Flight in motion

Listening to : Gravity - Pixie Lot

Yeah, life really sucks when you ain't out there doing something which matters.

When you feel like you're bed-ridden and really can't move about. AHHHH!!!

I may seem like a typical no brainer who just needs to exercise.

But yes, I just need to do so.

With my legs giving way so easily, I don't know what to expect anymore.

If you though that it's a small deal, no it ain't.

It's like telling a singer that she has lost the ability to sing.

It means the same to me.

You take my legs away, you take my flight away.

I desperately want it back.

But it's strange. Though it does hurt, though it does seem impossible.

I don't want to ever give in to the pain.

No, it ain't going to hold me down!!

Come back to the true self

Listening to : Could you be the one - Stereophonics

I have come to realization that what we do is mostly driven by what we think.

DUH.

However, I've also come to find out a simple simple truth,

That sometimes, just maybe, just possibly.

Humans aren't all wise and all knowing. That our thinking may just be flawed.

That whatever we may be thinking of doing may not be the best for us in our current state and mind. maybe it isn't so just yet.

But maybe, what we should be doing is following the orders of a higher being.

Of something not called a brain, but a heart.

I'm going to come very explicit here.

I've really been experiencing a feeling of detachment.

A period of leaving and being thrown into empty space.

Maybe breaking away from the things which I know are holding me back all this while.

The attitudes of "always NO" are finally fading away.

Yeah it hurts, it really does, especially when what I'm leaving is so so close to my heart.

I've given more than my heart to them. But really, maybe what I'm supposed to do is proper.

What I'm supposed to do may not be the easiest thing ever.

I have always been justifying my own actions and telling myself that it's right.

That being with them makes me feel free, makes me feel like myself.

But then again, who am I, really?

A split personality for too long. It's time to choose one and choose wisely.

I've dedicated so much to both worlds. But in due time, I know that things will become clear.

Especially now, when it's coming.

And I know it, cause when the time comes, I'll have to be willing to sacrifice.

Regardless of stature, comments and criticism.

It'll be painful, but I have to endure it.

I just hope that at the end of the day, they'll be true buddies to understand.

Maybe not them, but really just one. Just one among all.

palms

Listening to : Dakota - Stereophonics

So the time is right I suppose.

For me to emerge from the depths of straying away for too long.

Thrown into leadership when I wasn't prepared.

Embracing the tough challenges ahead in life for the next couple of months.

I wonder how things will turn out in a few weeks.

Hasn't been the smoothest of weeks considering I've had some difficulties.

However, things have always turned out for the better.

Miracles and wonders have already started to happen. Not in the realm of physical of course.

But in the hearts and the spirits of so many people that I've come across.

That means a whole lot more to me than physical healing or magic moments.

I'm glad with what I have. I'm happy with the situations that I'm constantly in.

The doors are opening more than ever before.

But I just need to be sure to enter the right door at the right time.

I wouldn't wanna jump the gun on this.

Won't wanna run too fast and too hard for my own pace and end up burning up.

I just wanna remain focused on the current goals in front of me now.

Yeah, the priority is definitely the spiritual side for sure.

Sometimes I do get distracted.

However, at an occasion and time like this.

I'm very very sure that whatever distractions come my way.

I'm able to fan it away relatively easily. It's fabulous how things are placed in such a way.

Whereby the temptations push me but like what things say.

Never beyond what I can handle.

But i really do want more. I want this time to be the best there is.

To be able to do the best that I can. Not only in terms of my spirit.

But in my soul, in my body. I wanna maximize myself.

I wanna love so much more.

Yeah, Living daily by the words of the Spirit seem like the best thing to do now.

2 hit combo

Listening to : Don't stop believing - Glee

Yes, I get spoken to in the strangest areas and situations.

I get revelations in a combo most of the time.

On the road, in the shower, scrolling down music.

Cause while soaping up, I know that if I don't see his hand, I trust his heart.

And yes, Glee tells me Don't stop believing.

I can see that God is at work now. Lifting me up bit by bit.

It's a small step, but a big one in my Faith.

Cause I know that yes, I ain't alone, That some have yet to give up on me.

Let's see what I dream of tonight.

The theology

Listening to : I caught myself - Paramore

Draw closer to me. No don't pull back cause you'll never know what may happen.

