Gone gone gone...

Anger and disappointment filled me to the point of rage today, however, it was only for like what a second?? For some particular reason, i was rather light hearted not fearing much. Well in case some don't know. My hp got confiscated...will tell u my temp number later. k nothing much today. cya!!

Transecending all boundaries-a friend

In many situations, Love has its ability to conquer whatever may come its way. It may not just be the love shared between a guy and a girl. Rather it has many variations. One specific type of love I'm sure all of us share is the brotherly love or rather love between friends. Friends aren't just people you meet in your daily life be it school or work place. They are people who stick with you, share burdens with you, listen to you, build you up spiritually mentally and physically.In the family of Christ it is exactly the same thing. Sometimes people often question me, why don't you get angry?? Why don't you retaliate when you are being pissed off?? A question sometimes I myself have no answer for. Issit because I juz don't care? Today I realised its not so simple. There's no point in being angry. You curse him, things get worst. You bless him, he gets confused. Not only that, since I'm going to be seeing him almost everyday for the whole year, I mind as well enjoy him. Simple as that. Thats why I choose not to flare up or anything like that. A friend won't focus on how ugly you look how bad you act. He will still care about you and love you as a friend.

97 days...

Clocks are ticking away. 97 days left to the big chinese O level exams. The thought of it horrifies me. It may just be because I have not properly preapared myself, or maybe I'm just paranoid. Either way, the date still stands, 30th May 2005. 97 days from now it will actually happen. Not only that, its going to be tight for me the next month. I have to be able to prioritise, serving God and putting much needed effort in my studies. I have to be able to chew gum and walk meaning i have to learn to do twice at once!!! This reality was smacked in my face by Desmond Lim although its really stressing me out. I thank God for that smack though. Nontheless I will still be very on fire for God. Always doing my best and looking to God for direction. Sometimes when you don't know what to do. God is there to help!! That leads me to the next topic. Spiritual discernment is going to be very important for the next few weeks and conferences. I'm going to have to exercise it to the max. I'm gonna need Gods help to flow with the Holy Spirit during services especially in ushering when I'm really going to rely on Gods strength. At times for no particular reason you may be looking around, and wow u spotted something. Coincidence? I think not. In the next few weeks I'll have to rely on God to point out these problems situations to me during the conferences. I indeed rely on God.

Even though I walk throught the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil. for you are with me.
-King David

Looking towards the cross all the time... 

TP Open house

A form of craze has hit the area of tampinese in Tamesak Poly!! Went there with Kenny and Desmond Lin to check it out. After all TP is the next best thing after JC. Looking left right and scanning the whole building, it was quite good a campus, much bigger than Maris stella which is most definite. The 1st stop was the school of Applied Science, Not bad, however the course wasn't as good as expected. The Chemical engineering was good but lacked the 'fun' factor I guess. The secondary choices to Chemical engineering were all associated with Biology. A subject little to be desired by me. Next stop was business School, I would say I'm quite impressed by it, facilities provided were acceptable, most importantly it had more of the 'fun' factor compared to the Science school. What impressed me most was the CMM or most commonly referred to as Mass Com. A course which I have always been thinking of joining, being the inquisitive boy that I am, A question arose, "What are the requirements to get in?". To my extreme amazement "11-13 points and an A1 or 2 for English Language." Whatever dream and thought I had about going to mass com was shattered in an instant. There were other courses like Hospitality and Tourism Management. A good course just that it is a little boring here and there but a job in the future would almost be confirmed. After all, Singapore is moving to the Tourism Industry( Someone out there better treat me something for writing this...You know who ar =p). Next was engineering school. Sorry but I was far from impressed!! We just went there because Kenny wanted to. It was extremely boring! Maybe due to the huge lack of interest with computers?? I am a simple guy, don't mind many jobs just don't put me in front of a computer and typing the whole day. Please don't I hate it!! Next and last stop was the CCA booth. Nothing much there, got many many free gifts and was pleasantly surprised by the variation of CCA given. Well This is TP. Just remember!! Anyone in TP no offence but ya SAJC is still my 1st choice. TP is my 1st choice for Poly though!!

1/3 Physical 2/3 spiritual

Sweat is something that feels so foreign to me after not producing it for one entire week!! This was due to the disgusting and horrendous rash which is spreading on my laft arm. No where else, Due to the rash Sports has become an enemy, Laughter and jokes have been hurled at me. Getting a bit bored of it though. And yes, today i finally reached a point where i could no longer take that rash. Went to see the doctor to discover its more than any other normal foor allergy rash. Everything was uncertain about the rash, but ione thing was certain, I'll need really strong medicine. The doctor gave me tablets which were the size of half an eye. Now that was scary.
Another incident was todays PE lesson. It was different today. I was not excited or anxious for PE whatsoever. Maybe it's because of the rash and I know I won't perform well in the run. So as expected we were scheduled to run one round around the school. Not too tough, but for someone who is in my condition it would be an amazingly big feat. Even though I had the rash I ran nontheless. I was determined to do my best. So as the ran began I felt physically tired the 1st 1km. How was i to survive the next half?? Then I recalled the sermon of reality being a limiter of your life. In our whole bodily nature, we are split into 2 different components. Body and spirit. I had already lost in my physical self. But I kept pounding in my mind "I am only 1/3 physical and its only going to limit me. I have to focus on the spriitual me which can conquer everything!" So surprisingly I did much better than expected and this was all due to God's work. Nothing else.

