatballs.
No it wasn't like 500 days of summer or some other show.
Maybe it was a combination of both my favorites.
Food and Science.
As cliche as it sounds, it was really a good movie worth my money.
The feeling may not be shared with others. In fact, I figured the high and mighty intellects may claim this movie as a waste of time with no meaning and plot.
Sorry but to me, it was very timely.
In fact, when does one really deem himself worthy of a dream or vision?
When do you decide that you have the ability to get up and say that you want this?
I guess its when you just keep persisting and pressing on.
It's a very cliche statement but as true as it is.
You are only as valuable as the heart you put in.
It may not be now, but one day, the proof of your passion is in your pursuit.
You will achieve it.
Many around you will criticized and laugh at you.
You will be ridiculed for the impossible dreams that you have.
Thats the risk about taking the scientific route.
You can go wildly wrong, but thats when you let your imagination run wild.
Thats when inventions and breakthroughs come to pass.
Unlike the many conservative socio-political-arts subjects, where you really can't be laughed at. Many a times, the dreams that many scientist or engineers for that matter are made fun off.
Not trying to flame another faculty or groups of people.
But it is true. Nobody really laughs at ideologies or theories cause its so believable.
Something this believable can never be THAT fun.
Yes, I've had many people laughing at me for well, hoping that one day, Iron Man can be created. Ok, simply put it, I know as much as many cynical minds out there are thinking, Yes it is impossible.
But wouldn't it be great if you indulge in ones desires and dreams instead of putting it down immediately?
By the way, if one day I really do create something that phenomenal and magical.....
I'll stop at there... heh.
So back to the point, yes dreams should be realistic, but won't it be great to aim so high. Yes you will be disappointed with many many failures.
But hey man, whats life without them? I've seen many people ride on their past failures to victory. Thats one trait that I've picked up along these years.
So this whole story points to the very simple fact, your dreams shouldn't be determined by others or by circumstances.
If your dream is the stars, live for that dream and die trying.
Even if you don't reach the stars, you'd have made enough impact to have reached the moon.
Don't give your dreams up. Don't give your future up.
Your future is determined by your actions, control them.
Which also implies, one shouldn't set the course of life at the start of yourself.
I've been clouded recently, my mind has been bogus recently.
In fact, I've been considering mapping it all out.
Now I know, I shouldn't. I should do what I'm doing now.
I'll never know if which dreams take precedence in my life, teaching or engineering.
That I'll leave it to God and well, my decisions I make.
Moving on, in situations like this in life, this is when you really figure out who your true friends are. Are they the people who really support your dream or laugh at it.
Don't attempt to "encourage" if it really isn't sincere.
Not speaking would be alot better. which I've realised.
One person whom I've met for a few years have been very encouraging.
Though we all know the idea of iron man is impossible...
She keeps calling me that.
Everytime that happens, it makes me remember such dreams.
Which isn't totally bad. It makes me feel good about myself.
It makes me realise that the impossible really is doable...
But please, we all do know how to seperate fiction and fact.
I am not REALLY superman.
Such things would just be left to your own discernment.
Anyway, I'm coming to an end. It is getting late....
BERSAMA!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I've always wanted to do what I'm doing now.
Blogging on my bed....
Since I've gotten my new laptop, I've been using my com alot on the bed.
This just excess berates the lazy side of Lionel.
Yes, I am very lazy.
So today I am rather inspired.
Yes I am, in fact by the least likely of all sources.
By a movie. You may think that its really ridiculous.
But the simple theories and concepts of this movie was well, impactful to me.
It gave me the dream and reality that the impossible visions in life shouldn't be left to die.
With much pursuit, it'll be a realized dream if you hold on to it long enough.
What movie was it? Well, believe it or not, it was cloudy and a chance of meatballs.
No it wasn't like 500 days of summer or some other show.
Maybe it was a combination of both my favorites.
Food and Science.
As cliche as it sounds, it was really a good movie worth my money.
The feeling may not be shared with others. In fact, I figured the high and mighty intellects may claim this movie as a waste of time with no meaning and plot.
Sorry but to me, it was very timely.
In fact, when does one really deem himself worthy of a dream or vision?
When do you decide that you have the ability to get up and say that you want this?
I guess its when you just keep persisting and pressing on.
It's a very cliche statement but as true as it is.
You are only as valuable as the heart you put in.
It may not be now, but one day, the proof of your passion is in your pursuit.
You will achieve it.
Many around you will criticized and laugh at you.
You will be ridiculed for the impossible dreams that you have.
Thats the risk about taking the scientific route.
You can go wildly wrong, but thats when you let your imagination run wild.
Thats when inventions and breakthroughs come to pass.
Unlike the many conservative socio-political-arts subjects, where you really can't be laughed at. Many a times, the dreams that many scientist or engineers for that matter are made fun off.
Not trying to flame another faculty or groups of people.
But it is true. Nobody really laughs at ideologies or theories cause its so believable.
Something this believable can never be THAT fun.
Yes, I've had many people laughing at me for well, hoping that one day, Iron Man can be created. Ok, simply put it, I know as much as many cynical minds out there are thinking, Yes it is impossible.
But wouldn't it be great if you indulge in ones desires and dreams instead of putting it down immediately?
By the way, if one day I really do create something that phenomenal and magical.....
I'll stop at there... heh.
So back to the point, yes dreams should be realistic, but won't it be great to aim so high. Yes you will be disappointed with many many failures.
But hey man, whats life without them? I've seen many people ride on their past failures to victory. Thats one trait that I've picked up along these years.
So this whole story points to the very simple fact, your dreams shouldn't be determined by others or by circumstances.
If your dream is the stars, live for that dream and die trying.
Even if you don't reach the stars, you'd have made enough impact to have reached the moon.
Don't give your dreams up. Don't give your future up.
Your future is determined by your actions, control them.
Which also implies, one shouldn't set the course of life at the start of yourself.
I've been clouded recently, my mind has been bogus recently.
In fact, I've been considering mapping it all out.
Now I know, I shouldn't. I should do what I'm doing now.
