CROSS-fit #116 This is me

Pardon the lack of updates, it's been quite a roller coaster for me the past few weeks.

However, it has given me time to think.

To take a step back

See things from a slightly more external perspective.

Crossfit advocates community.

Christianity advocates fellowship.

They're all good and all.

They really are.

But sometimes, just sometimes, certain paths are made to be walked alone.

The Crossfit Games has started and it's mid way now!

All I can say is that for the first 2 weeks, it's been really tough.

Head wasn't in the game, fight wasn't there.

I realized that I've relied too much on others.

I've relied and defined myself according to what others tell me I am.

Without their words, I simply couldn't do it.

Without their encouragements I couldn't summon what strength I have to fight

However, at times, it's all on you.

Not on your friends, your supporters or even your loved ones.

It's up to you to fight.

Nobody is going to pick up the battles for you.

The Crossfit Games has taught me how to fight and never stop fighting.

Not cause there's a community behind to support you but cause I want to.

Deep down, it's just you and God at the end of the day...

Nobody can replace the experience you have with yourself and God.

This is me.

If I don't make it, if I fail.

At least I can take heart that I've given my all.

Every. Single. Time.