Stand By Me

When the night has come
And the land is dark
And the moon is the only light we'll see
No I won't be afraid, oh I won't be afraid
Just as long as you stand, stand by me
And darling, darling
Stand by me, oh stand by me
Oh stand, stand by me,
Stand by me
If the sky that we look upon
Should tumble and fall
Or the mountains should crumble to the sea
I won't cry, I won't cry
No I won't shed a tear
Just as long as you stand, stand by me
Whenever you're in trouble won't you stand by me
Oh stand by me, oh wont you stand now, stand by me

Valentines day!!

Love is in the air people!! Love is in the air!! Its valentines day today. A day full of kissing hugging cuddling so on and so forth...but well not for me. I'm single! So i'm just gonna treat it like any other normal day. But seems like nobody else is treating it like a normal day. 1st thing came to school for morning assembly and lo and behold. Mr Kuok was at the prodeum speaking abt V-day. But the wierdest thing. Have no idea how he talks and talks until it ends up to studying. Ok left morning assembly in a state on confusion. Geog lesson came and my friend(moo) was sitting beside me and slumping saying he's going to head to the most romantis location in the World, but to cry!! So dotz!!! But there were good things as well. People scheduled for dates here and there. Everybody being kind of loving here and there today. Was supposed to go out with one of my friend today(nt gf ar). But couldn't, needed to study. SO SORI!!!! public apology. Well things went well. Watched the vcd about a boy. Surprisingly good. Touching movie. Well I'm supposed to be mugging like a maniac just about now?? haha!! CYA PEOPLE!!! To everybody out there, couples, married couples or just singles!!! HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!!!!

CNY!!! A breakthrough one!

Showers of blessing has been open upon me in this time of festivities. Other than me skipping school on friday. Everything was rather pleasant and enjoyable this New year. Got quite a few Hong Baos but didn't bother to count. Was rather oblivious to the fact that they were there during this season. Other than being blessed multiple times. I was shocked when one of my unchurched cousins gave $50 to my brother to give it as a thanksgiving offering to God for everything he has done in his life. Another shocking thing is 2 of my cousins are pregnant!!! Which means i'm going to be an uncle soon!! Unbelievable?? Believe it...This year was also different because this year i wasn't presecuted very badly or made a fool of. Rather this year many more cousins and relatives come to believe in God. They just need the extra push!! Then they'll be in church!! Another unexplainable happening was that on Friday i was walking out to the bus stop. A man stopped me and offered me a modelling job!! Oh mAN!!!!! AHHHH!! Well i had to decline but i told him If i needed cash i would call him!! And its $60 an hour!!!!!!

Shall we dance?? Not strong but made strong

bursting out in laughter, yesterdays reunion dinner cum house warming at my aunt's house was an enjoyable one. We Spent our time eating and well watching a movie which well impacted me in a way. It was 'Shall We Dance', a very good show!! It was about a man dancing to be happy!! I kinda looked back to bball and thought hmmm, now i play juz for the fun for the game!!And i truly enjoy it!
Next issue was about today. Hmmm well many many other people are going to blog about john bevere and his preaching so ya i dun think i'm going to blog about tat but it was more about 2day's ushering duty. It was great and everything well i wasn't really showing much leadership though however thats besides the point. One occasion was when we were keeping the chairs. Btw, most of us can only carry 2 chairs. So one brother tried to carry 3 or 4 chairs which is a feat. I asked him, hey are you able to carry that many chairs. He turned to me smiled and said. "no I can't, thats why i'm carrying them!!" At that moment I was so inspired by his words. Many times we are unable to do some tasks laid out for us. But if we don't do it, If we don't step out in Faith to believe in God that "Hey maybe this is possible!!". nothing would be accomplished. We aren't strong but we are made strong!!!