I'll never know if which dreams take precedence in my life, teaching or engineering.
That I'll leave it to God and well, my decisions I make.
Moving on, in situations like this in life, this is when you really figure out who your true friends are. Are they the people who really support your dream or laugh at it.
Don't attempt to "encourage" if it really isn't sincere.
Not speaking would be alot better. which I've realised.
One person whom I've met for a few years have been very encouraging.
Though we all know the idea of iron man is impossible...
She keeps calling me that.
Everytime that happens, it makes me remember such dreams.
Which isn't totally bad. It makes me feel good about myself.
It makes me realise that the impossible really is doable...
But please, we all do know how to seperate fiction and fact.
I am not REALLY superman.
Such things would just be left to your own discernment.
Anyway, I'm coming to an end. It is getting late....
BERSAMA!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Sunday, October 04, 2009
Open up your eyes
Listening to : Talk you down - The Script
Pardon me If I do not portray the typical blog posts about my scheduled life and all.
I realize thats what many blogs do. However, I figured it'll be alot nicer if i speak about issues of it.
If you wanna know what I do, come talk to me. Hohoho.
So... The Earthquake in Sumatra, Philippines and many more places.
Its really very worrying to hear of such natural disasters.
Yeah it is, though we, as a species have advanced so far.
We're still pretty much at the mercy of oh mother nature.
Yes there can be a thousand and one things that we can invent to predict it and all.
We even have wizards who can literally predict the weather.
No, I'm not kidding, if you think I'm kidding about the wizard thing....
I'm not, like there're people who really can predict the weather which I'm really impressed with.
Moving on!!!
It really ain't easy to overcome the forces of mother nature and all.
There's so little we can do.
Though its projectable, its very very unpredictable.
Its so random, yet so powerful, can be a curse or a blessing..
So the next question would definitely arise......
WHY DID THIS HAPPEN IN THE FIRST PLACE???
Well, its something that many whom wish to rebute the beliefs of many would ask.
Why did God or any divine being really allow this??
Is this the end of the world? Is the Armageddon?
I rather not think about it....
Lets start with the theory and the meaning behind it all.
I remember once, somebody said.
If there're no tough times, no bad happenings, how would grace be magnified?
Yes, it is a very far-fetched question.
Means, one would rather allow bad things to happen simply to show the good of something else?
Which also implies (in our civil world) that many jobs are derived.
Very simply put it, if the world was a perfect place. With no crimes.
There won't be the need of policemen. Thus, its a necessary job.
However, would it be better if such crimes never happened? Of course!
Similarly, some things in life can't be helped.
It was not an accident, it was allowed to happen.
It was so that really, the goodness of men can be seen.
Heroes do not emerge when the times are good.
They emerge when the going gets really tough..
Well, I've noticed that many turn a blind eye to such times.
Like in the days going by...
Nobody really cares, honestly.
If you're a singaporean here, You won't care much i guess.
Dismissing the possibility of your friends and family being there.
We are too caught up in the rat race to even consider lending a listening ear.
To even update ourselves on this disaster.
Or at least, thats what I've thought.
The past few days, I've witnessed relief efforts with my own two eyes.
People going the extra mile.
Whether its all show boating or not. The fact is that they are.
I was even involved in a very small way. Which I've come to understand and well, appreciate.
Many people think that the superheroes in our world are those who change society.
The many sociologist and psychiatrist out there.
The presidents, the Prime Ministers.
The commissioner of police, chief of defense forces.
The scientist which events light and all.
However, none of these are worth being called the big of the society.
All of these are all talk no action. Talk talk talk.
What can they really do? They don't get their hands dirty...
The real heroes are those which are out there saving lives.
Putting their lives on the line and all.
It is very very admirable.
That's why I want to make an effort to be like this.
I still want to change the World one man at a time.
Pardon me If I do not portray the typical blog posts about my scheduled life and all.
I realize thats what many blogs do. However, I figured it'll be alot nicer if i speak about issues of it.
If you wanna know what I do, come talk to me. Hohoho.
So... The Earthquake in Sumatra, Philippines and many more places.
Its really very worrying to hear of such natural disasters.
Yeah it is, though we, as a species have advanced so far.
We're still pretty much at the mercy of oh mother nature.
Yes there can be a thousand and one things that we can invent to predict it and all.
We even have wizards who can literally predict the weather.
No, I'm not kidding, if you think I'm kidding about the wizard thing....
I'm not, like there're people who really can predict the weather which I'm really impressed with.
Moving on!!!
It really ain't easy to overcome the forces of mother nature and all.
There's so little we can do.
Though its projectable, its very very unpredictable.
Its so random, yet so powerful, can be a curse or a blessing..
So the next question would definitely arise......
WHY DID THIS HAPPEN IN THE FIRST PLACE???
Well, its something that many whom wish to rebute the beliefs of many would ask.
Why did God or any divine being really allow this??
Is this the end of the world? Is the Armageddon?
I rather not think about it....
Lets start with the theory and the meaning behind it all.
I remember once, somebody said.
If there're no tough times, no bad happenings, how would grace be magnified?
Yes, it is a very far-fetched question.
Means, one would rather allow bad things to happen simply to show the good of something else?
Which also implies (in our civil world) that many jobs are derived.
Very simply put it, if the world was a perfect place. With no crimes.
There won't be the need of policemen. Thus, its a necessary job.
However, would it be better if such crimes never happened? Of course!
Similarly, some things in life can't be helped.
It was not an accident, it was allowed to happen.
It was so that really, the goodness of men can be seen.
Heroes do not emerge when the times are good.
They emerge when the going gets really tough..
Well, I've noticed that many turn a blind eye to such times.
Like in the days going by...
Nobody really cares, honestly.
If you're a singaporean here, You won't care much i guess.
Dismissing the possibility of your friends and family being there.
We are too caught up in the rat race to even consider lending a listening ear.
To even update ourselves on this disaster.
Or at least, thats what I've thought.
The past few days, I've witnessed relief efforts with my own two eyes.
People going the extra mile.