I'm now at a juncture in which I hardly can understand.

What am I supposed to feel?

How am I supposed to react to this?

Should I take it with excitement? I suppose so. But then again, I realize that it's forced out.

It's not the most natural feelings I have. Very strangely.

But then it gets interesting when you realize that you're now in a position of no choices.

We have no option whatsoever. Giving ourselves no time to adapt.

Hmmm, Life can be a chore, but it's when we actually do enjoy the chore.

I always have that choice. I always have an option even in a dead end situation.

Whether to push forward or whether to just give up and throw in the towel.

No, I haven't been the strongest fighter in the ring.

Haven't been able to conquer them demons within.

Yeah, I can boast about how I fight in many areas. When I can take the pain.

Cause that I know I can. Give it to me, cause I'm the tank.

But when it comes to fighting the feelings out, I just can't.

It has to originate from within.

When I now know that the outcome is on me.

It always has. I have a choice in this. Whether I want to enter the fighting ring.

Whether I'll run away like a chicken or stand firm in my beliefs and rough it out till the day breaks.

When the violators come and attack, You stand firm.

But no, that's not it. You get to call your fights. You choose whether you win or lose.

I admit, I have been losing recently.

Very easily, I throw in the towel. Giving it up cause I have to guts to trust in myself.

Then I realized on the drive home. It's a time like this when I can say.

If I can't change myself, How am I supposed to change those looking up to me, How can I possibly change the World.

How do I inspire those fighting this same fight to not give up when I'm on the verge of it as well.

Moving it by examples should be the key to this success.

I want to be that role.

I want to cause myself to change for others.

Yeah, I know I have to render change in this attitude of mine.

Possibly effect from now. And yes, I refuse to give in.

But no, I can't do it alone. I really can't. I need everyones help in this.

The brothers by my right and companions by my left.

I've been carried by them for so long. I will not lose Faith now.

Not when the miracles are coming.

SOT will be the best time of my life.

It will be the time where I can proudly say that I've done all I can.

When the towel is used not to throw it in to signal surrender.

No, not this fight.

The towel will be used to wipe the perspiration which drips from my brows when it gets rough.

The towel will be used to remove the tears falling from the sockets when the pain gets too hard to bear, when the sacrifices mean too much

The towel will be used to clean the blood of the sword of the spirit when I slay them demons.

The towel will definitely be used to absorb the oil and giving me that fresh aroma again.

Lastly, It will be used to tend to the wounds I receive from the battle. Cause there will be scars.

I believe it, So please, Believe with me.

I need you of all people, Shiming.

There goes my Hero

Listening to : My Hero - Paramore

I was approached by a friend yesterday, not in person of course, but online.

He popped this very surprising statement which made me think.

He said that he wasn't a great friend. That he had so many problems and that he wasn't paying no attention to mine at all.

The next thought was very obvious for me, he didn't need to do so cause I really didn't have any.

I'm too carefree, too relaxed to do anything.

No he isn't paranoid. Then I realized...

I guess maybe I do have some issues I never bothered to deal with.

I have had many problems which I just chucked aside for the time being.

Not forgetting those which have to bring in others.

Yeah, I've always said that I'm easily contented, happy with the simplicities of life.

But I've never really pondered and wondered, maybe that's whats wrong with me.

I don't want things hard enough, I don't think hard enough.

I met Celine yesterday, and she gave a very interesting comment after knowing me for a while.

She said that I don't think of the problems in life. I just look at the bright side all the time.

At times I wish that it wasn't the case.

Sometimes I wish that I was able to appreciate the sore things.

Cause that's when I actually do start seeing the things which matter.

When I start thinking if things will work out, maybe that's when I actually deal with them.

The fact that I'm thinking of it this way must mean that I'm actually acting on it now.

I have to be that change in the World. I have to be the miracle.

I keep saying that all the time, but before I do something, I gotta realize the things which need change, which need help in. Yes, I do need some pin pointing.

Tell me I'm a hopeless friend, I'm a bad lover, I can't run, I ain't cut out for this job.

Cause I need to know, badly.

Explain to me this conspiracy against me.

How can I be a fighter if there's really nothing to fight at all.

I'll be very blatant at this, sometimes I feel so forced to do certain things.