Sad game...X country

Entering the Court, I could feel the tension in all of my fellow players, managed to follow the school team bus, and while the team people were warming up, one by one. So many lay-ups missed. I could feel something is wrong. Was it because they were nervous? I hoped not. It would cost us dearly if there was any form of self-doubt in the players. Game began, Tip-off, and Off we went!!! Or should i say to the back we go!! They got the 1st posession and made a lay-up. That moment on many of us knew it was going to be a hard game, but we still kept playing as hard as we could nontheless. Slowly but surely they began to lead us. 5-8-14-20. Coach then called a time out, but it wasn't of much use, in fact we began losing even more. Many of our Star players weren't really performing. by the time 4th quarter came we were still losing by 20. For many of us, all hope was lost. However, for those on the court, they fept shooting,kept defending, kept giving their all. Game ends in a loss. We couldn't catch up losing by 20. Its over...Maris Stella Basketball for some of us ended last month, but now same situation is happening. Not for me but for the sec 4s. Although we could not escape from the fact we lost. We still lifted our heads high!! =)

After Watching we rushed down for X-Country!!! Well did well. Strange thing is last year i really did my best ang got 80 plus position. But this year i didn't really go all out for it but got 73rd placing. Strange?? Well like what bible says, focus on God and everything else would just fall in place! Well i'm very happy for Wei Hao. Did very well!! Good Job!!

If the world makes a mistake its still a mistake

Dragging myself to school every single day cause of the late nights spent on the phone books or com. However today was different. Morning assembly started with A new teacher lecturing the whole school. Everybody was really upset and unhappy, however, for some of me and my friends, it didn't stop there, We went back to class frustrated. (PS nvr heard me say i'm angry right). Well I couldn't concentrate for the first 2 periods cause i was thinking about what he said. Then I realise, hmmm maybe he got some logic in all that rubbish. One thing for sure, he's much better than most of the DMs. Scolding us for no paricular reason.
Second traumatic incident was the shaving gel!!! Yesterday some classmates fooled around and poured some gel on the teachers desk. Our teacher found out and scolded the whole class, Many of us could still take her scoldings till after recess when she wanted to send 2 classmates to DM. The whole class was furious!! Most of us were argueing cause there was no reason to send them down. 1) She doesn't know who did it. Even the monitor was on our side. Its like ' HELLOOO!!! Do you know when you're wrong!!!'. She kept asking the person to own up, the class kept silent. Not because we are fearful but cause we didn't wanna sabo our frenz. So having no solution, she issued a punishment for the entire class. However, it wasn't carried out after all. This was due to our friend who owned up. In the end the punishment was lifted. I would remember this incident not as an act of rebellion but a time when the whole class was untied in crisis, when we stood up for what we believed in.

This is me being prayed for during baptism! 

Me studying at 11 pm at mac last year. Will tat happen this year?? 

Bro coming back and Scary day

People come and go, but family members stick beside you whether you like it or not. Seeing my brother depart from our home country heading off to New Zealand to serve our nation didn't really impact me or make me feel very sad for some reason. I mean yes, He's gone, Would most indefinately feel sad, But this time round, wasn't so bad. Frankly, Wayne Choong practically slipped of my mind the moment the day ended. Sounds evil eh, but strangely today as he returned home. Seeing him made me feel happy and warm inside. Giving me smiles and laughter the moment my eyes were laid on him. Moral of story is, Treasure your loved ones man! Even though they may seem insignificant at present time. When they're gone. You will miss them! Next up! Jokes and Laughter were filling the air as Me and my classmates were heading to geog lecture. Was shocked to see Mr Lau suddenly appear behind us tellingus to tuck in shirts etc. And apparently, behind us were a group of boys coming in late and making much noise! DK(Dennis Koh)(DM) followed behind them soon after asking for the boys who were knocking on the staff room window. Unbelievably he called me out!! and oh my Goodness! My HP was in the pocket. It was so so so scary. It almost got confiscated but thank God it didn't. So another moral. sometimes we don't have to fear many things. Like i was scared for nothing, he wasn't even looking out for a handphone. And if you have a clear conscience theres nothing to fear!!

January is history(pizza hut)

The current date is 1st of Febuary. And indeed January is History!! 1 month down and 9 more to go before the big O. Nonetheless! I will not put so much stress on myself. Its slow constant studying from now onwards. Have not updated my blog for the past week cause was kind of busy with well Everything!! I really thank God now I'm not thinking of BGR or stuff like that. People obsessed with that would really have to manage their time well. Let me update you of interesting things last week. Hmmm a peculiar incident which kinda caught my attention was when i went to pizza hut with my mum after i cut my hair. Quite shocked to realise the restuarant was not filled with humanity instead it was 90% vacant. However, the thing that caught my attention was the waitress, I was not impressed by her beauty whatsoever, I was impressed by her courtesy and her friendliness. She gave a very sweet looking smile. PS. I was melting. More importantly her co-worker was scolded by her their manager cause of some calculation problems. To my surprise, that waitress didn't attend to other customers but Comforted her hurt friend. That was what caught my eye the most. PPL!!! This is my type of gal!! Not saying i want a GF but ya if i were to have one. She'll something like that. =)