Whether its all show boating or not. The fact is that they are.
I was even involved in a very small way. Which I've come to understand and well, appreciate.
Many people think that the superheroes in our world are those who change society.
The many sociologist and psychiatrist out there.
The presidents, the Prime Ministers.
The commissioner of police, chief of defense forces.
The scientist which events light and all.
However, none of these are worth being called the big of the society.
All of these are all talk no action. Talk talk talk.
What can they really do? They don't get their hands dirty...
The real heroes are those which are out there saving lives.
Putting their lives on the line and all.
It is very very admirable.
That's why I want to make an effort to be like this.
I still want to change the World one man at a time.
Thursday, October 01, 2009
Move your body
Listening to : Body Language - Jesse McCartney
Oh the pain and ache in my legs while running.
It really genuinely is tiring nowadays.
I guess its the transition between sports and running.
I need to keep running!! I need to be reminded to do so too!
So if you see me sleeping or lazing around in the day more than usual...
Please SMACK me or message me telling me to run.
I'll definitely be very appreciative!! :)
That aside, so it seems affection is in the air!!
Well, some have a perception that its bad or something to be wary about.
Some groups get very very excited when someone gets infatuated with someone else!
Its quite a totally different reaction altogether!
In fact, I've got both groups of friends. Some of which treat it like poison, some embrace it like Gold. Its quite funny and entertaining actually.
For me, sorry for all whom have a certain image of me....
But yes, I really enjoy seeing people falling for each other and all.
Yes there are its dangers like not being ready for it, being the rebound girl etc etc.
But think about it! Isn't it really beautiful that someone is so in love with another!?
Well, I've come to realize dangers of it as well. Not saying its all prim and pretty and all.
Yes, the other party may not be feeling the same way towards you.
Yes, there are fears of rejection which could make things awkward.
Yes, it may even be detrimental to your spirit when you're not ready.
Yes, it may just be the wrong girl.
Though its all enjoyable to do so and all, its about how you approach it.
If you really go into in straight head in, you may just fall for sure.
If not, maybe you may come out even stronger.
I would always like to believe the latter. But sometimes it really isn't.
Don't get me wrong, I'm not saying you should never take the risk.
One should always make the CALCULATED risk in everything they do.
That's how you make better choices in life I guess? Short of praying and all for sure...
You gotta be sure of yourself before you do anything or start anything.
Are you really willing to commit??
Are you even ready emotionally, physically and spiritually?? (emotional baggage and all)
I never really believed in the saying "you're never ready for it, so just go in!!".
Come on, you've always got a chance to be ready.
When's the time? You'll know yourself. Its different for everybody.
Take some time to reflect and think. Cause things could end ugly if you end things on a bad note.
Finish whatever you've started. Don't leave things hanging.
On another note, I'm saying that this is the absolute rule.
I've definitely seen quite pleasant exceptions to this.
People whom really genuinely believe in Love at first sight, my best friend for example....
I'm always shocked by this and quite glad that it turns out this way and not ugly.
For those in it already, strive hard to make it last and make it a fruitful one!
For those whom are considering entering into a commitment, think wisely!
For those whom are starting to sow the seeds of affection, go ahead....
Don't be afraid, don't be fearful, as long as things are not perceived wrongly by another party and by yourself, it won't go really wrong.
Just don't drop wrong signals on many parties.
If that happens, you're just a maggot.
PS. I've got one week before the BIG BIG DAY!!!
Oh the pain and ache in my legs while running.
It really genuinely is tiring nowadays.
I guess its the transition between sports and running.
I need to keep running!! I need to be reminded to do so too!
So if you see me sleeping or lazing around in the day more than usual...
Please SMACK me or message me telling me to run.
I'll definitely be very appreciative!! :)
That aside, so it seems affection is in the air!!
Well, some have a perception that its bad or something to be wary about.
Some groups get very very excited when someone gets infatuated with someone else!
Its quite a totally different reaction altogether!
In fact, I've got both groups of friends. Some of which treat it like poison, some embrace it like Gold. Its quite funny and entertaining actually.
For me, sorry for all whom have a certain image of me....
But yes, I really enjoy seeing people falling for each other and all.
Yes there are its dangers like not being ready for it, being the rebound girl etc etc.
But think about it! Isn't it really beautiful that someone is so in love with another!?
Well, I've come to realize dangers of it as well. Not saying its all prim and pretty and all.
Yes, the other party may not be feeling the same way towards you.
Yes, there are fears of rejection which could make things awkward.
Yes, it may even be detrimental to your spirit when you're not ready.
Yes, it may just be the wrong girl.
Though its all enjoyable to do so and all, its about how you approach it.
If you really go into in straight head in, you may just fall for sure.
If not, maybe you may come out even stronger.
I would always like to believe the latter. But sometimes it really isn't.
Don't get me wrong, I'm not saying you should never take the risk.
One should always make the CALCULATED risk in everything they do.
That's how you make better choices in life I guess? Short of praying and all for sure...
You gotta be sure of yourself before you do anything or start anything.
Are you really willing to commit??
Are you even ready emotionally, physically and spiritually?? (emotional baggage and all)
I never really believed in the saying "you're never ready for it, so just go in!!".
Come on, you've always got a chance to be ready.
When's the time? You'll know yourself. Its different for everybody.
Take some time to reflect and think. Cause things could end ugly if you end things on a bad note.
Finish whatever you've started. Don't leave things hanging.
On another note, I'm saying that this is the absolute rule.
I've definitely seen quite pleasant exceptions to this.
People whom really genuinely believe in Love at first sight, my best friend for example....
I'm always shocked by this and quite glad that it turns out this way and not ugly.
For those in it already, strive hard to make it last and make it a fruitful one!
For those whom are considering entering into a commitment, think wisely!
For those whom are starting to sow the seeds of affection, go ahead....
Don't be afraid, don't be fearful, as long as things are not perceived wrongly by another party and by yourself, it won't go really wrong.
Just don't drop wrong signals on many parties.
If that happens, you're just a maggot.