I feel so hopeless and lifeless to be actually committed to something worth committing to.

Perhaps I just have to start looking around for my purpose again.

Cause I don't want to be forced into one like a dog.

Yes, before SOT i need some help.

No I will not detach myself again, cause there's too much at stake.

Gimmmme

Listening to : Say it again - Marie Digby

I never know that it was really such a pleasure to blog while on the go.
I mean, who would think of such a wonderul idea and put it on the iPhone?
Anyway, the good thing is that life is rather stabilizing. Finding and searching.
But I wonder at times why does the format seem to revert back to the days of old.
Profound thoughts linger at times, but sometimes an easy mind simplifies.
I do want to know the reason and the answer for it.

no way no way

Listening to : Girlfriend - Avril Lavigne

Yes, Life sucks when you sprain your ankle, have nothing to do and your girlfriend is having exams.

Seriously, life can't suck more.

Ok maybe it can, but oh well.

And to top it off, why does the only thing I'm able to do now seem to be driving.

Sometimes I just wish I didn't have my license....

Ok I take that back.

Either way, Yes, Lionel Choong is joining Man Hunt.

Please do not laugh.

After a talk with the strangest person about this topic, My Mum, I guess I'm joining for the fun of it.

It'll be an experience!

Ok, I have guests over at my place today.

Oh does entertaining seem to be the only thing I can do now!!!

To the wire

Listening to : the only exception - paramore

When it finally came to the decision.
When things finally came down to the wire.
Yeah, god came through.
Surprisingly with an inspiration in which I've never expected.
Because the past 4 years of my life were made for this.
The past 4 years was an inspiration to me.
Those big dumb planes.
And most importantly, the best team i could ask for.
Thanks so much for giving me my story...

You are...

Listening to : World Behind My Wall - Tokio Hotel

Didn't really have much inspiration to blog.

In fact, never really had much mood to do so either.

Not until now that is.

So the feeling of back in Singapore is bitter sweet.

Missing a whole lot of not just the culture but the lifestyle there.

Not caring about so many things.

Being the man I really wanted to be.

To have been free...

There are truly times in my life when I feel like another person.

Someone who loves other things than which I should be focusing on.

Isn't really the lifestyle I'm supposed to live.

Yeah isn't the way I'm supposed to walk.

But I have been thrown into confusion once again. Pondering and pacing.

Back and forth as to why...

It feels so natural to me that I feel unnatural.

Am I following the path which I want to?

Am I supposed to Love the way I'm supposed to?

Or is there no other way....

To go by the book? Or to transcend boundaries.

Maybe we are the only exception to things.

Sorry to disappoint the entire world.

But yeah. At times I believe so.

When the time comes, I'll make sure it's done right.

iPhone

Testingggg

Party in the USA~!

Listening to : Blame it on the Pop - DJ Earworm

If you think that I've been neglecting my blog. No!!

I've just been overseas for the past 2 weeks. On a holiday of course!

Strangely, I didn't exactly find alot of inspiration to blog over there.

I guess cause it was really endless fun after fun!

It was an amazing trip and I'm really happy I went for it.

I really don't have much to say.

Guess I'll let the photos speak for itself on Facebook.

But certain things have to be mentioned.

The sights of USA have really been impressive.

Though it isn't as monumental as many others.

But I guess it means more for the than many others.

Cause it was really a place where amazing stuff happens.

Fame is created, popularity is grown.

The people are so friendly I can't get used to it back here in Singapore.

The environment is so conducive for creativity, for growth.

For liberty. I'm very impressed by the country.

Nah, I won't be living there anytime.

Though it is a rather dangerous country and place to be in.

I really like it!

USA!!!!

The Blind Side

Listening to : You've got the Love - Florence and the Machines

I learn alot from movies.

Morals, spirit, courage, many of those.

In fact, I get certain revelations from it even. Of which many are really interesting.

Very seemingly tough to link what we learn to movies at times.

But I always like to do that. To keep it close to my heart.

So the movie "Blind Side".

Initially I thought it was a film of literally a blind man.

However, it's when I actually watched the show and then I realized what it really means.

It's the hidden spot when the quarter back is open to tackles in football.

Very similarly. it's like the area where you can't see and the most vulnerable to.

