Thursday, August 29, 2013

CROSS-fit #132 Big Hearted

Studies have shown that very often, our brains circuitry runs faster than we can feel.
In other words.
Our minds are racing so much, in the heat of the moment, we think of a thousand and one things
It happens all the time...
Not just to Crossfitters, I'm sure.

Before any big exam, big race, competition or even proposal.
Everyone over thinks everything.
They run the whole procedure in their mind.
They visualize and run through the entire sequence like a thousand times
It's a perfectly GOOD thing to visualize, it's encouraged and advocated by the experts on successful thinking.
But it's one thing to visualize in confidence and another to do so in anxiety.
Doing so in anxiety just messes you up, you think of the many possibilities.
The possible hits, how you're going to celebrate. You think of the possible misses, how you may fail.

Now I'm gonna push it a little further.
There're those whom, in the process of over thinking, over confess.
I'm not going to be the scriptural specialist here and have to admit that this might be wrong to many.
But it worked for me....
Over confessing God's promises in a feat of fear and anxiety.
Yes, confessing will help, it brings confidence to you.
But if you're doing so all outta 'the fear of failing' then something is wrong ain't it?
It's like how people make that heartless desperate prayer all for the sake of salvation from whatever shithole they're in but can't be bothered to pray any other time.

It's one thing to think of these things, it's another to hold them in our heart.
Last Monday, I failed a big lift, I was so psyched about it, I knew I could get it up and do it.
I prayed desperately moments before the lift.
'God this is my calling, this is my CALLING, SO I GOTTA MAKE IT!"
I thought to myself, this is going to be it, This Is Going To Be It, THIS IS GOING TO BE IT!!!
But I failed...
Coming away from the bar, an unlikely friend saw me and told me in his own words...
"You know you can do it, you know you can.
But your heart, your heart must be F**king big."
I guess it meant something to him but it meant a totally different thing.

We all know our promises, we all know our victories promised to us.
We know the word.
We know the confessions.
But if our heart isn't big enough to keep it in, then there's no point racing them in our head.
If you can't 'internalize' them, calm down and really live that word out, then take a step back.
Really let the promises sink in.
If you don't then whatever promises and just random words strung together.
You'll be surprised at the confidence that such calmness will bring.

"Be Still"
Let that word sink, sink, sink.

Re-attempting that lift.
I went in surprisingly calm.
I didn't need any unnecessary psyching or pump up.
I didn't need any loud raging music.
I just needed to use my heart and not my mind.

Before the day ended,
Last Monday became a PR day.

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