PS. I've got one week before the BIG BIG DAY!!!
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
Oh its you
Listening to : Under Control - Parachute
Its been a strange long time since I've been off early in the afternoon after morning shift.
Well, I didn't really have much to do. In fact, I had nothing to do.
I still found myself surprisingly fulfilled.
Running, Printing, Shopping for things. Errands basically.
Thats what I had to do.
However, I still felt good after all of that.
I remember the exam times. When it was really really tough.
Many are going through that right about now.
In fact, my heart really goes out to them. Yes it ain't easy.
But hey man, the fruits of your labour are beyond description. You'll be more satisfied than normal
I'll do all I can to make sure that any one person gets his motivation to do well.
Especially one close to me.
Speaking of which... Its off to work for me!!!
Its been a strange long time since I've been off early in the afternoon after morning shift.
Well, I didn't really have much to do. In fact, I had nothing to do.
I still found myself surprisingly fulfilled.
Running, Printing, Shopping for things. Errands basically.
Thats what I had to do.
However, I still felt good after all of that.
I remember the exam times. When it was really really tough.
Many are going through that right about now.
In fact, my heart really goes out to them. Yes it ain't easy.
But hey man, the fruits of your labour are beyond description. You'll be more satisfied than normal
I'll do all I can to make sure that any one person gets his motivation to do well.
Especially one close to me.
Speaking of which... Its off to work for me!!!
Monday, September 28, 2009
Let me Love you
Listening to : Cool - Gwen Stefani
It takes some time to really figure and get out of an 'emo rut'
Well, one is defined as being well, the biggest idiot on Earth.
You may have all the reason to act or behave in such a way.
However, at the end of the day, you can just tell yourself you were an idiot.
There're many reasons which can trigger such a rut. Examples of which would be...
Waking up too early / Grumpy.
Not enough sleep.
Waiting too long.
Being too tired.
Being offended by another party.
Notice none of these are symptoms of such a case.
How to get out of it??
You just stop taking self pity and get on with life. Cause you being such an idiot would not only make yourself feel worst but make others around you feel uncomfortable.
By being in such a rut, you just become extremely selfish.
You ignore the feelings of others and care only for yourself.
Being unable to hide your emotions is not a legitimate reason.
It just means you're childish.
You're an adult adolescent.
Before you start rebutting and saying that whatever stated above is incorrect.
You'll realise that you're already being ridiculously defensive and ignorant.
Thereafter, you start to take the offensive.
Which, if you actually let loose and speak your mind, will in turn, hurt others.
The damage you do will make you feel WORST and thus creating a very viscous cycle of self pity and then depression.
As strange as it seems. Everyone can be tempted and fall into this trap.
Yes, Everyone can. Don't look to your left or right.
You can be part of the sad sad viscous cycle.
The key is not to fall into this pit to begin with. How??
Base your life on things which will not let you down. Base your integrity and confidence on it.
What else can be more stable than that of God?
It may seem trivial.
But thats the best option you've got, why hesitate now?
Take the plunge and give it a shot.
If you think you don't experience it, you're wrong.
It can come in small or big packages. Many have overcome them and moved on.
But some sad few cases leave scars in their hearts and souls. It becomes painful after a while.
Then it'll affect your physique and health.
Yes, it strangely does.
If you're thinking that you're not going to go through this.
Think again.
Cause I have.
I just have.
It takes some time to really figure and get out of an 'emo rut'
Well, one is defined as being well, the biggest idiot on Earth.
You may have all the reason to act or behave in such a way.
However, at the end of the day, you can just tell yourself you were an idiot.
There're many reasons which can trigger such a rut. Examples of which would be...
Waking up too early / Grumpy.
Not enough sleep.
Waiting too long.
Being too tired.
Being offended by another party.
Notice none of these are symptoms of such a case.
How to get out of it??
You just stop taking self pity and get on with life. Cause you being such an idiot would not only make yourself feel worst but make others around you feel uncomfortable.
By being in such a rut, you just become extremely selfish.
You ignore the feelings of others and care only for yourself.
Being unable to hide your emotions is not a legitimate reason.
It just means you're childish.
You're an adult adolescent.
Before you start rebutting and saying that whatever stated above is incorrect.
You'll realise that you're already being ridiculously defensive and ignorant.
Thereafter, you start to take the offensive.
Which, if you actually let loose and speak your mind, will in turn, hurt others.
The damage you do will make you feel WORST and thus creating a very viscous cycle of self pity and then depression.
As strange as it seems. Everyone can be tempted and fall into this trap.
Yes, Everyone can. Don't look to your left or right.
You can be part of the sad sad viscous cycle.
The key is not to fall into this pit to begin with. How??
Base your life on things which will not let you down. Base your integrity and confidence on it.
What else can be more stable than that of God?
It may seem trivial.
But thats the best option you've got, why hesitate now?
Take the plunge and give it a shot.
If you think you don't experience it, you're wrong.
It can come in small or big packages. Many have overcome them and moved on.
But some sad few cases leave scars in their hearts and souls. It becomes painful after a while.
Then it'll affect your physique and health.
Yes, it strangely does.
If you're thinking that you're not going to go through this.
Think again.
Cause I have.
I just have.
Sunday, September 27, 2009
quicken yourself
Listening to : Undisclosed desires - Muse
I'm quite surprised by the viewership of this blog. In fact, I expected many not to know of its existence. But well, it was quite on the contrary.
So I've been very active recently. Or rather, I'm glad that things are coming around for the better.
The group from 5 is slowly growing. Which is quite amazing.
People are being used in ways which I can't begin to explain.
Yes, times may be tough and some believe that the reason for committing may differ from the norm. However, I've never succumbed to the simple stereotype of how a 'christian' should be.
One passage which has really impacted me was the simple idea of Jesus eating with the tax collectors. It may seem quite strange and profound but it was as simple as that.
Jesus didn't care who you were or where you were from.
He cared that you were here.
Many a times, people always grumble or complain that there're too little people for a party, an outreach or whatever event there is.
I mean, whats planned is planned. If the turnout ain't good...