When we get smacked from that point, that angle.

It's good game for us.

So in the game, they employ one person to do precisely one thing.

To protect that blind side. He's called the Left Tackle.

You stick your guts out for those who stick theirs for you.

It's very simple.

You give your life to those who give theirs to you.

And you either let them get smack in the back or you smack those whom are going to do so.

So put it in very simple words.

It's all about protecting those you call your own.

When we all say "As One". Is it really so?

Do we really go out to cover each others Blind Side?

I play lotsa sports, so I'm really crazy over such small minor issues.

I can imagine that in the game of ultimate, this Left Tackle is the dump.

How ever way you put it, it's very clear and concise.

This person is vital to the success of the team and the family.

Cause when you don't cover their ass, they won't be covering yours.

In turn, enemy gains ground.

It was inspiring in the movie when The main character played out a scene when he really covered and protected his foster parents and family despite the lack of knowledge regarding their whereabouts.

In fact, he took the unknown step to stand for them.

But before we see that happening, the family took an even bolder unknown step to care and cover his back.

As easy as it is to break the chain of trust. Like how we all say, trust can be easily broken but harder to gain back.

I DISREGARD IT. Sorry, Cause I've realized that it isn't so.

It's when you take a plunge, when you dip yourself into believing into not just an ideal, but a person.

We don't do the many things we do because we have to.

We do it cause we want to.

That to me is what defines our lives.

When we choose out own destiny, our own fate.

So what is it going to be?

One of distrust? Fear? Uncertainty?

Or of Trust, Faith and stepping out of the unknown.

Yeah, I'm sure there'll be disappointments.

But if someone stuck their butt out for me before and pulled me out.

I'm sure that I'll be willing to endure it to continue doing that.

Cause someone saw hope in me.

Gave me their trust, gave me their hope.

So in all of us, we don't just carry the lives of our own but those of that have sown into ours.

Your family, your friends, your loved ones.

Cover their Blind Side.

Cause they covered yours.

53A

Listening to : Hate that I love you - Rihanna

Yes! So the surprise wasn't exactly a a success. But I'm sure everything else went according to plan. The whole party went out without much of a hiccup.

Quite pleased with the turn out which was just nice.

Turning 21 isn't a big thing for me honestly, But I'm sure it is for her.

For those whom shared her life with her.

This is all worth it. I'm sure it's the first time there is a gathering of all her friends.

I'm sure the surprise of 53A was unbelievable as well.

Hey man, who can say that 53A personally came for their birthday??

Anyway, I really appreciate her with everything.

All the effort was worth it for sure.

I love her and this is for everything that she has done not just for me, but for everyone.

Happy birthday Baby. I'm sure you'll go so much further than where you are now.

Now that the party is over. I do have some more breathing space.

But now I finally realized, I'm going to the states in a weeks time. Wow.

I'm quite excited for it.

On the other hand, I'm really going to miss my baby.

I haven't done much reflection the past few days.

Was too busy. So can't talk much about that.

However, one thing which really picked me up was a movie quite a while back.

Invictus.

When one man can and will change the World.

I'm always surprised at how such magic can happen.

It makes me wonder to myself.

What am I really doing with my life right now? Is there any sense in what I'm doing.

Yeah, I don't want to be caught in the rat race. Cause I know that when I do so, I'll be too distracted to really do any good at all.

Probably the only thing which is keeping me from entering that phase is my laziness.

Which isn't very good as well.

Am I really going to change the World? Can I even do it?

It's quite a far fetched ideal if you ask me.

I've heard of people getting married, pastoring a church at the age of 25.

I'm 21 this year going university.

Perhaps I'm already caught in this sad race for money and fame.

Being too fixated in my grades that I don't even consider the better opportunities or rather more called opportunities.

It wasn't as easy getting those grades. Sometimes I think it's more of a curse than a blessing.

Distracting me from the path which I really should be going for.

Everything has it yes and no's. Good and bads.

I just need the courage to choose it. Thats all.

Anyway, that aside. I'm really glad to see Shiming smile.

People all say that my life revolves around her.

Neglecting and not caring about friends and important ones.

Yeah, I apologize for that ever happening. But sorry I won't change a thing.

Cause she's really the reason why I can keep going at times.