What do we normally react with??
I'm sure as a person of authority, the initial reaction is FLIP!
Why're there so LITTLE??
But I've come to realise that really, the numbers are important yes, but I'm sure that those present are more important than the missing numbers.
They should be honored.
No point crying over spilled milk.
That's to put it as simple as it is.
On the contrary, the people whom are present should never be discriminated.
Yes, they may not be like you or me,
they may not have the same history and background, but they're as they are!
Maybe I've grown to accept this with my history of connect group members.
Ranging from the secondary school boys, the non-english-speaking hostelites and even till now, those whom have fallen background.
I'm somehow a magnet to these people.
Its strange, even dangerous at times, but I'm glad that they come.
That aside, I'm rather burnt. Very burnt in fact.
The color after the recovery process should be quite pleasing though.
I've always wondered, and I'm sure I've said this before,
what would life be like if Lionel wasn't a sportsmen.
Would I have done this good and well would I have been fit and not fat?
I honestly don't know. But yes, I rather stay on the safe side.
I can't stop exercising, I doubt I ever will as well.
Total opposite from my brother I suppose.
The future is still a mystery.
Life is still unstable.
But thats where the fun kicks in aye??
I'm quite surprised by the viewership of this blog. In fact, I expected many not to know of its existence. But well, it was quite on the contrary.
So I've been very active recently. Or rather, I'm glad that things are coming around for the better.
The group from 5 is slowly growing. Which is quite amazing.
People are being used in ways which I can't begin to explain.
Yes, times may be tough and some believe that the reason for committing may differ from the norm. However, I've never succumbed to the simple stereotype of how a 'christian' should be.
One passage which has really impacted me was the simple idea of Jesus eating with the tax collectors. It may seem quite strange and profound but it was as simple as that.
Jesus didn't care who you were or where you were from.
He cared that you were here.
Many a times, people always grumble or complain that there're too little people for a party, an outreach or whatever event there is.
I mean, whats planned is planned. If the turnout ain't good...
What do we normally react with??
I'm sure as a person of authority, the initial reaction is FLIP!
Why're there so LITTLE??
But I've come to realise that really, the numbers are important yes, but I'm sure that those present are more important than the missing numbers.
They should be honored.
No point crying over spilled milk.
That's to put it as simple as it is.
On the contrary, the people whom are present should never be discriminated.
Yes, they may not be like you or me,
they may not have the same history and background, but they're as they are!
Maybe I've grown to accept this with my history of connect group members.
Ranging from the secondary school boys, the non-english-speaking hostelites and even till now, those whom have fallen background.
I'm somehow a magnet to these people.
Its strange, even dangerous at times, but I'm glad that they come.
That aside, I'm rather burnt. Very burnt in fact.
The color after the recovery process should be quite pleasing though.
I've always wondered, and I'm sure I've said this before,
what would life be like if Lionel wasn't a sportsmen.
Would I have done this good and well would I have been fit and not fat?
I honestly don't know. But yes, I rather stay on the safe side.
I can't stop exercising, I doubt I ever will as well.
Total opposite from my brother I suppose.
The future is still a mystery.
Life is still unstable.
But thats where the fun kicks in aye??
Friday, September 25, 2009
dreams that i dream
Listening to : Hey Soul Sister - Train
I've spent my day strangely fruitfully.
I didn't do what I intended to. But its still good. I'm easily satisfied.
Give me food some company and entertainment. I'll be quite happy for the day.
Though I may demand more at times. But I'm ok with any form of shortages.
I'm easily satisfied.
So I am......
I've spent my day strangely fruitfully.
I didn't do what I intended to. But its still good. I'm easily satisfied.
Give me food some company and entertainment. I'll be quite happy for the day.
Though I may demand more at times. But I'm ok with any form of shortages.
I'm easily satisfied.
So I am......
Thursday, September 24, 2009
Don't be afraid of your destiny
Listening to : Meant to be
It was with mixed emotions in today's eventful PM. I have to admit it was quite sudden.
A little miscommunication here and there. However, I'm glad i went for it.
I figured that going would really help me and inspire me.
It worked. Sorry if i sound like some infant or so.
But yes, sometimes even people like me need to be reminded of how important it is to be refreshed once in a while.
The PM was quite well, down to Earth. It felt as though I was pulled back into reality and smacked down to Earth. I look HIGH and LOW for so many things to do when everything is really in front.
I didn't need to look far.
Those people whose shoes i need to fit in are all right here.
Alvan is leaving for Brunei.
It used to be the 3 of us. Mark alvan me when we hung out.
Not saying we're exclusive of any sort.
However, it was quite comforting to know that you've got buddies by your side.
Though through our army years we've all grown and changed.
Alvan is in army and found commitments. Mark has Rachel.
Either way, I'm quite sure that we'll all stick around.
Not forgetting the U-U-USA trip!!
I can't wait for that man. Going there to really unwind with Mark.
Something also came to my mind,
is clubbing really wrong? Is it really?
I mean, you must think I'm one insane idiot to ask such a question.
Lionel's quite a hypocrite eh.... Or something like that.
But I've just realised many people are turning to it.
Guess its a phase of life. Can't say I'm totally over it but the bulk is over i guess.
Leading the high life and all.
To me, its all good, no matter what they say, its good as long as you maintain control with moderation. Yup.
Don't have much things to reflect about today. So keeping it short. Need more inspiration to blooogggggg
It was with mixed emotions in today's eventful PM. I have to admit it was quite sudden.
A little miscommunication here and there. However, I'm glad i went for it.
I figured that going would really help me and inspire me.
It worked. Sorry if i sound like some infant or so.
But yes, sometimes even people like me need to be reminded of how important it is to be refreshed once in a while.
The PM was quite well, down to Earth. It felt as though I was pulled back into reality and smacked down to Earth. I look HIGH and LOW for so many things to do when everything is really in front.
I didn't need to look far.
Those people whose shoes i need to fit in are all right here.
Alvan is leaving for Brunei.
It used to be the 3 of us. Mark alvan me when we hung out.
Not saying we're exclusive of any sort.
However, it was quite comforting to know that you've got buddies by your side.
Though through our army years we've all grown and changed.
Alvan is in army and found commitments. Mark has Rachel.
Either way, I'm quite sure that we'll all stick around.
Not forgetting the U-U-USA trip!!
I can't wait for that man. Going there to really unwind with Mark.
Something also came to my mind,
is clubbing really wrong? Is it really?
I mean, you must think I'm one insane idiot to ask such a question.
Lionel's quite a hypocrite eh.... Or something like that.
But I've just realised many people are turning to it.
Guess its a phase of life. Can't say I'm totally over it but the bulk is over i guess.
Leading the high life and all.
To me, its all good, no matter what they say, its good as long as you maintain control with moderation. Yup.
Don't have much things to reflect about today. So keeping it short. Need more inspiration to blooogggggg
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
I hope.........
Listening to : Starstrukk - 3OH!3
Trying to map out my life and where its actually headed to.
There're a thousand and one questions floating around in my head as to where, what, how, why should i do in life. Some of them can be answered real easily, some can't....
Believe it or not, I'm actually gonna ORD soon.
I've done a little reflection and I have to admit.
My NS life hasn't been the most glorifying and happening amongst the others.I do thank god for sure for the easy life that God has blessed me with.
In fact, only recently, my dad asked me whether I was stress at work.
Then it hit me, I haven't really been 'stressed' before. Everything I did or wanted to do was in control.
Even the toughest time of the dreadful A levels were easily overcome with strong planning done on me and my friends part.
I wonder how life would be when bad things do happen to me...
Yes there have been instances where life has been quite rough but never STRESSFUL.
I guess I have to wait for ORD and for me to start working.
Which then made me realise how unprepared I am for the coming future.
Whether I'm able to overcome them all when things really do come crashing down.
Will I really be able to survive the tough waves???
I would like to think that I have changed dramatically the past few months I stopped blogging.
I do apologize for the adrupt and sudden breaks from blogging. However, I do think its necessary for me to keep this Blog going. Its when I really want to pen my thoughts down which is when I blog.
Back to the topic.... I really would love to imagine that I have changed. However, I believe it is on the contrary. I have either not changed or really simply stagnated.
Perhaps it is just me. Perhaps I'm just imagining things.
But I'm shocked and pleased that I have yet to give up living life. I'm thankful God hasn't given up. I'm thankful my closest friends haven't given up on me. I'm thankful shiming never will.
The past few months can be pretty much described as really a hilly road with many many speed limiting strips.
Its been rather rocky and very uncertain.
There are days, weeks and even months where I really feel drained out, feeling that what I do can hardly make a difference in the world and the lives of loved ones.
Concurrently, there're times where I feel that I have the entire world at my doorsteps. I feel that I have so much to discover, so much to do, so many to impact.
However, the rubbish thing is that though both happens, both equals out. I don't feel like I'm moving both back and forward.
Maybe I should try to cry out for a breakthrough....
I have tried many times in fact, however, many a times to no avail.
I know that there's a time and place for everything and I really choose to believe that.
But it'll be great if that time is now. I know what MANY will say, i determine my own destiny.
Yes i know, be my own hero. I've always been inspired by such words.
How I wish I could live like that.... How easy it would be to continue this sentence with "How I wish I could live like that once again". I never believed in going back into the past. I never will.
So what should I do? Keep on keeping on? Keep fighting the good fight of Faith?
Of course I will. I'll do all it takes to move forward. Though I may be heading down at times, I never doubted the fact that I'll always bounce back up. Thats what keeps me going on.
I do hope that in this time, I'm being used in greater ways than I have ever imagined.
I hope that 40 by dec, 8 by dec can come to past.
I hope that I'm able to inspire others into changing.
I hope that I'm able to run like never before and determine my future and not the other way around.
I hope that the loved ones around me know that they're my loved ones.
I hope that if you're reading this, you know that you're likely my loved one....
NG SHIMING, I hope that when you see this, you'll know that I run for you. :)
Trying to map out my life and where its actually headed to.
There're a thousand and one questions floating around in my head as to where, what, how, why should i do in life. Some of them can be answered real easily, some can't....
Believe it or not, I'm actually gonna ORD soon.
I've done a little reflection and I have to admit.
My NS life hasn't been the most glorifying and happening amongst the others.I do thank god for sure for the easy life that God has blessed me with.
In fact, only recently, my dad asked me whether I was stress at work.
Then it hit me, I haven't really been 'stressed' before. Everything I did or wanted to do was in control.
Even the toughest time of the dreadful A levels were easily overcome with strong planning done on me and my friends part.
I wonder how life would be when bad things do happen to me...
Yes there have been instances where life has been quite rough but never STRESSFUL.
I guess I have to wait for ORD and for me to start working.
Which then made me realise how unprepared I am for the coming future.
Whether I'm able to overcome them all when things really do come crashing down.
Will I really be able to survive the tough waves???
I would like to think that I have changed dramatically the past few months I stopped blogging.
I do apologize for the adrupt and sudden breaks from blogging. However, I do think its necessary for me to keep this Blog going. Its when I really want to pen my thoughts down which is when I blog.
Back to the topic.... I really would love to imagine that I have changed. However, I believe it is on the contrary. I have either not changed or really simply stagnated.
Perhaps it is just me. Perhaps I'm just imagining things.
But I'm shocked and pleased that I have yet to give up living life. I'm thankful God hasn't given up. I'm thankful my closest friends haven't given up on me. I'm thankful shiming never will.
The past few months can be pretty much described as really a hilly road with many many speed limiting strips.
Its been rather rocky and very uncertain.
There are days, weeks and even months where I really feel drained out, feeling that what I do can hardly make a difference in the world and the lives of loved ones.
Concurrently, there're times where I feel that I have the entire world at my doorsteps. I feel that I have so much to discover, so much to do, so many to impact.
However, the rubbish thing is that though both happens, both equals out. I don't feel like I'm moving both back and forward.