Yes, God plays a huge role. Everything I do is really paved for him.

But the motivation may really be her.

The motivation is Love, inspiration is anointing.

Who says UM doesn't teach you spirituality hur.

On a side note, I'm excited. Cause the building is secure.

The plan is concrete, the site is declared.

I want to be a big part in this.

Passion

Listening to : Stick With You - Pussycat Dolls

It's prob the easiest thing to lose I suppose.

But I think it's one of the simplest thing to obtain at times as well.

Passion.

It waivers from time to time.

Occasionally playing tricks on your mind and makes you do the dumbest thing.

Makes you go out of your way for that extra effort.

However, after due time, after losing it, you feel like a retard.

It either makes you wonder why did you ever do the things you did.

Or makes you wonder how you ever accomplished them to begin with.

Tougher question is how are you ever going to continue after losing that passion for it.

I know full well how it feels to put the shovels to the plough.

Where before that, we never felt like it was work at all.

Dragging your feet through every seemingly meaningless act.

Finding the joy in doing things never seemed so difficult.

The biggest adversary at every point becomes the flawless burning first desire.

But is it worth it?

Is it worth it to keep on at something even though you've lost it?

I honestly wonder. How do we love Forever?

Is it really possible? Is it something that we can grasp?

Can we keep on that passion for a someone or a something?

What I do know is that we may lost the passion at times.

But it can be retrieved, it can be restored.

If we keep pressing on it, if we keep believing in it.

I'm sure that passion and love can continue forever if we want it to.

Though it may seem like boring tough work at times, I'm very sure things will work for the best.

If we only but try for one moment.

If we just don't ever give up on ourselves and our friends.

But is it the same for work? Sports? Ministry?

I'm certain there are the low points.

But there is a famous saying which goes like this...

"If life gives you lemons, you can either suck at it or make lemonade."

You can sulk and feel that there's no more motivation, no more passion.

Or you can actually find it back again.

I would like to do that.

Right about now.

Start anew

Listening to : Electric Twist - A Fine Frenzy

Totally amazed and inspired to start anew.

That's what I can say to describe my Korea Trip.

It was so breathtaking I cannot think of any other scenarios I have been this amazed.

This is going to be a relatively long one. From the very start till the end.

It first started with hesitation and true displeasure.

I didn't know what to really expect before leaving for this trip. Whether it will be good or not, whether it will really change my life this time round.

To begin on a very bad note, we got our flight timings mixed up.

By 12 hours or so.

So we rushed and packed our bags in a span of an hour and rushed to the airport.

To think I was playing frisbee a few moments ago while I was on the plane.

Then lift off!! It was a lift off with mixed emotions.

However, what really kept me in the game was the words which Shiming said.

Go with a heart of expectancy.

So yeah I did, I wanted a new vision, I wanted a breakthrough from my life.

First touchdown was at 8am Korean Time.

I can really remember it, slight fear but a whole lot more Faith.

The first sight of Korea was already really breathtaking.

The snow was everywhere, though it was the worst storm in like a 100 years.

It was truly an amazing sight for me. I have never seen snow in my life.

I always wanted to feel it, touch it.

Then we went up the bus, the first experience of Shivering cold. Terrible terrible cold.

We reached the hotel by 12pm. Then came the first snowball to the head by my brother. Then my stomach started to rumble.

Next scare for the trip. WHAT ABOUT FOOD!!!

I have always resented Korean food cause of it's vegetable base.

However, the first meal was the utter best with the best Herbal Ginseng Chicken in town as suggested by a local. My spirit was lifted, I was ready for anything now.

The magical thing about the while trip was that we were rubbing shoulders with various pastors as well as leaders from different churches.

So came dinner, with lots of food, and a picture with Pastor Kong to top it all off. :)

Then was the trip to Myaeng-dong. The firs shopping district.

If you thought that orchard road was cool, you haven't seen nothing yet.

The streets were all paved with snow but nonetheless, it was still streaming with people!

The road-side shops with all them sugary treats were a delight.

However, it was a slight disappointment when we realized it was mainly for the ladies....

We reached back by 1030 and then the hard reality hit us. I have to wake up by 315.

The very first real spiritual encounter.

We rose by 315. Struggled our way through the toilet with only 4 hours of sleep.