Maybe I should try to cry out for a breakthrough....
I have tried many times in fact, however, many a times to no avail.
I know that there's a time and place for everything and I really choose to believe that.
But it'll be great if that time is now. I know what MANY will say, i determine my own destiny.
Yes i know, be my own hero. I've always been inspired by such words.
How I wish I could live like that.... How easy it would be to continue this sentence with "How I wish I could live like that once again". I never believed in going back into the past. I never will.
So what should I do? Keep on keeping on? Keep fighting the good fight of Faith?
Of course I will. I'll do all it takes to move forward. Though I may be heading down at times, I never doubted the fact that I'll always bounce back up. Thats what keeps me going on.
I do hope that in this time, I'm being used in greater ways than I have ever imagined.
I hope that 40 by dec, 8 by dec can come to past.
I hope that I'm able to inspire others into changing.
I hope that I'm able to run like never before and determine my future and not the other way around.
I hope that the loved ones around me know that they're my loved ones.
I hope that if you're reading this, you know that you're likely my loved one....
NG SHIMING, I hope that when you see this, you'll know that I run for you. :)
Sunday, August 09, 2009
Believe for a vision
Listening to : Never say never - The Fray
Something is really wrong with my blogger. I can't seem to change the fonts / colour and basically everything. Which is really irritating. So if this post doesn't come out the way its supposed to be. Please don't blame me.
So it's been a while. I can't say MUCH has changed for me. However, I have to say some things in life has seemed to stable down. Some things got more important. Some things just seemed to fade.
I'm not too proud of some of the things I've done or not done.
I also can't say that I've lived out an extremely purposeful life the past 2 months or so.
Well, what I'm sure of is that I wouldn't want to change a single thing that has happened.
Be it good or bad, I'm quite happy with the way things are.
Yeah sure I could've been a better guy if things were different.
You'll never know. But the great thing is that at least I can sleep happily.
Now ain't the best time of my life. But I'm quite happy and glad to give thanks.
Hopefully I'm able to arise from this stronger and tougher.
However, I'm still as headstrong as ever. I wanna do the things that I WANNA do. I can't be bothered what others think or care.
Just believing for a stronger future.
Now believing ain't enough, action needs to be done. So things to do......
1) RUN
2) Pray
3) SLEEP
4) Love.
It is as simple as it gets. If i just do these 4 things. I'm quite sure most of the issues in my life would be erradicated.
Life was never a bed of roses. In fact, it was more of the contrary. I can't seem to find out why. Bad things happen to good people. But still like what I said earlier. I FORCE myself to give thanks.
The top 2 words in my life now is not to worry and to give thanks.
What can I give thanks for??
Well, for one, in front of my run down computer, there's a collage of pictures covering the window. Of which are many many friends. Some of which I haven't seen in a while. Some of which I still keep close contact with.
However, I'm quite sure I can still count on EVERY single one of them to give me a hand when the need really arises.
Thats what I can be thankful about.
Something is really wrong with my blogger. I can't seem to change the fonts / colour and basically everything. Which is really irritating. So if this post doesn't come out the way its supposed to be. Please don't blame me.
So it's been a while. I can't say MUCH has changed for me. However, I have to say some things in life has seemed to stable down. Some things got more important. Some things just seemed to fade.
I'm not too proud of some of the things I've done or not done.
I also can't say that I've lived out an extremely purposeful life the past 2 months or so.
Well, what I'm sure of is that I wouldn't want to change a single thing that has happened.
Be it good or bad, I'm quite happy with the way things are.
Yeah sure I could've been a better guy if things were different.
You'll never know. But the great thing is that at least I can sleep happily.
Now ain't the best time of my life. But I'm quite happy and glad to give thanks.
Hopefully I'm able to arise from this stronger and tougher.
However, I'm still as headstrong as ever. I wanna do the things that I WANNA do. I can't be bothered what others think or care.
Just believing for a stronger future.
Now believing ain't enough, action needs to be done. So things to do......
1) RUN
2) Pray
3) SLEEP
4) Love.
It is as simple as it gets. If i just do these 4 things. I'm quite sure most of the issues in my life would be erradicated.
Life was never a bed of roses. In fact, it was more of the contrary. I can't seem to find out why. Bad things happen to good people. But still like what I said earlier. I FORCE myself to give thanks.
The top 2 words in my life now is not to worry and to give thanks.
What can I give thanks for??
Well, for one, in front of my run down computer, there's a collage of pictures covering the window. Of which are many many friends. Some of which I haven't seen in a while. Some of which I still keep close contact with.
However, I'm quite sure I can still count on EVERY single one of them to give me a hand when the need really arises.
Thats what I can be thankful about.
Thursday, July 23, 2009
Friday, June 26, 2009
MJ
Listening to : Black or White - Michael Jackson
The King of Pop is dead.
I never really listened to his songs, but I do know he was really amazing.
He went through alot and well, he died.
Too bad man.
However, his music lives on!!!!
Thousand and one artists are trying to duplicate what he's done.
Quite a tall feat but yeah, I can say I lived to at least watch him.
The King of Pop is dead.
I never really listened to his songs, but I do know he was really amazing.
He went through alot and well, he died.
Too bad man.
However, his music lives on!!!!
Thousand and one artists are trying to duplicate what he's done.
Quite a tall feat but yeah, I can say I lived to at least watch him.
Thursday, June 18, 2009
Moving on
Listening to : No Boundaries - Adam Lambert
So it seems things have finally been settling down.
Its getting back to the usual cycles of work and church.
Not that I'm complaining or anything. I'm actually quite satisfied by this organisation.
How bad can it get?
Anyway, I figured that the times we spend trying to make something happen can actually be used to do something more useful.
There's just more to this life.
I know it...
It isn't like my time is coming or anything.
But there is something more meaningful rather than just chasing after money, a good life etc.
More to that in life i guess.
I'm still in the midst of searching for that one thing.
That doesn't mean I ain't going to stop having fun though. WOOHOO!!!
RWC is coming up this Sunday. I'm quite happy its coming.
Next Monday the new 2LTs come in.
That only means, 4 months to ORD.
Think i'm going to stop blogging for a while. Can't find much time to do so nowadays.
Till whenever!!!
So it seems things have finally been settling down.
Its getting back to the usual cycles of work and church.
Not that I'm complaining or anything. I'm actually quite satisfied by this organisation.
How bad can it get?
Anyway, I figured that the times we spend trying to make something happen can actually be used to do something more useful.
There's just more to this life.
I know it...
It isn't like my time is coming or anything.
But there is something more meaningful rather than just chasing after money, a good life etc.
More to that in life i guess.
I'm still in the midst of searching for that one thing.
That doesn't mean I ain't going to stop having fun though. WOOHOO!!!
RWC is coming up this Sunday. I'm quite happy its coming.
Next Monday the new 2LTs come in.
That only means, 4 months to ORD.
Think i'm going to stop blogging for a while. Can't find much time to do so nowadays.
Till whenever!!!
Saturday, June 13, 2009
Escaped
Listening to : The Escapist - Coldplay
In all that I've done, in all that i've felt guilty and not worthy for it.
It seems I have been wrong all this while, it has always been on the contrary.
I am worth it.
It takes one step to realise it. It takes one encounter to understand it.
That was LOUD! camp.
I cannot begin to describe the activities that we had.
All of them were amazing and were extremely fun.
I'm sure many others would be blogging about their experiences in camp and what they did.
I wanna talk about how i felt.
From the start of day 1, it was already a moment of pressure.
I was uncertain, tired, afriad.
Afraid that I would lag behind and not be able to perform the role as a team leader to the best i could. It was a realy scare for me actually.
Entering the school, driving in (Yes, I passed!!), it was really hitting me quite hard.
I wanted it to end fast, to end quick.
I can only thank god that I had 2 pillars whom really made me feel otherwise when it started.
Derrick and Yiling. Many say that without leaders, we cannot function.
I needed them, they were there, Leaders cannot function without the assistance of their wingers.
Its really true. And cause of that, I was at peace and went all out for it.
The games, the cheering, I took on the role as a help to my dearest.
To lead the house when they needed it. I'm sure DAMIKA was awesome.
The first night session was a good experience but my fleshly body took over as i dozed off.
The second day started with a high already. With a sense of explosiveness taking over.
It was like never before, I was really excited for it. I wanted to see miracles.
I was not disappointed. DAMA was together, more than I had expected.
I was pleased, glad, not exactly proud of myself but rather proud of them.
They stepped out to make it feel at home and comfortable for the newer ones.
Though their reactions were not similar to that in the house, still, I was contented.
Then came the highlight for me. The second night session.
I was desperate. I wanted a solid, strong, breakthrough.
I really wanted to escape from this tough cycle and be back on.
It wasn't easy, it isn't easy to define and line out as well, however, I knew wherever I was going wasn't really in the right direction.
On that fateful night, I got what I asked for, an encounter in which I have never experienced before. One so strong, so intense I was forced to the ground, unable to rise.
It was real, it is too late to deny God now, it really is, I have experienced.
Surprisingly, it didn't bring me back to me old days or make me think about it.
What I felt was new wineskin, new touch, new start.
The third and final day was all high for me.
It was a point where I could not turn back.
From the start till the end, there was a total change within.
I began to press in to their lives, finding out what's wrong.
What's their life about. I did, I can say I brought something back.
It wasn't all shouting and screaming. Yes it was.
But it was about getting LOUD. It was about becoming LOUD.
It was about realising that I'm more than worthy for it all.
In all that I've done, in all that i've felt guilty and not worthy for it.
It seems I have been wrong all this while, it has always been on the contrary.
I am worth it.
It takes one step to realise it. It takes one encounter to understand it.
That was LOUD! camp.
I cannot begin to describe the activities that we had.
All of them were amazing and were extremely fun.
I'm sure many others would be blogging about their experiences in camp and what they did.
I wanna talk about how i felt.
From the start of day 1, it was already a moment of pressure.
I was uncertain, tired, afriad.
Afraid that I would lag behind and not be able to perform the role as a team leader to the best i could. It was a realy scare for me actually.
Entering the school, driving in (Yes, I passed!!), it was really hitting me quite hard.
I wanted it to end fast, to end quick.
I can only thank god that I had 2 pillars whom really made me feel otherwise when it started.
Derrick and Yiling. Many say that without leaders, we cannot function.
I needed them, they were there, Leaders cannot function without the assistance of their wingers.
Its really true. And cause of that, I was at peace and went all out for it.
The games, the cheering, I took on the role as a help to my dearest.
To lead the house when they needed it. I'm sure DAMIKA was awesome.
The first night session was a good experience but my fleshly body took over as i dozed off.
The second day started with a high already. With a sense of explosiveness taking over.
It was like never before, I was really excited for it. I wanted to see miracles.
I was not disappointed. DAMA was together, more than I had expected.
I was pleased, glad, not exactly proud of myself but rather proud of them.
They stepped out to make it feel at home and comfortable for the newer ones.
Though their reactions were not similar to that in the house, still, I was contented.
Then came the highlight for me. The second night session.
I was desperate. I wanted a solid, strong, breakthrough.
I really wanted to escape from this tough cycle and be back on.
It wasn't easy, it isn't easy to define and line out as well, however, I knew wherever I was going wasn't really in the right direction.
On that fateful night, I got what I asked for, an encounter in which I have never experienced before. One so strong, so intense I was forced to the ground, unable to rise.
It was real, it is too late to deny God now, it really is, I have experienced.
Surprisingly, it didn't bring me back to me old days or make me think about it.
What I felt was new wineskin, new touch, new start.
The third and final day was all high for me.
It was a point where I could not turn back.
From the start till the end, there was a total change within.
I began to press in to their lives, finding out what's wrong.
What's their life about. I did, I can say I brought something back.
It wasn't all shouting and screaming. Yes it was.
But it was about getting LOUD. It was about becoming LOUD.
It was about realising that I'm more than worthy for it all.
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