Me and my brother were constantly joking around still.

Which was truly a joy to do so. Very Surprisingly so.

So came the time when we reached Yoido Full Gospel Church.

It was a building of magnificence. Truly miraculous.

That was the exterior.

However, when I went inside, I was blown away!

It was 4 in the morning but filled with spirit filled Christians all praying!

The hall was FULL! 8000 people stuffed it! Not even counting the overflow.

I didn't know where to begin, cause the building, the people, all gave me a sense of Faith, Purpose. It made it all seem that the impossible was truly very easy to accomplish, it was possible. The building and people was a testimony of victory!

Then I decided to gave in to Prayer. I started and went all in for it.

But at 430 one of the Pastors came out to pray and with a roar.

The whole hall SHOUTED CHEEYO CHEEYO CHEEYO!!!!

I have no idea what was that! But after that, they all rampaged in prayer!

I was shocked but it was a sight to really behold.

Was it the simple act of the prayer? Or did they really believe in something more?

One thing I was sure of, I really desperately wanted some of that.

Some of that Faith, some of that breakthrough.

Then it all seemed clear. That was the point for the year.

Passion, Purity, Prayer.

It seemed surreal, but it came down to the basics.

The vision and impact of the entire place was not cause of the fancy theatrics.

It was the simple mere basics which got them this far.

Then came the prayer mountain.

First step out was COLD! In fact, coldest I have ever been!

But I could tell, despite the freezing weather and seemingly aimless tour.

It was a place of spiritual saturation.

So I took some time, to pray for 2 things most dear to me.

My love for God. My love for Shiming.

Day 3. Was a struggle to arise from the bed. SO SO tired. But all the more worth it.

It started, once again, with the prayer meeting at 315.

However, what was more amazing was that the hall was filled even quicker than the day before.

What is in these people that makes them SO SO motivated!?!?

The weather is sub-zero but they brave it EVERYDAY just to come and pray.

This time round, I joined in the Cheeyo.

It felt good honestly, but what felt better was I felt a breakthrough coming.

The spiritual moments were utterly indescribable. Even personal to begin with.

However, I know one thing. I have fallen in love with prayer again.

The presence was so real. It wasn't one which made you tear or anything like that.

But it was one which made you KNOW that the prayer was answered.

Then was the MIDWEEK service! Why do they have it?

I have no idea. But still, the HALL WAS FULL TO THE BRIM!

Service had less prayer, alot less in fact. But it seemed very very simple and basic.

No fancy things with rolling lights. But very strong still.

I didn't know why. But I really enjoyed the service. Alot in fact. Maybe cause the presence was there. The spirit of God was there.

The next day was the last morning prayer meeting already.

I was honestly thinking to myself. Have I really gotten what I wanted?

Was I asking for too much. Was I too demanding to want for more?

However, it was simple and easy. It was given to me.

Everything that I prayed for, all the visions that I was all asking for were all answered.

It seemed all so simple. But after what YFGC has done, it can amount to something really magical and miraculous.

The rest of the trip was really great. Shopping and the new night market.

It's insane how the night market OPENS at 8pm all the way till 6 am.

How I wish there was something like that in Singapore and all.

So it was a real fun time.

All in all, what can I say about this trip?

I have gotten a whole lot more than what I initially bargained for.

I just wanted a vision, I was given a whole lot more. I was given my spirit back.

I felt so inspired and so motivated to do more.

I will do more, for the sake of the people.

It isn't about the numbers, it's really about the Glory of God himself.

I can do so much, but when it all boils down, it's about prayer.

It's about talking to God, speaking to him face to face daily.

Not just to ramble on and on about what you want, but to really really know him.

Also, I may not have expressed it really well.

But this trip was a great time for me and my brother.

As a support, as a great friend, he was really there.

I would say I have had a change of heart.

if the trip was all a waste, at least I can say that I've gotten closer to him.

It felt great when practically everyone asked if we were brothers.

I really enjoyed this trip with him.

If it wasn't for him, my year would be in possible shambles.

If you have yet to go to Korea? Please go, it is a trip of a lifetime!

CHEE YO!!!!

Next Chapter

Listening to : Built to Last - Melee

The time has finally come.

It's finally 2010! A new decade, a new beginning!

Believe it or not, 2009 is already over, it was literally so yesterday.

It ended with a real blast and I have to admit that I wouldn't want to have it any other way.

Every time I do think back of 2009. I'm really glad.

I'm really happy.

Before I go on to the hopes and resolutions for the new year...

I really wanna look back at the year of 2009. Few significant things have happened.

Of which, I really want to share.

Just to sprout out a few...

LOUD Camp, 3 years anniversary, PLAB Squadron, Frisbee.

I'm just really happy that they all have happened.

However, I will not forget the most important few issues.

That is, to really thank those whom have made a great deal of impact in my life.

I'm not used to doing this...

But I guess I should really give thanks for those around me.

In no order of Merit.

Life has been hard this year, I can and never will understand, but I am willing to standby you. No matter how I feel at a certain point, though I really can't understand you sometimes, I will always Love you, my Brother, Wayne.

I took quite a fair bit of effort to get you in, but looking at where you are now today really brings me smiles. I just hope that you'll be as strong as ever. You're so much of an inspiration to me. Kim Yip

The many days and not forgetting early mornings spent under the sun hucking to each other while it's just the both of us. You fulfill the passion in me, Erwin, Ronald

Just when I thought that NS was really bad and boring, you 2 came in to brighten up my days in talkdown as well as office. Kelvin and Wei Lun

Though really crude, but always teaching me the ways to conduct myself as an officer but also as an individual, for the knowledge that all of you have imparted to me. F4, Adrian.

You gave me an opportunity that anyone will dream of. Giving me a second chance at this, I will totally not regret my decision to do so. Jeff and Baoling.

You were the buddy I always wanted. Too bad you came in slightly late. But you continue to be that laughter and monopoly buddy to me. I really enjoy it. Loving you deep deep. Yi Xiang.

I will never know what runs through your mind. But I'm always inspired by the ever lasting conflict between spirit and soul. Of which, you come out victorious always, Jian Hao.

Cause being born in 1989 will never be as fun without you guys, and for believing that I can really accomplish some of the most ridiculous things in my life, Wei Lin, Justine, Yu Lin.

Though the contact is much less and very short, I'm always glad to be surprised by your constant calls to whine and gifts you give, Tan Sijia.

Though you can be very very retarded, you always come through when it needs to be serious, and always there for me though I always ain't, Alvan, David.

Your resolve to be with us has never been so evident. Cause you always remind me what it means for real fellowship to happen. For the smallest tasks comes at sacrifice, Bing Liang, Thinh.

No, you are never forgotten. Cause both of you will be a huge part in my life. Cause we shared a great deal of pain together, that forges something I will never forget. Feline and XY.

The troubles and secrets shared will never be told, for making my suppers all the more exclusive and lifting me up, making me feel needed. Sean and Yong Chao.

You are a brother to me and always will be. Forget about all that has happened and ignoring the outcome, I'm glad that I've been with you this year, I can thank God for that. Derrick.

My Wingman, The anchor for many things in my life. I couldn't make it through this year without you, seriously. When things went rough, you really roughed it up with me. Thank you so so much, Mark.

You guys were the family in which one could only dream of. When things went rough, we would all hustle it out together. When I had my burdens, many would come to my distress. But not just tough times, when I rejoiced, everyone else did. Thanks for a great year E406.

My best friend, my advisor, my baby, my Supergirl. If I could only have one person in my life, it would be you. You've seen me through everything in my life this year. Hasn't been the easiest of years for us, but I'm really glad that we came out stronger from it. This is real to me, and this is definitely good. You believe in me when nobody else did, you trusted me when nobody dared to. Cause when no one though I could do the impossible, you told me to make it happen. Cause I love you from the bottom of my heart, thanks for a 2009. Shiming.

Lastly, the greatest of all, Thank you Jesus for everything that has happened in 2009. I'm so happy that it has all happened. I wouldn't have had it any other way. You've made my dreams come through, given me new dreams, allowed me to do what I cannot do. Given me hope and Faith when I had none. Told me to let go when I was holding back. For answering so many of my prayers. For helping me grow this year. For loving me. Thank you so much, so so much God.

2009 was phenomenal. I don't know how 2010 will be better, but I know it will. Cause whatever it is, we're all built to last.